>getting less and less work at my WFH job>have to talk to manager once a week and pretend like I did anything >recently deleted DOTA2 because it was a waste of time and now have hours of spare time but no motivation to do anything>in my mid 30s and have no social life, etc., just a lone ugly beta male>advancing my career sideways would involve moving to London, saving less per month, living in a disgustingly tiny flat; don't know if I could take it anymoreI procrastinated learning programming for years and now it's automated and there's nothing I want to make.My total social loserdom and ability to become the lowest status person in every context has been hitting home. Society really sees ugly betas as total shit. I have no chance of success in any field which involves subjective judgement by others. Even if I had work, I can't be bothered to put in any effort.Feels absolutely subhuman to be living in Britain instead of the USA. This place feels like a padded room compared to the freedom of America. I remember reading The Network State by Balaji Srinivasan, the Silicon Valley thinker, and finding it too unrealistic but one thing that is now totally clear is that I truly do not identify with my neighbours or any shred of normie culture. Part of playing DOTA2 was seeing if I could get into some sort of alternative world but it's all a young person's game. I'm too old for videogames now.My 20s were totally wasted. Culturally, my time was probably 2004 to 2016, yet I missed out on everything. I am brutally subhumanly ugly.
>>534748762Take the truck driving pill
>>534748762>caring about status in a world where people with status are the biggest fools
>>534748762Nice blog-post faggot, liked and subscribedWhat I make out of your post is that you are very self conscious, and would benefit very much from stopping to feel sorry for yourself. Have a good day
>>534748762>nothing I want to makeThis is the issue. Of everything you typed, this is the core issue. You need personality diversification, to expand your interests and escape your current depression. If you do this then everything else falls into place.
>>534749282but he's never made a decision in his life he's just been doing what other people tell him to do
>>534748762only good thing about ur blog is that your less likely to ruiin my DOTA gamesstick to real life hobbies loser
>>534748762Work on improving your ugliness? Not sure what else to tell you. If you can hold down a decent job with an actual skill set, you already have the tools needed to at least improve your physical appearance by 20 to 25% minimum. I was in a similar situation, but I managed to un fuck myself by actually paying for a nutritionist and a personal trainer
>>534748762If you want to come to the USA let me marry your sister or something and we can work on getting you over here. I have been looking for a nice British woman (ethnically British, mind you) to have kids with so I don't further muttify my genetics.
>>534749338Understanding the problem is the first step in solving it. If you can write it down then it is 50% solved. If your thinking that isn' realistic then your problem and/or the potential solutions are not realistic. If you don't see a way forward to your goal then why not consider different goals? It is more satisfying to achieve occasionally then to fail constantly, but the difficulty has to be set appropriately. This is Game Theory, the way our minds deal with tasks and rewards by releasing dopamine.
There's no freedom in America juupreetStop watching American movies.
>>534749282i want to make a button that destroys everything
