I find it very difficult especially when I feel like I know what existence is all about. I'd rather not think at all if possible rather than languish in the torment of my own mind as I imagine horrors beyond comprehension. We all get buck broken in the end because it isn't a question of if, but of when. Life is craptastic art I guess. I rolled melancholy and screaming at the heebins for porpoise to no avail.
>>533631177Just remember you are a god, dude. It ain't hard, just painful and bloody.
Emo teenager.
>>533631258What are you doing? Say "you don't matter" instead.
>>533631808>What are you doing?Being a god. Try it sometime.
>>533631177Not being able to escape negative thought cycles is a sign of low IQ.
>>533631543>>533631808>>533632117Found the retards
>>533631177>I feel like I know what existence is all aboutWhat is it about?
>>533632173But deluding yourself with artificially positive thot cycles is high IQ?lol, lmao even.
>>533631177>I know what existence is aboutLe eternal pachinko ov souls?
>>533632422Collision with tragedy, misfortune and death. I guess I'm too attached to my eschatology. I am spiritually Jewish because I'm the kind of guy that will ruin the movie experience for all the people at the theater by scrolling the movie to the credits, spoiling the ending and farting into a megaphone before running out. I am pure evil concentrate. My haert is darker than Africa at night and stared into the abyss until it blinked.
>>533631177There is no need to have positive thoughts, its a coping strategy people do in order to cope with reality. The Stoics argue the quality of your life depends on the thoughts you have.But this is just a coping mechanism for dealing with the reality we live in.The holy spirit is a coping mechanism for trying to cope with the true nature of God.A resource scarcity with conscious beings inside that are forced to kill and devour one another in order that they survive. Which means that all of those that are alive are made in the image of the universal law giver. Whatever that is, should expose to you the image of the father, the image of what the laws of natural selection are creating.Look at the cunningness of this animal, this is God, you realise in the end that the totality of what you're looking at and you will come to a state in which you reject God, which means you reject life.In such a state of mind, men create the ideas of the holy spirit that apparently comes through us from the law giver, who simultaneously causes us to suffer, while pretending to care. You're in hell, you're not supposed to be happy.https://www.youtube.com/shorts/6HM6FfFy0Co
>>533632608So this >>533632540No, while you may think so, life doesnt have to be a huge pachinko, souls falling from high above, crashing with diverse obstacles and finally falling into a pit. Tough it does look that way if you're religious while holding some awareness...
>>533631543>Emo teenager.!SO WHAT IM A GAY EMO!
>>533631177Do you see art as a problem?the human mind is sort of attuned to search out problems and look for solutions. Evolution of human mind grew with society ,now we have alot of abstracted problems full of nuance and "special cases" and it seems like theres no solution other than suicidal depression. Most likely the blossoming awareness as you grow into an adult is really you just trying to make an identity for yourself. some of these ideas are too big for some to handle. If you worry about this shit youre either in a peer group/milieu with cultish doctrine. Or too poor for your level of intelligence.if you agree with some negative ideas youre either traumatized or think theres an allure to being traumatized and you just fake it to make it.
>>533632955>>533632826It's like the shark attack is the only thing that is fucking real to me. I wasn't raped as a kid, but I guess traumatic things happened to me that caused me to adopt such a fucked view of the world.
>>533632955>Do you see art as a problem?I see it as a cope. I like poking at the fact we are all circling the drain like a scab or an unripen zit.
>>533633159Cope is such a nothing word.everything is a cope under the lense of freud. Its unfalsifiable. everything you do is just a cope for being alive.>>533633098Scary movies, roller coasters , gambling-apperently, eating spicy food are all "safe ways" to traumatize yourself . Society provides all these things to traumatize its citizens. They even provide heady philosophies to traumatize those above hedonic persuits. everyone gets traumatized, its just part of growing up. society wants hardy individuals. success stories are all about post traumatic growth. but not growing as a plant or tree. We move about in the world, so our post traumatic growth is a journey. Sometime to long and ardious for you to handle, and the path is there to be picked up by future generations. we are beings stuck in time, and "shitty existence" is not eternal. we just tend to focus more on present problems rather than past successes. sometimes it can be good to take stock and see how far you have come.
>>533631177DTAJ
The world is much more hollow than it seems. By "the world" I mean all the constituents of experience in wakefulness -- everything that exists. A whole lot of nothing.
>>533631177>languish in the torment of my own mindkek
>>533631177You have to look deeper into the darkness.
>>533632608>My haert is darker than Africa at night and stared into the abyss until it blinked.durr
>>533631177for starters cut on drugs, anontouch the grass unironicallyexcercise, sleep enough, find a hobbyand it will get better, maybe not much, but better
