I've been studying at music schools for 13 years. Before moving to Poland, I was considering piano as my future profession, but I wasn't accepted to it here due to high competition. They accepted me to play the double bass. I've now completed three of the six years of my studies at this school. For two of those three years, I've been thinking about quitting because I probably won't pursue a career in the music industry, but all the teachers are trying to talk me out of it. They say it's a highly sought-after instrument in orchestras and I'll make a killing when I finish school, and then at the academy (plus another five years), because everyone is looking for double bass players. The teachers are very kind and willing to support me in not quitting, but even so, I constantly think about quitting and becoming more free. I don't know how to describe the feeling. I'll be able to go wherever I want, find a job, etc., but even with all the benefits of quitting, I can't do it because of the gravity of it. 13 years of my life will be wasted, it's incredibly painful to let go. On top of everything, my father wants to sell the electronic piano we bought when we moved. I don't even know what I really want to do with my life because I have almost no hobbies other than music. I can't find anything that excites me more than what I did before moving to Poland. I'm also attending a university majoring in Russian philology so I can have at least some kind of profession outside of music school, but come on, in five years, when I graduate, it will be 100 times more irrelevant, given how quickly AI technologies are developing. Please help me, what should I do? Drop out of music school and play for myself, maybe even write my own music, or stay and finish my education before graduating? I literally start crying whenever I discuss this topic irl with anyone because I feel such intense emotional pain and guilt towards everyone around me.
>>128999948Your anus.
