>be me>a man>can't get a job for months>living off of savings>forced to go back to school to learn another career path>feel depressed>have no support system>family is worries but have a history of not wanting to listen to me complain>they say that i am a man so i should stop complaining, learn to be happy and that everyone has their own problems>naturally, i start withdrawing >feel so alone>haven't had a girlfriend in nearly a decade >all girls are either single mothers, ogres or crazy It is just over for men, isn't it? I can't better myself and don't have anyone that help help me emotionally, mentally and spiritually. I am expected to do everything alone and am less of a man if I need help. I haven't felt this level of depression in years and forget how much it actually hurts physically, mentally and emotionally. It started a week ago and feel like it is getting worse. I am hoping that it will pass soon. I don't normally drink but had to have a drink in hopes that I will feel better.I know 3i/Atlas is more than likely a nothing burger, but I really hope that it is really hope that it is real.
>>522547173The only promise to look forward to in life is the peace of the grave.
>>522547173Yes. Most men are worthless and were intended to die on the job or in some meme war.
>>522547327Through out my life, I always loved sleeping. I have the best dreams and they feel more real and exciting than life. When we pass on, I hope that it is a 24/7 dream.I just wish life would get better. It seems like no matter how hard you try and work, it just is never enough.If WW3 or any war happens, I don't understand how anyone would expect us to fight to keep this empire of shit floating
>>522547415That is a sad existence but I feel like I am one of them. Over population is a big issue, especially with all the immigrants coming in and jobs being sent overseas. I don't see any hope on the horizon
My advice is for you to chimp out and act like a wigger for eight weeks
>>522547603Kek! What would that accomplish? And do you mean dressing and acting like one too?
>>522547663*Talking, not acting
>>522547698Nah just dress normal, but everything else goes
Just need to get moving
>>522547173Bitches say they want us to open up but don't want to learn about the cabal of pedophiles that control the world. What's that about?
>>522547173Ronnie is wasted life KINO
>>522547173>In over a decadeI haven't had a girlfriend in 28 years
>>522547754Sheeeit dat do b sundin fun dhou>>522547787Like moving location wise or figuratively? I was thinking about moving somewhere that my savings could stretch longer
>>522547518After getting general anesthesia for the first time, I've got to tell you, there's fucking nothing. It's peaceful in its own way because you've stopped existing. No more worries or troubles. Just an everlasting blackness you have no way to comprehend or affect. You're just gone.
>>522547518Yea, I've spent a lot of my life with dreams being the only enjoyable thing to keep me going.I had a dream 14 years ago where I saw outer darkness. Was really scary to my younger self, now oblivion seems like the best dream I've ever had.
>>522547518The best part is no one really knows until they cross over. Is it just nothing, like those nights you sleep without dreaming? Just nothing. That would probably be preferable to eternal hellfire.Anyway, the fact none of us knows adds to the dread.
>>522547173>they say that I am a man so I should stop complainingDid you beat the shit out of them and tell them to stop crying like a girl?No?Then they didn't raise a man.Seriously man that gaslighting bullshit parents and relatives pull on the young is worth a homicide.
Sheeeeit
>>522547173I think life sucks by default.Social media just makes this truth much more hard to admit because it throws the exceptions in everyone's face everyday.
>>522547892Hmm, sounds like you should kill yourself
>>522547878General anesthesia is crazy. Literally sleep, but with a butcher cutting your meat out.
>>522547794Kek, that is too true.They want us to open up but call us pussy's for saying how we truly feel. If you actually shed any tears in front of them, you can expect them to cuck you the next day.If we share our vast info about the cable of pedos that rule the world, expect them to be calling the police the next day and have you labeled as a 5150.Men are forever alone.>>522547843ronnie is loveronnie is life>>522547849Wizard statusThis is like me talking to my future self, so I have to take advantage of it while I can. Does it eventually get any easier?
>>522547173lol @ that image. Welcome to adulthood since time began, anon but esp since mass produced stories in the form of endless book movies and tv shows made us believe we'd all be heroes and important, unrealistic expectations, we dont even realize the effect, and then the internet came along to force us to compare with the entire world and top 1% of society instead of top 1% of out Durham number small tribal circle. Impossible to avoid a defeated, miserable comparison with others. And the competition itself is depressing. Etc. Whole books written on this topic.>It started a week agolol. thats a good one.also, drinking is a depressant, a neurotoxin and a really shitty drug, and the last thing on earth you want to consume. even kratom is better, by FAR. Take kratom instead, anon. If you can. Pure kratom not the extract or whatever.Im sitting here for the last year & a half giving you the answer: burn to disk.Use distraction.Archive. Fantasy will set you free. look inside. let the sound take you awaayyy. at least until the pain passes, assuming you dont want to walk or exercise which (i hate the cliche as much as anyone but its true) will make you feel better. The internet is honestly the worst thing for all our mental health(s) (?) but we seem incapable of going without for very long. I for one am planning to get one more spindle of 100 DVDs and burn the rest of those movies to them and then seriously disconnect from the internet and just keep my phone and laptop as electric media players as I am not working and am blessed to be in a position where I can go without the internet and not get fired or whatever.Hope this helps.That image is fucking hilarious lol. Thank you.There is a "list of pleasurable activities" online somewhere as well. part of DBT & I heard of it through SMART recovery & etc. related:>>522521977Hope you feel better, anon. Alcohol is seriously the worst though.Please, dont drink any more!
>>522547993Think about it a lot.Do have some concerns. I've witnessed reincarnation IRL, so...I'm pretty sure I have to suffer it out to forge the spiritual fortitude to murder the entities that will try to convince me to come back.
>>522548023No sleep here. A total time jump from when I went out to when I came back. I'm a weed smoker so I know what dreaming but not remembering it feels like and this was an entirely different feeling.
>>522547173>I know 3i/Atlas is more than likely a nothing burger,It's not.It's literally over l. Humanity is one the end times. Also 3I isn't by itself. It cooperates with R2/Swan.
>>522547173I'm focusing on finally bettering myself in 2026. I mean it this time. I will get my Masters of Accounting and CPA and get a job so I can get laid finally. Or might try a Data Analysis bootcamp. I just doubt I will get a job with it and it costs $3500 so its pretty stressful. I guess as males we just have to keep striving and praying our efforts pay off in some way.
>>522547892I had reoccurring dreams where I would dream in my dreams (usually by drowning) and felt at peace while my body just laid there. That is probably why I love that Tears for Fears song.>>522547927I fucking hate it too. To be honest, I did raise myself because all 3 of my father figures wanted nothing to do with me. My mother has a bad habit of getting with man-children that act like she is their mother and every one of them got jealous if my mother gave me a little attention. Said that I am a spoiled brat and should grow up. This was between the ages of 8 - 15.>>522547963I never had any social media, even in high school. I never understood the concept of sharing your life with others.
>>522547173>I haven't felt this level of depression in years and forget how much it actually hurts physically, mentally and emotionally. It started a week ago and feel like it is getting worse. I am hoping that it will pass soon. I don't normally drink but had to have a drink in hopes that I will feel better.Something has been increasing the negative pressure recently.I can feel it.Don't let Satan win, anon.Live to spite him if nothing else.
>>522548288They just want you to fail so their own failure doesn't make them look bad.The wealth of goodness, even when experienced in subsistence, makes them the impoverished fools they project onto everyone around them.
>>522548307Your religion promotes scapegoating as the greatest moral act God has ever done.
>>522547327>>522547892>>522548094Good thing you've found something better.
>>522548307>Live to spite him if nothing else.Ive never asked for this life and i live because i have no choice, spamming faggot
>>522547173>FUN!>>522547843you have to lose weight for the large size in america
>>522548058>since mass produced stories in the form of endless book movies and tv shows made us believe we'd all be heroes and importantI did fall for this meme when I was younger. I thought having a hard life would make everything better when I got older, but it really just makes life more difficult.>lol. thats a good one.I've been depressed before but haven't been in years. I forgot how painful it is.>even kratom is betterThis is my go to drug and the only thing I do. It wasn't cutting it for me today so I decided to have a drink. I don't normally drink so I am just going to have 1 or 2 vodkas and sodas.>ArchiveI have 2TB of archived data that I have because it is media that I love and I am scared if it disappears forever. I would look through it before but I am too distracted to sit and watch anything as of late. I will read through the linked thread though and probably check out /torrent/ since I haven't been there in a while>Please, dont drink any more!Kek, I'll try not to. I use to have a drinking problem in my early 20's, so I refuse to ever go back to that. Today is just once in a blue moon.>>522548175I hope so, anon. This is the first time I heard of R3/Swan>>522548196Any luck that FAFSA will help? I am also selling my plasma to scrape by. That is an extra $400 a month if that will help.>I guess as males we just have to keep striving and praying our efforts pay off in some way.It just sucks that it is never enough
>>522548633Join the army then, Ivan.Go take a drone in the face.Too busy being a pussy for that though, aren't you?
>>522547173>forced to go to schoolNope.
>>522548307I hope this is true, anon.This feeling is overwhelming and hopefully in subsides within the new year.>>522548443>They just want you to fail so their own failure doesn't make them look bad.I always go this feeling from them but didn't know if it was because I was paranoid. Even now they treat me like a child and a failure even though I built myself from the ground-up.>The wealth of goodness, even when experienced in subsistence, makes them the impoverished fools they project onto everyone around them.This is too true, especially in America. We have a term for it called "Keeping up with the Joneses". Basically a way for our material possessions to define our worth in life. My mothers husband's always wanted to be better than me and I can feel their contempt whenever I bettered my life.
>>522548604Look at yourself. You can't form a counterargument. You can't form your own thoughts. You are only capable of regurgitating quotes from the authority that's been controlling you since birth. Why do I prefer outer darkness to your God? Because your God is EVIL. That's why he demands you remain ignorant and not think for yourself. That's why he makes you worship child sacrifice and scapegoating. You have invested yourself to a patently evil God, and you have nothing but a bunch of quotes that tell you questioning itself is a sin. You worship a petty god of jealousy that says learning is a sin. Christianity IS the reason things have gone so awry. Because you were convinced a story that should be about protecting miracle workers is actually about using their suffering to feel better about your own iniquity. If you saw an innocent person serve a prison sentence in place of the true murderer you would call that injustice. But when it's Jesus paying for your mistakes?But of course, questioning God is sinful. Just blindly support the tyrannical authority that condones scapegoating, because you don't want to take personal responsibility for your own karma.
>>522548734I have a degree in computer science, which is useless now. I have too much experience and education to be a fry cook. They tell me that I am "overqualified" which basically is them say "we know you will leave for a better job if you can asap".I need to do a different career path or else I can't do anything at all.
>>522549010Your skin is too precious. Grow up, kid. You're not special.
Nirvana=outer darkness. The cessation of experience. I want to get away from whatever this place is, and whoever is responsible for making it this way.
>>522549062Are you a bot? That response made no sense.
>>522547173Date a tranny :3
>>522549095no...
>>522547173I spent a good chunk of my early adulthood in a depression that I didn't realize I was in. Failed life path, careers that went nowhere, relationships that just fell apart. I hated most everyone else but really hated myself too. Eventually, I met and married a woman. I tormented her for the first few years of our marriage, constantly testing and attacking her. I had this notion that if I could drive her away, it would prove she never really loved me and then... I don't know? I'd be right? But after a few years of hell, she never faltered. She just kept loving me and believing in me and building me up.Eventually we had a son. And then another child. And then another. I'm working a shit job that I hate. It makes just enough money for us to live poor, but enough for her to not work and spend time homeschooling our children. I've made peace with the fact that I'll die working. The things I always wanted to do with my life, I'll never do. The potential I'd always had will never amount to anything.But right now? I couldn't be happier in my life. All a man really needs is a woman who builds him up. But if you have that and children that love you? It doesn't matter how shit your life is, how bleak the future looks, how doomed civilization and your white race is. Every day is a gift worth living.
>>522549092You're way too soft to be posting here.
>>522549430I feel that life would be easier if men had a good support system; a good woman to help them through life. That is really all that we need, but it is so hard to do in modern times because all modern women aren't happy with a simple life anymore.You're one of the lucky ones, anon. And super lucky that you didn't drive her off while you were testing her. I bet having a family to provide for makes any job worth doing. I hope you and your family continue to have a happy life.
>>522547787Just gotta get the ball rolling
>>522549616How? All I told you was the reason why I have to go back to school.
>>522548604Just look at what Christians teach about the 'second coming'. The guy nailed to a cross because all the people he helped were too cowardly to protect him? He's just going to swoop down and make everything right, no effort needed from his believers. Just trust in the plan! Just two more millennia!
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>>522549763School? During a world war? How fucking retarded are you, wannabe house nigger. Another degree won't fix your situation.
>>522549727I genuinely believe that for men, real happiness comes solely through being loved by a good woman. Everything else in life, children, a home, financial footing, are secondary. Sure, they bring pride, stability, and a sense of direction, but they’re not the core. Men are built with a need for purpose. We’re at our strongest when someone depends on us, trusts us, and looks to us with confidence. But it's also the reciprocal. We're built up by a woman who loves us, supports us, and believes in who we are and who we're trying to become. It calls a man upward. So, while I hope you find success in your new career path and a support network to help you through, what I really hope for you is a good woman. You could be a total failure at everything else, and still be the tallest standing man with one.
>>522547173Get fit, eat right and work a trade, maybe something that's dangerous. It will remind you what it's like to feel alive.Start riding a motorcycle. Something other than feeling safe and secure all the time. Also, drinking is for special occasions only, or not at all.
>>522550090There isn't a world war yet. I need to think about the now and not the hypothetical future >>522550109This really makes me think, anon. For 10 years, I have only focusing on bettering myself and my career and it has gotten m e no where and I have nothing to show for it and am just miserable in the end. Maybe I do need to stop being an incel and try to find a good women. To be honest, it does sound like more of a difficult task to find her but will be worth it if I do
>>522547173>Call younger selfYou need to say nigger more.
>>522547878I've had general anesthesia, but I had a dream similar to this once. I dreamed that nuclear war broke out, and a bomb went off near my house. I was too terrified to look at the cloud, so I turned away and let the blast hit me. I died in the dream, and there was no afterlife. I had a sort of ego death for a little while. It was very cold, but also strangely calm.
>>522547173Are you me?>It is just over for men, isn't it?Yes.>I know 3i/Atlas is more than likely a nothing burger, but I really hope that it is really hope that it is real.Shit. You really are me.
>>522550352>Get fitCheck>eat right Check>Work a tradeGoing back to school to become an electrician and tried applying to my local IBEW.>Start riding a motorcycleKek! I was unironically thinking about getting a moped! It's more lame but I like the way they look and feel like they are safer, even if that isn't true.>Something other than feeling safe and secure all the timeOoof I should have read this before writing out my sentence. I do need to live a little and stop being holed up.>drinking is for special occasions only, or not at all.just a little for today. I haven't drank in months and really need it
>>522550510kekmy younger self would just say "faggot" back>>522550570Kek! I feel like a lot of the real anons on pol are kindred spirits and 4chan is a force that drives us to be closer to each other.
>>522550618>>522550717I'm fit, eat right, and applied to my IBEW for inside wireman recently.
>>522550847Shut up! We just might be the same person!
>>522547173You got to wonder how long this shit system can survive for. If 50% of the population feels completely left out, then how the hell can this house of cards survive? Just about every man is screwed over. Add in the some women also are getting screwed, you're talking unsustainable levels of anger eventually it has to collapse. Until then we have to find our own meaning. Yeah women are shit, but gotta try and hang out with other guys. We're in this shit together after all.
>>522547415>Most men are worthlessOnly some men are worthless pieces of shit that merely act human and they can hide very well. Most men are varying degress of worth with some having only one or two good things about them while others have at least two hand's worth of fingers to count on for what they're good for. >>522547927>Seriously man that gaslighting bullshit parents and relatives pull on the young is worth a homicide.Burger parents right now will have movies made about them in the future demonizing them the same way muh hall of cost still does to this day.
>>522551239Honestly, any other nation can invade America and half of the Americans wouldn't feel like fighting because they would be hopeful that the invaders bring a better system than what we have here. At least in my opinion
>>522550618Nice work, stay positive.I was in a really bad place 18 years ago. On drugs and ready to end things. Riding was probably the best thing for me. I am approaching 50 now and have no regrets and life got a whole lot better. Don't get a moped. If you want to learn buy a small bike like a Honda rebel 250. Buy it used, it's cheap. You will outgrow it quickly and can sell it to the next guy who needs to learn for the same price. By that time you will know what you want.
>>522547173> I know 3i/Atlas is more than likely a nothing burger, but I really hope that it is really hope that it is real.You sound like me in 2012. I wished dec 12 or was it dec 21 was the end of the world but it didn’t happen. I’m shocked I’m still here 13 years later. Nothing ever happens, things just get a little progressively worse.
>>522547173> >can't get a job for months>living off of savings>forced to go back to school to learn another career pathI noticed you never even considered working a lower level job or doing some basic labour hire. Of course you have time and money for going back to school though don’t you. Sick of you liars and people who don’t wanna do what has to be done. You aren’t special and you think you are. You are no better than the toilet cleaner or garbage man, in fact those can be good careers compared to your doing nothing and making excuse after excuse.
>>522547173I see you stopped using doomer wojaks.>>have no support system>>family is worries but have a history of not wanting to listen to me complain>>they say that i am a man so i should stop complaining, learn to be happy and that everyone has their own problemsThe thing is they're not really worried then. It's that thing boomers do where they performatively pretend to care, because it would be bad to be seen as a cold hearted ghoul, but they're not actually doing anything for you because they don't actually give a fuck and are just worried about their self-image.
>>522547415Throughout history men were the only gender with WORTH, the fact you post this dumb shit while simping for whores who literally have the lowest birthrates in history shows how satanically inverted society has become.
>>522548666>you have to lose weight for the large size in americaJOKE IS THAT RONNIEEI IS FAT FUCK AND NEVER LOST WEIGHT
>>522547173Skill issue.
>>522551455boomers would demand you die for freedom and their mcmansions, then be confused no one under the age of 45 cares as long as their -nothing- is left alone.
>>522551537>Nice work, stay positive.Thanks, anon. It might sound faggy, but talking to people online really does help me.I was looking into some motorcycles and really like the design of the Indian Scout, but I am going to check out some local dealerships to see what I have that's available to me.>>522551570>things just get a little progressively worse.It's the lack of speed that is torturing us all. Ever since 2008, we noticed everything going downhill with no hope of anything improving.>>522551612I considered it but can't get a job because I am overqualified. I mentioned it in another post that I am too lazy to check the #>>522551613>The thing is they're not really worried thenThey wouldn't know that something is wrong if I didn't cancel plans and no longer wish to be around them. I was suppose to visit several family members for the holidays but cancelled because they would all be passive-aggressive about me not having a job for months even though no one is helping me and I am supporting myself. I hate the hypocrisy because I heard stories about how their family members supported them financially and help them get jobs, but we're expected to fend for ourselves
>>522547415There's always one gynocentric boomer nigger to leave a dogshit post. Bet this retarded faggot gave his whore daughter the world but left his son out in the cold to rot.
>>522547173You have to be proactive and not have unrealistic expectations. Success starts with little victories.
>>522551754Too much skill issue>>522551757I wish WW3 would start just so I can see everyone's shocked face that no one wants to die AmericaThe sign tappers really are onto something
>>522551455CheckedThe founding stock that built America are hated to death. Niggers were told to go sit in their own corner back in the day because we didn't expect niggers to run everything. Now that the shoe is on the other foot we're supposed to suffer endless abuse while playing Atlas holding up the entire retarded world. Torture is what makes (You) a demon. >>522551613Boomgroids are expert sociopaths. Nobody survives for 30+ years without making moves. 60+ year olds should never be perceived as naive dipshit retards that don't know what the fuck they're doing. It used to be common sense that anybody older than a teenager definitely knew what they were doing and that oldfarts are dangerous as hell for being able to make it to old age. They've been doing solids for themselves for decades it's not like they don't know how to do it.
>>522552149This DEI and pro immigration is going to be the final nail in the coffin. I hope Trump will do something about it but he said he was going to make a change a long time ago. I still remember when he was going to do something about the jeets flooding America but it ended up being a nothing burger
>>522552521I'm codine CONvinced that the economy will shit blood no matter what now. Trump had about a year to turn this ship around and it's almost been a year.
>>522552761I part of me wants it to happen because I want it done and over with, but I know I won't survive it myself. But the suspense and anxiety is killing me slowly
>>522552521Finger slipped>>522552761Basically Trump plus your boomgroids are stalling for time. They're not trying to stuff guts back into America of prosperous work. People that refuse to give (You) the respect of a gangster aren't worth your time and energy. Instead of planning how to make shekels they're using your lack of current respectable employment as an excuse to run demoralization operations on your ass. They have no right at all to shame (You) about anything. >>522553001The first month or so of societal collapse will have raids on grocery stores. It really depends on your area of how much should be done in what category. Securing a food supply is one of the first steps. Keeping yourself out of the way of the retards spares yourself so much. Eventually there will be knocks on your door.
