>>522059246
nope.
schizophrenia is what leftists suffer from.
they literally can't into reality.

>>522059246
Schizophrenia has been recognized as an illness since the late 1800s, you denthead

schizoaffective/bipolar here, ask me whatever

>>522060600
are you a happy person

>>522061287
Happiness is relative, I suppose. I'm not really sure what that means anymore. The antipsychotics I got put on ruined my ability to feel anything and shrank my dick. I lost all motivation to do anything. I can barely maintain a routine and I'm barely above needing assisted living if I'm being honest. I don't care about myself nor taking care of my health or living situation. I am a shell of my former self.

I've tried to get off the psych meds in the past, but I inevitably fall back into abusing marijuana and/or alcohol, and consume excessive amounts of caffeine and nicotine which eventually pushed me back into a manic/psychosis state and I had to be involuntarily hospitalized.

Psychosis is like a lucid dream where you are "awake" and moving around, but not completely conscious of your actions. Being manic is fun as hell, but the after effects are debilitating.

I did and said some terrible and terrifying things while I was psychotic. I have a conscious memory of doing them, even though I wasn't really "there" at the time, it was like someone else was "driving" my body and I was a passenger.

I think I finally got a grasp on my symptoms, triggers and how to cope without medication. Sobriety, exercise, sleep and sunlight are essential or else I fall back into walking the line between worlds so to speak. But each day is a trial. If the slightest thing throws me off balance, I have to mentally and or physically remove myself from whatever situation I'm in and essentially meditate until I get a grasp again. It makes day to day life utterly exhausting, social situations are a crapshoot.

Every episode of psychosis weakens your defenses and they will occur more frequently. I know I am doomed to a lonely life and headed towards some sort of dementia or alzheimers.

>>522062997
Half the reason your fucked is because you never stop thinking about your issues and because of that you isolate too much.

>fellow lunatic
You get worse the more you believe yourself to be fucked