>>25625040
met my therapist to vent about my relationship. made me realize how shit it actually. left feeling so light because i know it's over and that I don't need to feel the subtle occasional shittiness from being w her

60 teenagers had a party in the cul-de-sac in front of my house last night. I was in the city getting way too handsy with a nervous mom on dance floor so I didn't see any of it, but the neighbor said the cops came and the kids scattered down the cliffside and off into the woods and through everyone's yard. I'm old enough that I hope some of them turned their ankles or their trashed out cars got towed. Happy Halloween everybody

Halloween is for fucking the skinniest single mom you can find, preferably in her house with the paper thin walls so the generational nightmare of being 12 and putting a pillow over your head to drown out your mom's grunting stays alive.

>>25625040
Gonna be a very boring one for me. Was gonna hang out at my friend's house but those plans got dashed.

Have an idea about a short story on a methadone clinic heroin addict who has taken it upon themself to be resident OP of this inherently awful /wyt/ thread. A character deeply seen into and judged with scrupulous fairness. Think it’d be a good mouthpiece for some other feelings I have.

It's fucking mindboggling how fucking obsessed leftists are with christianity ("religion")
>the bad guy thinks he is the head of a religion like the pope!!!! cuz he's evil and like, dude, christians bad!!!!!
>dude biblically accurate angels!!!! they're like FREAKS man like holy shit lmao totally fucking alien dude bro christians?!
>lol dude there's god like, god but he sharts himself lol!!!! so fucking funny hahahah!!! lol god is shit bro!!!!
>dude god god god god god god god god god christians jesus religion!!! virgin mary giving blowjobs cuz lol christianity fucking lmao funny!!!!
I'm an atheist and I think about religion or christians maybe once a month. If you're an atheist how can it be that important to dunk specifically on christians every 5 seconds, I know it's because you're guaranteed no consequences unlike with muslims who'll chop your head off with an axe, but why? Is it really all about perceived rebellion against the system when you use chatgpt more than your brain? is that not the system or what?
Why do they never make fun of jews? It's cool to be pro Palestine too right now, why do they never dunk on jews? Not even zionists? I'm not sure if they know what a zionist is. A lot of them don't even know the old testament is jewish, how the fuck do they not know? How do you become so obsessed with a specific religion when there isn't even some basic information that warrants this obsession except that it's been white people's religion and the worst thing it did for you was mention that mashing your dick to porn 27 times a day is not a good thing?
It's so mentally exhausting I don't fucking know how to deal with these people wasting my fucking time. Every other person my age is a leftist and they're all running this script.

>>25625107
ever considered staring your opinions normally or nah?

>>25625109
They assume you're also running the script and if you're not then you are a right winger (you can't be a christian cause you're smart) or some other spook. I'm pretty sure I've got a bunch of labels on me already for facecrime. I don't want to get into arguments with people when there's nothing I can achieve with it like a more intelligent conversation
It's so fucking tiresome I just want to be alone

So in Chicago you really just can bring a weed vape legally into a concert?

dude... weed...

>>25625116
sorry! i just meant talking like a normal human being. there’s an ancient idea about ‘how you talk vs what you talk’. it still lives in small talk among normies. worth paying attention to.

>>25625116
I don’t know, find Christian spaces

Oh, go take a hike and hit a snake on the head with a shovel

>>25625100
Who writes this stuff?

>>25625054
Are you the engaged guy from last thread with cold feet?

>>25625138
It only just occurred to be how hilariously ridiculous this sounds but it’s actually just a recount of the reality. Stranger than fiction…

>>25625187
yeah yeah i know swear word are still
funny on 4chan but if you could (hypothetically) actually talk normally to another grownup how would it go.

Thinking about twinks and learning latin

>>25625198
NTA, but, please, leave.

>>25625229
the feeling is mutual

>>25625127
One time I was at a Danny Brown concert (or was it Mac DeMarco?) at the Roseland and someone in the crowd in front of me blew a weed hit straight up and they were promptly found and escorted out. This was before it was legalized, thoughbeit

i’m too clever for this board

So what do I say when I open the door today? I've never handed out candy all evening before. I open with a smile, they say "trick-or-treat!" then I say what? "Nice costumes"?

You know you go for too many walks around the neighborhood when one of the ladies in her garage stops you and says, "hey! do you not have a job?"

because i feel close to ending, i want to kind of write a goodbye letter, that goes like this:

save them kids, even though evil witches were not invited and made a mess, i hope the world turns around beautiful.

i will never know the truth, which is probably breaking many rules. perhaps i am not grown up and real because of my lack of, well many things. just know that i tried.

i am not mad of any circumstance, that left me feeling a chunk of me was taken, probably it that was necessary for whatever reason. id like something like if i cant have a life here, i take my story to the other side.

i just wish i would have made it, you know. to see.

I don’t celebrate Halloween, I don’t feel capable of bringing children joy at this stage of my life.

leaving my porch light off and staying inside tonight since my neighborhood is like 95% families with young kids and im the weird perma single incel loser creep and the idea of giving candy out and thus having to see and speak with a bunch of happy families all night long is mortifying

>>25625278
Sad. Be communal, anon.

>>25625280
no way. no one wants to deal with a poorly socialized ugly sperg on a holiday like this, I would just bring the mood down for everyone who came by. much easier to shut myself in.

>>25625286
>no one wants to deal with a poorly socialized ugly sperg on a holiday like this,
They will if you hand out some candy (and wear some decent clothes and shower). Let this be a lesson in life. If you have something to offer, people will gravitate to you!

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>>25625040
>You will never be in your early 20's in 1980's in Europe/USA, go clubbing, have fun with your friends, fuck hot bitches, then marry a girl, buy a house, have 3-4 kids, get a job and work until you retire 40 years later, back then you didn't had to worry about being watched 24/7 by cameras/drones or being on social networks
>instead you live in a nightmare that will keep getting worse until this World will make Hell look like a fucking joke

I am so tired

>>25625290
>If you have something to offer, people will gravitate to you!
I don't have anything to offer though

>>25625207
I’m interested. Care to elaborate?

>>25625313
...again, the candy.

>>25625308
>instead you live in a nightmare that will keep getting worse until this World will make Hell look like a fucking joke
Check out from the news media and voila, life is tolerable again!

I need to make myself a drink before the trick-or-treating starts, calm my nerves.

>>25625319
>dude just ignore reality and things will be fine lmao
>gas prices still high as fuck, food prices keep rising, to buy a house you need to sell your kidney and go 30 years into debt, 24/7 massive surveillance, job market is a trash on fire etc

People like you will close their eyes while the house is burning

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Whats the difference between Amor Fati and just exercising gratitude?

>>25625116
I'll show you a face crime, Emiru isn't the only picture my jack off tablet can display pal, let's just say bring one of those clear lucite masks that some basketball players have to protect their nose, PAL.

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I freak the fuck out when applying for a job. How can I take it easy.

>>25625333
there are flowers everywhere for those who want to see them

>>25625127
Almost everywhere with legal weed you can bring your vape in. Some places will kick you out of you start using it where everyone can see you, usually they stop bothering with that a ways into the concert. Best to go do hits in the bathroom or outside in the smoking area if they have one of those, but you'll always see a few people discreetly taking puffs most of the time if you look around.

I used to have a disposable I would bring out so I could cheaply replace it if they wanted me to not bring it in and I didn't want to walk back to the car and get back in line to keep it, but no one ever bothered me about it so I just bring my regular one that takes the replaceable tube things now.

>>25625315
He sent me a long email about tying up their junk with lengths of jute cord but he said I can't repost it here because of copyright. There's a few sections in Latin and it all looks correct to me but it's been years since I really studied it so who knows.

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>>25625368
Wrap his balls up tight then paddle them hard with your hairbrush as he cries then lecture him to be a good boy in Latin: Eris bonus puer!

There's electricity in the air. Can you feel it?

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Yeah so I'm doing a dopamine detox this coming week, which means I'm better than you btw because I'm bettering myself and you're not. Ceteris paribus thats just simple logic :)

>>25625374
What I don't like about Latin is that to yell "Go!" at someone, like maybe they have gotten their cart of tied up twinks stuck in the ruts in the road in front of you and you need to make it to the public bakery with your lump of uncooked dough in time to have it baked for you before nightfall, anyway you're yelling "Go! Fucking gooooooo!" at them but in Latin that's just "I! Iiiiiiiiii!!!!" so you just sound like you're making a beeping sound with your mouth. Should've learned Greek instead of this goofy ass sidelined lingua franca.

My scoliosis has gotten worse lately, I literally can sense left rib poking my intestines.

The instruction "you are to" greatly amuses me because it's simultaneously very polite and incredibly rude.

>>25625361
Although I agree with triple of truth >>25625333 this >>25625319 was a little let-them-eat-cake-ish of me as I live in my own flat and can somewhat sustain it financially.

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>>25625374
This is peak dark academia!

No pedo shit but I like hearing the sounds of children laughing and playing—it fills me with joy.

>>25625380
Can’t you just buy a dumbphone off eBay and call it a day?

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>>25625386
>Should've learned Greek instead of this goofy ass sidelined lingua franca.
Look on the bright side - you get to understand cat memes on Pinterest!

There are times where a song or a section of a music gets stuck in my head. This currently one time.

https://vocaroo.com/1oLx1q2C5ybe

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On the edge of sleep, do ever find yourself back in the pocket worlds of dreams you had years ago and haven't given a second thought to since? An impossible concrete silo in the middle of your walk to elementary school, or a beach in an approximation of the mediterranean full of thousands of people? Just as you left them years ago.

>>25625479
You never actually forget your dreams. In fact you don't really forget things at all. You just lose the way back to them. When you're at the gates of sleep, you can find your way again because you are in a similar state of mind as when you remembered them last.
If you make an effort to consciously take note of your dreams immediately after waking, before you even move, your recall will improve. If you are like me you may notice that your dreams all take place in one shared space, or more eerily, that the person who you experience being in dreams is not who you are when waking.
In a similar way, you can recall things long forgotten if you can find your way back to the exact train of thought you had when you last recalled whatever it was. This is difficult because most people do not consciously take note of the specific circumstances under which they think of something, but the unconscious part of the body does what we do not do consciously. The next time you smell something specific and a deeply buried memory returns unbidden you'll experience what I mean.

>>25625425
I think that's virtually universal outside of malcontents and misanthropes.

>>25625490
Very interesting stuff. I've only written down a few of my dreams in my life, just quick rambling notes. Here's one (I often think about making things into music videos)

wierd dream to the tune of this is a call by foo fighters: nursing baby in crook of my arm on the train having a discussion with someone when suddenly it merges in to my arm which becomes like clear amber jelly in appearance. One of the major veins in my arm is now directing oxygen in the baby's nostril, it's is encased in my arm comfortably and happily like some lynchian cronenbergian test tube imagery. the baby is in its next stage of growing, the fact of which apparently everyone knows about except me. Music video where drumming and learning to live with it till it's time for the arm baby to be born once again

>>25625479
I had a haunted house dream that I revisited with many small variations between like 18 and 24, often semi lucid dream, in later redreamings I would consciously be trying things in the dream to see how the dream was built or whatever, testing it out kind of academically while still dreaming about a house we had become trapped in and had to struggle in to survive. Lots of the details and runs I've forgotten, but at least I remember the generalities.

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HAPPY HALLOWE'EN!!!!!!!

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Good night and happy Halloween yall!

I've got two characters who are the first I ever made. Been with me since I was about 10. Very dear to me. I've got two stories I think they can slot in, the first is my main project and a big fantasy world with an overarching plot while the second is a comedic slice-of-life and a lot more personal as it's based heavily on my own life. In my heart I think I know that they would fit like a glove in the SoL because they are also heavily based on my traits but I want more for them than that. I want them to be the protagonists, the villains, whatever, just part of something larger than a down to earth episodic type comedy. I don't know what I'm gonna do.

90 minutes till sunset, I'm getting nervous!!

Especially because it means I'll have to hangout in the living room for three hours instead of my room so I can hear the knocks on the front door.

>>25625519
Who the fuck is 'bill' burroughs? did he write Baked Lunch?

>>25625572
Just got our first trick or treater. Last one we got exactly one so statistically that's going to be it.

>>25625610
Just one? Sad.

>>25625040
Happy Halloween anons. I'm not a big Halloween fan, but if you are, I hope you're having fun.

in my first week at university, i met a girl at a club. i didn’t know anyone. i went with my roommates and they were dancing while i sat at a sort of corner table with only a jamaican guy who gave me two puffs of a joint earlier that night. she came up to me and said ‘you’re beautiful’. and gave me her number and said text her tomorrow (‘you better do it’). turns out she was 27 (9 years older than me). i only saw her three or four times after that. one time was a ‘date’ at her apt, which was very nicely furnished, she had a big tv on the wall which was playing bloom by beach house on youtube while we ate pasta alla vodka then watched the first half of an antonioni film on her sofa. i made no first moves.

I'm at a conundrum. My porch light is really dim, so I'm thinking I should leave the blinds to both sides of the front door open with the indoor light on, but then people will be able to see me inside and that's just awkward and weird. But then I worry if I close the blinds with the lights on, some people might think we're not open for business anyway. Ahhh!!

>>25625621
Th..That's the whole story? Did this just happen? Are you still in contact?

>>25625623
that’s all folks.

>>25625612
I thought we would get a lot of them last year. There are kids around here. We're the last house on a dead end and it's hilly, so I think the kids just skip coming down here.

Got two today now, which is going to look good for the metrics on the truck or treat index.

>>25625621
Did she suck your cock?

>>25625651
That's 100% increase YoY! You'll remain as CEO yet.

>>25625654
I didn't even have the light on. It's on now but I think two is going to be it

I want to eat my Costco chicken legs and hummus but can't because of the finger grease potentially interfering with a third trick or treater

>>25625653
she probably did his personal color analysis and got the ick

>>25625621
YOU’RE CUTE

babymaking sex with ______ ________

Hypothetically, would it be illegal for someone to be watching porn in their living room while opening the door for trick-or-treaters? They'd probably have news vans at their house within the hour, huh

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>>25625671
yes

>>25625519
Thank for for sharing this image
t. Burroughsfag

>>25625673
I didn't expect a reply this fast.

>>25625670
who me

>>25625671
sexy-women who-don't-know-my-real-name

>>25625676
Getting my final posts in before I have to go upstairs and sit by the front door for a few hours.

>>25625621
Did you hold hands?

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>>25625691
Wholesome basement Anon.

>>25625672
sounds like an old always sunny in philadelphia episode

i want a dog

If you've ever asked yourself why your favorite youtuber is suddenly uploaded so many videos towards the end of the year, it's because ads in the Christmas season (which starts in October for companies) pay for a lot more.

>>25625672
It's illegal unless the person with the porn on is also retarded. Then it's fine.

there’s a certain type of ugly girl that i have a real affinity for.

>>25625734
Only fatties are truly repulsive and ugly.

>>25625747
Just say you have low testosterone and shit taste and go.

>>25625747
This.

>>25625752
Only black people like obese women.

have an idea for an ending of a film. a big crowd of young people, maybe at some concert (outdoors), but the camera is far back enough you also see the empty fields around the gathered crowd. and it it slowly pans further and further back.

then the song begins.

https://youtu.be/9JdTZV--oqs

>>25625757
No, plenty of white and latino and south asian men like them. Only race that seems opposed is east asians.

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>>25625757
and ancient humans

>>25625734
I like Asian girls too, you don't need to speak in code.

>>25625765
White people didn't like obese women prior to 1990. This fact will be lost in time, but a fact it will remain. It used to be a frequently mentioned point of brotherhood between white men in locker room chat about the mysterious nature of those men who speak like cats -- we were united in finding thinness appealing.

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>>25625794
well thats one thing.
but no nothing just that all the oldest man-made works are sculptures of huge t&a women.

I scored 666 points in Scrabble tonight. Feeling pretty good about that, it being Halloween and all

I miss you. I wish we could’ve spent Halloween together :(

>As I stood alone and forsaken, and the power of the sea and the battle of the elements reminded me of my own nothingness, and on the other hand, the sure flight of the birds recalled the words spoken by Christ: Not a sparrow shall fall on the ground without your Father: then, all at once, I felt how great and how small I was; then did those two mighty forces, pride and humility, happily unite in friendship.

Everyone in this school is a crook or a moron. I am going to make some big leaks in the school newspaper of the rumors I heard around the grapevine and dug up on their social media. The permanent pessimism is justified! Life is a prison. This place is a circus, and I am the only sane person left.

>>25625893
uh oh

I've only had two knocks so far, three with the first, two just now. Sad. Are my lights not bright enough? Is my street too out of the way? Or is American culture and trust dead? Sad.

bro i haven't post on /lit/ in a minute what up fools

>>25625852
should have text me

actually i think i'm gonna get in bed and listen to an audiobook unless someone posts some majorly engaging shit rn

>>25625908
you posted like three days ago

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It just occurred to me that it isnt immediately clear to me who or what is despise. Feels weird. Why would i despise anyone or anything? It is a useless feeling to have

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PkoFImDpx_M

>>25625917
How could you know?

>>25625919
*i

FUCK

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I hope god kills me before I reach late thirties. on sight.

>>25625088
Good news going tomorrow

>>25625107
You're an exception though many atheists are virtually obsessed with something they deny is real. Its almost fetishistic. Its like they can't have an orgasm unless they start thinking about a bearded man in the sky while cursing like Linda Blair in the exorcist.

>>25625930
But what if your thirties are going really well? Better than you can imagine right now, being all grown up and posting on 4chan? The place where you have to be older than 18 to visit, or even post...

>>25625930
man i fucking love audiobooks prob one of the top five things of life

>>25625937
did anyone here actually only start posting after the age of 18?

>>25625937
I'm 44 i have a decent circle of friends but women are virtually repulsed by me except one 18 year old girl at college who seems to like me. We both have autism and go to the gym together but her father is younger than me. Le sigh.

>>25625943
Maybe
>>25625944
Dude, just dominate her dad. Flex your prowess in whatever field you are adept. Play their piano, whisk them off their feet

>>25625930
Audiobooks for this feel?

>>25625943
There was no such thing as posting when I was 18 unless you count fucking Usenet

I remember interacting with the Something Awful Forums before 4chan existed as well. There were other forums already then but they were all based around bands or hobbies or interests or a videogame. So as far as posting in its modern generalized form earliest date is going to be 1999 / late 1998. There are plenty of people here who were posting then in some form, I'm sure.

>>25625981
In between playing gta 1 and browsing rotten.com i would just google ´/b´and browse whatever came up -this was the late nineties

>>25625910
Do you mean textED?

>>25625981
>Something Awful
I hated those fuckin idiots. What kind of retard pays to use a message board?

>>25625991
Actually, that forum is somehow still alive.

>>25625981
can’t fathom making the conscious choice to first post on 4chan as a fully-developed adult. actually that’s an interesting line of thought, those guys probably rally against newfags but if you
were 20+ when you first started posting you’re a permanent newfag in a way. didn’t grow up in the culture.
shoutout SA.

>>25625992
I knew someone who posted there who also posted on the Teeth Of The Divine metal message board. Those people grew to hate me though and I eventually got banned. I was the second youngest person on the board is think.

>>25625996
In my defense the Captcha refused to work for years. Not sure if it was my IP or internet provider.

>>25625973
Mishima's Life For Sale is available on audiobook now. A Japanese man offers to do any job asked of him so long as that job costs him his life in the classifieds. There is a scene where he becomes disgusted by how some people chew on raw carrots as though they were horses. There is a scene where he builds rapport with the vampire that hires him. There's a scene where a book is described which contains the clue the pharmaceutical company needed to develop the mind control drug he is hired to test -- it is a book on rare beetles.

Okay, back downstairs now. Only gave out candy to five kids, lame :(

There were a lot more last year. What happened?

>>25626003
life for sale is fire p funny but also paranoid in a pynchonian way

>>25626003
Sounds dope.

Also, if I had known it would be so slow, I would have given those first three kids two or even three pieces each instead of just one. That's gonna provide me with guilt the rest of the week. Fuck.

>>25625996
To some small degree the posts I made then were a guide or else a counter example against how to post for newly arriving teens as they started getting old enough to use the computer at their house. If by newfag you mean I have one for in Internet culture and one foot out then yes, newfag is fine. But the Internet was never supposed to be something anyone kept both feet in. It was supposed to just be a curiosity and an occasional reference far in the background of your life.

>>25626011
Book is confirmed sick AF

It was published in a weekly magazine and I think it was a while before it was republished as a book. We didn't even get an English translation until 2020. It's doesn't have the polish of Mishimas other book and feels pretty raw and wild for him. I mean as far as the writing goes, obviously any Mishima book is fully capable of being raw or wild in its events.

You know what kind of words I really like? Old school, short words which describe a kind of person. For example,
>lush
>tart
>prig

Anyone know any more?

>>25626016
it’s more complicated. though i agree with the notion. unfortunately it’s best described by gay 4chan diction: its reddit.
actually the newfag charge means nothing tb h, you can be a lame poster who’s been here for nearly two decades (audiobook poster above) and you can be a new goodposter.

when i read i feel like the author's slut. that makes it really hard, because i have no desire to read most people's writing, yet i have to when it comes to all this nonfiction that i have to read. i have all these books on various topics, also scientific articles and lectures, most are just not pleasant to read at all.
somehow it didn't use to bother me, i guess the sense of wonder about the topic was enough to carry me through, but that sort of thing died in me long ago, and all that's left is to be bothered by the shit writing.

>>25626046
really the author should be your little slut.
wilm shaxpy once wrote
fall to them as you find your stomach serves you
no profit grows where is no pleasure taken

>>25626051
>really the author should be your little slut.
my point is sometimes it's not how it plays out, sometimes the author wins, and you have to play the role of the slut, a little bit like your quote describe actually.

>>25626051
>Kill me
>Eat me
>Drink my stock
>Squash me
>Beat me
>Cordially you are invited

That time I made such a clever pun in AP Lang the entire class laughed and my teacher put her hand over her mouth she was so impressed. One of my prized memories. Sadly, I cannot tell you what it was because I'm saving to use it in a book someday.

I need someone to need me. To ease the void within.

I'm so radically unlike anyone else I've encountered that it makes me want to scream. There's a certain kind of brain development trap that people with high verbal IQ + mild aspergers + high degree of sensitivity get into where they just become people who are truly destined to have no kin on this earth, truly destined to be alone.

>>25626056
give & take

>>25626065
I need you, anon. Don't ever doubt it.

>>25626066
>get into where they just become
should probably be ‘in which they just become’. & asperger’s is possessive.

The extent of my being unlike other people is so pervasive and all-encompassing that there's no situation and no company on earth where I can drop the mask. Even if I think I've found an unconventional, oddball, quirky, artistic, off-kilter, counter-culture, high open-mindedness group, if I so much as say a handful of my own genuine thoughts, I'm almost immediately met with total confusion at my jokes, or people see my beliefs and decide I'm a villain. There's just no break, not ever, not one, not one time.

>>25626082
Your mind was poisoned by 4chan and internet counterculture. It's not too late to become normal, or at least pretend.

>>25626085
Nice.

>>25626086
There are millions of minds poisoned by 4chan. If that was the only poison, it would be fine. There are so many countless poisons and most are probably genetic.

>>25626082
You can have one or two beliefs like that just by statistical chance. If so many of your beliefs are like that that it makes it hard to intact with normies at all I would suggest you should be very concerned that the apparatus by which you construct those beliefs is a faulty one. People help each other figure these things out, and a group of minds can very often easily understand something or drive something to happen that any single mind can't. This is both a suggestion to you to examine yourself suspiciously for serious faults, and to involve other people in your life more. Which is maybe not that different from what >>25626086 said.

>>25626082
step 1: stop quoting from the Elders of Zion

>>25626085
Source

>>25626100
It's just genes, man. It was always genes. I was given a very extreme and outlier-tier set of genes and now I'm left to cobble together some semblance of a life out of them, a nearing on impossible task. It can be genes, you know - you ever look at Byron's family tree? The man was screwed from the start. Maybe screwed is the wrong word, but he was always destined to be like that more or less.

>>25626108
YOU AIN'T NEVER BEEN NO VIRGIN KID
YOU WERE FUCKED FROM THE START

>>25626108
dislike this idea of blaming your genes. blaming your parents. i think the spirit that existed before we were born chose the genes and chose the parents that best fit its needs. the issue isn’t in them, its in us for not living accordingly to our true self (the god that made us).

>>25626117
Even if your parents fuck up incredibly hard, you're supposed to become a rapist, a child molester, an abuser, a murderer, or a psychopath. You're not supposed to become whatever I am -- some random, pure nonsense, haphazardly put together combination of conflicting urges and desires which refuse to fit together or integrate at all into our world as it exists. You really cannot fathom what it's like to be me. Since I was a teenager, I've only become able to relate with certain rare figures like Rousseau, Schopenhauer, et. al. But I would previously hesitate to identify with them. Now I feel absolutely no shame in saying that I am on the same order of uniqueness as these men, the exact same order, let talent or performance or results be damned, I'm on the exact same order of uniqueness as them. I have to live this existence out every day, and you don't. I don't care anymore. This is my life, it's what it is, if I have to live the daily existence of getting stuck with pins every morning and night for simply being different, then at least let me be honest, and say what I am.

>receive invitation to a costume party where you're supposed to dress up like detectives from literature
Uh... Sherlock Holmes, John Watson, Irene Adler, and... uh

How many should a cultured, literary person be able to name anyway?

>>25626120
Chase money and the rest won't matter. That's the Zuckerberg/Musk/Bezos/et al. route.

>>25626120
think you just steamrolled my actual point in order to satisfy your desperation to go on about yourself. i knew a girl at uni who did findom and she said the deep-down issue with those men is they can never get over themselves. schopenhauer for all his flaws would probably turn in his grave at this.
remember the old trope of midgets and dwarfs in literature: they all have delusions of grandeur. something to that.

>>25626121
Kogoro Akechi, Sherlock Holmes, Dupin, Poirot, Roman Calvo, Isidro Parodi, Phillip Marlowe, Sam Spade and Maigret

>>25626121
poirot, sam spade, phillip marlowe, miss maple.

>>25626129
Oh, and Father Brown

Buddy of mine met a girl he really clicked with and married her last year. I'm happy for him. I was a little worried it would never happen.

>>25626128
>remember the old trope of midgets and dwarfs in literature: they all have delusions of grandeur. something to that.
Right, but that's a trope.
What if you're born, and nature simply happens to churn out this bizarre weirdo who can't slot into any niche in society without chopping an arm or a leg off? What if you're born like a land-dweller to a family under the sea, and for your basic survival needs you have to constantly swim back up to the surface to get some air? I am trying my hardest in life, I'm sober, I'm exercising, I'm eating well, I'm conscientiousness. Life is just really, really hard when you're an accident of nature, something that apparently doesn't belong anywhere, like a bizarre stain on the fabric of the world of some unknown origin.

There's people paying hundreds of dollars on the internet to get their "physiognomy analyzed"

>>25626137
>but that’s a trope
to write things down to that isn’t the same as writing them off altogether. you know there’s basically never been a dictator if above average height.

>>25626139
I know you’re talking about blackpill looksmaxxing but want to hear my thinkpiece on physiognomy?: it works on the same level as attraction. Our conscious mind has no power on what we find attractive. It’s all wrapped up in nature and reproductive instincts. Reading someone’s face appeals to us on a necessarily secret and intuitive level. Any attempt to make a science of it is sure to be wrong-footed and probably blunts the instinctive tool that the skill requires, the way habit and intellect starve out imagination.

>>25626142
I don't really know what to tell you man. You are not going to convince me that I'm not an incredibly unique and isolated person, because it's just the truth. It's simply true. I'm never going to get to experience real friendship, real romance, real sexual satisfaction, real camaraderie. It's really just a done deal. You'd have to fabricate up some really incredible argument to convince me that my decades of experience are all wrong here.

>>25626146
yeah. well i’m not really talking about you, just in general. my dad used to say ‘don’t trust short people’. so much of life is seeking to compensate flaws. survival tactics. once you can’t get a girl or whatever it is the mind has to find some compensation and hold on for dear life.

>>25626153
But it'll generally pick the closest coping mechanism. We're all bitter in some way, but some of us take that and become dictators, while others become drunks.

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>>25626156
the drunks are the real heroes out of the two

fuck shit up and start a riot

bought an air purifier.

i’m half a xanax im a fading lamppost i’m feta crumbled over a salad i’m a door painted green im drug money im a high spec sound system playing kyoto by yung lean i’m cyan i’m a coldwater prawn i’m a woman’s shoe by the side of the road

It's kinda nice though to suffer a lot of pain while you're young and in exchange you get to know for a fact what your relationship with XYZ in life is. Like you have one bad relationship and then go crazy wondering how it could have gone different. You go through 5 bad relationships and you're like shit I guess relationships aren't for me.

the goyim have gone insane

yeah i know

being a gooner is all that matters

>>25626182
Like the little touch of adding a rapper so that the narrator becomes unlikeable / untrustworthy.

used to be a sweet boy holding very tight to daddy’s hand

this website is making me gay and mad

>>25626128
Kind of hard for any consciousness to completely get over itself, but then that's probably not really what the woman who prefers providing sexual pleasure to doing actual labor meant.

gawk gawk gawkin on soufflé fork

>>25626100
You act as if your beliefs are somehow airtight. I suggest you not throw rocks in glass houses.

>>25626086
In my case it began in 1994 when I was 12. 4chan did not exist back then.

>>25626238
The point of what I'm saying is don't choose to live in a glass house to begin with.

>>25626156
Oh so you're super great ('basically a Schopenhauer') but somehow that greatness makes you a loser reject who can't get friends, let alone a gf? Give me a break, liar.

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>>25625040
>even the paper i write and the plastic are worse than before
This World is a fucking joke

I am becoming obsessed with this archetype of the 80s/90s competent professional adult. Its not a bad thing, but it also feels unrealistic these days.

Hey team. Making just under $200k in Southern California. 5th year. Possibilities for advancement are amazing at my current place, love the atmosphere and know they appreciate my work. However, I know I can easily be making AT LEAST $50,000 elsewhere. But let’s be honest: in this market, I am a high-yield asset. A hot commodity. If I walked into a competing firm today, the baseline is easily $250k. Do I take the guaranteed premium, or do I stay where the bonus structure rewards the relentless? My firm just announced market adjustments for all associates, an hours-based bonus program, and also matching student loan payments to a 401k (although I don't think its 1:1). 5% bonus for getting Satisfactory, 10% for Highly Satisfactory. Then 4%, 6%, 8%, 10%, 12%, 15% for every 50 hours over 1900, up to 2200. I feel like this closes advantage with the clear bonus structure despite the lower base salary. The new firm will have the higher base plus 9% bonus for bare minimum performance. Decisions decisions.

>>25626419
hey bro, how's the HIV?

People hate me automatically and will make sure I'm as miserable as possible and that that I fail at everything I do.
For all intents and purposes I'm in hell and you are the evil demons tormenting me.

>>25626460
Hell is other people

>>25626510
Says everyone, while being fully integrated into society.

>>25626510
that's why you got to retire early and just have all ur groceries delivered to ur building lobby never interact with a normie again

Are greetings cards still a viable industry?

>>25626545
Normalfags are gatekeeping me from earning any significant amount of money.

>>25626546
thinking of getting into the greetings card racket eh? well i’ll tell you son, it ain’t all what it appears

i love real life.

>>25626557
what's that 'indie' song that has a chorus like "cuz this is a reaal life" *guitar riff*

>>25626561
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lL1TbMAPbF0

ladyhawke went hard that chick should drop a new album

You should call me.

>>25626565
i've been meaning to send u a whatsapp voice note but just haven't gotten around to it

i had two super intense dreams about my ex-roommate should i text her

>>25626561
https://youtu.be/lTALe90M_rI

>>25626566
You’re not him.

>>25626599
and ur not her, enjoy the cats.

damn my meds are hitting super nice today, anons. feels so good. almost too good...

>>25626619
Then why did you even fucking respond to me?

is it a woman is shrew or a woman is a shrew?

>>25626159
Love it!

My body hurts in all different places, and I’m not even done repainting.

I just wanna fuck

Getting through my to-do list in a relaxed but efficient manner

What are the chances that an AInigger you know IRL will try to make AIslop out of your work that you happened to share in a conversation?
I never gave a shit about donutsteel but it would irritate me a great deal to see this happen and when I see enthusiasm for AI I immediately label as subhumans

>>25625286
Nonsense, anon. I would be happy to take your virginity. I'm you're not ugly. I'll start out slow so it doesn't hurt. You're going to love it.

>>25626728
>when I see enthusiasm for AI I immediately label as subhumans
based, same

>>25626651
a

>>25626728
ai is trash. i see people use it to "tweak" their grammar but even that is still too much for me. jeet coded

>>25626733
I took precautions to not share any actual files but I feel that the things I've shared by talking were still too much. It takes 5 minutes to make a prompt with the same ideas. I feel there was a bit too much interest in what I was saying and after knowing about sloppa I've had this nagging thought
I am not afraid that someone will make a million dollars cause it's not going to happen but the idea of someone attempting pisses me off

What's the parameters on "incel?" Because my wife hasnt put out in like three weeks, and I can't fuck someone else obviously, so this seems like a classic case of incel to me

>>25626746
oofy doofy betabuxx

>>25626746
that's just being married

>>25626721
What position would you like?

Why do I always procrastinate so much, even over simple stuff?

>>25626801
doggy

>>25626805
This is a case of the blind leading the blind but the problem is you likely struggle with overcoming the initial burst of effort needed to accomplish a task. I’ve read focusing for 10 minutes on a task can help overcome that, and afterwards it’s easier

>>25626732
??

Sunday evenings are dreadful

ok i did my laundry and paid my property taxes now what should i do

>>25626805
for me it's like an instinct to avoid snap decisions. if i put it off for a while i can think it over. usually that's a waste of time tho.

>>25626900
u got the sunday scaries bro? lmao

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I'm 31 and I'm having the exact same existential crisis since I was 15.

>>25626907
yea I have to wake up tomorrow

>>25626914
oof

i'm debating going back to bed

before vaporwave to get in a bourgeois mood u had to listen to downtempo lounge brings me back to the dotcom days, the white guy from thievery corporation went solo started dropping albums again

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XGyi3HEsFGw

I am so gay

>>25626959
hot

Unblock me :(

>>25626932
It's time for Mei Semones to put out, I have listened to a couple of her songs more than enough to have paid the fare.

"I mean... Yeah, okay but— how it works is, actually, no... We could, however, uh, nevermind; that said, perhaps there's... " *blows his head off with a Remington Model 870 shotgun*

>>25625333
There's like two of those I don't have to worry about

i am homosexual but the gay lifestyle is so...vulgar. men are...dangerous

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>violent protests in Germany
fucking finally
>it's antifa protesting for Palestine
At this point, I'm convinced that all this Palestine shit is a psyop, secretly supported by governments all over Europe, to distract people from real, domestic issues that severely impact their day to day lives.
Sky high electricity prices? Healthcare cuts? Billions being pumped into a nation that's been losing a war for 4 years now? Hundred year old domestic companies leaving the country en masse? B-But what about brown people being bombed in the Middle East?! That's never happened before!

Low birth rates are the consequence of bastards not being born. Men have been castrated; they no longer follow their instincts, they have no say in anything, and they just have to sit back and watch. There's absolutely no point in becoming a married man. Just hit and run. Your kids are still going to grow up fucked up; at least you won't have to see it

>>25627004
western man is metaphorically and in some cases literally a cuckold. cuckold race

>>25626840
That’s too much effort, let’s do sideways

>>25627027
are you the chick?

>>25627000
europeans already have socialism to the gills tho so it's not like they can protest in favor of higher taxes and free gibs

>>25627000
>>25627000
>I'm convinced that all this Palestine shit is a psyop
It's unironically just niggers using protests to smash shit and loot

>>25627046
>europeans already have socialism to the gills tho
Do Americans unironically believe this?

>>25626729
sorry anon im an ugly bastard

>>25626984
I agree. It doesn't help that I'm incredibly paranoid over STDs, and that most men in my area are awful.

>>25627058
I wish but I look at photos of the protests and it's 90% White zoomers.

>>25627063
france takes literally like 50% of it's own gdp in taxes and then blows it on muh free healthcare

>>25627063
>akstually socialism is when nothing bad ever happens that's why is has never been tried

>>25627147
Who are you quoting?

>>25627000
Protests have always been about waving the memetic flag of the moment.

>>25627186
Yeah except there's a lot more things to wave the flag for. Hope Netanyahu glasses Palestine soon, so then maybe leftists will start focusing on something that matters.

I thought my own mother was a literal demon for several months who had pretended to my dad that she had given birth to me but in reality I was an orphan that she had stolen. I’ve had many delusions like this and it’s so exhausting I can barely do a two hour shift at my local charity shoot. I’ve been out of work for three years now and hate my life. I am optimistic that things will work out eventually though. The end.

Life is so fucking boring no wonder everyone is at home glued to their screens.

Wish I could write well

>>25627219
Meds. Literally.

back at the beginning
sinking, spinning

>>25627228
Saying you're bored and saying you're boring are basically the same thing if you're older than 14.

>>25627284
What a non fucking comment, do you have that pinned to your fridge you fucking queer?

>>25627273
I’m on them but they do nothing. It’s not a brain illness but a spiritual sickness. All the doctors think I’m schizophrenic and they’re forcing me to take meds but I know myself better than them. Lots has happened which point to it being spiritual rather schizophrenic.I can still question myself and the delusions disappear.

>>25627144
France is somewhat restrained on healthcare compared to its neighbors. Where it overspends is on pensions. Average pensioner earns more than the average worker in France right now and they have an early retirement age.

A French retiree makes about 2% more than a working adult. In most other developed countries a retiree makes 20% to 30% less than a working adult.

>>25627288
If you're looking for a support group to help you through the chief emotional burden of ten year olds maybe you're in the wrong place, you baby.

>>25627290
Saying you have a spiritual illness is about as blatantly schizophrenic as it gets anon. Stay on your meds. Probably you should increase the dose.

>>25627290
>they do nothing.
That's what they all say, and then they stop taking them, and murder their parents, thinking they're a demon.

>>25627355
>Nah bro the pills do nothing

It's a progressive illness. If you feel the same as you did before the pills you should consider that maybe they're the reason you haven't gotten noticeably worse.

>Yeah but I'm gonna stop taking them though I know me better than anyone

You know you better than I do, but I've studied your disease for a decade using my non broken brain. I'm here to advise you about your disease, not about you

>Nah flushing them now
>3 years later my favorite pass time is laying under a low pier on a Florida beach while I talk to myself and pick fresh scabs off my arms for hours

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>>25627255
Same. With little to no effort from my end ofc.

I just ordered 5 krispy kreme donuts to be delivered to my house. The reaping will be massive and inexorable

I am addicted to caffeine and porn

The burnt metal smell of interplanetary war in the raw noon streets swept by screaming glass blizzards of enemy flak

I NEED a daughter

>>25627421
Whose daughter?

>>25627402
Which ones? A variety? Dude I could fuckin eat some Krispy Kreme. God dammit I wish I was single.

>>25627420
>The Orc city smoldered. A knuckle's depth of blood and ash soaked the ground. The once savage cries of its defenders, now silent and still.

I have finished repainting my room by 98%, which probably may count as 100% if you don’t squint too hard.

>>25627446
two original glazed, a cookies & cream, a strawberry jam and my favourite, the custard creme

>>25627469
All red with a black ceiling, I hope.

>>25627474
that shit is inspiring. I never thought to order Krispy Kreme like that, never loved myself to order my own donuts. I think I'm about to do that, when nobody is looking, and get me some exotic type Krispy Kreme

>>25627421
They're literally all over the place.

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Ah, to be posh and with little to no ass

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>>25627478
Yep

>>25627484
I’m gonna say something mind blowing, but you can totally buy a cake, eat it entirely by yourself and there will be nobody to stop you. Tiktokers call it free will exercise.

>>25627484
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pFf_NTY38m4

>>25627478
Nah, true white with some salmon peaking from underneath let’s be honest and tacky stretch ceiling in cream.

>>25627492
I hated that even in Sims

>>25627493
I've bought a cake, I've eaten sushi and korean bbq and steaks and luxury meals alone, I have gone to movies alone, I love my alone pleasures.
But no I have not gotten a box of custom donuts for myself. I really appreciate the reminder to do so.

I've never had fun in my life. My hobbies are decorating my single bedroom apartment to look like the inside of a corporate office building and repeating the same daily schedule for decades with no change. I wear the same thing every day and buy my outfits in bulk. When out of sight I probably just stop existing, like a video game asset not being rendered when outside the player's field of vision. My favorite foods are tap water and white rice.

>>25627508
I went to movies alone, but my biggest memory of that is that guy giving me dirty looks for crunching popcorn too loud. I still don’t know what was the code of conduct there, aren’t people supposed to eat popcorn in cinemas?

>>25627514
Are you trapped in some sort of abstract dance or are you actually trying to talk to me?

>>25627514
you're supposed to eat it all before the movie starts

>>25626932
Is vaporwave bourgeois or digital platonic disembodied dream world and is that different or the same? I am permanently changed by listening to stretched loops of drowning kitsch and my parents don’t understand why I must stay up late running Now That’s What I Call Music through Goldwave

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>>25627517
Literally pic related.

Okay, my paint job is crap, and I cannot squint my way out.

>>25627510
highly based when i buy shirts i get the same banana republic oxford like 20 times normies at work be changed it up somedays they have a pink on or one with stripes i'm like fuck that blue oxford forever

>>25627514
It depends on the movie. Really it would be best if the concessions guy asked to see your ticket first. If you're seeing Spiderman 13 go ahead and enjoy your popcorn. If it's a 4K reprint of Kwaidan (an extremely quiet Japanese horror classic that rewards paying attention) then the response should be "Sorry sir, but this is a no popcorn film."

>>25627539
Oxford shirts rock! They are sharp and unsloppy.

>>25627534
You asked 'aren’t people supposed to eat popcorn in cinemas?'. I found this to be a rhetorical question based on the surrealist premise that anyone would really care. Nobody can hear anyone chew popcorn except the chewer, it doesn't happen like that, certainly not in a theater. You sound like a victim of mind folie

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>>25627546
I could’ve chewed with my mouth open. That’s something I still question myself about to this day.

>>25627551
Describe to me the way he was looking at you, and how

>>25627556
He was sitting in front of me. He would turn back with resentment, but I don’t remember if he said something. It was nearly a decade ago.

>>25627563
Would it help settle this if I assured you that you were hallucinating? Anything to put this down. You have to advocate for yourself at a certain point, you understand.

I should start getting into detective fiction for casual reading.

>>25627569
Thank you dude, but I already kinda accepted it was rude to me to chew too loud

>>25627586
I’m not sure if I actually enjoy it or force upon myself as a reading-for-writing

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