not self diagnosis, real diagnostic impressions from a licensed psychometrist and psychologist with a PhD. i have no money, no friends, no hobby or skill or occupation, i had to cheat to earn a GED, no car, don't kno how to drive, i can't hold a thought in my brain besides death for very long. im 27>mom would take me for car rides where she would get abruptly unraveled and begin swerving the car dangerously while screaming at me "Do you want to die?" "Do you really want to die?" after I had expressed ideation to her when I was 8>my felon uncle was alone in a room with me and he pinned my 5 year old body to the floor with both his hands clamping my wrists bearing his weight from above while he hung loogies in my face and mocked me for being weak>when I was 3 or 4 my stepsister who was 7 or 8 began taking my clothes off and using my penis on her body as if she was trying to act out a porn scene she had been accidentally exposed to. I had no possible way of being cognizant of what was actually happening to me until I was 10 and my mom told me to shut the fuck up the one time I brought it up. can't feel an identifiable emotion when somebody touches me now>one afternoon during weekly split custody arrangements my mom and her new boyfriend preemptively called the police on my dad who was picking me up from daycare and as we are on the sidewalk out front my mom and her bf pull up in a cherry red 80s camaro and proceed to jump and beat him with wooden baseball bats, I'm 5 years old and I'm standing less than 10 feet from this happening, there is blood on the sidewalk and I have never seen my father cry before, and I cannot do anything but cry in terror and whatever the 5 year old equivalent of remorse is, then I watch my mom and her bf fabricate a story when the police arrive and my dad is shoved into a police cruiser while looking right into my eyes, then my mom later rebukes me for recounting this memory to her and tells me "you are just like your father"
>>522045091>85 IQIf this was true you wouldn't have the self awareness to want to kill yourself.
i am a completely mentally and emotionally shattered person my ability to process cognitive and emotional information is compromised and i have to live with the turmoil that i have no evidence for some of their abuses and that the school faculty, police, court system, and my own parents failed to protect me when it was extremely obvious that something was horribly wrong at home, not even a visit from CPS, no teacher or counselor at school seemed even slightly alarmed when I would become catatonic and cry in agony for hours, no one even brought up the idea of taking me to a therapist because they wanted to selfishly protect themselves from consequences, and that their freedom was ultimately worth more than I was. Most of what I think now is suicidal ideation>questions I carry with me>why didn't I defend myself, why did I let it happen>did I deserve love or am I not supposed to be around>was the abuse justified because I was weak and didn't report them>should I attempt suicide again since building a happy life from here is extremely unlikely>should I traumatize myself with gore videos more so my mental state is more precarious so I have stronger suicidal intenti ideate about these methods>asphyxiation by full-suspension hanging with a 1" diameter jute rope boiled and waxed affixed to my apartment stairwell railing>contact handgun wound perforating the head/brainstem, my 2A rights are intact so I can fill out an ATF4473>chemical asphyxiation by charcoal burner in bathroom>blunt impact by the ~160 foot tall bridge within walking distance of me, suicide fence looks surmountableTo the mods:this thread is to start a discussion about Eugenics, Child Protective Services, and general ethics of merciful euthanasia; I am merely offering my story as an argument for why we should expand CPS and consider eugenics in Americaalso my ancestry is danish, french, and icelandic, my grandfather was a 6'4" viking guy, so i don't wanna hear presumption
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>>522045091you sound like me but I have different problems as well with a higher IQ.If you drop a discord or twitter or something I can get in contact with you(:
>>522045091go to churchor google the phone number to a suicide hotline, if you're an infidel
>>522045091Bro at least ur whiteNo?
>>522045201half the posts on this board are from legitimate senile Facebook boomers who were laughed off of Facebook, plus bots that are trained on such postswhy the fuck do i come here
>>522045283having white skin doesn't count for much when you're severely mentally ill, other white people still don't want anything to do with you
>>522045264>>522045091Don't go to church, they will just tell you that some jewish guy love you, you need to be strong for him and it all happened according to a Ola, so i guess the jew guy planned your dad getting beaten with baseball bat all along :)(Kidding, i know it's fak nie)
>>522045091>>522045190This is the sick sexual fantasy of a gay man (pedophile) who has a fetish for abusing young boys
>>522045459>>522045286yep. OP is a gay kike
>>522045407I'm exactly 27 years old as wellJust go to brown or yellow countries and have sex bro. Cope with sex.Also, your parents don't give a shit about you now. You have to man up rather than taking in SSRIs and please the pharmacy jews. I've been there as well.
>>522045459no, the reason i put all this effort into posting is because i am real, this happened to me as a child, and i have nobody left to share my pain with but the internet. im struggling to find therapy here eat shit
>>522045091Of course not. You got a golden ticket. Go sign up for disability. Enjoy living a fully sponsored life.
>>522045091my aunt tried to rape me when i was like 10she was like 19-20i think she watched 'charmed' or some shit about witches and demons and it made her mind retardedthankfully i refused to kiss her with tongue so she fucked off
>>522045091Do individuation
>>522045609Is she uggo? . if she is then good for you but if not then you're a fag
>>522045091WTF is this thread. And they tell me leftists are the fucked up ones.
Dont kill yourself over this, IQ is meaningless.Be honest with yourself and explore whatever you enjoy .
>>522045734she had decent tits, but unlike you id prefer not to fuck family membersis it common in Philippines to fuck their family members if they are sexually arousing?that would explain why DOTA2 has the lowest IQ region SEAafter China restricted youth from playing more than 2-5 hours of video games per day SEA region felt like its full of inbred retards
>>522046000I'm screwing wit you nigger this is 4chan and a bait thread. if you can't take it go back to plebbit
>>522046122pinoy jokes are so funny> dude just fuck your relatives if they are hot> im just playing with you fool'!> pranked im so funniaverage pinoy would love to breed their aunts, sisters, mothersits okay anon, we know
>>522046316That's funny coming from sweet home Alabama and Billy of the hills loving they kins
>>522045509>>522045539thank you
>>522046423true,pinoys could prolly relocate to alabama and save america by cross breeding, creating some kind of disgusting weird human hybridsno other future is possible for americamove your people to alabama before its too late
My parents literally met in an insane asylum. My mom and dad stayed together but continually fought in knock down drag out brawls. Very bloody. My mom hacked her way through the bathroom door with a butcher knife to continue a fight. She shot his windshield out and got glass in his eyes. I had to tackle her and take the gun away. I was little. My mom and my sisters molested me from the time I can remember. I wondered why they had holes between their legs instead of what I had and thought they had been badly injured. I always dreamed after the molesting sessions that someone shoved dynamite up my rear and blew off what I had and made me the same as them. I saw my dad backhand my mom break her jaw and put her in a coma.My mom left him for a few weeks and got a boyfriend. He would pin her on the couch and put his stuff in her hole and jump up and down on her and make her scream so I got his rifle and shot him. It was too heavy to hold so I balance it on the arm of a chair.I eventually got thereof and married.5 kids many grand kids. 62 and about to retire not in luxury but comfortably. Married 39 years.Shake it off and step up fellow Human.
>>522045091gratsif u think u are retardedu are not as retarded as u think u areu have to be relatively intelligent to understand how retarded you arei know plenty of retards in usa who live great livesyoull do fine opjust shut the fuck up and do shithow you feel does not matter
>>522045091Join Reddit, you'll be among your true people.
>>522046782fucking brit get the fuck out of 4chanu are not allowed to be hereur king forbid it
>>522045091Don't even think about it, just do it, and all your problems go away
>>522045091>k, boomer, send my photo to your friends and fuck off!>there are WCG quals soon, i need to prep up>Grubby guys seems retarde...
>>522045091No you should not end it, because it hasn't even begun yet.Find Jesus Christ, and let the great physician heal you.Lord Jesus, please help this one. amen and amen.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HGHqu9-DtXk
>>522046591It sounds gayBut you should believe in urself.There's no other way man
>>522045091>i can't hold a thought in my brain besides death for very longi am similiar just wanted to say that. i have no advice. its been bad recently. dunno why. i feel i lived long enough, nothing will change, ive done everything i wanted to do. what else is there? just wait for death?
>>522046637Ok pajeet
>>522045091Your mother is a psychopath, your uncle (I am going to presume your mother’s brother) is also a psycho. And your step sister most likely got raped by one too and tried to do what psychos always do, spreading their dysfunction by raping you. Anyway forget about bullshit labels like ‘autism’ and ‘ADHD’ and ‘IQ’. These are worthless labels for you. They are like elaborate rugs or curtains that conceal the truth. Truth is you could not cognitively or emotionally complete your maturation process. And you know why that is already, it was disrupted, sabotaged and stunted by the influence of psychotic mentally ill freaks like your mother, uncle, and step-sister. You can’t hold a thought in your brain for very long, not because you are stupid. But because your own mind knows the cost of thinking too much. Thinking is pain, thinking takes you back to Hell, back to the memories of what you endured.So your brain shuts your thinking off automatically to protect and preserve your own sanity, what little you have of it left.You have no money, because that would require self care and ambition to achieve. You could not care for yourself because your life is a shit show. You have no friends because you have witnessed what humans are capable of, and you dont enjoy the idea of multiplying chaos in your life. You have no skills or occupation because that implies knowledge and drive. Things father was supposed to teach you, but could not, because your mom made sure he was out the picture, Humans are not born competent and successful. They are raised that way. There’s two types of people: People who were brought up, and people who were dragged up. You got dragged up. That is why your mind is in tatters. You know why this happened. The answer is not in suicide. The answer is killing your old way of life, and starting anew. Leave your mother.
>>522045091Go hiking
>>522045091If your mom bakes you a cake in that specific glass pan, you are definitely low class.>>522047280No
>>522045091>>522047190Lastly, concerning ‘IQ’. The only people who obsess over this number are the mentally ill. By that I mean, people who have NO sense of self identity. Those who do not truly know who they even are or where they belong. They love the IQ system because it gives them a number, a rank and file, a false sense of identity. If they get a low score, they get the perfect excuse to shirk accountability and a nice victimhood badge. If they get a high score, they get a nice false ego and meritless sense of pride, a trophy built on nothing.It’s a fool’s game OP. Do not seek intelligence. Seek wisdom. Wisdom is something everyone can develop, even (you). Wisdom without intelligence can give you a great life. Intelligence without wisdom only brings ruin and suffering.This is why you see so many so called ‘High IQs’ fail at life right after school or college. They had the smarts, but none of the instinct. They had the finest bullets, but the most broken gun. Rendering their intelligence worthless. Intelligence is for thoughts. And all thoughts are worthless unless acted upon. Wisdom is for action. And without wisdom, even smart men will fail to act wisely. Go and make an action. Any action to prove to yourself that today you made it a step towards a better life, that you did more than yesterday. Follow that line of action and watch where it takes you.
>>522047132unlike you im whitepinoy = subhumanthankfully pinoys get to stay in their shit hole, and are not allowed in usawhite highest IQ pajeets are populating alabama, creating actual superior human beingsgod bless the USA andgod send more pajeets to pinoy cities
>>522047451>NoThen stop asking for advice and kill yourself
>>522046122>I was only pretending to be retardedOl' faithful. Namefags get the rope.
>>522046656Fucking hell lad, steady on.>>522047526Quality post, have a (you).
>>522045091I love reading these sob stories from disabled retard losers living in completely disfunctional families please share moar.
>>522045154fpbp
>>522045190>my 2A rights are intact so I can fill out an ATF4473If you didn't post this over Tor, then not for long...
