i tried to be a good person and to follow christian & nicomachean ethics i tried praying, reading the bible and following the commandmentsevery time i chose to do good instead of bad i got fucked later on; i also feel shittested by the universe 24/7. I had an important event some time ago and was praying about it everyday, working hard for it, doing well on practice, sleeping well -- basically doing everything right. the night before the exam I even prayed for a good night of sleep and went to sleep. I woke up at fucking 1 AM horny as fuck and couldn't sleep again, I could've just jerked off and slept but no; I thought it was a fucking demon tempting me so I tried to "resist it" and go to sleep but couldn't sleep and as a result I had 4 hours of sleep and a boner.even with that I thought "wow i resisted it God will bless me like i prayed for it's ok"the event went shittier than the shittiest practice. it was not only important as fuck but it tainted my entire career. also the girl i was talking to and supposed to spend christmas with started ghosting me and we waited for the result of it togetherfuck my life. it's all over because i didn't jerk off that night. my biggest regret is not masturbating and it's not even a joke
>>524313088Christianity is a Jewish death cult you absolute retard. Become smarter or perish.
>>524313291from where is this
>>524313088If your moral compass tells you not to fap you are retarded. It is literal medicine. Reduces your risk of prostate cancer if you do it often enough. Also feels very good. Also, hot bitches hate this simple trick. Literally removes their power over you. Just do not overdo it. It is a quick fix to calm and it does involve your brain chemistryOther than that a moral compass is good to have. I have committed many crimes, sold a lot of stuff. Karma is "real" in a way, but the score is not tallied by some imaginary deity. You open certain doors of negativity and negativity will follow you and hurt you, bad.if you look into the abyss the abyss will... something something.
>>524313453nofap ruined my life
>>524313512It aint over 'til the fat lady sings.Just get rid of that happy clappy shit. There is no interventionist god that gives a damn about what you do. Just accept that you are not that special. This is a good thing.
>>524313712lesson learned, thx anon