>15>socially awkward, anxiety, awful around people>read On the Road>decide to become Dean Moriarty, the pinnacle of alpha and self confidence>go to the store>female employee asks me if I need help with anything>"yes yes yes">make crazy hand gestures so it seems like I'm overflowing with energy and run about the store picking things up and putting them down>go get some food and the whole time I try and dig the place and watch everything>guy calls me a creep>no car so I cant drive like the legend but I have a bike>beat my hands on the handle bars and weave in and out of traffic>hit by a van>spend the next few hours in the hospital
I had a fren who reminded me of Dean. He was smart but also a criminal and conman. I remember he did three years in prison and his hair had all turned gray at 30. He was high on crystal meth and took me to his hobo camp - “these are all the books I read while I was away!!!!!” The campsite was littered with books. We would play cards and he would always cheat even though there was no money involved; we had bad arguments too over nothing. He killed himself with an intentional heroin overdose two years ago. His gf said he talked about me in the note but I wouldn’t read it.
>>25586408Only a few hours? Seems like you got off lucky. You should've went and did it all over again. That's what Neal Cassady would've done.
>>25586425Cassady would have stolen a car at 15 if he didn't have one.
Everything those fellas did, all the courage and energy and chaos—was the product of BENZEDRINE
>>25586424Why won't you read it
>>25586408AND WHAT DID WE LEARN FROM THIS, CHILDREN?"BE YOURSELF, BECAUSE THE REST IS ALREADY TAKEN"
>>25586963He was a dreadful writer
>>25586985Thank you, Oscar Wilde.
>>25586987you can still critique it
>>25586424I knew a guy almost exactly like that. Eventually he became convinced i kidnapped his druggie gf and tried to burn my house down. Ran into him a few weeks ago after a long time and he asked me for money
>>25586408The Beats would've loved ketamine.
