>therapy makes it worse>meds make it worse>mental wards make it worse>exercise doesnt help>prayer doesnt help>meditation doesnt help , makes it worse actually>socializing makes it worse>changing diet did nothing>fasting did nothing>dopamine detox made it worsei cant figure how how to stop hating life and wanting yo die every fucking day
>>520068905>service to selfHave you tried "service to others"?How can you be of service to others today?Pray for guidance.If in doubt, tidy up the placeOr feed some birds
>>520068905>mental wards make it worseIt does
>>520069112>tried volunteering at a food drive>felt empty, unsatisfied and annoyedalso why would i feel birds, i do not like animals. this isnt advice. i still hate reality
oh oops i posted on fucking pol . i meant r9k
>>520068905Me neither brother. Most of that "mental health" shit was invented by women, for women.
>>520068905The only thing that got me out of my rut was having my circumstances get way better. Although being very productive and learning bantz helped a lot, the fact that I managed to be in a better place than most of the people who ever hurt me is basically the only thing that fixed my head
>>520068905Transition unironically
>>520069499Same fucking shit at this point.
>>520069518No it was invested mostly by men but i dont expect pol to understand history lol
>>520069499they are the same board
>>520069556yeah see i dont care about those that hurt me, dont care about how good life is nor about my circumstance. I hate life at its baseline for what it is reguardless of my current situation
>>520068905Have you tried just ignoring all the bad stuff? And just doing things
Glutathione
>>520068905Built a big family , people with a lot of kids don't divorce and are genuinely happy even if they are poor
>>520069678I guess we all have different problems. Sounds like yours is a bit more complex. Wish I could help Try being busy I guess. I’ve been running errands for my dying grandparents and basically doing all the shit in the house whenever I’m not working. Feels fulfilling I guess
>>520068905>exercise doesnt helpC'mon, it helps at least a little bit.
>>520069705the "doing things" is one of the bad things.>>5200697841. i do not want a family. 2. I wont create life in this hell world. 3. I am unable to do so even if i wanted.
>>520068905Faith on Jesus Christ. Prayer won't save you from anything without faith
>>520069981i recall most days this year at the gym, thinking about suicide while running, lifting, ect. It passes the time but no, still hate life before during and after a workout
>>520068905You might be introspecting too much. Sometimes understanding yourself is a bad thing.
>>520070021Ok well i cant have faith in shit like that so thats a non starter for me>You just need to believe in fairies and gnomes, then you will like living!No.
>>520068905Just stop trying to fix everything, hate life if you want to.
>>520070130but i hate life, i dont care about myself, i hate the world, reality .
>>520069994If so, your brain is a breeding ground for all the demons in the world.they are the ones speaking through you you're just a vessel at this point , it's called a qlippa
>>520069994Have you tried just doing nothing and being happy with that? I dont get it, what do you want to do?
>>520070231uh huh, is there an evil entity puppeting jews around forcing them to circumsize their kids or do they just do that naturally ?
>>520068905you sir, are a LIAR!!you did not do all thiswho would just go on the internet and tell such blatent lies?!ps this new captcha isnt as bad as that last one before the hack
>>520070312i want to not exist , no longer feel or think or experience or move around. Doing nothing doesnt get that , im still there, sitting, and i dont want to sit
>>520070362i can describe to you all 3 wards i went to, list my experiences with therapists, might even have footage of me at the gym, so whatever.
>>520068905Alcohol, blow, hookers
>>520068905Are you fat?
>>520070569i dont like alchhol, have no money or access to coke, and am not interested in sex
>>520070319Go to hell, demon
>>520070609No.
>>520069592Its applied by women so obviously they twisted it
>>520070629oh so the childrens dick ripper thinks im evil, thats a complement in a weird way, i would feel insulted to be on your good side
>>520068905You should be taking a coom stack of supplements to be mad horny and jack off near constantly.L-arginine, L-Citrullin, sunflower lecithin, zinc, selenium, pygeum, horny goat weed, and more.Just goon, brother.
>>520068905Who hurt you, and how?
>>520068905>i cant figure how how to stop hating life and wanting yo die every fucking daystop being a chud, try it.
>>520068905Retardmaxxed
>>520068905You're missing the adventure of life by trying to eliminate struggle from it. Move to Alaska or some shit and fight a bear. Suffer physically so that you don't have to suffer mentally. It's only through suffering you find meaning. Happiness isn't the goal of life, and I can prove that by once simple statement: if you make happiness the goal, what do you have when you're unhappy? What do you have when things go wrong? You have nothing and become a nihilist edgy retard.
>>520070709uh huh blame womin this, womin that, blah blah blah i dont care anon , its all retarded shit to me, im not invested in you or your uninformed opinions
>>520070441oh i dont doubt the wards, meds, and therapy that shit fucked me up toobut i fixed myself with the other things you claim to have doneyou probably tried those things but didnt actually commitor just doing it wrong and thought it was shit because you thought it should work the way you thought it should and not the way it does
>>520070814Nobody.>>520070858I dont care about being happy, i care about experiencing sensation, which i hate, and want to find a way to stop experiencing sensation. Your advice is retarded
>>520070776>i would feel insultedFrom the way you speak you already insult yourself
>>520070899ok well i dont think i did it wrong but whatever, you clearly decided>these things worked for me>i dont want to admit they might not work for other people>therefore i just will not believe it and continue pretending these thing work for everyonek.
>>520070974>nobodyThen my friend, it was everybody. Everything. This world. Is pain. It is a dying world. Far away from what you'd call "life". "Perfection". "Eden". You seek somewhere that isn't here yes?
Just fuck bitches (hookers) and get money for cool magic the gathering cards mang that’s what I did. And if you ever feel sad or lonely or gay or whatever just don’t.
>>520071062No i didnt actually but maybe you were too busy mutilating children to read my post properly
>>520068905Become an observer, eat thc gummies while collecting information and then take that information and do metaphysics. Worked for me was in a very similar situation as you a few years ago.
>>520071099no i seek to not exist at all>>520071114You are retarded.
>>520071195To escape the pain?
>>520070060You can afford to go to the gym and you still hate life? I just do Tae Bo in front of the TV. Or maybe go for a run around the neighbourhood.
>>520068905Get drunk. Men have been numbing the pain this way for 6000 years at least. Also hook up with a fat chick.
>>520071289No, to escape sensation and experiences in general, even with no pain i simply do not like existing, though pain does make it worse>>520071290yes i still hate life despite going to the gym.
>>520071315I do not enjoy alcohol nor want to have sex.
>>520070974>and want to find a way to stop experiencing sensationi was numb for 6 years, you do not want thatbeing mad, sad, and angry is better than flat lining life>>520071075im just saying, maybe you were doing it wrong and should consider approaching from another angle or seeking advice as to how those things worked for other peopleobviously whatever you're doing isnt working
>>520071150Your qlippa is way too much for me , may god show mercy on you , I can't help you
>>520071448>i was numb for 6 years, you do not want that>being mad, sad, and angry is better than flat lining lifeif the numbess involves movement, sensation, or any thinking at all, thats not what im talking aboutYeah i clearly can see that its not working. I do not like life or living at its baseline, and these "solutions" are for people with a different issue entirely .
>>520071517bye enjoy traumatizing the next generation of children with your outdated cult
>>520068905Have you tried spite? Works for me.
>>520068905Go to bed at a consistent time every single day.
>>520071195Listen man dudes are getting blown up in Ukraine and you’re sad about le meaningless existence. Imagine sitting face to face with some poor fucker in a fox hole and telling him about your problems. Just fucking lol.
>>520071562what is your ideal end result? if you could have it your way, exactly
>>520071369This world is cruel. Man can be crueler. The choice is ultimately up to you. I know someone hurt you, more than what you can cope with internally because you think it was overwhelming compared to the world around you, but everyone is in pain Anon. Some more than others. For what it's worth. I hope you find what you're looking for.
>>520071628does not work for me , no , still hate life>>520071690i dont care if its "meaningless" or not, i dont like what it is at its core , who the fuck said anything about "meaning"at least they have access to a gun to shoot themselves with , i do not>>520071755i would cease to exist and no more be concious / aware / experiencing anything, and id be nothing like before i ever was
>>520071812>know someone hurt you,Nope, i just recall hating life since a younge age, it wasnt trama induced, but you seem to like making shit up about people so whatever i cant stop you
>>520068905in a better world you would die fighting in a war on the behalf of a just king. at least that way your life would be spent for a worthwhile reason. sadly we are not in such a world
>>520071892Spite literally is hatred of life. It means to hate with such a massive intensity that it usurps even the emotion of sadness. It's really only temporary though unless you are willing to risk becoming a living robot. In the end all it causes is more suffering.
>>520072044that is retarded, god damn , THAT would be a good life for you? PATHETIC.
>>520069499Same shit but /pol/ is okay, or at least, not total dogshit like /r9k/. Why does that shit even exist.
>>520068905Stop talking about my itchy urethra, thanks
>>520071892>i would cease to exist and no more be concious / aware / experiencing anything, and id be nothing like before i ever wasdo you have any non suicidal desires?by your OP it seems maybe you wanted more than to die
>>520072130No. not really, even as a kid i recall just hating this shit , man, its just so fucking annoying every day to have to see / hear / feel ALL this shit that i dont want anything to do with
>>520071971It was trauma induced. I know you. I can see through you. I also know that you'd rather die because you know what you'd do to the world if you worked hard is so horrific that it's preferable to just die. What's worse is that many people would agree with you, since a person that powerful and hostile would ultimately be detrimental to them. But here's the thing Anon. They don't care. They know deep down inside that if it happens, they can't do anything about it, and if it doesn't they can relax all day and play. The only ones miserable here, are me and you. That's why I worked so hard building weapons. So I wouldn't have to fight. Because I was scared. Scared of all these people. Ignorant and frightened children. Screaming in the dark. So I bring fire. It was the only hope. My only choice. Because deep down inside. I am you.https://youtu.be/MDlkKIb6fNk
>>520072088that is the best lot in life for someone who doesn't want to be alive anymore: to die for something that matters. i love life and want to continue living, i don't need something to die for because i have things to live for
>>520068905Stop fucking around. You've posted and is discussing over the net. If you really didn't like life, you would not be here. Get your shit together or delete yourself at once. And fuck you.
>>520072422It was not trauma induced but keep making shit up all you want. Also this shit about> I also know that you'd rather die because you know what you'd do to the world if you worked hard is so horrific that it's preferable to just die. What's worse is that many people would agree with you, since a person that powerful and hostile would ultimately be detrimental to themis just your schizophrenia showing, this is nonsense and doesnt make any sense.All the shit you posted is nonsense to me. Complete chickenscratch gobbledygook.
>>520068905Check
>>520072635Everything will be okay Anon.I released a maelstrom of weapons.Everyone who hurt us.Is going to die. :)
>>520072509I dont want my death to be for anything, i dont want to work for a "king" nor be part of a cause, that is retarded. I want to die regularly, and not exist, not FOR some retarded "king.">>520072589ok give me access to a means of suicide and i will go. OH WAIT! I keep getting arrested and locked up in mental wards every time i try! So if you guys wont let me leave then i will bitch and moan and complain until i am allowed to leave. Dont like it? Neither do i. Oh fucking well
>>520070378So fucking kysIf you haven't, you've chosen to live. So live
>>520072236why dont you change your environment/situation so you dont have to deal with that 'stuff'
>>520072119It's getting WORSE
>>520072766you are not making sense and all the shit you are posting os nonsense. You likely do not have any "weapons" its just your delusional brain making shit up and there is no "everyone who hurt us"Who? Oh yeah, the people in your fucking head that dont exist in reality. Go back to playing with your imaginary toys
>>520068905I'm feeling you OP and I'm more old and decrepit than you most likely. But a few whitepills are abound these days. >The JQ is now fully in the open on the internet. (It has yet to broach the question at my corporate job or my boomer neighbor, Jim)>Nigger fatigue is also at an all-time high among all non-niggers. >It is theoretically possible in your life that you could get a cute gf to discuss your hatred of niggers and jews.
>>520072938>>The weapons just got 10 feet higher
>>520068905You can come to Christ, and finally stop all this shit
>>520072822Stop with the fucking excuses. You know very well how you can do it definitely but you didn't. You're a coward.
>>520072834ok give me a gun then OH WAIT im not allowed to own one dang>>520072882to what? no matter where i go i will have to look at / hear / feel shit , thats not what im looking for. There is no where to go that isnt ugly all around. Everything is digusting.
>>520068905you like all other white people are an idiot (the fact that you put a nigger in your pic is typical white people behavior to deflect your stupidity)you list a bunch of solutions but refuse to deal with the problems causing your depression....because youre an idiot. you dont deserve help (even though Ive already given it to you), deserve to suffer for your stupidity. I cant feel sorry for idiots who suffer by not facing problems
>>520068905>I want to die>Still takes the time to post hereEnlist in some dangerous fulfilling activities like mercenary works or illicit jobs like mob foot work / gun for hire. You could also consider exploring mysteries and truth seeking like infiltrate area 51 and report back on it. Alternatively, wear provocative clothing like a shirt that says fuck niggers, jew rapes kid or a Mohamed zutt shirt and walk downtown with a loaded gun. Have fun sport
>>520068905"Those who hate me love Death"- YahwehLoving Yahweh = Loving LifeHating Yahweh = Hating Life
>>520073001Christianity the ideology appears awful and disgusts me, IF god is as depicted as in the bible, i refuse them, they are insane and evil
>>520068905sorry to hear that OP… ever hear of “cheeba”?
>>520068905Low serotonin could be a factor. Get sunlight or take vitamin d.
>>520068905Same. I'm dealing with histamine intolerance and mold allergies on top of this. Fuck everything.
>>520073037ok how do i do it then you retard, huh? last times i tried i was resuscitated and put in imprisonment, so how do i die? No excuses anon, explain, how do i die?
>>520073178This is why you hate your life then, as you hate Christianity.Jesus Christ is the Way, the Truth, and the LIFE.You hate Life because you hate Christ.Good luck.
If you're not sure the Bible is the word of God watch: youtube.com/watch?v=9l5ZEsXjNVI1 Cor. 15:3-4: “For I delivered unto you first of all that which I also received, how that Christ died for our sins according to the scriptures; And that he was buried, and that he rose again the third day according to the scriptures:” How to know you're saved: youtube.com/watch?v=EAtR40sue5MRomans 3:23: “For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;”Jesus Christ is God who has come to earth from heaven in the flesh. He died as a sinless sacrifice for the sins of the whole world to save you from eternal hell, the punishment for your sin. He was buried, then resurrected and is now in heaven. John 3:16: “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” Romans 10:9: “That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. John 10:28: "And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand."God wants to forgive you, but you have a choice: Either choose this evil world and be punished along with it, or choose to submit to the will of God and be saved. Your own deeds, no matter how good you think they are, can NEVER justify you. You're corrupt and need to be saved. Romans 5:9: “Much more then, being now justified by his blood, we shall be saved from wrath through him.” Salvation is by grace through faith in Jesus Christ, in what HE did for you. Only He can wash away all of your sins with His blood. Salvation is a gift, it can't be earned. Do you choose the righteousness of God or your righteousness? Heaven or hell?Eph. 2:8-9: “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.” youtube.com/watch?v=yS78mFJcvhQyoutube.com/watch?v=_VRT2FFXntc
>>520068905play megabonk
>>520073314No that makes my urethra practically incinerate itself
>>520073045the problem causing my being upset is being alive an i plan to solve it via suicide>>520073096im not eligible for military service nor want to
>>520068905alcohol and weed make it all better. try this instead. shoot yourself up and wake up tomorrow with factory settings.
>>520073102If any man come to Me and hate not his father and mother, and wife and children, and brethren and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be My disciple.
>>520071165He wouldn't get it
>>520070171you're supposed to grow out of the emo phase
>>520073254If it isn't a hormonal problem take a heroic dose to fix your issues
>>520073304Good luck to you as well , may you one day be free of your weird cult lol>>520073313fuck off not reading your schizobabbleFuck god, if they created reality they are a dumb cunt that cant properly create reality lol.
Guys HELP ME IT REALLY ITCHES
>>520073303You obviously do it in a way that you can't be resuscitated! And you fucking know this. You're just a whining bitch.
>>520073480why cant i just be allowed to fucking kill myself? why do i have to be imprisoned every time i try to escape?
>>520069112"Have you considered living for others like a servant?"This is the most cucked mindset.
>>520068905Have you tried being enslaved by someone with a grand vision?
>>520068905Mahayana Buddhism
>>520073520Go see a urologist
>>520073480Blessed oldfag imaeg
>>520073178Then keep fumbling for an answer and wondering why nothing feels right.
>>520073529and your whining like a bitch...because someone else is whining? thats double pathetic>WWWAAAAAAAHHHHH SOME WUN IS COMPLAINING NO NO NO THEY NEED TO PRETEND TO BE HAPPY OR I. WILL. SSCREAAAAAAAAAMMMMM.Thats you, anon
>>520073647better then you, who will keep clinging on to lies and pretend everything is fine
>>520073564>>prayer doesnt help>>meditation doesnt help , makes it worse actually
>>520073396Being alive makes you upset? Welcome to reality PAL if if You do decide to off yourself (which i don't recommend, just get your shit together and discipline yourself, youll also miss out on the upcoming race war.) make sure you keep it to yourself like go jump off a bridge or something don't hurt any innocent people or murder anybody. Hell won't be SO hot for you then.
>>520073619Actually it goes away when he inspects my urethra I even fall asleep
I know, what I'm about to write is cliche, but this has truly helped me over the years:Learn to recognize the beauty of the human experience. Appreciate the things around you. Not just material belongings, but all your surroundings. Appreciate the little things (could be as small as an ant crawling around, life is a miracle). Also, appreciate your internal experience. Your knowledge, your wisdom, your insights, ...And yes, this will sound cringe, but I genuinely mean it: There are people out there that care about you. I am one of them and I don't even know you. But I want you to be happy. I want all humans to have the best experience in life they can, as long as they don't try to make my experience worse.
>>520073462as you are not Christian, you do not understand what you are quoting.>>520073486I'm genuinely happy.You aren't. Only Christians can experience true joy.Good luck
>>520068905Om namah shivaya 108x a day
>>520073648You're clearly showing will to live. Goodbye.
>>520073697Nope. You'll reach the end of your rope and you'll finally see the obvious truth of Jesus Christ. There's no other way for you.
>>520073042>There is no where to go that isnt ugly all around. Everything is digusting.Frank Glaser would likely agree with you, its why he lived with the wolves on the alaskan tundra, away from everyone and everythingi've often considered leaving society too, have my bushcraft kit prepped and everythingjust waiting for societal collapse, but probably should do it sooneranyways, hope you're able to figure it out, i'm praying for you anon, this life is not easy or kind
>>520073780yeh im planning to off myself soon, give it another try, i mean, my act is already together and i just hate living so much so yeah nothing else to try lol
>>520073824your god is a false idol made up by schizophrenics thousands of years ago. Wake up.Good luck :)
>>520073947Then do it, what are you waiting for? For people to give you sympathy, you dipshit zoomer? Take that plunge and meet oblivion.
>>520068905Like most you're probably mediocre in looks, intelligence, and social skills. You have a shit job, and shit or no partner. The human condition is mostly pain punctuate by small joys. Drugs and entertainment are bad for you as they overdo what is supposed to be moderate amounts of joy. Try reading difficult non-fiction books. It's the only thing keeping me going.
>>520068905Maybe you were praying in the wrong way. God is real, and He won't just do whatever you ask Him willy nilly.
It seems like there isn't a specific action that would make you happy. It was the same for me around 8-9 years ago. Absolute hatred for the world, drugs, self harm, walking around like a vagrant only to go home and sleep etc. As cliché as it might sound you simply need to change perspective. Right now you brain is working with the basis that you hate reality and existence. The thing is, your brain, is literally you. You are the only person who can change how you perceive certain actions and feelingsYou have to stop observing how your hatred fits into yet another thing you did. A friend of mine used to say "depression is a hell of a drug" and he was right. Misery is a drug, you are an addict. You experience something and rush over to apply misery on it because that's how you perceived the world at some point and your grew along with itAnother thing is to accept. A lot of misery, depression and hatred comes because of some imposed challenges by society. "You HAVE to enjoy exercise, you HAVE to go to therapy, you HAVE to take meds, you HAVE to meditate" and if you don't do all of those things and feel happy afterwards something is clearly wrong with you, that's how majority of society thinks and why of course they are in turn depressed as well. If you didn't enjoy meditation fuck it, you didn't, just accept it and move on to the next thing. Do things you actually enjoy doing. You can try normie suggestions but don't take them as gospel for a happy life, most people are not truly happy anywayI know you will disagree with me on a lot of things. You will read all this and roll your eyes and mutter "retard" and just know that I understand exactly how you feel right now. This reply isn't to convince you exactly, but to "plant a seed" so to say for the future. As I said at first everything you see and hear is going through your head with the filter of misery in the way and until this somehow changes, no experience will have a positive effect on you
>>520073869you keep saying bye then posting more and more, how triggered are you?>>520073926Jesus christ himself would find christians as weird leechy cultists, you literally worship the symbol he was killed on, and your cult has killed thousands in his name , enjoy your shitty outdated nonsensical ideology
>>520073396no, unless you have some kind of disease causing you pain you are not upset by being alive, you are upset by an insane society. you could identify what it is about society that is driving you insane and develop strategies to avoid it (and yes NEETing is a legit strategy that millions of men are forced to use)
>>520069592>i dont expect pol to understand history lolYou need to leave and go back to >>>/lgbt/ or >>>/r/eddit
>>520074143Every single male celebrity you've ever known in your life has their index finger just as long as their ring finger. Why? Because they're Satanic tranny abominations. Now kill your fucking self, you dumb fucking cunt. Don't take my word for it, slit your fucking neck and meet oblivion.
>>520074072why the fuck do you get so ragebaited by someone saying they will kill themselves. Fuck off. Stop having a strange reaction to someone casually saying they plan to die. Thats YOUR overreaction. Not my problem,>>520074118well eventually i decided that if she made this then god was a cunt and dont want to be involved with them anyways
>>520070629
>>520074008You're the schizophrenic here...You literally believe that Everything came from Nothing.You're genuinely suicidal.I am not suicidal.
>>520074351Slit your fucking neck, you dumb fucking cunt. What are you waiting for? >BAAAAAW I WANT ATTENTION THAT MY PARENTS NEVER GAVE MESee:>>520074253
>>520074132the only one talking any sense in this thread.
>>520074253>>520074401>WAAAAAAH SOMEONE ONLINE HATES LIFE AND NOW I M ANGRY BECAUSE IM SCARED OF THAT I GUESS, WAAAAAAAAAAAH
>>520074381i dont know nor care what anything fucking came from retard. Schizos like you sure love random leaps in logic.>I am not suicidal.you should be
>>520074535No, every single male celebrity doesn't have a female anatomy! Their index fingers aren't just as long as their ring fingers (just like a females)! That's not easily observable! Don't worry about a fucking thing, you attention seeking zoomer dipshit! You'll be absolutely fine! Now smash your fucking brains out against a cinder block and meet your God of nothingness!
>>520074672oh cool i caused another schizo meltdown by literally doing nothing , keep going , i want some entertainment!
>>520074779Sure, who's your favorite male celebrity?
>>520074815uh, christopher walken. or maybe william defoe. i dont know
>>520074622Why would I be suicidal when life is beautiful and the noose is ever-tightening around Evil? I am already alive in Christ, and I look forward to the day when all enemies of Christ are made into His footstool before permanently perishing in Hell.As for you, you are currently dead in your sins as a child of Satan, and you do his bidding. You are his slave.
>>520074902K check their fingers like I saidAnd also kill yourself
>>520074911This.
>>520074911ok. thats your weird warped view anon , i dont see any merit in it nor any reality in it. Want to try actually attempting to explain our worldviews to each other or you wanna just throw more insults under the guise of you just being "religious"
>>520074902A good exercise would be to close this thread and don't engage with a pack of """Christian""" ghouls salivating over you slitting your throat, just saying
>>520074351I see why prayer didn't work for you.
>>520074941i will start with the latter objective presented.
>>520074911>the noose is ever-tightening around EvilLol, lmao
>>520068905>50 posts by this IDThat's a lot of excuses!
>>520075066Pussy faggot. I can't WAIT until you're at the absolute end of your rope and it comes crashing down on you. Keep thinking you know shit, you dumb fucking faggot. >W-what did he mean about female anatomy? F-fingers...?Do us all a favor and off yourself now, you worthless fuck.
>>520075144excuses for what
>>520069784>>520070858I'd take these two seriouslyMaybe a change of scenery? I like a change of scenery. Move somewhere new.>>520068905
>>520075021"2 And you were dead in your transgressions and sins, 2 in which you formerly walked according to the course of this world, according to the ruler of the power of the air, the spirit that is now working in the sons of disobedience, 3 among whom we all also formerly conducted ourselves in the lusts of our flesh, doing the desires of the flesh and of the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, even as the rest."This is what God teaches us, that before being saved, we are dead in our sins, enslaved to Satan as his child...I have not insulted you, I have told you the truth that you are rejecting (which is also to be expected).
>>520075189i dont claim to know shit, another schizo logic leap. More please. I need more schizophrenia entertainment good sir, start explaining who you will get your revenge on, and explain what the numbers and symbols mean , go on!
>>520068905wait till you find out that making it worse makes it worse
>>520075252i dont understand how this changes anything, for one. I dont agree with the basis of your ideology on multiple levels, it just doesnt work for me as a beleif system, no religion does, no ideology does in general. So i dont get much use from these religious excerpts
>>520075359oh fuck...
>>520068905Try it the other way around. Force yourself to have the kind of thoughts you want. Then your brain will cooperate.
>>520069994People force themselves all the time to go out and "do things". Usually their friends push them into activities. If you don't hang out with people, then you need to push yourself. Nobody gets a nice or neutral life just by existing. Do you believe you deserve a life that you don't hate?
>>520075449It changes everything, as we are now oriented towards the Truth when we were once oriented towards lies.When you are at the end of your rope, I hope that you will find Jesus Christ, God willing."it just doesnt work for me as a beleif system, no religion does, no ideology does in general. So i dont get much use from these religious excerpts""5 A stranger they will never follow, but will flee from him, because they do not know the voice of strangers.""27 My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me; 28 and I give eternal life to them, and they will never perish—ever; and no one will snatch them out of My hand."
>>520075763i dont reguard myself with "deserve" or "dont deserve" as that is irrelevant to me. I want to not exist , that is all
>>520075901anon please know, im putting aside our argument here, i mean this sincerely, your posts dont make sense and would likely turn people away from, not towards, your religion. Your posts, for instance, in my view, make me more confident that religions in general are making people schizophrenic or unhinged. im not even trying to be rude but 100 percent honest.
>>520068905You're an attention-whoring faggot, probably raised by divorced parents who ignored you for more important things. That's the source of the void worthlessness you feel, and it's not going to go away until you stop being a pussy and accept it.Enjoy this reply, (You)-huffer. I'm not wasting another on you.
>>520068905start drinking you ultra faggot
>>520068905No it's not the way at all is it. You know what I was supposed to be by family background and birthright and ethnic genetic and body brain? Air Force Pararescue. https://files.catbox.moe/sog52k.pngBut after an entire young lifetime of the evil city of Denver and all it's 95 out of 100 people that were absolute enemies (Remember, No Christians)Deep End Deep Black Pararescue of 4chan's Userbase from degrade & disrupt and making the platform less interesting to users it is. Now GamerGate Genesis of MAGA is The inferno firestorm, place your sandal's sole atop reddit and twitter and discord and united states deeps state censorship industrial complex and just anyone you need to's utter war enemy shit heads.Who to this day plot to Medical Abduct And Mortally Abuse with Gaslighting and Gaslefting And Shitlefting Your Asshole and Lethal Injecting Lawfare and attempting to take the Terrorist out of Your Name. Should they all crime their way back to power somehow. Power to covid vaccine experiment on you to death of course.Remember, https://banned.video/watch?id=62977d805ce0a2355898d9c5Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold were given gangstalker's bloodborne nanotech and radio wave, and ass rape by glownigger Arapahoe County in 1998.
>>520076141The thing is, people cannot choose to become Christian.People are predestined by God into becoming Christian. Either you are fated to be chosen by God or you aren't. Hence why I said:>I hope that you will find Jesus Christ, God willing.
>>520075967wanting to not exist, suggests that the problem is internal. It's not life that sucks, it's your life that sucks. Saying it's life in general that sucks, sounds like cope. Maybe reframe the issue as "my life sucks but I can do things to improve my situation" . Ruminating on the negative thoughts (everything sucks), only makes it worse.
>>520076355oh im sorry am i stealing all the attention you clearly want? oh im sorry for making a thread about a personal issue, shall we all sit and give you the attention you so clearly want first? How long do we need to give you our attention?>>520076431no.>>520076590this is nonsensical gibberish
>>520076655I reject them pre emptively , no thank you .
>>520075203>nigger reaction image>OP full of "poor-me" faggot sobbing>50+ posts ITT that only morons readYou must think I was born yesterday.*spits on you*
>>520076705>It's not life that sucks, it's your life that sucksno, thats where we disagree, my life is fine, life in general is awful. Its not my situation. Its the fact there is me, or a situation, in the first place, thats what i distain
It is I who owns the True DEVGRU AR. And I am here and trained decades to shoot you in your federal existential glownigger federal Fuckin' Face.>>520076766
god, you're pathetic, it must be soooo haaaard being a mentally 14 year old edgy attention whore
>>520076947nonsensical gibberish>>520076954you dont get much attention for wanting to kill yourself acrually in my experience.
All Your ((((Race)))).
>>520076906Faggot you're in here bitching about wanting to die all the time. And you still also claim that you don't believe your life sucks? That's contradictory, and makes you sound like a 15 year old angsty teen. Idk what you wanna hear. Yes, the world sucks, you're special. So special that no one ever in the history of mankind will understand you. No words or works of art will inspire you. Nothing good or interesting or even mid will happen, because the world isn't enough for someone like you. I feel your pain. Stay strong. The money taxpayers have spent on your alleged treatment, is worth it. That's the least that the world and humanity owe you.
*fixes everything for $15 spores*
>>520077226I correct myself. It's not the world that's not enough for you, it's life itself!
>>520073947Why don’t you just become an al Capone tier criminal? If you get caught, you can always just start a fight with a lifer in jail and get stabbed and if you don’t then you get to live the greatest life ever. Might as well take the risk
>>520068905Have you tried smoking bongs and playing video games?
>>520077226my life is better then most peoples, and i still hate life in general. No contradiction. But anyways thanks.>no one ever in the history of mankind will understand you. No words or works of art will inspire you.>Nothing good or interesting or even mid will happen, because the world isn't enough for someone like you.that does kind of hit the nail on the head doesnt it
>>520077319i tried shrooms and was not impressed>>520077463im not interested in that nor capable.>>520077480yeah
>>520069499>oh oops i posted on fucking pol . i meant r9kWhile youre here let me tell you about the Jews.
>>520077593all i know about jews is, they are bad, at least they aren't muslims, and all i know about muslims is, they are bad, but at least they aren't republicans
>>520077513I was being sarcastic. That's obviously a faulty way of thinking.
>>520077588How old are you?
>>520077588What dose did you try?
>>520068905>61 pbtidI'm the same way. I can't find anything that's worth doing anymore.
>>520068905Have you consider that maybe if all else failed your problem is one of neurological nature? Like having an autoimmune disease that constantly activates your anger center, or some injury early in life that nobody told you aboutMight be worth a check ( yes anger and hate have specific regions in the brain)
>>520077588Just do it
You have to accept that if your positive emotions are futile and fleeting, so are your negative emotions. The dread, self loathing, anxiety? It’s just as inconsequential. You are surrounded by people who take themselves so seriously because their brains are wired to eat the delusion. Just know that they matter even less than you do.
>>520077666Ok Satan.Have you considered that your whole life and everything you believe is a lie? That your subconscious knows that its a lie but your conscious mind won't allow you to consider the possibility, because you do have faith, faith in a system that hates you, faith in men.
>>520077722no but that is how it seems to me, and i like that way of seeing things. That makes sense to me. I find it inspiring.
>>520077588You have a chance at a perfect life anon
>>52007773424
Get a pet
>>520077811That explains a lot.I was an angsty kid myself.
>>520077739idk but i tried lsd too and wasnt changed either.>>520077769i dont have dread, self loathing or anxiety. I have general distain. And ive had it for over a decade now .>>520077774i dont beleive much ib the first place, so what would the lie be about? In what way do you mean .>>520077788i would rather nonexistence
>>520077787Lol. Then go be happy about it. You can be as conceited as you want. No need to feel suicidal because the other plebeians don't rise up to your level.
>>520077829i hate animals
>>520077958>i dont beleive muchYou believe in "left wing" and "right wing" politics and believe one side is better than the other.That's a lie.
>>520077963no its not that im better then others, its that life i just bad.
>>520078019i was making a joke anon .
>>520077958>idkIf you didn't do at least 5g then you never tried shrooms. Look up the data on psilocybin and depression, it literally cures 90%+ of people with treatment-resistant depression
>>520077958>i would rather nonexistenceBut you're still here so your actions imply otherwise. Have you even been 180mph before? Are you scared to go that fast? I never was, I always had a death wish but never did anything about it, I just liked rolling the dice.Your emotions will fade as you get older and you won't feel as intense positive, or negative emotions in your 30s. It gets better, and worse.
>>520078195i cant drive a car anon .
>>520078175oh ok where should i get them and with what money oh yeh they are illegal and expensive and i have no money oh well lol
>>520078243This was on a bike, I couldn't afford a 300kph car. Used to make me feel alive. You should get your drivers license because it will cheer you up a bit, buy a cheap toyota corolla and go for a drive somewhere.
>>520078317i can not drive a car and never will be able too, long story
>>520078299Get a job as a manual labourer and save what you dont spend. You wont need to exercise after work and you'll be earning much more than your government payments.
>>520078299The spores are $15 and people on the shroomery will send them to you for free. >IllegalYou grow them in brown rice jars indoors. If you get caught doing that somehow you were never gonna make it anyway
>>520078392I cant get a job, in america you cant work basically without an education and i failed high school and cant pass the ged .
>>520077958What do you enjoy doing? Is there anything you enjoy?
>>520078564No.
>>520078386Idk you sound pretty good at making excuses but maybe you have an eyesight problem or something.Things wont get better unless you make them better and if you dont know what better is then its hard to take a first step.As a start do 10 pushups, 10 sit ups 10 squats and a 10 minute walk. Every single day, take one teaspoon of concrete before bed each night and you'll be feeling better in no time.
>>520068905>t. man with no planned goalsJust turn that frown upside down!
>>520078492Aha so we are reaching at the deep end of the problem, you have asperger and hate having sensations because your brain is wired wildly incorrectlyThere is no cure sorry
>>520078638>Things wont get better unless you make them betterbetter how? in what why do i want things to get better? i want to not exist , i dont want things to be better, no, i want to not exist.I already excersise a lot i do way more then the nothing you are posting, 10 pushups lolalso, concrete? the fuck ?
>>520078492You can work as a manual labourer without an education. I've got a friend like you, hes nearly 40 now. He was always brilliant at making excuses and now hes nearly 40 and can only just walk, he cant drive a car and lives with his mum. He finally got on disability after being on benefits for 20 years.
>>520078741i have many goals and do not want to do any of them , why are you making shit up>>520078757no i have diagnosed autism , not aspergers
>>520078769>i want to not existIn the time youve spent in this thread you easily could have accomplished that, but youre still here, you're still talking so whether you want to admit it or not you want things to get better and you want to feel better. Making yourself not exist is pretty easy. Easier than trying to make things better.
>>520078787>You can work as a manual labourer without an educationnot in america, also i do not want to , also i cant drive there , also i would have meltdowns in public settings like that
>>520078875>i do not want toThere it is.But doing what you want all day hasnt made you happy thus far has it?
>>520078872>In the time youve spent in this thread you easily could have accomplished that,incorrecti have tried killing myself many times and plan to try again soon
>>520078822>i have many goals and do not want to do any of themThere's the issue - Your goals aren't set high enough that you want to achieve them, they don't motivate you.
>>520078937i have not been doing what u want all day. I have been seeing , feeling , and hearing, i dont want to do that. Ive been excersising regularly. i dont want to do that , i wrote books and made albums, didnt want to
>>520078942You either kill yourself or you dont. I've had multiple friends kill themselves, none of them "attempted" it. They jumped off a building, crashed a car at 200kph without a seatbelt, or hung themselves.Suicide attempts are something people do as a cry for help because they want other people to acknowledge that they are in pain, not that they actually want to die.
>>520078961i have attempting switching out goals , no , nothing appeals to me, there is no known goal high or low that interests me
>>520079063ok, i will kill myself , that has been my plan for a while , thank you ,
>>520078822>no i have diagnosed autism , not aspergersSame shit, you got the bad luck of being that breed of autists that hate feeling sensations bc they got wired with badly, no cure that I know, but you can offer yourself as a lab rat so research teams try to investigate random shit with you
>>520079042Son, i'm not going to be able part of your pity party and this isnt r9k. If you wanted to die you would have killed yourself. You dont want to die, you want to stop hurting and feel better.So work towards that and stop trying to solicit people's pity.
>>520079113You won't, youre still going to be in this thread talking to me. Stop feeling sorry for yourself.
>>520079133i will kill myself, already explained, what else you want ? i get you get sad from sucide so pretend it never happens or whatever, byeStop assuming your pity is desired faggot.
>>520079198I dont feel sorry for myself, i just hate life , can i make myself any more clear.
>>520079227>>520079260>i just hate lifeRight, you dont want to die you want life to get better so that you dont hate it. What's why youre still in this thread, still talking to me./pol/ is a place for frens, please feel free to start another thread after this one but I reserve my right to tell you to harden the fuck up.
>>520079367>Right, you dont want to die you want life to get betterincorrect, i want it to stop , i want to stop existing, that is what "better" means to me, so we can agree that i want life to get "better" in the sense of it ceasing.
>>520068905>i cant figure how how to stop hating lifestop doing all the things you hate, chief among them, going to work for pennies on the dollar for zog.
Btw you own me 50 buck for my acurrate diagnosis
>>520079493what if existing itself is one of the things you hate
>>520079480But you are still here.Last time I felt suicidal I called up a suicide hotline and they told me to kill myself, not a word of a lie, "kill yourself." That was of course because I didnt take the covid vaccine and unvaccinated people were being likened to Hitler, and not because of his public speaking ability.In a strange way it helped. Maybe for a time you can live out of spite until you get a little older and figure out life isnt that bad, but its also not that good, its just kind of mediocre.
>>520079600welcome to the club lad
>>520079801>But you are still here.and ? so what ? people in jail are still in jail , doesnt mean they want to be in jail . you just do not and will not get it.
Find a vocation a worthwhile craft or a calling.
>>520077958Sounds like you watched too much porn
>>520079920It means they would rather be in jail than dead. Besides the only prison youre in is one you made yourself and have the key for
>>520079944tried, couldnt>>520079977Nope
>>520080000k, well it seems appearent to me we just have completely distinct views of the world. See, i plan to kill myself soon, im getting the supplies ready for it, and will be attempting to die. I cant fathom, for one, not seeing how difficult it is to kill yourself. I have tried hanging, electricution, dehydration, ect, so, you saying its easy to die is simply not true to me . i will be attempting again reguardless soon
>>520068905unironically the answer is jesusI've been on 15+ meds, in the nuthouse twice, had my brain shocked, had other bullshit like mitochondrial laser therapy, CBT and group therapiesthe world is full of evil and the ultimate goal of evil is always to turn you away from godonly jesus gives me any hope and joy and peacei'm getting baptized next month i'll pray for you bro
>>520080148Dont , i dont get along with god according to that religion. In fact , i distain the god of Christianity, shame on them
>>520080114Its just not that complex. Save the threats for your parents.
>>520080000also btw guards prevent you from killing yourself and tie you down lol
>>520080225>*Never read the Bible*Start there
>>520080308what threats? my parents know, i talked with them about it, they told me to just do it too, just like you, and i plan too
>>520080348No.
>>520080397Ok dude it's time for mods to delete this thread
>>520080225he loves you anywaystill gonna pray for you broi felt like you did toohope you understand one day
>>520080000checked and witnessed what a waste
>>520080397No one has told you to kill yourself. Your parents are obviously sick of hearing about how you want to be dead but every day you keep living and keep telling them how you want to die. Its like telling your parents every day you want to go to college while you stay home and masturbate over gay porn. Eventually your parents are going to listen to your actions more than your words.Its obvious you're in pain, lots of people are, your pain isnt special or unique. Youre also a liar, being depressed doesn't excuse lying.
>>520080621im not in pain bro we already went over thisyou are getting angry at your own fantasy of what a suicidal person is, but your warpedd view of a suicidal person is nothing like me. You are fighting phantoms. Hello anon? im over here! can you see me? Hellooooooo~?
>>520080509I thought it was good advice.
>>520080739anon i was in a mental ward myself and they tied me dwn , how was i supposed to die then ? how do i kill myself now? you say its easy so help me out
>>520080726>im not in painSomeone who isnt in pain doesn't say they want to die.Suicide happens when the pain a person feels exceeds a person's ability to cope with pain. That level is different for everyone and it doesn't make them weak. Its not that different than jumping out of a burning skyscraper.I've felt suicidal for longer than youve been alive and Im trying to give you real advice. If you want "oh you poor thing" you'd be better off calling a helpline.>>520080841Its not easy to kill yourself in a locked ward. That's why they put people in a locked ward. Youre not dead because you dont want to die, but if you cant talk about what has made you so sad and angry then idk what you wanted?Do you want our pity?Your OP looks like you want advice.
>>520080991>Someone who isnt in pain doesn't say they want to die.then why do i want to die despite not being in pain anon
>>520080739It is good advice, you're just using it on a faggot
>>520081096Because youre a liar, im not sure if youre lying to me or yourself, but its probably a bit of both.
>>520081206oh ok, i see we are playing the "that doesnt fit in my worldview so i will pretend its not real " game , cool , why are YOU pretending a person can hate life not due to pain but just prsonal preference? its not shocking
>>520080148And Remember,Should the name of Jesus ever successfully get used to use you and your nation to nothing but skull fuck deathliest damnation despoiled like Egypt and Germany and the United States gotYou can Always Always Always trust in soldier of fortune 4chozo and Nyggers,Who Wholly Owns The Millennial Reign And Second Death Exorcism Kills 99.999% of libglowmos instantly.https://files.catbox.moe/d12cqt.png
>>520081293Im not playing a game.In any case im done.Good luck Anon.
>>520081352>Im not playing a game.yeah you were you just dont realize it yet, bye
>>520081434yeah , i stand by what i said , its nonsensical gibberish
>>520069499All good brother, I just want you to know that you're not the only one. No homo but I love ya dude and hope you figure it out one day. I just drink to cope with shit lol.
>>520081512alight we cool
https://archive.4plebs.org/pol/search/username/Nyggers/((((Moloshit)))) You Ever Stood Even.>>520081471
https://files.catbox.moe/vacfhm.png>>520068905
>>520068905What helped me, was countless hours pacing in the disgusting basement of a soggy, bug and mouse infested empty house, in front of a whiteboard. And when my power would get cut, at a table with a kerosene lamp and a notebook. First, I identified how I was feeling bad. (anger? envy? anxiety? sadness?)Then, what was causing me to feel those bad feelings.Then, I wondered how I could change the those things. Then, I weighed the pros and cons of my options. Once I settled on an option, I had a direction. Then, I went in that direction, and I'm still going in that direction.Every day, I get closer, and every day, I feel better than I did before.And when I look back at the notes from those years, I can hardly believe how far I've come.This has taken me years.
>>520081583yeah nah thats just a bunch of schizophrenic mania induced nonsensical garbage man, i get it makes sense to you, it does not make sense to me and likely not to most in its current form . Explain your ideas simply if you expect people to understand.
>>520081684this at least is something coherent , thanks.
If youre coming here to make a post about it you are looking for other people to fill in reason for you and/or are hoping deep down someone has an answer for you. Otherwise it would not mean enough to come here in your "dark depressed life" that has no meaning to you. If not that then you are still likely looking for attention which is (i hate to tell you this but) still looking for meaning in life. You are speaking the opposite of what you actually want. Every reply is a complete wall, and you never really explain in detail what ails you other than "i hate reality and feel nothing". So clearly, like a baby, you want someone to tell you what to do. You are looking for an answer to something. I do not wish you ill will but a life of challenge that forces you to make a decision. And hey, if its off a building, do a backflip for me?
>>520081842>"i hate reality and feel nothingno no, i feel sstuff just fine , i want to feel nothing instead , clarification.>So clearly, like a baby, you want someone to tell you what to do.you made your post subconsciously wanting to boss people around, like a toddler>And hey, if its off a building, do a backflip for me?now THAT i can do , now we are talking
>>520068905>exercise doesnt helpactually everyone says this one does but i am le tired and lazy
>>520082086i have been regularly exercising for over a year now
Get off incelchan and go to bed.
>>520082215yeah but the thing is man i really dont know who to go to, obviously this website isnt working but i really dont know what to try except just suicide
>>520082000Ive read your posts, you literally say that most people and activities mean nothing and feel like nothing to you. Or you feel no attraction to people or activities. I did not make my post with intent to boss. IN fact Ive told you to do nothing except make a decision. A decision to make things better. Like others have said, you likely have not committed to activities that would "help" you long enough to feel anything other than butthurt for yourself.On a final note, im glad you get my meaning. Kneel to lifes problems or perish, the choice is yours.
>>520082278NO NO NO Are you trying to piss me off? COME ON.
>>520082295*Kneel to life's problems and perish or make choices to better your life. Crying about it here wont fix nada.
>>520082295K, perish, final answer , there ya go
>>520082389come on what ? i do not understand
>>520082278WHO TO GO TO and your first thought "Hey, that 4chan pol may have some constructive ideas"..wut? The only thing less worthless than 4chan is the US government.
>>520068905By the third line I knew it was demoralisation.It's a disease of society caused by red pills and black pills. There is no defense or immunity. Those who seem immune are merely asymptomatic and often super spreaders. You can't escape it any more than you can escape the past.
>>520082464not my first choice of who to go to, i tried family, professionals, hotlines, other websites
>>520082509This isn't who I think it is, is it.
>>520082485germany coming in with the truth nuke .
>>520082541likely not, no
>>520082141I'm sure if we actually knew what you were doing every day the consensus would be it's clearly not enough.
>>520082582*facepalm*
>>520082585ok. this still all just seems to indicate that suicide is the correct option.
>>520082655It isn't. How old are you?
>>52008270124
>>520082748What do you like to do daily?
>>520082551AI went out on a leg and told me shrooms and LSD may help, to just kinda btfo your old perspective and reach enlightenment.I didn't try that yet. It might work for some.The worst part is you climb this mountain in search of help, in the hope it will let you improve.But it accomplishes no such thing.Instead now you are alone at the top, looking down on everything and everybody, with nowhere left to go and nobody to ask.Lethal levels of comprehension.
Ahh the ol ill just kms to get out it's this whole existence problem. We've all been there anon. Somewhere along the line it dawned on me that theres no way that it actually works, that you ever get to experience non-experience. That would be too easy. Its a great thought but it amounts to mental masterbation. Cold hard truth is you are stuck here just like everybody else. There's no way out but through. Sit with it long enough and you'll realize the same thing.
>>520082778Like to do? i dont really want to do anything. What do you mean?
>>520068905KYS Whiney bitch.Call a suicide hotline
>>520082748No offense but your brain is just at the point of maturing into an adult. You should be fair to yourself and give yourself more time to properly evaluate life and find something to do. Make yourself useful.
>>520082849ok, still got to give suicide the ol sporting attempt (again) , its part of the fun
>>520082864That's it. There's nothing you like to do or to work.
>>520082901NO it isn't you retard.
>>520082868i will kill myself, planning on it. hotlines dont help>>520082881but i have been suicidal since i was 7
>>520068905Prayer + true belief is the only thing that works. Meaning, you have to stop controlling everything. Admit you are not in control and smile through your suffering. Be grateful for the little things--a roof over your head, food in your belly, a bed to lay down in. Stop doom-scrolling, remove screens from your life for a week. Find sokmething to be passionate about; go back to school, learn to play an instrument, get a shitty part time job and make friends in real life. I was the same way once, took me falling in to addiction and living in a homeless shelter to finally figure it out. I was 40. All is not hopeless.
>>520082925Right.>>520082950Why not.
>>520082963No. Sorry, im just not going to do that , sorry.
>>520082958Nope you will not. You need to be a full adult know how to discern things. Get a job, girlfriend, and wait until age 32.
If life still sucks by then, check out.
>>520083073i can not work , i am not interested in relationships , and will NOT do those things. No.
>>520083134Yes you will. Why can't you work?
>>520083116i was told that 10 years ago too lol , and i went through so much horrible stuff that would have been averted through me having killed myself.
>>520083197I do not have an education and can not drive a car also would have meltdowns trying to get to an area consistently multiple times a week and likely be arrested
Atleast your not a trans faggot op, or a furry. You have a few things going for you
>>520082972Because you'll die anyway, soon enough. There's really no need to rush. In the end you'll be dead all the same, so you may as well keep observing how it develops.Before that you should definitely blow your brains out with all sorts of drugs and research chemicals, as a last resort.
>>520083210And I can see you chose not to do that then, and here you back at square one. Maybe if you tried it, you feel something different.
>>520083250Has that happened before?
>>520083264yeah so i plan to try again soon enough at killing myself.
>>520083348So what happened. Tell us.
>>520083308yes when i was sent to school originally
>>520083367what happened with what ?
>>520083377School is not the same as being an adult and going to work.
>>520083402The last time you had a job.
>>520083408ok? i am still severely autistic, would have meltdowns, would be unable to arrive on time consistently , ect. I am still unable to drive or do basic math , ect. I can not work
>>520083480i never had a job and ineligible for employment
>>520083481Can you write?
>>520083566yep i have published books even
Also.. your body commits suicide for you anyways so why the rush? Dont be a pussy just experience existence no matter the fuck what and you always get to die anyways. Its baked in. Theres a hank Williams line "aint gonna worry wrinkles in my brow, cos nothings ever gonna be alright no-how, no matter how struggle and strive, ill never get outta this world alive" Just do what you came here to do and die, simple as
>>520083615Why not die earlier
>>520083598Keep writing. That's work. Keep doing it. Report back.
>>520083657i wrote 7, hated doing it, sold zero copies after 4 years , i hate writing .
>>520068905Have you tried getting some BBC?
>>520083656Cos that makes you a bitch ass nigger
>>520083656Then wait until your 32 so you can say you experienced everything.
>>520083696shut up poland.
>>520083656Because you have nothing to gain from skipping turns in this game unless you experience truly intolerable suffering.
>>520083684No you don't or you wouldn't have done it before.
>>520083713being alive makes you a bitch actually lol>>520083719i may wait till my parents die but thats it .
Write a suicide companion novela.>>520083787That's a better strategy.
>>520083759nope , i hated writing and still do .
>>520083843You have an audience here on 4chan.
>>520083873i recall a few years ago making threads showing it off on lit, that is true . I still hate writing
>>520082963You sound like homosexual masochist.I am not into that.>All is not hopeless.Yes it is.
>>520083941But you can do it without driving and getting arrested.
>>520084009why would i do it when i hate doing it .
>>520084043Cause it's something to do.
>>520084134that is why i did it initially but hated it so much i stopped.
>>520084165Write it all down and sell it on 4chan as a dark comedy.
>>520084003Solipsism has a point. Ultimately you exist only for yourself.Caring is, on some major level, a choice, albeit possibly a difficult one to refuse.
>>520084165Just be like me and write kinky AI chat bots.
>>520070378I felt the same way. I don't know what changed, but I just felt different after a while. I guess because I read the Book of Mormon and tried to stop watching pornography.
>>520084223i already wrote a dark comadey, i hate writing, im not writing any more books, also you cant sell stuff or ike to selling stuff you get banned, i dont care about money either.
this thread was retarded
i hate you all
>>520084285Could be untreated ADHD, too. Gives you insane frustration with everything that just keeps building, without the energy to release it thoroughly.
kill me gawd
>>520084380Liar
>>520084346Well i guess 4chan did help. Jesus would help you if you let Him.
>>520084346Don't worry anon, you can always troon out
>>520084408ok fine i lied about that one , i feel neutral annoyance towards all of you
10 grams of mush and lock yourself in a room. That is truly how you kill yourself. And its true that whoever the fuck you are now needs to die, and the person that walks outta that room wont even be you anymore. Re: >1 oz psyconught experience
>>520084457solipsism my ass.
>>520084423i dont care for jesuses teachings anon>>520084427fuck off
>>520084475i dont have access to that and drugs didnt help before g .
>>520084494Ok. Well, rebuke suicide so we can go.
>>520084494Alright, on a serious note what haven't you tried yet?Have you tried group therapy? Perhaps trying to make some friends? There are organisations with people who have autism that have meetups, you could meet some other fellow autists.
>>520084577no. i plan on killing myself soon
>>520084580i trieed killing myself before got arrested many times, tred al that shit, i just want to fcking die ,
>>520084618no rebuke it or i will.
>>520084666i plan on killing myself , its my personal choice anon .
The one requirement for getting better is wanting to do so. There's rotten people out there who just want validation for their shitty choices.
>>520084543Its not a drug and you can order this shit online anywhere nowadays. I'd describe what I went through as more mind shattering than being abducted by ayys and brought across the whole universe for eternity's. Theres no way your coming outta something like that and just feeling the same
>>520084649And what would need to happen for you not to have such a need to kill yourself?
>>520084734you get locked up for years or it in the us, they check the mail , its not accessible at all
