>be me, 30yo male in Niggerville FL>28 days fent free - only good thing here ->except still addicted to meth lol, better than dual addiction i guess>no job>less than $1500 to my name>getting evicted in exactly 10 days by my own mother>no real friends, no family willing to help, total ghost town>only thing keeping me going is my 15lb 7yo dog, my absolute best bro, alas shelters much harder with pet. to lose would be devastating.>Almost a decade since last had the warmth of a woman>only Ws in my inventory: a car with good plates and a valid license + fent free>what are the actual odds I make it out of this and build a successful mostly sober life?
>>533503046If your mother is kicking you out for being a meth addict, then you need to get prepared for street life
Stay off fent and you’ll be fineI got out of prison at 30 doing well now, if your city is a shithole go somewhere better, find work you like doing don’t be too honest with people the rest will fall into place over time
>>533503351thanks anon, this gives hope. I am very proud to have kicked fent. I am able to go anywhere now for any job thats true, i should look elsewhere outside this nigger infested shithole.
>>533503046same boat fren>32 NEET dropout>destroyed my body>arthritis in my back, wrists and knees>recently broke 4 ribs, my wrist, my thumb, fractured my skull, my zygomatic arch, also had a brain bleed>all this from a fall>also have GERD, asthma>too fucked up to work but keep getting denied disabilitydunno what i'm going to do lol, dad is getting old
>>533503493damn sonny, what did you fall down fromt the 3rd floor onto concrete? my long term situation is worse yet, have chronic hypercalcemia due to mutation, not trreatedable. kindeys slowly but surely calcifying into fucking stone. Been daydreaming often about throwin self in front of a train, which is not good. Sucides run in familiies, already lost half brother to him doing this. So the fact I am daydreaming about it, without of course trying to, is not good.
>>533503046It’s doable and fixable only if you get off meth and fent. Either way it’s gonna be hard. Functional car means you can DoorDash and Uber Eats 24/7 for survival (ass life but better than homeless). Get a pdf Haynes manual for your car so you have SOME resource on how to fix shit. School is probably out of the question. Manual labor or gig jobs are a must for survival. Ideally work for cash in hand, avoid all paperwork gayness.Good luck nigger
>>533503674>damn sonny, what did you fall down fromt the 3rd floor onto concrete? electric skateboard lol.>Been daydreaming often about throwin self in front of a train, which is not good. Sucides run in familiies,my grandpa on my mothers side did that, sucked off a shotgun in the living room. honestly i've been thinking a lot about death too. life is becoming more and more unbearable and it's only going to get worse as we age. i took care of my grandparents until they died, most miserable shit i've ever witnessed. just pure suffering and despair, and only death was able to fix it, after years of suffering.
>>533503046>SoberIts 110% on your hands, ask God for endurance>CarThat is still something, you can work delivery
>>533503046Yea bro have you tried like not being a drug addict bro wild idea i know just not doing drugs and ruining your life and the life of those around you lmao
Why couldn't you stick to weed and psychs? Maybe a little bag on a night out. To be bringing meth and fent addictions to your mommas crib is crazy
>>533503046Life doesn't end at 30; it ends the moment you leave school and enter the job market without a social life or established connections, so, well before that. Normies, millennials, and boomers will say, "You're still young," but your youth is utterly useless. The reality is that a 20 yo can have the exact same life as a 78yo (except that the 78yo boomer will have enjoyed life during their youth). Your life is predetermined from birth , I'm not telling you anything new, but you can still optimize it during adolescence, and adolescence is where you make your mark. If, for one reason or another, you haven't been able to build a solid social life by then, it's over.Millennials, disconnected from reality since the 2000s and living in another galaxy, will tell you that all you have to do is talk to strangers in a bar, like in their favorite game, The Sims. Except that in reality, it doesn't work like that. You're not supposed to make friends. It's weird, because you're already supposed to have them. Normies already have their own group of friends, their social life, and their family. Nobody makes friends at work, in a sports club, or anywhere else as an adult. They'll just be acquaintances you run into in those places, nothing more. Those who were able to have a social life during adolescence are the same ones who easily found work in their early youth thanks to connections and were able to more easily accumulate "romantic" experience. That's why Africans have 10 children per family in Africa, because it creates connections that will help. In the West, you're an only child and NEET/Wageslave, so that's it.In short, it's over, it's a glass ceiling, there's no such thing as "self improvement" or whatever, life is a race against time, but people tend to forget that, and the problem is that people only wake up to it at the end of their youth.
got addicted to adderall at 18. Justified use as was in college. Life was still somewhat normal, if hectic and wasted much money on those tablets. I supplemented my own script with at least a full on other full script if not 2 more from peoples i knew.one day, after running around this niggerville with bithc who i hate deeply but was source of adderalls, well, she wasnt able to fill them that night. This was something I wish I had just taken in stride but you have to understand I just spent 4 hours doing something I very much hate to do with someone I very much hate to see or even breathe the same air as them just to not even get my fucking Adderall and I was out like $200? So I'm starting to get pissed at her and she insinuates that she doesn't have exactly like Adderall and this piqued my interest and she told me she had meth after not much prying so she gave me a little bit poured it into a cup of water mix it around to drink it within about 15 minutes really felt good an hour or so later I was straight flying. Even hit a pipe a couple times that night. Basically I was in a vulnerable state of mind and she had something that always intrigued me but that I had known better to stay away from up to that point. I didn't do math for many weeks or months after that had a little bit of a stint with it but then I got clean like squeaky clean for some time maybe a year or so. Turn 22 moved out and it was off to the races by that point with Adderall again. I justified my use saying I was going to use it to graduate college which I did at age 24 not that that's done me any fucking good haven't used my degree one time total lease of my youth and I'm pissed off about that
Adderall or amphetamine generally speaking lowered my inhibitions to try other things like morphine oxycodone et cetera but the worst thing about Adderall is to come down, nothing is enjoyable everything sucks and you just sit there arms crossed pissed off not able to even really function at that point. Opiates were the key - come down they didn't exist with opiates basically no come down whatsoever. I don't even want to know the amount of money I've spent on drugs All in all maybe 100,000 over my lifetime but here's the thing the amount of money spent on Adderall is truly unsustainable I mean you're talking about these pharmaceutical tablets which go for anywhere between if you're buying in bulk $10 for a 30mg and it wouldnt surprise me if these go for $20 now. Understand this when you're taking 180 milligrams a day that's a lot of money for a busser or a waiter to make basically I worked to use and then I used to work and have nothing to show for it and it's very depressing to think back about that.
Fast forward to graduation I'm 24 and I just started using meth maybe a month or two prior to my graduation. Feels like a dream time compared to now. Family was proud, I was happy, but it's all just a blur because that was December of 2019 and the pandemic hit right after that so everything was fucked up anyway. I'm sitting around the house no job no work getting paid more money than I've ever made before by the government which is so fucking stupid of them whatever. And basically Adderall became very hard to find and very expensive nationwide drought at that point and meth was there and it was cheap too I mean you can get like a gram of meth for in person $50. Shockingly now you can get the stuff for barely $3 a gram if you know how to purchase it off the dark web. I'm mad at myself for not learning this earlier anyway. So meth is plentiful it's cheap and importantly you know you can get it unlike Adderall which can cause you to have your wife unlock wind around you because you ran out or they weren't able to fill the script whatever the case might be. Carried over from lowered inhibitions was the opiate addiction which now at this point oxycodone was if you're lucky $30.00 for a 30 milligram tablet and you're going to need more than that at least four of those a day and that's incredibly unsustainable. In comes fentanyl, it was pretty fucking sweet at first because it let me sleep at night and that's the thing that gets people fucked up off amphetamines or meth and especially but that didn't last long and what started off as a extended release morphine tablet to get me through the day and a couple bumps at night developed into needing a bump soon after waking up till needing multiple bumps all day. It became hard to leave the house actually I had to have all my fucking dependencies checked and calculated for how long I'd be gone
>>533503786Yeah I don't want some dirty meth addict living in his car with a dog delivering my food. That shit doesn't pay anyway, it's less than minimum after gas expenses. Go get a job at the Amazon warehouse or stocking shelves at Walmart. At least get enough to get a motel for now. Stay the fuck off meth because it WILL cause you to lose jobs, or get arrested and lose jobs.
>>533503046>>533503351a drug addict and a criminal what kind of nigger trash browses this places nowadays wtf lol
>>533503909Not me, I'm somehow still getting stronger and smarter in my 30s. Hornier and better with women too. I have more grays and thinner skin though.
Last Post in case one person by chance happens to read any of this. Basically the last few years of my life have been very chaotic I haven't been able to hold a job gotten fired from 8 or 9 jobs over the last three years I can't even remember all of them at this point and scraping by at best third time I'm being evicted all three times replied my mother not to get into that but basically that's wrecked any semblance of a relationship I have with her I can't even stand to breathe same air. And in short I was heavily drug addled and the walls were closing in on me very quickly. They still are actually. So I looked in the mirror about a month ago and decided I need to at least make some improvement in my situation. Can't let perfection be the reason improve at all. Decided to drop the fent. Actually I started to go squeaky clean for about four days and on the 5th I buckled and started taking my meth again after all I had to fresh outs waiting for me not even opened nearly 50 feet away. It's asking too much for someone to go cold Turkey meth and fentanyl after six years daily use. Happy to report it wasn't in vain though 30 days clean as of today with fentanyl
despite dropping FENT & METH addiciton for just METH, im still fucked. unless income source comes into play, and quick, its all but homelessness and prolly have to find someone to take care of dog. I was homeless or very nearly on the brink of homelessness for more than one occasion about a year ago paying for hotel rooms daily trying to ground together enough to cover my addictions plus roof over my head not to mention food for fucks sake it was extremely stressful and I hated my life and I can't going back to that point I think I might actually throw myself in front of a train before then but I don't see many ways out of this without more money and especially regular income and a roof over my head can't live in a car that's no life especially not with a dog
I'm gonna kill myself when I get there too. At least I ain't got no kids to worry about
>>533504741I'm going to give you some solid advice: STOP IT. Whenever you feel like using, just STOP IT. Grab a coffee instead, it's a stimulant. If you don't quit meth you'll never get your shit in order. You're getting fired because you're a fuckin meth addict. You keep getting pulled over because you're a fuckin meth addict. Kicked out of motels and shelters because you're a fuckin meth addict. You think others can't see it but it's written all over you and it's the reason you keep fucking everything up and burning bridges. Until you STOP IT nothing will improve. It's an acronym, so just remember:S- STOP ITT- TOP ITO- OP ITP- P ITI- ITT- TIt's really that simple.
>>533504843If you all could remember me when you kms and help me and family out with money and shit to have more white kids that’d be nice
>>533503046Leave Florida and go west. Settle somewhere random like wichita or Sioux falls and get a shit job even if it's fast food. There are places without niggers where rent is still 500 to 600 dollars a month for a nice place. Even random small towns like sterling Illinois are like this.Or go all the way to Vegas and try your luck. Lot of jobs there
Lucky cunts, born in the land of infinite opportunity and you retards waste it by getting addicted to this shittest drug. Go learn to build drones, it's easy as fuck and your gonna need them soon
>>533505019You go to a job center or on Craigslist. Job centers are used by all the extremely desperate employers who will hire felons. Usually labor jobs. You can probably contact a bunch online. Craigslist jobs are usually the same way, any employer still posting there is desperate and will likely not even do a background check.
>>533503046>what are the actual odds I make it out of this and build a successful mostly sober life?successful idk, but sobriety is literally a choice. if being meth free is another W to you then you can add it right now. the trick to 'staying sober' is not how it works out over time, you literally decide it right now. If you're serious, then you're sober from now. if you're not serious, then you're just rescheduling your next hit. making those postures clear in your own mind should go a long way to getting a handle on yourself in other ways.-t. 43yo with hangover whose life prospects mostly consist of chasing around my demented mother to stop her pissing herself
>>533504964indeed, you are correct. i did get pulled over a couple months ago, by the grace of god, drove home when had zero business being allwoed to do so. had 14g crystal in car, half g fent, pipe, license suspended, registraion on plate wasnt my own, registration invalid, and a tow order from the dmv. Cop gave me 131 ticket took my license plate and actual phyical driver license id and let me drive home. amazing what happens when you dont act like nigger. What they SHOULD have done at the minimum is tow car which entails inventorying the car finding mmeth and in FL 14g is automatic 3.5 years prison manadatory minimum. This was such a close call.now im driving legally. meth is gonna be dropped soon, i realize this isnt sustainable either even though its like 40 a week or so. To ask someone to drop fent and meth cold turkey after 6 years, it isnt realistic. and if I were to drop meth now, what odds do i have of finding income? basically 0. If i had job, and roof over my head, plans could be arranged. otherwise, life would rapidly fall apart.I dont think im obviously a drug addict based off appearence. sometimes in the past i have done stupid things. but mainly right now its the compulsion to sneak off to car to blow some clouds, even for 2 min, that i must resist.
>>533504819You are never going to kick the meth until you get out of the environment where it's a part of your daily life. You need to go somewhere and start over. Nothing is going to change until you stop doing meth.
>>533505128craigslist has been legit resource in the past, maybe i should check this out....
>>533505349youre right, but what you dont factor in is the after effects. basically without meth, getting out of bed to eat becomes monumental task. Try going and getting a job then working it. It might not even be possible if my life depended on it, not at first.
>>533503786>better than homelessNot true. staying in the park all day and sleeping in my car, or shelter for the night was surprisingly comfy. I no longer fear homelessness and cannot be threatened with it. It can take months, but the govt will eventually hook you up with a shitty studio, job/education assistance, car repairs, etc.https://youtu.be/fwgJgTL5JmE?si=uuJIDgg_ySRuYUY7
>>533505398meth is next on the chopping block, financially its not much, maybe 40 a week. but you try or read up on someone trying to kcik two very powerful ddrugs cold turkey. its actaully dangerous, can end up in pscyh ward. its not possible to do this, in my situation , income over everything basically right now i f eel
>>533505490in florida, even now and for at leat the past month, the heat is not survivable let alone the nogs
>>533505398meth and fent vs just meth is a start homie
>>533503787I had a friend that, when he was told in his 20s by his mother that suicide ran in the family, became obsessed with it and eventually did kill himself. I get the idea myself sometimes but i push it away immediately -i think this is key; dont plan it. Try different doctors to get disability, it takes a while but its worth it. Hope u make it anon
>>533505532Financially it's costing you a fucking fortune when you consider the jobs and opportunity it's soiled.>>533505618What's it even matter?You can't get shit done.I was addicted to cocaine and booze for and it didn't stop until I looked in the mirror and despised what I saw. Know what I did? I left. I left the apartment, I left my shit, I left the dirtbag room mate, I left the shitbag girlfriend. I just left and never came back. Literally just hopped in the truck and drove the fuck away. I quit drugs and I got baptized. I got my shit in order. If you want things to change you can't sit and keep score sometimes you gotta just flip the fucking table
>>533505458then get the withdrawal battle out of your system asap before starting the rebuild. your body can still come back from this at 30. weaponise yourself in your own favour and for doggo, before you get too old.
>>533506140dude nothing would make me happier to be able to never take another dose of meth.the reality, and anybody with long standing amphetamine (meth) addiciton wil be honest and telly ou just how useless, utterly incomprehsibly useless. meth is next step. first, roof over head for medium term. food in frigdge. dog taken care off. income, however little this might be, with a job. Then next step.Fwiw, I have kept jobs for several months but inehrently unreliable. this should be a bit easier now that only have the one addcition.
>>533506332I believe in you OP, give doggo a nice pat from meWAGMI
>>533505755Must be some kind of mental disorder, I think I have something similar, I remember as a kid when I finally learned what the concept of cancer was my mind just became obsessed with the fact of getting cancer and dying and it got so bad at one point I was breaking out in hives from anxiety. It was like I wasn't even in control of my mind. I grew out of it pretty quickly but damn it does become like a loop where it just feeds off itself.
>>533504495$10 for 30mg?Holy fuck I feel so bad for zoomers. When I was in college in 2012 a 20mgXR was like 4 or 5 bucks. A 15mg instant release was like 2 or 3 I think
>>533503046grow micro greens in your room.sell them to neighbors.it takes about 7 days from seed to sprout.
>>533505458you overloaded your systems with synthetics.you'll need time to recover from that energy.feeding into it will burn you out more over time.
>>533503046Ditch the meth, Anon, it's a literal brain poision making holes in your grey matter. Then try to make up with your mother, stress the progress you're making. If you can't imagine being sober right now, get on kratom instead. It's a mild opiate-like high with barely any side effects and eventually manageable to quit.Nothing will get better while you're still doing meth, you can be sure of that.Best of luck, /pol/bro
>>533503046Move to Europe BroI recommend Prague
>>533503046Why did you start doing drugs in the first place, retard-kun? Us white people can see retards ruin their lives and thus we know not to take their poison.
>>533504741>>533504819>>533506332OP, you need to get sober. Or at least just stop using meth. But if you can't get sober, a good first step is to reduce usage and become a functional member of society. Your problem is that because you started using Adderall to study in college (like many people) your body and brain think that you can use meth and go to work or do normal stuff. You can't do this. Everyone knows you're tweaking, seriously. Stop using meth to get through the day. Get a job. If you can't stay totally sober, then only get high on weekends. If that means you're awake for 48 hours high on meth before going back to work then that's what it means. But prioritize the job. Being a homeless drug addict is basically the lowest thing you can be in society. Once you're homeless then getting a job is impossible. So you'll start stealing or sucking dick for drugs. Then you'll go to jail or get raped to death by niggers, literally. I do drugs OP. Have for years. I have problems. But the number one rule of using drugs is to get high and have fun. You're supposed to do drugs on weekends when you can have fun and have no responsibilities. Drink lots of coffee or energy drinks during the week if you need energy. Save drugs for days off ONLY. If you can just be functional you can literally do drugs or get drunk as fuck on the weekends. This is basic shit manAnd if you can't keep the drug use to weekends, then you need to quit and be 100% sober before you become a gay faggot who sucks dick for hits of the meth pipe
>>533506694He was a pretty obsessive character, just had the wrong idea introduced into his system
>>533503046nigger youre absolutely doomed if you dont quit meth. be prepared for life to be absolute shit for 6 months minimum if you were abusing it like I was. really it took me more than a year to start feeling good naturally again. You have to do it if you want a semblance of a future. getting off fent was a great first step but you got more work to do. the alternative is being a dirty homeless tweaker for the rest of your life.
>>533507207He explained in his earlier post he started taking Adderall to help study in college. This is extremely common and normalized in American universities because so many young people are prescribed Adderall. When I was in college 15 years ago it was entirely normalized. Even at the peak of millenial dudeweedbro culture (like when pineapple express came out), Adderall was still more popular. I knew good Christian girls in college who didn't smoke weed or cigarettes or even ever drink more than a beer or two here and there who would nevertheless take Adderall on a daily basis and had no moral qualms about selling any for cash. It's really extremely similar to meth just doesn't last as long. But a lot of Americans barely even consider it a drug, it's like tylenol to themAnyway. Then the person OP bought Adderall from was out one night but they offered him meth and from then on he liked meth
>>533506332>this should be a bit easier now that only have the one addcition.Yeah, lots of meth-heads hold together a normal productive life, you'll totally be fine. You totally got this figured out. Pro-tip. You get a lot more bang for your buck if you start shooting it. Just get you some needles and that'll help you stretch your drug budget a little farther while you figure things out.
>>533507597I have the same ashtray, it also appears in the Trump movie. A beut
>>533503986shut your fucking mouth mountain jew, you live in disneyland and dont know anything about the real world
>>533507597I can smell that photo
What *I* would do is simply not leave. Come on, you have a dog to take care of ffs. Let's see how far she takes it. That's what I would do. You'd have to not get caught with the drugs then if worse come to worst, though. Otherwise, I (I as in me) would definitely test the mother's resolve
>>533503986kys, faggot ass jew. We know who's doing it (well, I do but just give it time). Tick tock.
>>533503046I about you faggots but my life STARTED at 30.This is just some demoralization garbage. Im 34 and have 2 little boys now. A faithful wife. And a home.Sounds like you just fucking suck.Or youre not real.Get off the internet for a while and youll realize shits not as fucked as the chans makes it out to be.Im not saying leave entirely. Im saying take a hiatus and touch some grass. Youll be less of a faggot for doing so i promise.
>>533509311>i got minepathetic crab bucket mentalitykys loser
>>533503046Did you leave out the part where you don't have any friends because you kept stealing from them?
>>533503046If you want to make it, then your chances are >95%.In case you have no other option, go to a church community. Be honest to them, ask for help. It's their job to help you, but you have to honestly work on yourself.Make yourself a 10/100/1000 day plan and execute it. Don't forget adaptions if necessary.Good luck!
>>533503046I'll pray for you anon. Tough spot. Turn to Jesus and stick to it you'll get out..
It’s funny how the “smartest” people in high school were so up their own ass that they failed to launch. People try to teach you to not be a fuckup your whole childhood - they put it in tv shows, assemblies, your school lessons, etc.. but then retards think they know better and listen to none of it and cry about hitting 30 with nothing to show for it.Guess that? 18-30 is the time to stabilize your life. Yeah, you can have fun and experiment, but fucking around for 12 years is on you. At some point alarm bells should be ringing and telling you to get your shit together; if not then you lack agency. A good life isn’t just something that happens to you, you have to work to make it.Most of yall are just lazy faggots who think working a 9-5 is prison or something. Enjoy your drug addictions, I suppose. Sure seems like yall figured it all out!
>>533503787>electric skateboard lol.Riding without protection of course.These things make crashes, it's not about if but about when.
