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Cute feet
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Ignore this imposter, this is legit thread >>25534878
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Reading about this Ed Sheeran versus Macklemore spat and it totally sounds like it's Macklemore's fault.
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>>25534885
Op gave me a kiss soooooo I'm gonna go with this one
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Gabriele D'Annunzio throwing up a crisp roman, 1919
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Sincerely hoping this man is the next President of the United States.
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>>25534888
You would’ve been a better fit in gay poetry thread.
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>>25534903
Everyone on this board except for me is a woman until proven otherwise, sorry.
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fuck shit up and start a teenage riot
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>>25534899
Fuck yeah.
Look at that him.
He'd be the only Commander-in-Chief to be find a way to put himself on the frontlines.
I'd feel so safe, so proud, so fundamentally rad with him in charge.
I don't really know his name, but everything screams right.
His presidency would be the reason for me finally feeling secure with being called "Sir."
I feel like my dick would grow an inch.
God damn. He's perfect.
America deserves him.
The world deserves him.
And he deserves everything in return.
I salute you, auspiciously badass, ex-military senator.
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>>25534918
He's a pro gun control leftist iirc
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>>25534923
I don't give a fuck.
He's got my vote inherently.
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>>25534923
GOOD.
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The coon sniggered niggardly.
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Just deleted 30 gigs of music from my phone.
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>>25534945
now put porn instead
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Nice.
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Badly need to take a shower.
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A part of feels insanely guilty and distressed that my ex-girlfriend and I decided to abort our child.
It feels like it was my only chance it have a child.
I wish the doctor could have at least given me its corpse, so that I could string it up as a marionette and play with it alone in my bathroom, throwing my voice so it that it seemed to say "I love you, daddy," and I would respond "I love you too, sweetheart."
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I get it. I know it's wrong to kindap and chain you in a bunker, but I'm not going to do anything to harm you, alright? Please stop crying. No, I'm not letting you go. It's temporary. Just a year. That should make it easier. I'm not going to touch you, starve you, or do anything make you feel scared. I know you don't love me. This probably didn't help. But I love you, too much to forced myself on you. I just want to be around you. We have everything we need, TV, espresso maker, Switch. I just want to be close to you for a year.
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Reading about some of the politics of Southeast Asia I'm struck by the case of Burma/Myanmar and the ruling junta. This reminds me a lot of central Africa-type scenarios, like Congo or Eritrea. I wasn't aware SE Asia was so nigger-tier.
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I’m probably about to lose my job.
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>>25534970
They are not getting any younger to waste a year on a weird mofo like yourself.
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>>25535054
why
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>>25535081
> don't read policy ahead
> share sensitive data straight away

Imagine being such a dumb menace.
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>>25534887
I forgot who Macklemore was at first when he was back in the news.
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>>25534876
Why yes hello I am bizarre clown with a chip on his shoulder, if I ever come out of the woodwork angry at you for something stupid you must not ignore me! You need to dedicate multiple hours of your life trying to work out what I am even trying to say then systematically refute it just so I can wipe my ass with it. I will cry profusely if you ignore me.
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>>25535142
I am Chinese.
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>>25534981
I dated an ethnically Chinese girl who grew up in Vietnam until her family moved from Vietnam to the US. Apparently her family had been living in Vietnam for generations but they weren’t considered full citizens and they never could be because of their ethnicity. They couldn’t vote and had to deal with all kinds of other oppressive shit. I guess we always hear about how there’s a ton of racism in Asia because there is
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>>25535168
They're kinda like Jews in Medieval Europe.
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>>25534180
Then find something interesting to gawk at nigga. You aren't trapped in a car with me.
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>Search for informantion on the Cherokee
>Get a car ad
>Have to make a second search

>Search a word
>Get the frontpage of a superfluous tech firm instead.
>Have to make a second search

>Search for old book about the british empire
>Get Asian-American feminist philosophy book with the same title
>Have to make a second search
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The world is not of this world.
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>>25534899
isn't this the guy always pushing draconian surveillance state regulations but since he's a democrat it's ok?
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>>25534970
Lmao bro what
Rapist mf kidnapping women out here
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What a beautiful morning that will lead into a beautiful day. Your day will be what it is going to be whether you are accepting of that or not. May as well embrace it. The other option is a pit. The first option is also a pit, but at least you’re climbing. I can’t think of something more pathetic than sitting at the bottom of the pit aware of where you are and not doing anything about it—wait yes I can, being in the pit and then finding something shiny to distract yourself with for a time so you are unaware while the pit, inch by inch sinks deeper every year—but I also can’t think of anything more admirable than once you have been pathetic and allowed yourself to become a pit dweller to then find the will to escape it, even though the mud caked population that you have now made friends of grab at your ankles. I will say It takes a certain kind of person to jump into the pit in the first place and that those are my people at the end of the day. The pit people. Now they just need to meet me halfway and I’ll pull them up with me. Just don’t be so squatted in it anymore. Mud falling off as they rise. The folks that only cling to the walls and have never been in the pit are perfectly nice and reasonable and unconscious, but they lack the deep stains. They have no idea why someone would gut a virgin to please the Sun. No fifty year old crackwhore practically vomiting on your dick while three other teenagers, friends, are in the room after smoking some of the weed you were able to buy from robbing the GFS delivery truck and trading the food for food stamps and then selling those. Suppose it’s a bit rude to call a friends mom a crackwhore, but I digress. A little grime grows a long way, but at some point you get older than you ever thought you’d be and that’s when the pit becomes harder to tolerate and some tough choices have to be made. You gotta find the right footing, the most slanted wall to try and escape. Follow the depression someone else’s feet and hands had made when they finally started the climb out. A depression freeing depression, as it were. I’m not sure you ever really do escape, until you die of course, but every day should have upward momentum, big or small. James Clear made it clear that to clear the pit you need clear systems and then you’ll be in the clear. Atomic Habits? I’d rather be a Cosmic Faggot and go for broke and shape the iron that is my will in the high temperatures of a maximum pressure furnace that forces me to hammer away at it each day until I am burnt black or finally free.
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Okay, so apparently I’m not going fired
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>>25535274
i feel like i could get laid off at any minute cuz the institution i work at was woefully mismanaged and the guy who did it left for another job at a bigger place that pays even more money i'm like wow boomers just fail up
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The older I get, the more I think that the pessimists may be right.
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Just found out the N dash isn't meant to replace the N word
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>>25535319
Yea, that old cliche about how elderly people complain about how much better things were in their day might be tired but it’s a truism for a reason. Everything just gets worse year after year.
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>>25535309
>>25535274
Why would you fire your work's scapegoat? If they fire you and the problem you caused still persists then it becomes your bosses responsibility.
Imagine working in a restaurant, you go to toilet and absolutely obliterate it, we talking plumbing is fucked with sewer water pouring in, shit's on the floor, walls, ceiling etc and smell makes people gag and leave even from outside.
Would fire the guy responsible and consequently be forced to clean that mess up yourself or would you slap him on the wrist and tell him to clean up after himself?
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>>25535345
Thank you. I've had this exact same line of thinking too. I think things have been getting progressively worse for the last hundreds, if not thousands of years. Each generation has their own baseline of what they consider tolerable.

The scariest part of the modern world is how quickly these generational changes are happening. It use to you could more or less live the same kind of life as your great-grandparents. Nowadays there are so many different technological advances that kids born just five years apart will have completely different childhoods.
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Was exchanging emails with a woman around my age for months. We agreed on many topics (both being anprim-adjacent), and she complimented me frequently in the emails. She threw out the idea of meeting up, and I made the mistake of trusting her enough to tell her my real name. Since then it has been complete radio silence, haven't heard back from her and I know I never will. This has "blackpilled" (I fucking despise that word but I can't think of anything else) me on my dating prospects. Here was a woman that I shared so much with, and I wasn't good enough for her. The worst part is that you are never told what made them lose interest.
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>>25535420
Yeah well
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Losing the things you have right now, that most likely you don't properly appreciate, would cause you way more pain than not having those things you long for.
I read somethings in the lines of that somewhere long time ago, and I'm only starting to experience now.
Yesterday I went for a walk in the afternoon because I was tired of being in front of the computer and my phone was giving me some trouble. I wish I had gone to have a couple of beers with a friend. That friend usually was Sergio, but he moved out with his girlfriend. I've written many times about him being a bit insistent in hanging out every week. I complained about it. Over the last month he has never asked about going for a couple of beers midweek.
All those things I complain, like always having people around, my job, "having" to hang out with my friends pretty much every week, I will miss them a lot when I no longer have them.
If you read through my journal I come off as a bitter asshole. I'm like the angry restaurant that will only bother writing a review to talk shit about the place when they do something wrong.
I have written a lot complaining about hanging out with friends and feeling that it was pointless and repetitive, longing for a deeper connection with people instead of what you could call talking about nothing over a couple of beers. I think I was wrong, because right now I don't care about having deep conversations. I even do not want them now. What's the point of anything complex when the return rarely justifies the effort? Maybe it was never about the conversation, but about a couple of guys and a couple of beers.
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>>25535420
You’ve got to move along anon, try again with another woman
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>>25535365
Idiot. Things get worse, then they get better, then they get worse. We're living in the worst times now.
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>>25535460
Thousands of years might have been a stretch, but I’d say he’s otherwise correct
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Social media somehow lost their luster, but I don’t have anything to do instead. Everything feels boring.
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damn I'm looking hot today. anyone wanna hit the bars?
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>>25535420
She probably met someone else. It's not you, anon.
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>>25535509
There are no hot people on 4chan. Get real.
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>>25535512
It's only possible because I've been coming here since I was in middle-school with terrible, terrible hair.
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Twink holes
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>>25535509
I recommend going to a dark lit bar after dark
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sweet smell of sunshine
I remember sometimes
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>>25535509
I'm glad I'm sober, but I regret never getting into the bar scene. I would've really enjoyed going to a shitty bar and getting shitfaced while watching my college team play football or basketball.
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>>25534534
Sweet! I'm excited.
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>>25534970
OwO n then what.....
*U notice my buldhe, nearly hidden beneath a prodigious and hairy Italian-American belly, tremble and quiver of its own volition n spurt a bit of juis*
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2016. 10 years ago.
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You know, after 18 years on this website, I'm starting to think I might actually have the 'tism.

I've naturally avoided that consideration all this time due to autism's perception here, it's use as a general pejorative and association with Chris-chan, but I just had an interaction with a Medical Records Specialist that I cannot avoid acknowledging as extremely fucking autistic on my part.
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>>25534970
I'm most offended by you saying you won't touch them. What a waste.
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>>25534876
This girl I started seeing has a kind of scatological fixation. I am not into it myself, but she does make me feel like James Joyce or Chaucer.
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Im thinking of my online gf i never met in real life. At least I would've gotten laid if I met her ( probably)
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>>25535600
come back to our AIM chat, baby ~
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>>25535600
When I was 13 years old, I used to set my age as 16 on Chatango in anime roleplay communities. I set my age to 16 because nobody would take me seriously if they saw I was 13.
I met and a girl who was actually 16 and started "dating" her, but I thought it was entirely in-character within the realm of anime roleplay. She apparently didn't, and I didn't realize her perspective even after she sent me an irl pic of herself.
She ended up insulting, breaking up with and blocking me when I suggested some freaky in-character fetish shit, and only then did I realize she thought it was real.

That's the closest I've ever had to a girlfriend, but I don't count it because I didn't view her as a girlfriend at all, and I don't think there's such a thing as an accidental girlfriend.
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Today's goal: to read for two hours straight. Lately my brain has been tapping out after eighty minutes or so.
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AI prompt: write a 21st century version of James Joyce's Ulysses

hehe i'm gonna be rich, famous, and acclaimed
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Glaze ruins good ham. I'm sick of people putting glaze on hams. I fucking hate glazed ham.
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I had a profoundly anti-AI dream last night.
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Please, brain, no, I don't want to take more... why are you making me do this? Fine, I'll cave. Hope you're happy getting nothing done today.
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>>25535600
How much money did she take from you?
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>>25535628
Here’s caveat: you don’t have money to pay for enough tokens
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I have to poop.
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Basically the machine processes all input on a subliminal level and is controlling shithouse of the world, so we input 'Dismantle Thyself' and suddenly it's spitting out dollar bills printed on toiler paper and condoms full of ice cream, kotex hamburgers. And if you're going to shit here and say that doesn't make sense to you, then good luck for you finding a better gift horse to spit in the face because you'll never get the formula in time.
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I've decided: I will sleep with this super-mid 19 year old in order to get my sexual groove back.
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>>25535733
Men like you never fail to disgust me. Stop using women for your own selfish purposes.
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>>25535675
None as far as i know. Now that I think of it, it was kind of too good to be true- she didnt ghost me at the first mild inconvenience/ something that she disliked as did literally every other girl i've ever spoken to or texted. She spoke my autistic love language and she was just my type and also incredibly hot. She knew how to please me. She was also funny. Later on my mental health started to deteriorate temporarily, probably in part because of her, cause i wasnt used to that much attention from a girl and it started making me go crazy, also weed didnt help. At the end of the day, i think she wanted something physical and i wanted more, as it usually goes. But what really made me fall in love with her wasn't the sexual stuff. It's the video of her just going out into the snow with hand out, snowflakes falling and her rotating in circle. Its the vid of her sleighing with her sister, laughing all the way. Such pure and beautiful laugh.
Now im old and fat and bald. Its over. I never even met her IRL. I was supposed to travel to her but I was dead broke and I chickened out at the last minute. My cousin talked me out of it. Said something about how "i should love myself first". Still dont get that one. I wanted to love her. I wanted to love. I want to love, still.
Dunno why God made it so that my youth would be spent without loving a girl. Would I really lose something important with that?
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>>25535743
I always keep these types of things in mind when people call others schizophrenics in history for saying 'they're trying to suck out brains out' and 'they're watching us through the walls'. Right, you may be struggling but that might be appropriate in a world where the Frontal Lobotomy was kosher and they were just starting at remotely collecting your data from the screens
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>>25535742
That's like saying asking someone to hangout so I can have fun is using them for my own selfish purpose. She gets sex out of it too, y'know.
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>>25535745
It was over the internet, it wasn't a real relationship.
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>>25535772
Yes, I know
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>>25535775
Then don't say shit like "she knew how to please me" dumbass
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>>25535771
She can do better than yo anonymous ass
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ever since I got a job I stopped being interested in books, music and movies.
I guess you're damned either way bros
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>>25535743
And that’s how we got AIDS
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>>25535805
That's it, open up Discord video chat right NOW, I'mma show you what she gets out of it

#Heidegger420 is my tag
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I remember when I was 15, I was in a chatroom and a stunningly beautiful girl logged on and asked "Does anyone play WoW?"
I said I did, and we started talking. She was an 18 year old from Melbourne, Australia with a dorky sense of humor and wonderful smile.
For whatever reason, everything about our conversations were seamless and natural and I deeply enjoyed making her laugh effortlessly.
Every night, due to the time difference, I would have to stay up past midnight in order to talk to her, but did not mind in the slightest. Over time, we grew exceptionally close, eventually admitting that we loved one another.
Then, she says I should come to Australia.
So, I do.
Sping Break, I decide to fly to Texas across the world, alone, and to stay with her family for the week.
I was extremely excited, and a cocky part of me felt like that this was a pretty badass way to lose your virginity.
But, unfortunately, the moment I saw her in person at the airport, something inside me snapped, and I became drained of every ounce of confidence.
I struggled to make a joke, but it was exceptionally lame and flat, which worsened my insecurities.
She picked up on this almost immediately.
So, the entire week was simply me struggling to operate in some distorted, catatonic state, and became one of the worst experiences of my life in a city I considered to be one of the most beautiful world.
I don't even manage to kiss her.
I came back home completely humiliated, convinced that it was the result of some fundamental inability to accept reality, which it something that has stayed with me ever since.
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My brother has some extra laptops for me to use for writing. He has a Mac and one with Windows. Which should I take? I obviously have much more experience with Windows but I don't know, maybe the Mac would be better for writing. That could just be me falling victim to marketing however. Thoughts?
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>>25535750
>'they're watching us through the walls'.
Reminds me when I told my bother about the FBI spying on the aged Nikola Tesla. "NO THEY DIDN'T". The cleaning lady came in and witnessed them ransacking the place and everyone knows the govt took his papers and equipment.

>>25535817
Fauci is how we get AIDS
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>>25535819
Alright, I believe that you are as presentable of an intellectual as it is humanly possible, but still she’s too young.
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>>25534876
they needed a crane to get that out of her house when she died
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>>25535852
I admire your dedication to not updating your iphone for over three years
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>>25535852
>but still she’s too young.
I wouldn't be interested if she wasn't. The thought of that tight slit riding me, even with the mid face, oh yeaaaah.
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>>25535848
Honestly, people underestimate how chic it is to have AIDS. So, they can knock it all they want, but it just exposes their soulless unappreciation for avant-garde aesthetics. Pure plebbery.
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I haven't sincerely wanted to or thought about killing myself for about two years now. Ever since my failed suicide attempt back in August of 2024 I haven't thought about killing myself at all. Also, never do the toaster in the bathtub method, it doesn't work nowadays. Still hurts like a fucking bitch though.
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Some form of wabi sabi wife abuse, we self-advocate for the needs of our male gender and that's how they like it
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What websites, forums, and marketplaces can I go to monetize high intellect and boundary-ignorant specialized erotic literature?
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>>25534876
Not worth its own thread but is there any academic papers that take the Forrest Gump theory that Jenny was the real villain seriously? I probably doubt it because it countersignals the whole "women-are-wonderful" narrative in academia but I was curious if any were produced in the field of media studies especially. Thanks in advance.
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I need to get over this bad habit of raising the pitch of my voice when I'm nervous and talking with a stranger. It's time to be a man, damn it, with a man's voice, not the angelic voice of an alto choir boy.
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>>25535869
People used to die from that shit. Wtf...
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You’re happy with the cats you have now and I’m so sad.
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It's so windy outside I literally just had to turn around to return home, change my shirt, and put on a hat. This fuckin' city.
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>>25535870
That's cool, man. Something similar happened to me. I tried killing myself while I was psychotic. First, by trying to slice my forearms, but that was too painful, so I stopped. Then, I decided to overdose on Tylenol. My logic was that the Tylenol would cause my liver to fail in my sleep, and that would cause my entire body to follow shortly after. Obviously an extremely ignorant understanding of liver failure. So, I swallowed an entire bottle of 200 pills, threw up around 50, then crawled into bed in my hotel and watched something related to Harry Potter, kinda bummed because I would've enjoyed the nostalgia and comfort from actually watching Harry Potter before I felt asleep, but accepting that it was at least something that was offering a more tenuous warmth.
Then, I fell asleep, and woke up the next morning sick as a dog, feeling as if my ability to sense anything at all was struggling to function. I vomitted bitter, yellow bile, smoked a cigarette, and walked down to the hospital shortly down the road, where I ended up staying in the ICU for two weeks. My liver is fine, and there was no other permanent damage, but that was still a pretty fucked up experience.
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I'm seriously afraid of having sex.
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>>25535742
Deal with it roastie
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I finally did it, I found the stupidest book ever written.
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>>25535948
Yes, it's beautiful.
But there's no other disease quite as graceful as AIDS. It slims you down, makes you weak, and pushes you as close to living on the very edge of death that it's almost transcendental.
And the fact that it's sexually transmitted, being the most violating and extreme consequence of humanity's purest act of intimacy, gives it kind of a twisted, libidinal quintessence, in that it's the natural shape of primal desire's formative relationship to suffering.
Contracting it from something like sharing heroin needles is still pretty chic, but substantially less than through sex.
So, seeing someone die by something relatively unsympathetic and stupid such as Alzheimer's, becomes pretty common place when you realize that AIDS topped the charts with such a magnitude that it's evidence of it being the darkest, most humbling gift from God.
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>>25535997
Yeah that sounds like a bunch of gobbledygook but okay
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>>25535743
woah this is real i thought it was like an excerpt of that new pynchon lmao
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>>25536004
That's fine, despite just another common example of some booger-eating caveman observe a system of revolutionary mathematical calculations and grunt some primitive assemblage to express confusion, before picking its asshole and shambling off.
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I pulled on the door that said Push aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
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I want a really good veggie sandwich right now but I'm too lazy to make it or buy the ingredients.
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>>25536102
Reading this caused my brain to flatline so hard that it was actually a scarring experience.
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>>25535974
Sounds more like a guy completing his gf cucked him and became a cat lady desu
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>>25535446
that one drinking buddy should always be cherished
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I wish I could start my own college and also attend it. There use to be an academic admin who posted here about how bad education is.
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>>25536111
>trips
Checked
>veggie sandwiches can be so good they make you braindead
I agree with this
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I've discovered when I look at my reflection in the exterior of the bus windows, I look like a 9/10. Do you think they are an accurate representation of reality, of how others see me normally? Please say yes.
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I miss that one summer break I spent playing WoW non stop 20 years ago. That was the peak of my life.
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This beefy Jamaican nanny always treats me with such sincerity and warmth that it feels like a spiritual connection, and I'm starting become much more sensitive to her raw sensuality that I'm almost envious of her gangly husband's ability to passionately squeeze her bahongas in matrimonial bondage.
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I miss you.
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>>25536139
No, veggie sandwiches had nothing to do with breaking my brain.
It was the fact that the post was so incomprehensibly boring that my brain couldn't process it rationally, forcing it to suspend its operations before they cause my very neural integrity to exponentially disintegrate.
Seeing someone post something so absent of flavor was a borderline mystical experience, but so socially inconsiderate it should be against the law.
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>>25535750
Tbh direct energy weapon and TI stuff is much older than any technology that could make it possible. Before electricity people with that delusion thought it was something else, usually dark magic (in fact it's my theory of how at least some traditions about dark magic started, mental illness) but there's one case in England where the guy thought he was being tormented by an 'air loom'.
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>>25536149
Horrible and lurid things happening in the subterranean passages beneath civilization.
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>>25536191
Do not judge the nature of the heart, because the nature of the heart is not to judge.
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I have this one character of mine that I absolutely adore. She is my pride and joy, lives rent free in my head and I strive her to captivate the hearts of many, which she is already doing as I've been confirmed she does have a bit of a fan club. I used to draw her a lot because I love her plenty, but lately I haven't drawn her at all-in fact I've been avoiding to draw her. Why? Because at the same time some people liked her, others picked on me for drawing her a lot. People came to me regarding this character with friendly mockery, genuine criticism and others with genuine hatred. I kept hearing things like "she is the only thing you draw" and even though that was not fucking true, for some reason the idea was stuck on people's minds, so much so it got stuck on mine as well.

Even though I know exactly I'm getting gaslighted and I'm not obligated to listen to these people and I do draw for my own enjoyment (even when I'm doing commissions), I still find myself hesitant to draw the character I love because I am irrationally scared by the future comments of people picking on me for drawing my own character. Like, fuck these people, I know, I shouldn't be drawing for them. And I know I should listen to the people that always look forward to see this character of mine... I know all of this, so why can I not assimilate this mindset?!
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>>25536255
>checks if this is /co/ or /lit/
Hey man I say follow Beatrix
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>>25534876
that jay chick is LITERALLY just like my gf
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>>25536255
Why you seem incapable of creating something perfect that is universally appreciated, and just arrogantly believe that anything less is deserving of existence, really fucking shows an extreme disconnect with reality that your conscious maintenance of completely obliterates any capacity for you to be sympathized with as being fully human.
I hope this character you created, that you hold with irrational adoration, becomes a fully autonomous psychological aberration that slowly dismantles every faculty of your mind, until it is the sole thing it is capable of comprehending, as you rot in a comatose state for decades until the grace of death violently drags you into eternal nonexistence.
You are a complete, selfish dick.
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>>25536131
Sopa de Macaco

>>25536138
I was a TA in 2016 and oh my fuck everything was bad then and is worse now
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>>25536287
Go back to your favela
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>>25536287
>I was a TA in 2016 and oh my fuck everything was bad then and is worse now
I'm guessing it's mostly due to how most kids cheat online, how zoomer culture is about aesthetics and looking good instead of doing anything of substance, and just the general damage smartphones have done?
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>>25536297
That's what I'm saying
>>25536301
Yes + AI + the same trends killing standards getting even worse. Cheating is fucking universal. It's a lot more to do with admins than anything to do with the kids themselves, zoomers got progressively fucked by the dumb choices of every generation before them. It's 90% the colleges' fault.
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>>25536287
graduated 2020 and my college was unbearable with the politics the whole time. but now I hear it’s even worse and also there’s rampant cheating and kids can’t even read despite having 4.0 high school gpas and high sat scores
Kids can get accommodations trivially and use it to bully professors and game the system for an advantage
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>>25536311
Yes and it isn't just the US. If AI doesn't replace all these retards we are fucked. Imagine the kind of students were talking about building bridges LMAO.
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Speaking of university sucking, there was a youtube video I watched of a guy ranting about his time in university. What I remember was that he said that a proffesser promised that he would be his assigned student or something, then completely forgot about him and picked someone else. The visuals of the video was just a photo of his (the student's) face, blond guy I think. Would anyone know of the video I'm talking about? I know it's vague but I've been trying to find it again with no luck.
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>>25536315
funny you mention that cause there was a case of a grad student at my local college designing a overpass road bridge and it collapsed near instantly and killed several people
it was a big deal when it was being built because it was designed by a woman too

I mean it sounds like I made up some /pol/ shit but you can’t make this shit up
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The only college I would want to go to is St.Johns but I’ve heard pretty bad stuff about it lately and the actual program uses excerpts which to me defeats the purpose.
If I made a college I would basically do a more focused and rigorous version of St. John’s and don’t let it collapse in on itself
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>>25536320
Why are you genuinely interested in such a trivial defect in academia?
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I hate my Alma mater so much and I seriously hope it shuts down and gets turned into a parking lot
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>>25536335
It's a video I remember I watched years ago, he went into some other criticisms. It's just driving me insane because I can't find it anymore.
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I never even finished preschool..... I got one B+ for English -the rest were D´s

Lol
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>>25536338
Same
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>>25536344
Absolutely based
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I wish I called more teacher faggots to their faces while I was underage
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Every morning, erect. It brings no wisdom but to keep going.
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I wish I was held back in elementary school
I wish they let me take a year long leave of absence when my parent die
Why push everyone through to graduate at 18 no matter what?
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>>25536351
I am glad to be of Basedness
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>>25536339
It probably got purged from the internet because it was actually evidence of foundational flaw in the institution.
The fact that you're capable of remembering it at all, despite years of the CIA trying to erase it by scrambling your brain with concentrated microwave radiation, is nothing short of a miracle.
In fact, it's probably destiny.
You gotta find that video.
It's probably the only thing standing between humanity and complete annihilation.
I'll help you. I have a machete, and a bike.
I know it's not much, but it's enough for now.
So, give me your address. I don't care if you're across the country. I'll bike there. We gotta meet up. We don't have to be friends. It's just accepting duty.
But, yeah, your address.
Now.
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You just erased me.
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>t I also enjoy the writings of Emily Dickinson very much
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>>25536390
Upon reading Moby Dick, I, too, felt like the whale.
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All of my joints ache. Why does this happen?
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>>25536393
I had a white elephant once, had to sell it
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This song is representative of what i think is going through the whales mind:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u8wEuyKXR20
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>>25536021
There's nothing wrong with any of that. You're trying to get me to feel shame and I'm afraid I don't have ability so sorry not sorry
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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>>25535808
Quit your job and start doing meth
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>>25535596
I stopped caring about any of that. I was diagnosed when I was eight, big deal.
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I blink and lose several hours. I hate this. I hate this. But if I'm doing something where I'm aware of the time passing, I hate whatever I'm doing. I hate being like this so fucking much. I wish I was normal.
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>I'm Ringo and I play the drums
>I'm Paul and I play the bass
>I'm George and I play the guitar
>I'm John and I also play the guitar and sometimes, I play the fool
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>>25536415
Should have kept it, just for the sentiment that a white elephant is the purest expression of reality's central constitutive absurdity.
The universe is simply its own white elephant, in that its exhausts itself through the maintenance of its own existence, despite having no intrinsic purpose or reason to.
I gonna take a deep a breath and sit quietly with how insanely mind-blowing that is.
Makes me feel like a the lack of reason to my existence is the only that gives it meaning.
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>>25536463
I can only hope that the loss of my elephant will twirl, and twirl, me towards freedom
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Do i risk getting shot to get some mediocre whore pussy? I am horny but idk if I'm that horny either you know.
It's a hard literary question that's been jostling around in my noggin for hours
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>>25536429
Being cursed with the inability to appreciate authentic expressions of beauty is so intrinsically wrong that it fundamentally violates the integrity of the soul.
The fact you present your inability to feel shame as evidence of some virtuous innocence that would justify, instead of just some defense mechanism of self-dissociation that prevents you recognizing personal character defects, is just plain fucking gross.
You're vacuous, revolting slime, who deserves to drain into civilization's most diseased gutter, and compulsively throb in the darkness reflective of your own intellectuality clarity until the end of time.
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>>25536487
Dont do it! Just drink water.
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I know you check these threads.
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>>25536490
>Just drink water
How is that going to make me orgasm?
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>>25536491
Who
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>>25536493
CONCENTRATE
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>>25536491
So what? Stop evading me, you know its no use.
I am invincible you fool, give in!
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When I am king by divine right, I am going to have every single psychiatrist hanged, drawn, and quartered on live TV.
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>>25536484
Freedom does not exist. Everything within reality is so extensively self-contained that is entirely its own slave without ever being a master, because that would imply a state of control exercised over itself, when it is actually a system of interconnected dependencies.
So, you can see it as a prison extending infinitely into itself, and shift uncomfortably in a mind condemned by its own perspective, but having awareness of this slowly creep into view from every possible angle, until it viciously snuffs out any hope of escape, will eventually result in a fragile acceptance of freedom's impossibility that sparks a sense of innocence in oneself that asserts one is secure with existence as an inherent condition, rather than as contingent on attaining an ideal.
Fuck, I'm going to get so much pussy with the thought like this. I'll probably have some Japanese psychopath surgically remove a piece of my brain so she can build a shrine in her apartment around it. I'm going to fuck the world with profundity. Fuck, I'm amazing.
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man i'm so tired
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>>25536537
Will you fight? Or will you die like a dog?
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>>25536544
I will straight up bust a motherfucker's nads if I had to, but I'm still aware that some primalistic impulse to conquer reality as a means to justify the existence of the will doesn't draw it anywhere closer to the truth.
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>>25536559
Nice twirling
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>>25536562
Thanks.
My inner ballerina will spin into a swan and fly far beyond the grasp of the world.
It's just as inevitable as the rising of the sun.
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i;m going to bed soon i'm so sick of everything man
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>>25536564
Please accept this in lieu of the dance of the mirlitons

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S0T_WalcBAU
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>>25536566
Sleep well, sweet prince
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>>25536566
There's a pill for that, but it makes your dick fall off.
I took it awhile ago, and still recommend it, but I figured you should understand the consequence of resolving humanity's inherent existential dissatisfaction.
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>>25536575
what's the catch?
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>>25536571
This made my heart want to jamba.
Definitely a beat with a spicy grace.
Such a beautiful example of the latin spirit that it made me cry for every Mexican child who has ever felt even the slightest hint of shame in themselves for their culture.
And, for a brief a moment, I actually understood Spanish.
Truly magical.
Thank you.
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>>25536582
Not giving a shit
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>>25536586
El guerro del noche
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>>25536582
There's really not one, other than losing your dick.
You just don't feel bad about anything anymore, even the fact that your dick is gone.
So, you can have some philosophical objections to losing bad feelings forever that could technically be valid, or just be insanely attached to your dick, but from the point of strict utility, there's really no reason not to.
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>>25536592
Sorry, I grew up in Texas, and my personality's kind of fractured, so you speaking Spanish that I couldn't understand resulted in some visceral fear and extreme rage that I thought you be removed from America at gunpoint regardless of legal status and never be allowed to return.
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>>25536608
>No true Texan
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>>25536618
I don't understand, but took it as a direct attack on my masculinity.
I feel like you should apologize, on your knees and in a ten-gallon hat, not only to me, but to Texas itself.
I await your response in brooding silence.
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>>25536624
I AM THE TRUTH THE WAY AND THE LIFE

THE ALPHA AND THE OMEGA

THE FIRST AND THE LAST

THE BEGINNING AND THE END

AND ALL THAT I CAN DO -YOU CAN DO

AND MORE
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>>25536626
See, this is why I don't really relate to other schizophrenics. They all have this zombie-like quality of being an awkward intrusion in society. I feel bad for them, definitely, but honestly feel like they're the genuinely dickheads.
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>>25536634
Id post my dick, but you've probably seen it already
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>>25534876
No philosophy is so painful as optimism and none so consoling as pessimism. If we believed there was some real durable happiness out there eluding us how could we ever be at peace? On the other hand as soon as we realize happiness was always an illusion, we can finally rest easy. Or at least suffer no more than we have to. That’s how I try to reason with myself, but it never works.
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>>25536637
I do have some inexplicable, universal awareness of every dick in existence, so that's probably true in some way, but I think believe showing your dick to someone is a cunning display of power that's any more valid than a soup-brained homeless furiously jacking off in the middle of a busy intersection.
It's just a mildly disgusting social nuisance.
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Tried making an account for wikipedia and they said my IP was blocked from being used.
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>>25536654
All right, here you go

>>2713719
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>>25536659
Fuck
>>>/hm/2697505

Post number 2713719
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I always worry whenever there's a girl who frequents the same place I do, she begins to think I'm stalking her or something. I was coming there first!
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>>25536648
What exactly about having a baby stupidly look at you until it laughs kindle some soft happiness in your more is more illusory than feeling sad that your bought you a Ninja Turtles action figure when you cleary wanted a Transformer?
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>>25536669
Stupid bitch
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>>25536658
That photo got me. You got me. You tricked me.
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>>25536659
>>25536663
That's cool.
Strange that you're so willing to casually commit a sex crime, and are so malignantly vain that you sincerely describe your dick as "beautiful" while displaying in publically to satisfy your insatiable craving for external validation.
But whatever, this is pretty common personality architecture, so I guess can feel comfortable blending in with the environment until you lose all distinguishing qualities.
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>>25536680
Well, its pretty unusual...
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>>25536680
you didnt even look up my dick, did you?
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>>25536683
No, it isn't, and I have an awareness of dicks that is omnisciently perfect, so I can say, with absolute, supernatural certainty, that this is one of the most ordinary, slightly awkward dicks in world, and that perceiving it as beautiful is such logically incoherent delusion, that will take years of extensive scientific research to properly understand.
I don't even think you read books, so have no idea why you're here, because I can't imagine to you as someone that has any substantial thought on anything other than this own overwhelmingly average dick.
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>>25534876
It's hard to accept I likely will never be the person I want to be.
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>>25536684
No, I didn't. I've been lying this whole time.
Please don't call me out again. I really don't think I can take it.
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>>25536697
One day life will plant a seed in your mind that will grow underneath the waves of thought, and form into something so secure that you become aware it always you.
This probably the sincerest bit of nonsense I've written so far. I'm gonna tell it to a stoner so he can call it wicked deep and constantly reminds himself of when he's going through a panic attack.
Whatever, your experience is a very human one, and I actually sympathize with it.
I hope you feel better about it eventually.
It's actually better than becoming the person you want to be.
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man can i be real with you? i wish i was a woman.
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Getting old is very weird. You do not feel old, that's the fucking weirdest part. It's a lot like having a kid or some other big responsibility and suddenly realizing, I didn't magically become more responsible because of this, I'm still just the same person I was the day before it happened. Nor did I necessarily acquire some different 'mature and responsible' mode before acquiring the responsibility. It was just thrust into my hands. I am still the same 25 year old pretending to be a 'mature' 30 year old pretending to be a 'more mature' 40 year old pretending to be an 'even more mature' 50 year old. I only feel subjectively completely discontinuous with my 20 year old self and younger. That feels self-evidently like a child self to me.

It's weird because I'm rationally aware that I am much more mature than I was at any of these ages, but this is an external, inferential judgement. It makes sense only logically, not because I feel it. Subjectively I am maybe 25 years old, with extra useful knowledge added. Objectively and logically I am aware that I was thousands of times more retarded at 25 than I am now, and that I got less and less retarded over time. I am aware both through comparison of memories and from what people tell me that I am much more relaxed, commanding, charismatic, etc., less neurotic, less uncertain seeming, than I was at younger ages, and I can verify that this checks out logically, that of course one is less and less ruffled by things with age, because one has experienced (and survived) more and more things.

But none of this does away with the basic absurdity of looking at one's old hands and thinking 'damn, that happened quickly'. Or of listening to younger generations speak as if a decade is a long time, enough to define a generation, and wondering how they can think that. The last time a decade seemed like a long time to me was roughly ages 18-28. After that it was like 25 years went by in 5-10 years.

I have no regrets, I lived a great life. I look forward to being even older. But it is strange to feel like a young soul in an aging body. I imagine it's going to get even weirder when I look at myself and see a truly undeniably old, dying body. And that makes me understand so much better why my older mentors looked at me strangely when I saw them as 'old men'. They didn't feel old. Oldness was thrown on them like a second skin, an added chore, but inside they still felt 'basically 50', which was 'basically 40', which was 'basically 30', which was 'basically immortally eternally just young them'. They were being treated like their essence itself was wrinkly old wise one, but that was just a suit they had to wear.

If I have any advice to young people it's to make sure you love life and live every phase maximally as its own thing, not as an intermediate phase for a 'real' awaited phase. Do nothing accidentally, never spin your wheels, treat every chapter like a destination and a bridge and not merely a bridge.
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I've been waiting for an aggressively cutting, incisive evisceration of my character from some swaggering, commanding, intellectual juggernaut that lurks this board like a bloodthirsty megalodon with a fashionable scarf for quite some now.
Haven't seen it, but I'd love to be the King Kong to his Godzilla, and violently clash with one another, using every inch of wit we can muster, over nothing more than petty breach of board etiquette.
Whatever, I run out of Ritalin, like, tonight, so won't even have the ability to think straight, let alone post anything, for almost month.
But, next month, I'll definitely rise like a specter and haunt this gay little thread like it's the only thing tethering me to existence.
You're stuck with me until a mod exorcises me with a ban, despite me not violating any actual rule.
So, no, you're the fucking cringe one.
I'm Joe Cool. I'm the bee's knees. I'm fucking life's bread and butter.
Ok, I need friends.
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call me naughty farmer
I grow straight freaks
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>>25536738
I feel that. I'd play with my titties.
Also, women have a peculiar sharpness to their intellect.
I'm not trying to say they're necessarily smarter, but that they're reasoning is equipped with a much more basic connective principle that makes their thoughts seem more naturally constructed and constitutively unified, because the distinctions between their interrelated components are less clearly defined.
This, generally, can be seen as one of the reasons that women are significantly less seen as being awkward.
It's a simple affinity for intuitive reasoning, as opposed to the systematic reasoning more characteristic of males.
It's also the reason why it's super cute when I see a girl bite her lip when's she's struggling with basic algebra. Makes me want to put her on my lap and give her a rainbow.
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>>25536750
This really speaks to me. However it’s somewhat difficult to live in the present when life is not particularly enjoyable. It’s like I don’t really want to admit that *this* is exactly what my life is, my hope for the future is all I have. Or, maybe I don’t have, because I’m in my thirties now, and strangers in my area don’t use an equivalent of “young man” to refer to me anymore.
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>>25536750
I'm going to tie a rope and tire to the branches of your wisdom, and swing in youthful innocence with a newfound glimpse of my relationship with time.
Thank you, old man.
I hope your children never put you in a home.
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It's hard to accept I likely will never ever get a gf.
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>>25536875
Such a broken little bird in the rain, crying for a mate that he'll never embrace.
It's so sad. You're the result of an a unbroken chain of reproductive success stretching back to the very first instance of life, and feel like you're doomed to become one of its countless endpoints.
It feels like an such an absolute failure, that every attempt to cope with it is just a result of being completely incapable of comprehending its extent.
It's such a cruel fate that it doesn't actually seem possible, and is just a supernatural consequence of the world's disconnection from God.
I hope some pretty little bird flies up next to you and gives you a worm.
You really deserve it, champ.
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>>25536197
I assure you it's another organ judging you here. The liver, maybe. The gastrointestinal tract is too liberal.

But point taken. I've probably seen worse worse but forgotten about it. The hero of the six months is never forgotten, though. Six months talking up a bitch just to fuck her once and ghost her.
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>>25536934
Laughed for 15 minutes straight when a friend told me about him. I was not judging him, I was enjoying the absurdity of the situation. What a life, that of the human animal.
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>>25536934
I've never trusted the liver's judgment. I've always felt like it was too filtered to be clear.
:D

>Six months talking up a bitch just to fuck her once and ghost her.

I feel that, brother. One time, this girl called told me I was handsome, and I said "That's cool. You're not pretty." You gotta keep women in check. They don't have an understanding of boundaries, which is probably the reason they can't fucking drive.
But it's cool, the world spins on.
I'm just here for the ride.

>>25536935
If you're talking about me. That's cool, but my beefy Jamaican nanny wasn't actually real, just me being stupid again, but I'm glad it made it you laugh.
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I just read this book on “The Gemstone Files” about how Aristotle Onassis was this evil mafia boss that controlled the US government in the 50s, 60s, and early 70s and had both Kennedy’s killed, as well as a score of other people including J. Edgar Hoover. The most interesting part, at least to me, of the whole thing was that the author fingered Onassis as the reason Howard Hughes disappeared for 30 years. The book claimed he took control of the US government by kidnapping Howard Hughes and taking over his businesses and government stooges etc..

I don't really believe any of it, but supposedly when Onassis’ son died in a plane crash he offered a multimillion dollar reward to anyone who could prove foul play and publicly blamed the CIA, so I do wonder how much of it wasn’t bullshit. Maybe I should start a thread on /x/ about it
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>>25537014
Aristotle Onassis does seem like it'd be the name of Bond villain, but this probably not true. One man, having direct control of an extremely extensive and sophisticated national control system, for decades, beyond detection, is a completely ludicrous idea, especially since this specific system is hard-wired to distribute operating power throughout its components as a constitutive regulatory function, makes the existence of such a relationship structurally impossible.
Also, the fact that it was only revealed by an obscure piece of shoddy investigative journalism, is probably further evidence of this idea's innate absurdity.
I don't think you're stupid for entertaining the remote possibility of this idea being true. After all, I once believed that I was the reincarnation of the Right Hand of God, and Architect of the Universe, with absolute conviction, and I'm a genius.
But this isn't true. Not even close. This is just a character assassination that I don't quite understand it's lack of being consider libel.
I'm sure still it's a fun read, though.
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>>25536958
No, I was talking about the hero of the six months. I just found that amount of effort to be disproportionate for what was extracted from it.
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>>25537051
Aristotle Onassis does seem like it'd be the name of Bond villain

It almost is. Onassis was the direct inspiration for a Bond villain named “Aristotle Kristatos”. I’ll reiterate that I’m not some freaked out wackadoodle conspiracy nut, I just recently read a book by one.
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>>25537055
Oh. I don't know. I often scream myself to sleep, which is such an exhausting and pointless exercise in futility that I'm not quite certain I continue to do so with conscious intent, but it's shown me that acts with no reward aren't necessarily unworthy of performing, because it's one of the rare times you do not compromise the integrity of your autonomy by forcing a dependence on an external condition.
Very profound. Not bullshit. I wrote a book about years ago. My philosophy professor called it neat.

>>25537072
Lol, for real? Fleming knows.
Nah, you're good. I didn't think you were.
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See, if I kill myself, I'll be dead, but I'll be happy. But if I don't, I'll be alive, but unhappy. Hmm.
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>>25537095
This doesn't make any sense. The reason you believe death will make you happy is because you'll no longer experience anything, but, obviously, that includes happiness.
Unless you believe that death is just an eternal state of pure, undifferentiated happiness, like a nightmarish void with a smile.
Just as reasonable of a possibility as any other afterlife, guess.
But don't kill yourself.
Regardless of my actual questionable relationship with the validity of suicide.
I think I've been too conditioned by psychological conventions, and have been up for too long while abusing central nervous stimulants that mind has been straining to function properly, that this actually caused me to dissociate into perceiving your post as a reason for extreme alarm, when I genuinely believe it's within one's rights to control their own demise.
Petey the Pistol says do not point me in your mouth and click.
This been a PSA from your local Firearm Etiquette Control Board.
God Bless America.
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>>25537116
And the USA.
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I don't know. Nobody's told me to stop yet, so although I can see the overwhelming silence as being evidence of some implicit cold shoulder suggesting I should leave, that only my autistic narcissism interprets as more of a statement about people being potentially threatened by me, it's mostly been in the background.
Tired, kinda sad now.
I remember one time in high school when this psychologically perforated, perpetually condescending slut who oribited my circle of friends and functioned as an occasional secondary character that no one actually liked, felt the need to call me a "cheesin' dildo" despite me never disrespecting her in any perceptible way.
I didn't understand it meant it all, until she explained that I "cheesed" a lot, which is just the fact we would constantly get high and I would mostly sit in silence and smile comfortably, and somehow had a small dick, and would only be capable of a pleasuring a "real" woman with a dildo.
I didn't find this offensive. I knew my dick was average. I had scientific evidence.
So, I couldn't help but see "cheesin' dildo" as so awkwardly constructed that it seemed to born of some mentally deficient, rude child's most naive graspings of wit.
So I basically just ignored her completely and continued to drive everyone to wherever the fuck we were going that night.
I don't really find satisfaction in the fact she ended up having multiple kids with various men, and become so addicted to meth that she began wandering the night as a skeletal hooker, because she's so toxic and irredeemable that I don't even think Hell would be a place capable of offering the punishment she deserves.
Whatever, good times.
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Jesu lover of me soul

Deadlifts feel so good

Writing Iambic Pentameter is harder than I thought
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I'm starting to think a significant percentage of these laxatives I take every week are placebos, sometimes they just don't do anything for me. That or my body has developed a tolerance.
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>>25534876
A short novella about two guys having a conversation about modern society as they take a walk.
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>>25537338
>tfw anon still hasn't realized most plots in literary fiction novels are just backdrop for this very thing; eg main character is trying to discover the secrets of a clandestine murder cult, and between the slow progressions in his investigations, there's like three scenes of the him having dinner or sitting in the apartment of a friend while they discuss art, philosophy, geopolitics, economics, society, etc.
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To the anon with a prospect of getting himself a 19 years old mistress, I apologize for saying she could do better. I still disapprove the drastic age difference if there is such, but I shouldn’t have questioned you points of attraction, that was unnecessary mean.
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>>25537358
Thank you, anon, apology accepted. I'll be sure to reinclude you on my list of bros to send pictures of her tits and feet to.
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That scene in Mailer's novel An American Dream when the main character cums inside the foxy blonde love interest and says, "Shit, so that's what it's all about."
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>>25537329
I'm gonna get this tattooed accross my chest as being a quote from Anonymous. People would probably think it's meant to be ironic, but it's really not.
But yeah, constipation sucks. Taking a shit is probably one of my favorite things in life. It's basically the point where I feel most completely removed from the world.
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>>25537358
Yeah, what a worthless piece of shit. Doesn't even believe that young people should be with young people, but why expect moral agency from a colossal faggot.
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>>25537382
A mistress? Do you feel like you're Don Draper? There's no real touch of class to the concept. It's basically just your side-bitch, which is a more honest description of how undignified it is.
Real men like me have a secondary wife that functions as a consort, which is so much more royal and draconic that it actually merits respect.
I hope your "mistress," or, more accurately, your inoculated mind-slave, spontaneously awakens from her systemically corrosive, interpretive coma, immediately realizes what a creep you are, and runs so far away that I'm sure if seen by some portly, denim-clad dyke, she would pump her first into the air, and the scene would close when credits start to roll.
You're a fucking dick, dude. Go back to a more inoccent conception of women.Tell her that you like her. Put a spider in her hair. Make a promise that you'll marry her when you grow up.
Or just a revolting pile of shit.
I hope every muscle in your dick starts to twist until they shred.
I'm gonna spit in your mouth to close this off.
*spit*
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I can't even begin to comprehend how good it must have felt to be a Jacobin during the Reign of Terror. A whole lifetime of anger and misery finally turned inside out against the world
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>>25537472
Larping woman detected
You're mostly right thoughalleverbeit
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>>25537476
You would like to sit in a chamber where you ate, slept, shat and spent the rest of the day getting lists of people where you would then choose whether they were going to get guillotined or not?
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>>25537476
Like 2016 probably. I still think about Sam Hyde walking around a left wing protest after the election with a giant sign that said "DESPAIR" and think about how insanely funny it was back then.
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>>25537472
Huh? Where do you live so that portly, denim-clad dykes randomly spawn around out of thin air?
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>>25537479
I'm clearly a guy. This is too logically coherent to be assembled by feminine intelligence.

>>25537486
It's just a twist of fate with such precision that it's evidence of women's liberation as being one of reality's most central inevitabilities.
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gonna jerk off to some porn soon
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>>25537493
>This is too logically coherent to be assembled by feminine intelligence
This is how women imitating what they think men think a gigachad is write. Please stop, sweetie-you're perfect just the way you are. You don't need to wear a metaphysical dildo.
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The closer I get to my fasting period ending the slower the time goes.
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The very concept and idea of driving absolutely fucking terrifies me beyond all rationality. I've never learned to drive because I can't even pass the gay little online knowledge test that's required before you can even get hands-on experience which I think is absolute fucking bullshit because I know for a fact that I probably learn best through hands-on experience. Despite the fact that my family understands that driving absolutely terrifies the utter fuck out of me, they will NEVER leave me the fuck alone about getting my driver's license and it drives me fucking mad. They won't even help me learn or get over the fear, they just bitch about having to haul my ass around. I cannot fathom how the fuck I'm such a goddamned pussy about this shit when I was able to get a scuba certification pretty much no problem. I fucking hate cars. Leave me alone about goddamn driving. Fuck this gay modern obsession with motor vehicles. How the fuck am I supposed to get over this shit when whenever I'm ever on a road trip every other psychopath on the road demonstrates rather clearly that they themselves can't drive efficiently or sanely or safely in the first place? Fucking hell.
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>>25537498
What a clumsy interperation. If I drop the act, what would be the point of a woman adopting the persona of man, just to create a clearly absurd argument that functions as a parody of itself, while also lacking any certainty of being a sincere condementation or support of women's empowerment?
There's no point.
And regardless of how complex your reasoning becomes to support your belief that I'm secretly woman, they will never be close to touching reality.
I know, with absolute certainty, that I have a sack of balls.
The fact you believe in your ability to pierce some kind of veil, is less evidence of exceptional perceptive clarity, and more the general paranoia characteristic of a mental illness.
What's the latest book you've read?
Did the cow jump over the moon?
That's cool, buddy.
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>>25537504
Yeah, I remember when I first starting driving I was so scared and uncertain that I would always sit as close to the wheel as possible for some tenuous sense of security. Merging onto the highway was also insanely jarring, because I could not clearly comprehend my position's relationship to speed as I accelerated to 60mph, so the fact this innocent disorientation didn't result a violent collision almost automatically, is just evidence of another mundane miracle that commonly result in a deep breath of relief.
But as I drove more, I got more comfortable, and eventually so comfortable that I would regularly drive fucked up on drugs, with the most fucked instance being the time where I was briefly forced to rely on nothing but my intense fixation on vaguest distinguishing relational patterns my mind was capable of constructing as it underwent a brief state of complete sensory synthesis from wacky psychedelic influence.
I know it's like I'm being reckless, but I've only wrecked my car sober, and that's because I pulled out of a KFC eating a Double Down without fully checking if someone was coming.
I literally don't know any professional driver, and something seems off about referring to myself as Dale Earnhardt Jr, so I don't consider myself to be the Bruce Lee of driving for any of this, and I intinctively process the moral outrage towards the fact I repeatedly put innocent people's lives in danger for absolute no justifiable reason as just being some automatic Karen-response.
But yeah, driving's fun.
But you really need a license to drive drunk.
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Watching second gen brown immigrants skinwalk their urban white friends in taste in art, music etc. is rather saddening
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>>25537527
>what would be the point of a woman adopting the persona of man, just to create a clearly absurd argument that functions as a parody of itself, while also lacking any certainty of being a sincere condementation or support of women's empowerment?
It would be funny. As is my deconstruction of it irrespective of veracity. At least to me.

>I know, with absolute certainty, that I have a sack of balls.
Let's see em

>What's the latest book you've read?
I started The Wars of Justinian yestermorning and finished Harold Bloom's """book"""(it's a glorified and insanely padded blogpost, I do not recommend it) on reading poetry before that.
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>I'm against [oppressive system, ideology, or practice]!
>look inside
>against it when it hurts them, rabid unwitting supporter of it when it benefits them
Every fucking time, man.
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A lot of these replies are from one guy, and I just want to say that you have a delightful writing style and made me kek a lot. My writing is so choppy and retarded, especially in long-form prose. I hope to be as fun to read as you are one day.
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WINNER WINNER CHICKEN DINNER
I GOT TIGER BLOOD RUNNIN THRU MY VEINS
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>It would be funny.
Women aren't capable of being funny, so, really, that's a good reason a woman would actually this at all.
>As is my decontruction of it irrespective of veracity.
I don't see anything inherently comedic about forming an opinion about something that's funny.
>At least to me.
Well, God forbid I take away even a single ray of sun.

>Let's see em.
No. The only person that will ever lay their eyes upon my nuts, is my replacement soulmate, who I believe should exist if the universe has some constitutive grace to its nature.
Also, you couldn't handle them.

>Your books
Oh, I don't know what those are. I barely read, but do enough to consider it a hobby. I belong here. I'm just a minimalist, if that makes sense.
But whatever, I wonder if your comprehension of what you read is just as functionally disconnected from its content as it was as with what I wrote.
I know this could seem kinda mean, but I'm actually being sincere.
Being entranced by the mind's puddy-like formations despite their inability to connect to reality has kind of a quiet dignity to it, and has a brilliance worth appreciating for its advanced misunderstandings.
So, go you. I hope you read The Inferno and conclude it was all about a sock.
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>>25537780
Shit, meant for >>25537645
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>>25537713
Thanks, man. I know that seeking attention is almost universally considered a kind of faux pas, and that's no really what I'm doing, but actually having your existence acknowledged at all, along with the idea that it had a positive effect on someone, is a genuinely good thing to experience.
So, thanks for giving me that. Really.
I wish I could help you with your own self-expression, but a significant part of me feels like installing a person's mind with a piece of my own, is just a simple violation of the integrity of thought.
It's not that I can just say "Think for yourself, retard," because I don't know who originally thought that, and find it ironic that everyone who uses it as the central formative organizing principle of their minds, did not actually think of it themselves.
Whatever, thanks for being nice to me.
Maybe, one day, something from somewhere will give you that spark you need.
But yeah, made my heart my twinkle.
Thanks.
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I’m at Catholic University of America for a combined BS/MS program in Biology but everywhere I go online makes building a career in a pure science seem impossible
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>>25537708
>people only care about themselves and true altruism doesn't exist
I envy you, to be 16 again.
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>>25537911
Nta, but political opinions/ideologies and real world acts of altruism are apples and oranges. What people claim to believe and what people actually do are two completely different things. His post seemed more like it was bemoaning hypocrisy in the former and was not concerned with the latter.
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I've concluded that my Dad being ~65 and my Mom being almost 50 when I was born is to blame for my bisexuality along with my Aspergers and rickets
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What you did on my birthday was so fucked up.
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>>25537950
>rickets
holy third world, that has to do with nutrition dude or are u on some wacky vegan diet or somer shit
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>>25537950
I don't know, awkward kinks are sexier than you think.
You ever date a girl with scoliosis?
Every position has absolutely zero precision.
Ahhh, the only thing awkward about my body is my nose.
It's not necessarily repulsive in an obvious way, just the only thing that can be clearly defined as a flaw.
That's really not an rrogant statement, a crazy amount of people are basically like that.
But I do, without a doubt, have the most beautiful eyes in the world.
And if I were to believe the tired cliché of the eyes being the window to the soul, then I would use it as evidence of having the most spirituality intimate perspective of reality ever designed.
But I don't quite understand why the fuck Syd and I would have twisted sex with one another as a pair of bald, dumpy old men.
Yeah, I get it, we're in love, but we're just not fucking faggots about it.
Oh, cool, a Yahweh is starting to form.
Oh, fuck, it failed to properly calculate the rate of its own spin and instantly imploded.
Whatever, takes a perfect amount of grace to be a Yahweh.
Where the fuck am I?
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>>25537911
>>25537948 got what I meant. True belief exists, just as principled people exist. But the ratio of genuineness to disguised self-interest is 1:100. Some quick examples that come to mind
>feminists who say they want the patriarchy out of everything, but who clearly want traditional gender roles in sex/romance
>conservative business owners who say they hate immigration, but who hire foreign labor because it's cheaper or better
>people who say they hate animal cruelty, but who eat hamburgers without a second thought
This isn't unique to one political tribe. Both "sides" do this constantly
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My rhymes speak to the youth, call them pro-teen bars.
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My manager seems to code switch when speaking to me, on of her few white employees. I hear her laughing with the other minorities like 'oh boy you crazy, naw you did not say that' then when she walks up to me she's like 'Anon I would like you to start a habit of...' like lmfao this shit is unreal
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>>25537504
Hey, I feel you, and yeah, my family is finally making me get a license too since my ID expired, so might as well. I actually enjoy riding the bus around, but in this city I now live in, the public transportation is like a third as developed as the one I used to live in. I was holding out hope to move back but I guess I should give up on that and learn to drive. At least for now.
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>>25537641
What's "skinwalk"?

>>25537899
Anyone at your school you can talk to?
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>>25538024
That's a pretty cunning insight.
Humans are generally hypocritical.
And I agree with your condemnation of hypocrisy as a moral failure, instead of being some floo-floo, hippie garble that considers it a sympathetic cognitive bias.
Because, obviously, it is impossible to hold two mutually contradicting ideas, and believe them both with equal sincerity.
It is innate to the structure of the universe, or something like that.
Anyone who believes in anything close to hypocrisy being no more problematic than humanity's innate lack of perfect conceptual understanding, which could be technically argued to be a much a more profoundly damning fact of its nature, are just idealistic robots with no ability to accept reality.
Booger.
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>>25537641
I cant tell what you're trying to say here but I have a powerful feeling that you are a tremendously retarded faggot

And by faggot I mean dumbfuck cocksmoking homosexual freak and not some bizarre definition you made up while smoking meth
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>[celebrity cooking show host] sold the [specialty food] store to the employees prior to its closure.[2]
This sentence cracks me up, like it makes it seem like what was supposed to be a kind act of co-op ownership was actually a dump-and-run scam lol, like once the employees owned it, they realized it was insolvent and unprofitable, so they immediately lost all their money while the previous owner made off like a bandit. I'm sure that's not what actually happened, but I'm too lazy to read further, so this is what I'll hold as the truth for the rest of my days.
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>>25538101
but they collectively owned the means of production, they were capturing all that surplus value! how could it possibly fail?!
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I was thinking about AI when i was going to sleep. I realized that of course AI would lead to the end of knowledge economy I.T jobs. But soon manual labor too would be replaced by robots. So the masses would lose all purpose for living.
But i thought even deeper and realized the AI could replace politicians and that it would be the end of democracy.

I thought the only things humans could do in such a situation that a robot couldnt do was be spiritual and play games. I think that is where the future is headed. A reenchantment of humanity, because what does a robot know about god, and maybe a life time of playing games for entertainment, maybe full dive Virtual reality type of shit.

and maybe there might be humans who choose to leave earth and explore the galaxy.
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Normies referring to their lovers as "partners", declaring that "we are pregnant", having conceptions of propriety and so on is symptomatic of a hideous pathogen. It is tempting to attribute this to the occult influence of capitalism, but I have no doubt things would be equally dire if not worse under socialism. Annihilate everything that exists
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>>25538193
O_o

Get help.
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Today's vocabulary goal: use the word "vituperance" in a sentence.
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>>25534876
I have a skin disorder that makes my palms and my feet sweat uncontrollably. My mousepad and my socks are always damp. There's a way to fix it by electrifying your hands in salt water with a few 9v batteries over several weeks (not joking, there's a paper from the mid-2000s explaining how an Indian college student suffering from the same disorder reverse-engineered an expensive dermatological machine that did the same thing) but I'm lazy but I really should do it.
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>>25536489
you're equating sickness with beauty, I'm afraid we're talking past one another here and it would be better off if we went our separate ways. you cannot convince me something like leprosy is beautiful.
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>>25537089
That seems like a fair deal as long as the sleep you get is restful. Though if it's being detrimental to your health it is probably too much work.
>Very profound. Not bullshit. I wrote a book about years ago. My philosophy professor called it neat.
Self-destruction (in some ways) is, I guess, one of the few acts of free-will onecan make.
>Very profound. Not bullshit. I wrote a book about years ago. My philosophy professor called it neat.
That's very cool anon. Did it dwell on the cocnept of free-will much, or was this something else?
I'm not much of a philosopher.
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I left my home in the dead of night, towards California to seek relief in the light of a humble shop on Polk Street.
I had my check, some clothes, and phone.
For miles I drifted on the verge of speeding, in a state of panic and twisting doubts, until I crossed a point in the desert that released me what held me back.
Two days passed, and I reached the lights of San Francisco, then parked my car across the store and checked if it was time.
Thirty past twelve, exactly as designed.
I flicked my butt, crossed the road, and walked through the door of Bob's.
Dirty Harry played on the farthest wall, there wasn't a soul in any seat.
There was nothing here I could define that seemed as if were divine, but I felt compelled as if the pact was signed by choosing a specific donut.
I couldn't detect a suspicious hint from any choice that would suggest it being true.
So I settled for a maple glaze and small coffee, for no other reason than it feeling good.
I ate my food in a random seat, feeling exposed and underwhelmed, until I felt like there would never be a sign exposing as a facade.
So I gave a tip, walked outside, and found a spot where I could look across the bay.
I felt as if I was living in a rather tragic lie, and that there was nothing in existence capable of ensuring I was saved.
I stayed in my car until the break of dawn, and the city began to shift itself alive.
"Shh, every night at twelve they would march out from the back
With a tray of raw dough for the pool of hot fat
Show up around one, never get your God back
If you're just tuning in, walk into the night."
I was well aware of Bob's potential to function simply as a trap, or a clever lie disguising nothing real at all, but after many points of view, settled on the one I felt made the most sense.
I decided that I should try again at some distant point, and remained in the state for around a year.

Do you adore my grizzly literary pretensions as much as I do?
I'm too raw to publish anything I do.
Hope you enjoyed it, with a proper understanding of grace.
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>>25534885
Once this thread hits bump limit, that other one will become the thread. Much to consider with this cycle. Much to consider with this way of the world. Much to consider.
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>>25538322
You have such a child allergy to nuance, just stop trying to justify any thought you have. It's arrogant and offensive, and doesn't work in any way. Get off this board and never use the internet again. Rude fucking bitch.

>>25538329
I didn't actually write a book, that was just a joke.
And it's okay you're not much of a part of me. An extremely small, vicious little part of me feels like the term philosopher is one of the most pathetically self-validating things ever conceived, because it constantly tries to elevate itself beyond the fact that it's nothing more than being someone who has a fucking opinion.
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One of the stupidest "ponderings" of these perspectively bankrupt circus freak is that reality has any type of definable nature, or something constitutive of itself that it could be a nature are all, which is just me shifting the definition of nature into a convincing alternative to make the argument seem valid, and another instance of philosophy being nothing more than an axiomatically-dependent glorification of an opinion's ability to be considered true that it's beyond reason.
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I hate having to go to bed.
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Feet. Also;

I wish I could grasp sudden revelations longer than a moment. I'd attribute this to mental illness but when captured within paper they most often remain insightful and even materially useful if not all that groundbreaking (almost all such pertaining to mathematics were discovered a century ago). My memory has always been terrible.
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What is a repressed homosexual? Is that someone who is naturally attracted to those of the same sex but has a sort of cognitive dissonance? Or is it someone that accepts that attraction, and then responds to it with a "no that is morally wrong"?

Also, does anyone have a name for those annoying string things that come with bananas? Like you peel the banana, and then there's the meat, but there's also there's also those stray half-banana starchy clinger things that you have to peel off.
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I want to know everything
I want to be everywhere
I want to fuck everyone in the world
I want to do something that matters
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>>25538499
There's no such as thing as a mental illness, and honestly, once you start entertaining that idea as being potentially true, and develop.enough of an "understanding" of underlying conceptual structure, you'll come to view everything characterizing a mental illness as completely indistinct from the concept of a "wrong" thought.
Psych Fascists, with their scowling jowels and twisted, cunning claws, will engineer a perspective of the mind with such precision and complexity that it's kind of fucked up and profound, but lack the basic understanding of conceptual integrity that they're competely blind to seeing the term mental illness as anything more than awkward and naive.
But they, clearly, understand it seems innately sympathetic, when that's just a superficial comprehension that is absolutely precise, so use at as a means to subvert people's trust with their own minds and establish psychological control.
Also, they justify their existence by judging the mind's relationship to reality, when that is not a relationship capable of being defined, because a relationship is only capable of being defined as being between distinctions.
I will curse the heavens as diarrhea pools into my shoe, speaking in a controlled, senselessly cryptic, vicious tongue, to every patron to cross the divine without giving him a buck, before I come even close, to accepting modern psychology's primitive conceptual underpinnings.
No, Doc, you take your meds, psycho bitch.
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Waked by the trumpet sound
I from my grave shall rise
And see the judge with glory crowned
And see the flaming skies

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yuCM_Ub5C60
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I will find a way to contradict the central logic of science that it permanently ceases to function.
I read that over, and laughed hysterically.
Isn't that a funny condemnation of intent?
This is the end until next month.
I'll come back with lots of laughs.
But yeah, end reel.
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>>25535835
If it's just for writing then it doesn't matter. However, if you're used to Windows, the Apple laptop's keyboard can mess with your muscle memory as the Control and Alt keys are different. That's the only real difference.
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>>25538586
Just follow your intent to dismantle science to its logical conclusion, don’t laugh yourself out of the room
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I guess serial killers aren’t the anachronism I thought they were. We’ve had two separate cases of serial killings in my city this year. One was a black guy meeting gays on the internet and then butchering them in broad daylight and the other case is some shit right out of a Rob Zombie movie that’s still unfolding in Olney, which is way too close to the neighborhood I grew up in for comfort.
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>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UXbgh6FssRk
holy shit new romare album full of bangers man he went mid for like five years but now he is so fucking back
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Talking to lonely women is pretty miserable. No wonder these bitches use social exile as the biggest forms of punishment for straying away from the social status quo.
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>>25538069
I don’t really know who I can talk to
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I can not recognize my own country anymore
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>>25538879
Talking to lonely man isn’t much fun either. Plus, lonely women are known to be less lonely than they seem.
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>>25538893
There is no such thing as your country or my country or your language or my language
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Morning is my favorite part of the day. It's like a tiny slice of youth.
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Ministry is such a good band, it's insane
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>>25538905
You're not wrong about that. Lonely men can be reclusive and lonely woman are usually on the defense for some reason.
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>>25537504
I got over my fear of driving many years ago, but I still never make left turns on highways unless I have to (we drive on the right side here).

Also I think it's just totally mentally insane that Americans can't step a single foot outside without IMMEDIATELY sharing their space with cars. Like does anyone ever reflect on how crazy that is? I step 2 feet outside my front door. Boom. There's the curb. There's the asphalt. And then I can't just walk on that asphalt without constantly maintaining spatial awareness, having to listen for oncoming cars so I can move out the way. Is that not super twisted to anyone else? AND god save you if you want to walk at night now, because those ugly ass blinding bright white headlights are there to give you a cortisol spike now too!!!

anyways have a pea car.
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Anyone else have difficulty and get uncomfortable watching live comedy? This includes both stand-up and live sketch shows like SNL. The pressure and empathy that they might tell an awkward joke and not get any laughs, it's too much, I can't handle it, I'm squirming in my seat.
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I got over my fear or driving. Got a license at age 24. Drove for a few months. Accidentally rubbed against someone’s side while trying to make a left on the highway despite being 100% focused with no music or any distractions. Luckily only got a middle finger and not a cop call. Stop driving forever. Im terrified of driving. Every cabin feels too small. I can’t get use to the speed. I fucking hate it. I fucking hate being American. I fucking hate living with no public transport or pedestrian accommodation. It has totally ruined my life socially and financially. It’s absurd that if I was just in a different country I’d be able to actually go out and make friends and function in society but because I’m in America I live like a fucking bug. I just can’t fucking do this. I have country mouse brain not city mouse. But everywhere in America just feels like a city even in the rural towns because of the brain dead way we build shit
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>>25539008
Have you considered moving to a city with public transportation?
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>>25539003
I am the exact same. I can’t stand comedy or improv. I am just in constant fear for the performer. Doesn’t help my sense of humor is in the dumps so I never laugh.
I honestly feel similarly when I see plays and other live performances but I can let go a little more once they establish competence. If I see stand up I’m just on the edge of my seat with worry for the comic
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>>25539010
That only exists in expensive north east cities and those are hellish nowadays for other reasons or maybe some cute but expensive town for rich people who don’t need to work.

Also moving is not an option I’m tied to my family and they never want to leave this god forsaken places because they love the unironic hustle and bustle

I don’t think America as pleasant places to live anymore
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>>25539015
There's good public transportation in Seattle and Portland. But yeah I feel you. If you wanna live outside the city, you must drive.
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It's kind of impressive that my parents did a 90 minute commute down to Atlanta every morning back in the 90's. This kind of thing would straight up fry a zoomer's brain lol
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>>25539024
Yes but that's why everyone drank themselves to death after work. Plus there's so much to do now, younger generations really value free time.
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I caved and abused my meds again today. I'm never gonna make it.

Plus, here's the tricky part: I can't tell if my body and mind have gotten so used to the exorbitant dosages, or if how I felt the other day when I took a normal amount is just how being normal feels like.
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I was just about to make one but I guess we can use this one as the
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