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>>82367225I concluded that acid just sucks.If it wasn't stimulating it'd have a niche for me but it always fucks up my sleep schedule and Isn't even enjoyable enough to remedy that.
>>82367353It's very set and setting. There are a ton of ways to do LSD.Also just take it in the morning. If you do that you can go to sleep at night as usual.
>>82367353how bad were your experiences?good morning guys :)
>>82368175not like "traumatizing" bad just uncomfortable and unsettling while I maybe enjoyed the first few hours.I'm sure there's people that enjoy it, but it's clearly not for me, I'll stick with shrooms.
>>82368359it's interesting that shrooms are less unsettling than acid to you. how do you feel on shrooms? i got anxious every time i tried them, haven't tried acid yet
>>82367392>If you do that you can go to sleep at night as usualnta but i can never sleep after an L trip no matter how early i take it
took my last 40mg of oxazepam in one go. fml
>>82367225It must just be a coincidence that every "psychonaut" I've ever heard or spoken to has had a druggie retard voice and spoke primarily in well worn cliches and meaningless abstractions.
>>82367225You guys ever taken 2mg Xanax and then layed in bed while slowly eating a banana?>truly splendid
>>82368655all psychfags must go, most irritating drug people, worse than stoners
>>82368435Shrooms feel more "wonderful" and calming to me, like installing those fancy-ass shaders for minecraft but in real life.plus I can fall asleep on it so I don't have to plan around it too much, I can just pop it whenever I have free time and privacy.
Kratom feels more euphoric than coke, even high dose good quality cocaine
>>82369474big if true i fucking hate kratom i had a dream the other night i had some coke and in the dream it was fantastic but if its not really all that i think ill just stay away been thinking of trying crack tho just to say i did
>>82369488The problem with coke is its impossible to sustain a high, after 15 minutes you need to redose immediately, it's just constant cycles of craving and release
>>82369495never understood the appeal of drugs that short acting, at least whippits let you talk to god, fucking up your nostrils for a rush doesnt seem worth it, ill stick to opiates thank you
>>82369522Because its functional, you can snort a mountain of coke and go to work the next day, hell you can do it during work if you want. Same reason why ket is so preferred to DXM even though I personally like DXM more.
Any anons here who started using drugs very young, like 13-14 and under? What is your story?
>>82370012I started smoking weed at 14 and smoked weed every single day for 10 years. Did all the drugs along the way minus heroin and inhalants. I am now 24 and quit all drugs 3 months ago minus the occasional shroom trip here and there. Never got caught, never ruined my life. I got my bachelors and masters degree while high as fuck and now I make over 100k before tax and have a wife and child.
>>82370069i envy your self control... do you do therapy or anything similar?
>>82370164Yeah the only one that I really miss is the weed but I get occasionally drug tested now by my job so it is better to just stay away.>do you do therapy or anything similar?nope. never did therapy or psych meds
We have drugs for just about everything, but how come humanity haven't figured out how to make actual aphrodisiacs yet?
>>82370274youve never tried 2cb then
>>82369474kratom makes me throw up
>>82370012I'm actually a late bloomer, I smoked weed at 17 for the first time but wasn't all that into it, then started again at 18 but only at 19 did my addiction really start to ramp up because I got prescribed opiates.
what does ecstasy feel like ? i never tried it.im on weed and i want something harder and more fun
>>82369692you can do this with opioids, if you look at the experience reports of opioid-naive people trying oxy / heroin / codeine they all report no 'hangover' the next day despite the fact opioids typically last 4-6 hours
>>82369474kratom is bullshit. it must only work well for you since drugs effect everyone different.i felt smart and invincible on coke for only a short period of timebut then reality would set in and i got depressed and lost.i like opiates but not kratom it makes me throw up
>>82370660>im on weed and i want something harder and more funGo to the local vape shop and grab some of the legal shrooms there (muscimol). It isn't nearly as good as the regular shrooms (psilocybin) or ecstacy but I would put it one tier higher than a weed high but the tolerance builds up quickly if you do it every day. The comedown off of ecstacy is so fucking shitty and depressing
>>82370679doing too much can make you nauseous though, so when you're really addicted you have to look out for that.
>>82370069i make 35k to 40k a yearand i dont even have enough money for weedyou are luckyi never went to college and im pretty dumbi cut grass for a living
>>82370706everytime i do any type of opiate or suboxonei usually throw up at some pointbut i still enjoy the whole trip
>>82370787true, they're too good.Fortunately I keep a puke bucket in my room so when I feel like hurling, I don't make anything dirty.I spilled it once though :< and on carpet too.
>>82370920why dont you just throw up outside ?like out a window too
>>82371070It's what I do when I don't have a bucket, but it's harder to clean up and I'd have to get to a window while nauseous (and certain that I'm about to puke) It's not that inconvenient though, I just hurl in the bucket and either go to the bathroom to clean it up, or if I'm lazy I just close the lid and let future me worry about it.
>>82370698I just bought a 7g shroom chocolate bar from the vape store bout to have a good time
are you high /r9k/cause i also am highlol
I'm 30 and recently got laid-off so it IS actually over for me.
>>82371967Im drunk and that counts fs fs
>>82370706Just take dramamine, it makes the nausea disappear
https://youtu.be/EgPRbKFElSs?si=WalYev-Br4QHSSJ7https://youtu.be/OKiAeDMFd-A?si=lR-Ka90aRX9WftJ3https://youtu.be/xHGXgqVSMmk?si=G0eXAU3TnWg2VVc_https://youtu.be/jz7QOgrXqiw?si=NZ4ZSmLMFyatwoithttps://youtu.be/5uyGjfNI21c?si=lrayehysqdr9kqf9
Getting high tomorrow after a drugstore visit, getting my benzo fix. Been a sleepy mish-mash of the leat 7 days. Fixed my hours from sleeping at 7am to 1am so will wake up early tomorrow. I'll start doseing at 5pm up to 4am then kill it with benzos (if everything works out). Hope your week started well, anons.
Why do I feel like like Caesar or Hitler or baron harkonnen after snorting meth?
>>82372056You too old to get a new job?
If I'm feeling like there's something in my throat and a bit sick, does that mean I've not crushed up my coke enough?
are there any working mirrors for DM?
>>82372225dont think soits frustrating cuz im literally like 5 points off a private mirror lol
>>82372174I don't know what the fuck I am doing and I've been flying by the seat of my pants and a healthy sense of impostor syndrome, I just embellish on my resume and if I get a first interview I will start studying my ass off for the technical interview.
https://youtu.be/uGJrFslQ4q4?si=yAemGOG1OrQ5ltfwYEAH I KNOOOOWWWW
i get sentimental when i think about running out of drugs
>>82368655>and spoke primarily in well worn cliches and meaningless abstractions.That's all humans currently, everyone is incapable of being original and/or isn't not rewarded or listened too.
>>82372852>everyone is incapable of being original Except for Marxists, they're the only people capable of any real analysis of the current political moment or of prescribing how to change it
I'm entirely convinced that doing drugs makes people better, rather than worse, but normies keep demonizing drug use so SOME people end up conforming-role-playing to those stereotypes. Like using booze as an excuse to be an asshole. Some assholes use drugs as an excuse for it...But the drugs aren't making people behave badly. It's just normies connecting those two dots because of memes. If we raised people right, exposed them to drugs in a right environment, not the "PARTY SEX JUDGE YOU" environment, I think the benefit of the actual substances would be seen. Normies lives revolved around sex and drugs make sex easier/better... that's been the unspoken allure. Every drug addict is just horny. So if we face that and let people do drugs, freely and without shame or judgement, we'd see who was just a shitty human being to begin with and who the drugs actually benefit because they're just responsible, capable people.
>>82367225>XMR went upnigga:(
>>82372910I like the idea of this, but I have/believe something parallel to it. I think most people end up with an improper view of drugs because, by a sort of natural selection, you only hear about people doing it improperly. Considering drugs are socially selected against, the only (common/non-celeb) people who end up openly using/admitting to it are social rejects to an extent. This also prevents people who are otherwise perfectly capable of safe usage to avoid it, and so there are less examples of capable users. Though I do think of those who do partake, many do psychologically trip themselves into acting stereotypically.That being said, if we were to legalize drugs universally, there would need to be some notable assimilation of information into the culture to account for it (which would be a large undertaking). Just basic precautions around avoiding addiction (both physical and mental), the expected effects of each category of substances, and how to handle temptation properly (points 1 & 3 here are applicable to more than just drugs, fwiw).
>>82373460>I think most people end up with an improper view of drugs because, by a sort of natural selection, you only hear about people doing it improperly.> Though I do think of those who do partake, many do psychologically trip themselves into acting stereotypically.That's what I'm getting at. They think they have to act out this role they saw in a movie and behave like that. I like to take any substance, legally or otherwise and just let it flow through me and see how IIIII feel. I don't care how other person thinks I should feel or act. How do I feel?And I'm chill and not causing problems. Other people though, are giving me problems because they project the bad behaviors onto me, when I haven't done them in real life. So the overall point is that drugs need to be fully legalized so we get an actual clear picture of who is fucking it up and who handles it well, because they can legally admit to doing it now. The ones who handle drugs well, we don't hear from because nothing bad happened to them. The responsible shouldn't have fun or pain relief taken away because the irresponsible can't stop role playing and can't handle their brains doing something different.
I can't even remember the last time I hugged my dad...
>>82367225>be me>friend gets me on a gig filling weed vape carts>been there a few times so far>pretty chill, get to smoke and drink on the job, even microdosed shrooms once>end of the day, new type of cart>really finicky>paid by the box, so want to finish this last box and go home>just jamming the syringe into the cart>fucking juice leaking everywhere>licking excess juice off my fingers>think nothing of it>finish up and go home>eat, smoke, drink>I'm so fucking high after a few hours I feel like there are insects crawling in my brain>legit think I caught a virus or something from licking my fingers in that dirty ass shed>didn't even make the connection to the borderline anesthetizing dose of weed concentrate I ate>to make things worse, I ate a bad pistachio and had a mild allergic reaction>wake up not the next morning, but the morning after that>"employer" shut down the operation because of unrelated legal trouble>never get to go again>highest I've ever been on weed>never told this story to anyone
>>82370274PT-141 is a pure aphrodisiac without any intoxicating effect.It's prescribed to women with the hyposexual syndrome thing.
>>82370660MDMA feels like love. It's a godly substance to do with someone you love and that loves you.
>>82370698MDMA has no comedown if you do it correctly. If you do have one you did something wrong, most likely overheated.https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/34894842/
>>82367353I concur. It has never given me any profound thoughts. It has never given me a sense of kinship with other humans. It has never left me feeling that calm cleansed halo effect that psychs are supposed to leave you feeling like. It causes sleep deprivation and a dreary slumpy aftereffect.Acetylpsilocin MOGS lsd.
>>82371507Keep in mind that in those chocolate bars there are no actual mushrooms, it's a tryptamine analogue.
>>82370660Ecstasy is probably the most apt name for a drug everStimulated, uninhibited, social, empathic. You love as an innocent child, hugging, kissing and cuddling are amazing, but there is no genital component ime. You're basically neutered
>>82373860I put distillate vape juice in my dinner once back in July 2024, and had a psychotic episode afterwards where I was attacked in my van in the woods by some kind of nanobot drone. I climbed into the back and burrowed under the blankets, but then it started stinging me with some very painful sting that left no mark. I sprayed it with DEET and slapped at it with a piece of board, but that made it only angrier and more aggressive. Eventually I told it I was gonna leave, and it hovered menacingly nearby as I reconnected my battery, started up my van, and drove off. Strangely, I had a red and blue stripe on my thumb after this incident, and my passenger side door likewise had a red and blue striped smear on it, as if the nanobot collided with the door while I was swatting at it and left a paint streak. Nothing in my van is striped red and blue. To this day I have no fucking explanation for what happened.
Or rather, I almost grabbed the nanobot with my hand. I could hear it whirring very distinctly, but I couldn't see it at all.
DXM and DPH go so well togther. One raises your blood pressure, the other lowers it, both potentiate each other, and they're both over the counter-pharmeceuticals. If it weren't for my tolerance being so high I'd do this shit every week but I can't get away with that anymore. But I love the comedowns too, especially smoking weed the day after. Fun as hell to hit a rip and watch as your visions gets "wet."
>>82372223probably just the drip effect, it happens when you snort stuff, it'll go away on it's own, maybe burn you if it's ketamine and leave that area sore for a bit.
>>82373959>I have no explanationyou just gave a whole explanation though, it is good enough
>>82373959Curious, there seems to be an insect theme with marijuana megadoses
>>82373756You can just hug him any time bro.
>>82373959maybe it would've calmed down if you gave it a hug or something, that's what I'd try, or atleast I say that's I would try I'd probably freak out too.
>>82374056It would be too awkward.
would any of you guys be willing to hold someone elses hand as they overdose to kys
I fucking hate cops man, fucking dirty rotten pig freaks need to be hanged
>>82374374No. Killing yourself is stupid bullshit. If you think your life is meaningless then do things for others. If you're going to throw your life away you might as well go the way of luigi mangioni and make the world a better place on the way out. ODing on purpose is for pushy lovers and I will not allow a person to do that in front of me. It disgusts me.
The single greatest flaw a man can have is being a sex haver Being a strung out junkie is more honorable than having sex
>>82374374ODing is a retarded way to go since it might just ruin your organs permanently or make you die slowly, do some cool shit like >>82374406 said and do something good before you go, if you have the will to kill, kill something worthy of dying, whatever you did or whatever happened to you, I doubt you deserve to die over it.
What's your absolute NO's in drug use?For me, it's not being high in places where kids could see it, they're more or less innocent from all that, so I hate to be a bad example.One time I was smoking weed at my friend's house and his little sister walked in (like couldn't be older than 6) and I felt ashamed of myself over the fact that his room smelt like weed, what if she becomes a smelly NEET pothead now because of me?
Getting high and constantly being afraid of people catching you being high fucking sucks
>>82370296Idk how different 2cb is but I tried a bunch of its analogues and honestly the bodyload is so miserable that I cant imagine having sex on itToo much nausea and too much misery in my guts and every touch is too intense
>>82373953What do you mean no genital component? I had wild loving sex on MDMA almost every time.It doesn't have to be sexual, but it can be, and it's something.
>>82371094Rookies.. I just run to the toiket and make it (nearly) every time! (One time I puked all over the floor though cuz I was puking while running there and I had my hand on my mouth but it like leaked out through my fingers cuz of the force, it sucked I got a puke trail to the toilet and the toilet seat was covered too but I was so high I didnt care at all)
>>82374374And be sued by your family for wrongful death because I didn't try to save you? Of course not that's stupid.Ps: "someone" is a single person, for that reason you cannot use "them" to refer to him or her.
>>82374813Anyone with a hundred bucks can hire a prostitute and have sex. What's the big deal?
>>82374903Why would anyone catch you if you're in your home? If someone enters you can just blast him.
>>82375105Some of us are neets that still live with our parents please be more mindful next time
>>82375051I'm jelly. I couldn't get hard at all. Felt like a Ken doll
>>82375156Meh, get a job and your own place. Don't be a burden.Then you can do all the drugs you want in your own home.
>>82375174Oh yeah it's normal, it's because of the vasoconstriction from the amphetamine. It always does that.You can counter it with a large dose of sildenafil or tadalafil.
>>82374868I think my only big one is keeping people I care about away from the harder shit, I had a friend fall on some hard times (gf left him, lost his job, etc.) And he started asking me about opiates and shit, I refused flat out to tell him shit about it or how to source it, shits to dangerous for normal people who have potentially fulfilling lives to live
>>82375093It's a weakness
>>82374374only if I were joining them. neatly does away with all the liability nonsense as well.
>>82375342Powerful I'm at the point I won't give drugs of any kind to anyone unless I'm very close with them. I won't even buy random girls drinks or give coworkers aspirin
10 mg of focalin xr up the nose. Anybody else do this or similar ADD drugs?
>>82375359Why would having put your peepee in a vagoomba for a few minutes constitute a weakness?
>>82375382Aspirin is a good medicine though. Nothing bad about it.
>>82375382I gave a homeless guy a weed gummy one time. Sharing the love is part of stoner culture.
>>82375509I hope it was laced with fent, all hobos should just disappear.
>>82375587Be kind, they're vulnerable.
>>82375497In general yes, it's very good for many things and I love aspirin, but one time I gave a female coworker complaining about a headache or something some aspirin and later thought "Oh shit, what if she's on her period and get's a really heavy flow" (aspirin is a blood thinner). Probably paranoia on my part, but I don't want to be implicated in any sort of complication at all
love weed bc i just went out to the park and smoked with my brother and it was awesome =)
>>82375587Kill yourself, I would give the lives of every chanboard poster to save one homeless person, they're worth more to society than you and I can garuentee that
>>82367225tried an edible for the first time last night and the experience was wretched.
>>82376029You sound like you've been through it?
Big big shoutout to that one anon who recommend me a song from this album a couple months ago when I was nodding my balls off, ended up loving the album and I've been listening to it again for the past couple weeks and my god that was a good high, so thank you anon if you're still therethis ended up being my fav trackhttps://youtu.be/2FlEL9lJ6BQ
>>82376029Nah the hobos are gangrene on the world. I don't mind those living alone in the forest or whatever but those living in cities like cancerous cells searching for a place to settle and grow are just a waste of oxygen.If absolutely no one is ready to help you and you end up sleeping outside then you're most likely a terrible person and deserve it.
>>82376872I'm a terrible person, but 30 and living with my parents. You're wrong.
why are cigarettes + clonazepam so fitting for lonely nights tho
>>82376910Yeah imagine how worse you'd have to be to not even have your parents want to help you.That's who a hobo is. They deserve it.
>>82372894>original>named after some other guy>same talking points 100 years laterI'm not saying they're bad people, but FAR from original.
I'm boringly sober
There should be one city in the country where it's legal to be a hobo, so they all go there and rape each other to death while doing fent-laced meth.I'd pay to watch drone footage of that area.
I just took klonopin for the first time, what should I expect? Will it take away my intrusive thoughts?
>>82378781Thoughts are not intrusive, they only seem that way because you don't want to deal with them.Stop rejecting them, deal with them, and they won't bother you.
>>82378781Update: it didn't take away my intrusive thoughts but it made me realize they are not real. I might start taking this daily and in higher doses. How do I avoid addiction?
>>82367225stop fucking shilling dnms you fucking retards you're gonna RUIN IT
>>82378905>>82378781>I just took klonopin for the first time, what should I expect?> might start taking this daily and in higher doses. its so over for you lol
>>82378895I have ocd. It is now generally agreed that obsessions are produced do to physiological changes in how the brain works. So all of that zen stuff won't work on me sadly
>>82378931what kind of obsessions?
>>82378938They are strange ones, because instead of telling me something bad is gonna happen, they tell me lies about how horrible everything is and that I should kill myself. They also strip me of all my energy rendering me almost unable to work or live a normal life in general. I haven't spoken to friends in years, I don't have a relationship. It's important to note though that the thoughts are ego dystonic, they are ocd thoughts, so it's not just regular depression. I know what they tell me is false, i just can't help but believe it because that's how my brain malfunctions
>>82378919Will I 100% no exceptions get addicted if I take it every day?
>>82367225keep fucking shilling dnms you fucking genius you're gonna SAVE IT
>>82378931>>82378967OCD is fixed with psilocybin therapy.https://search.brave.com/search?q=ocd+psilocybin
>>82378967>the reason I'm a jobless loser without a wife?>you guessed it, my invisible disease made me not get up from my chair>damn you invisible disease, took all my "energy" awayGrow up.
>>82377244>same talking points 100 years laterTo be fare politics for the working class hasn't meaningfully changed in the last 100 years, it's all varying degrees of the same exploitation
>>82379240Retard>>82379223I don't think that shit is even obtainable where I live but I'll check it out. Does it work on serotonergic pathways?
>>82379402Psilocybin is obtainable everywhere. They just grow in the field.And yes of course it's a tryptamine it's mostly serotoninergic. The mechanism aren't clear but they break existing pathways (habits) and trigger plasticity to forge new ones.Read the studies on it.https://search.brave.com/search?q=ocd+psilocybin
Just knowing that I can take something from the cabinet if the day is too troublesome makes things easier.Ironically I don't need it as much anymore. Knowing that I can is already nice.
I'm planning to go to a massage place soon, what state should I go in?I might be too self conscious to enjoy it sober, so maybe some light GABA? Makes things smoother.I'm sure even 150mg pregabalin would be enough.
>>82379484does LSD do the same?
>>82379484This sounds interesting. I've been taking SRI for years and it does feel like it's been slowly rewiring my brain, but it has barely scratched the surface. I still have obsessive thoughts all the time and I don't know how much more I can keep going like this
did 13-14 year old you expect that you'd end up like this?I figured I'd start doing drugs at some point, but I didn't expect to still be rotting in my childhood bed.
>>82367225It was so fun for the few years smoking. I even did shrooms at one point. But, that was all I planned to do. I think that I overdid it now . These days I cannot feel my hands or feet sometimes It feels like depersonalization, Some days it feels like a heart attack. Even when drinking, I start depersonalizing. I keep freaking out. How do you know when you are about to die?In the back of my mind i should just be quiet.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OiPVgAhRE6E&list=RDOiPVgAhRE6E
>>82379506600MG of gaba and a massage and some weed would feel really good.
>>82380629No, I thought I'd be a billionaire by now. Ha...
>>82372836>i get sentimental when i think about running out of drugsHaving a relationship with drugs is unironically one of the biggest traps one can fall for. It's just drugs, man; if you run out, life goes on.
>>82372910>normies keep demonizing drug use so SOME people end up conforming-role-playing to those stereotypesSome people lack/ have a degraded willpower to be responsible or act like a decent human being while in a relationship with drugs. That's true regardless of normie opinion. Some people just ruin their lives more easily than others.>If we raised people right, exposed them to drugs in a right environment, not the "PARTY SEX JUDGE YOU" environment, I think the benefit of the actual substances would be seenExposing the public to drugs in the right way can bring on a big social change and the benefits of the drugs may be emphesized, but it won't stop manimals from taking it too far or being abnoxious while on them. You can't argue against the fact that some drugs lead to low inhibition, whichcanbring out the worst in people.>Every drug addict is just hornyThat's a huge and wrong overstatment! Drug addicts either have a twisted world-view that leads them to drug abuse or have a disposition to addiction in the first place. Drugs can also be great for escapism, which leads to hanging on them as an emotional cruch which leads to... addiction (like any addicting activity that can be used for escapism, like vidya/internet/food/anime/porn etc).>if we face that and let people do drugs, freely and without shame or judgement, we'd see who was just a shitty human being to begin with and who the drugs actually benefit because they're just responsible, capable peopleI agree that people need to be exposed to drugs the right way and that their benefits are something to be talked about more and that they need to be legalized and sold (relatively) freely. But not everyone is a responsible person, and it does not mean they are shitty people, it just means they're not as well adjusted as others are, or have lost a genetic lottory. There are many, many ways to get to drug abuse without being a shitty person (as mentioned above). The legalization of cannabis is an example.TL
>>82373756>I can't even remember the last time I hugged my dadI do. 2018. The guy was a slimeball, though. If you like your dad, you can hug him anytime you want (as long as he's alive), and don't forget the "I love you" part; dads don't get enough of love and appreciation these days.
>>82373860>>82373959You guys have access to too potent weed products. The highest I've been was on a camping trip with zero tolerance. Hit up a joint with premo weed in it and on my way back to the tents I felt like I took too much as I started to dissciate from the world in a growing pace. So i entered my tent, closed it shut, laid down starfish position and let the drug flow through me for a few hours; felt like the entire universe was spinning around me and nothing made sense (like the voices of the others outside). Then, not knowing how lond has past, I picked myself up and joined the others for some beer drinking and playing pictionary; was still high af, though functional. Good times. I don't live in a country that legalized weed so I don't have access to potent extracts and waxes and so on (most vape pens are loaded with synthetic cnnabanoids and are super dengerous). And maybe that's a good thing.
COCAIN MUSHROOMS ECSTASY GHB MARIJUANA YOU CAN DO IT IF YOU WANNA
Weed is the only thing I enjoy in life.
>>82367353>>82373923>I concluded that acid just sucks>I concurI disagree. Acid always had a full hellucinogenic effect on me and made patterns/colors appear. The best is to listen to music while on it and see the world warp into incocivable shapes and looking at art/patterns and see them get a life of their own. As far as thoughts go, I'll usually have an increased flow of thoughts and some of them *feel* profound and like revelations (though, it doesn't mean that they are) but most of the time it's some far-reached dribble of thoughts that I register as such.As for the stim quality it has, yeah, it kinda sucks as it tiers your body physically without the common benefits of other stims, cripples you, basically, and prevents you from sleeping, but it's worth the discomfort imo (for the cost of 8-12 awesome hours with hyper-sensitive senses and fun hallucinations).As far as the afterglow is concerned, I've had an afterglow and a "well-adjusted" feeling the day after, on several occasions, but not always; and sometimes, an "unhinged" feeling that stuck with me for a week or so after use (after prolonged use, though, like once a week of taking acid).In summery, acid is good for a few hours of good time although it essentially cripples you and makes you physically and mentally exusted.Buy the ticket, take the ride.Sorry it doesn't work for you two the same way it does for me since it's one of my favorite drugs to do when I have the time and setting for it.>Acetylpsilocin MOGS lsdI looked it up and it seems very like shrooms in its makeup. I have never done shrooms so I can't compare, but acid lasts twice the duration of shrooms and doesn't cause nausea and puking, so i'll take it over experimenting with mushrooms for the time being; untill curiosity gets the better of me. But scurffing down 3-5 grams of mushrooms seems exessive as opposed to putting a little piece of cardboard in your mouth. Maybe I'll try shroom chocolate someday.
>>82373953>Ecstasy is probably the most apt name for a drug ever Only took MDMA crystals, not xtc pressed pills that god knows what was put in them.>Stimulated, uninhibited, social, empathic. You love as an innocent child, hugging, kissing and cuddling are amazingI agree these things do happen. Maybe more the social-ability type of effects from me (can't stop me talking for hours) less the empatic/love type of effects (I'm more empathic on LSD, as a matter of fact); I took some with my ex gf and have felt the same about her as I always did, no increased affection or "loving as an innocent child" but I was more trusting with conversation topics and we were more uninhibited.>there is no genital component imeHad no increased sexual activity with ex gf and sex sucked as we were both heavily breathing, sweating messes (but wanted to cross it off the bucket-list). But while taking alone, I stimfapped on it for hours (not on purpose, I just couldn't cum) and bruised my dick as a result (I can't stimfap on most stims, as they mostly make me overheat and soft quickly, but with MDMA it was no problem).For summery, MDMA is good once in a while, when the time and setting are right. But I wouldn't call it one of my favorites as it lacks a lot of what other stims offer and makes you a neurotic mess mentally and a blabbering, oversharing fool to others who aren't under the influence. Addendum: Also I get very vivid fractal visuals if I fall asleep on it and wake up a few minutes later.
>>82374406>>82374832>Killing yourself is stupid bullshit>ODing is a retarded way to goNTA. But I think suicide is a person's god-given right, and anyone who wants to kill theirselfs should be able to do so after making sure that it *is* what they want wholeheartedly. No one should be kept in this world against their will, imo.>>82374374>would any of you guys be willing to hold someone elses hand as they overdose to kysI would definitly hold a person's hand if it was a close friend and would have comforted them at their last moments (as long as they wrote a proper suicide-note that explaines my involvement in all of this, push come to shove).ODing is a complicated way to go for sure, and usually takes a combo of drugs to do it decisively and peacefully at the same time afaik.
>>82374389>I fucking hate cops man, fucking dirty rotten pig freaks need to be hangedThere sure are some stinkers in the force in my experience. What did the cops do to you, anon?
>>82383344>suicide is a person's god-given rightThat's retarded, no one in their right mind could want that, also idgaf if they want it so bad they're willing to die, I will drag them kicking and screaming through life until it concludes in a normal way
>>82374813>The single greatest flaw a man can have is being a sex haverI'm a sex haver and things are pretty good imo. No pitfalls of lust or anything freaky.>Being a strung out junkie is more honorable than having sexSounds like cope to me, idk. Don't be a junkie, anon, it's bad for you. At least sex is a bit of cardio, you know?
>>82374868>What's your absolute NO's in drug use?First, as mentioned, not doing it around kids is a big one, they don't deserve that in their innocent years.Second, real life is more important than drugs. That means not being high when having things to do (like errands or work) or people to meet.Third, not doing it outside specified times during the week. So limiting use and avoiding dependence, while it being good for your physical and mental health, also.Fourth, no doseing over a certain agreed upon amout, this teaches you to be content with what you have, avoids tolerance issues as well as making your stash last longer; getting more bang for your buck.Fifth, and one of the hardest, is knowing, at least approximately, where your shit comes from and whether it's good or not. I don't have access to drugs test kits and taking smples from the dealer has worked well for me when it comes to QA of the product; inspecting the color, shape and taste of the drug as wwll as experiencing a small-dose high to compare with what I know of the substance. Not optimal, but it is what it is...No more come to mind, but I'm sure there are more, hehe; I'm pretty anal when it comes to drug use in general, so...
>>82374903>Getting high and constantly being afraid of people catching you being high fucking sucksThe privacy of an apartment is costly, but worth it for the ease of mind alone. Only my neighbors know I smoked weed cause I'd blow the smoke out the window while they were in their porch. No-one knows I actively do meth and I intend on it staying that way. The drug has a bad name to begin with and it will be hard to convince people that I'm doing it responsibly due to prejudice. If people notice I'm more talkative and alert (mostly on texts, where I can write very long scrolls and answer really fast, under the influence) I just say I took retalin and wave it off.
>>82375587>I hope it was laced with fent, all hobos should just disappearThat's not very nice. I'm going to be one, someday, probably (when my mom dies and can't help me with rent. Though I will have *some* inheritance). A lot of them were wronged by society and have mental illnesses (like me, though mine is treated regularly, for now) that prevent them from getting a job and supporting themselves or don't have the means to get on disability (like the internet to submit forms and such). What did the bad hobos do to you, anon? Want to share?
>>82376059>the experience was wretchedWell, not surprising since edibles are notorious for being very potent and hard to dose properly. What was is like, anon?
>>82376872>If absolutely no one is ready to help you and you end up sleeping outside then you're most likely a terrible person and deserve itNTA. What about wholesome self-isolating, mentally ill NEETs that can't get a job and lost connection with the outside world and are being kicked-out by perents or forced-out due to a perent dying? They're just doing their best but their best isn't good enough a lot of the time, you know? They deserve at least a smidgen of empathy and kindness. Though *some* city hobos are really trying to pull scams on people for a beer, in my experience.
>>82377190>imagine how worse you'd have to be to not even have your parents want to help youNTA. Some perents are strict, misunderstanding assholes that drive their childern out of home abd away from them on some dated pricipal and a whim and deserve themselves to be hobos. After a while, the cumulative anger towards your own son for being a NEET erupts in very bad ways.
What are some cool things to do on a 2g mushroom trip? I had a 4g trip the other day and it was okay. The high seemed to pass pretty quickly, and in the end, I got lost in schizophrenic conversations by myself. I've had experiences with LSD in the past, and I think they're heavy on the mind. Even though they have cool visuals, does 2 grams of mushroom still give a nice effect?
I posted here earlier today about taking klonopin for the first time. I thought it helped at first, but as the day went on I started feeling more and more depressed to the point of ending up extremely hopeless and suicidal. I still feel like shit and don't see the point in waking up tomorrow. Is this a common reaction?
>>82378905>I might start taking this daily and in higher doses>How do I avoid addiction?By not doing it daily and in higher doses, duh. Be careful with that please, anon. It's not worth avoiding intrusive thoughts, from experience.t. Intrusive-thoughts ridden schizo and a responsible drug user.
>>82379040>Will I 100% no exceptions get addicted if I take it every day?NTA. That drug has very addictive risk profile. So, essentially, yes. You will compulsevly increase the dose to stay on the same high as tolerance skyrockets and will undoubtebly become dependent. Exercise harm-reduction and take it on remote times and on reasonable doses (even recreationally) to avoid tolerance and dependence/bad withdrawals.
My ket is delayed aaaaaaa
>>82379493>Ironically I don't need it as much anymore. Knowing that I can is already niceKnowing you can whenever you want and not wanting as a result is a knowen psychological trait humans have, and is used as an interogation technique to milk more data from a previously unwilling subject by munipulating them to expose more information than they expected, starting at an unrelated piece of information and working up a confession/compromising data, knowing they can stop at any moment (and deciding not to, predictably).
>>82379572>I still have obsessive thoughts all the time and I don't know how much more I can keep going like thisNTA. I'm going through similar stuff. Be well, anon. I know it's hard, but with treatment, time and experimenting with controling the thought flow and navigating it unharmed by the thoughts and some self-soothing techniques like grounding, it does get better, in my experience.t. Intrusive-thought ridden schizo that is doing way better.
>>82380629>did 13-14 year old you expect that you'd end up like this?13-14yo me didn't expect the dibilitating mental-illness and hardships that come with self-isolation, bed-rotting or NEETing for that long. I expected to have a job in my field (infosec, where being a bit over-paranoid is actually a good thing) and have gone to get a degree in something similar like comsci. 7 years a drug using NEET and counting. It's not all that bad considering where I was 3 years ago (at mom's home, not getting income from well-deserved disability, not going out to visit NEET gf's house simetimes and getting out of my comfort zone), so I count my blessings.
>>82380769>These days I cannot feel my hands or feet sometimes It feels like depersonalizationGeez, man. How much were you smoking to get there? Be well, anon.
>>82383916>>82383984>>82384102I'm >>82383908 so safe to say I'm never taking that shit again, that is, if I make it through this night without kms. I'm just so tired of my mental illness robbing me of everything. There was a girl I liked last semester, never talked to her because my brain doesn't let me function socially properly. Now I'll never see her again. I'm tired of feeling like I'm constantly waisting my life. My therapist is a dumbass that downplays how bad I feel. I've exhausted every option except MAOIs, illegal drugs and esketamine. I wish I could just not wake up tomorrow, I don't fucking want to go to work
>>82383908Yeah, all those drugs make you feel worse and they just want you to up the dosage and essentially put more money in the pocket of their kike pharma masters.
>>82384207>waistinglol, excuse my non native english, sorry.
>>82382887>Weed is the only thing I enjoy in lifeWeed can be a sponge for enjoyment; sucking all the life out of a situation when not high enough (especially when doseing compolsivly and regularly). So be careful with how much you're smoking, it may be making things worse for you in the long run ime. But there are worse things to enjoy than weed, so maybe I'm talking out of my ass. Have fun, anon.
>>82380629I didn't expect to be alive in my thirties, no.Drugs weren't a part of the equation either, but they're a welcome addition.
do you take antihistamines along a medium/high dose of opioids? if not, how do you deal with the itching?
>>82384207>I'm just so tired of my mental illness robbing me of everythingI know how that feels, but where there's a will there's a way. And there's always a way. Be strong, anon.>my brain doesn't let me function socially properlySame here, it took a lot of self-work and prectice to be semi competent at socializing again after self-isolation, for me.>My therapist is a dumbass that downplays how bad I feelI didn't go to therapy cause I know they don't have the proper tools to deal with actual mental illness in its prime. Therapy is essentially saying the "right" thing at the "right" moment and can't deal with the damage an actual mental illness does imo. Meds and self-work are your best chance.>I've exhausted every option except MAOIs, illegal drugs and esketaminePsychiatric help can take you a long way (not all the way, but some) ime. My meds don't take the thoughts and voices away completely, but they make 'em managable and have improved my life quality considerably. And the occasional benzo helps somewhat, too. Illegal drugs won't fix you, that's for sure. And idk about MAOIs so I can't give an opinion. But I don't think there is a megical shortcut to getting better. It depends a lot on your enviorment and interactions with your env. The better you are at navigating your situation, the better. And that takes exposure and practice.>I wish I could just not wake up tomorrow, I don't fucking want to go to workIf your illness is really that bad, why won't you go on disability? Did me wonders (my own small place and food and drugs are covered by my disability income). Though you went to school and work and didn't drop-out or got fired, so there must be something functioning in you still. I honestly can't see myself getting a job in my current condition, having my kind of symptoms (though the suicidal ideation passed, thankfully).Again, stay strong, anon. The hardships will pass for sure the longer you experience them and learn how to live with them.
>>82369474kratom is the most spiritually low iq mutt drug out there i think, worse than weed worse than benzos
>>82383389>That's retarded, no one in their right mind could want thatYou don't know some people's situations. They could be in a literaly hellish situation that would not be solved in their lifetimes, they could be addicts with no other way out, sick, they can be treated as slaves in a sweatshop, they can be wagies with nowhere to advance in life, they can have mental illness that makes mere existing an exusting near-impossible effort, they can be at their wits end. But it can also be on a whim as far as I am concerned. Your life and body are your own to do whatever you want with, including drugs or even suicide; and society should cater to that fact and basic freedom. There won't be any damage to society and its structure if a few people went dead over personal reasons. My point, you are free to make the decision, whatever your reasons are. That is a freedom a lot of selfish people want to take away, cause it doesn't fit with their world views and cause "life is so much better, bro. Your mom will be sad, bro", sometimes it isn't, and that's ok.>I will drag them kicking and screaming through life until it concludes in a normal wayA seemingly noble but selfish and naive notion. Sometimes a person just needs the right treatment, yeah. But some people want to die, that's ok, that's their honest right as indipendent adults who are deserving of their freedom and accountable to their actions. Hunter S. Thompson shot himself in the head cause he was getting too old for personal comfort and that's a valid reason. If anything, assisted suicide should be more prevalent in western societies as it truly is the last freedom and act of indipendence a person has on offer sometimes. It should be like in Onions Green, where there's gov approved euthanasia where they make the proccess easier on the person and use their body to make food for the larger population thus making them useful to society (well, maybe not the making them into food part; but you get the point, anyway).
Kratom is definitely going to get banned because there's too many retards getting addicted.
>>82384684>>82383389And that's coming from a person who had some friends go through very preventable suicides (by hanging and by gunshot) given the right resources at the right time. At the end they went their own way, though tragic as it is, there is some comfort in that. One of them even had signs and was talking about doing it in public and no-one gave damn or belived him. The other one was out of the blue. So yes, some people need the right treatment or just time to ruminate more. But for some it's a well thought-out action that will not change or does not need to change necessarily cause of personal freedom. There should be a way out, always and forever, preferably with some human dignity involved.
>>82384740I've seen a few social media posts with 1+ mil views/interactions where someone tells a woe-is-me story about misusing it (and other OTC chems) because they didn't think about what they were consuming. They blindly jump into consuming things without any foresight (including caffeine, nicotine, and alcohol, etc).It is truly unbelievable how everyone is governed by the shortcomings of the bottom percentile of society.
>>82384802Yeah, the moment I started hearing normalfag podcasters talking about kratom, I realized it's only a matter of time. A good chunk of society really does need someone to tell them what to do.
Drugs are good. Drugs are good for you.Drugs are the best thing we've ever created.Do drugs.Do way, way more drugs.
>>82385251Well, after such demonization troughout the years, a proper counter-culture is bound to exist, no?
>>82384454I feel a bit better now, thank you. I'll keep going for as long as I can take it
>>82383908yeah its a rare side effect, i got it when i first started taking klonopin regularlyit went away after an episode or two thoughhope youre feeling better now anon
the humble codeine molecule:
>>82385370It needs to exist even harder. Christcucks boomers need to be expelled from governments so free markets can properly dispense life-affirming products (drugs).
>>82385391I am. Though I'm never taking klonopin again
>>82385486yeah thats fair just glad you are okay
When do you think psilocybin will become available as a legal treatment for mental illness? I can't wait to be able to just buy it off wallgreens
>>82385526It's interesting, I just read that it makes neurons use less serotonin so that probably explains it. Though if that's the case I don't know why it's not a more common side effect
>>82385569interesting. it might be because a lot of people arent just using benzos for monotherapy (alone) like you and i are, they might be on antidepressants for example which raise serotonin. although you might be on antidepressants and my whole point might be moot but thats just a working theory i have right now while stimmed out
>>82385583Yeah sorry to be a bummer but I'm already on antidepressants lol. And a very potent one at that. I guess some people just have an adverse or paradoxical reaction to it
>>82385527It'll be a prescribed medication you can only do with a psychiatrist for a session. You'll never buy it at Walgreens.But it's just mushrooms, you can buy kits to grow them lol. I know people whose hobby is to throw spores in the forest around where they live.
>>82385659ah well thats okay at least we can put something to rest i guess
I remember now Chris Cornell killed himself after saying he took a few extra Valiums. So remember anons, if you are gonna do benzos, make sure you are not depressed
>>82385381>I feel a bit better now, thank youSure thing, I'm glad. Sorry for blogposting, hehe.>I'll keep going for as long as I can take itGoodluck, anon.
>>82385423>Christcucks boomers need to be expelled from governmentsThey'll die soon enough, don't worry. We just need to wait it out.>so free markets can properly dispense life-affirming products (drugs)Seems like such a far out idea in today's world though.
>>82385841There are already markets on which you can buy all the drugs you want.
>>82385857>There are already markets on which you can buy all the drugs you wantYeah, but they're black markets tho :(
I feel bad because I wanted to get into drugs because I used to think that 60s counter culture was "revolutionary", for say the less. Now I'm a schizo on 4 different meds and it spoiled my fun because I can't stand to hear voices commenting things. It gets me paranoid. I remember the last day I ate some pot brownies. Nevermind, I never accomplished nothing. I think I got mk ultra'd hahaha. I feel I need to get high soon too. My body and mind want it. But it feels so pointless now that music sucks and there is no a underground rock music scene with different styles. That's all I used to do, lay down and listen to music. Like I need some new activities to do indoors I think. Maybe I will get drunk and that's it. I don't know. Can't really do psychs because some med I get intramuscularly leaves my system in about 3-6 months and prevents psychedelic highs. It sucks. Psychedelic are kind of discreet when you (I) live with the parents. Trying to be functional too. I don't know why I like drugs so much. It just feels pointless like I said. I wish I had a job.
whats the best shit to take if i have to drive the next day?my friend says that ket doesnt show up on roadside drug tests but i dont believe him
>>82386028Yes, and that's okay.Ordering stuff and posting a review afterward is so comfy.
>>82386106Psychs aren't tested on a basic drug panel. You could do LSD.
>>82386106Definitely not Ket, you'll leave late
Got some ket and two cans of rum and coke. Tonight is gonna rule. No plans tomorrow. Feels good man.
i can't stop stimfapping for less and less pleasure every few hours instead of showering. I only stimfap for 45 minutes at a time max so it's not that much of a time sink, but it demotivates me and makes me feel like I wasted product
>>82386127Yeah I miss it, haven't done it since arch went down and I haven't really used the new website. I'm so sick of losing my goddamn money to LE every 3 years.
>>82375081>for that reason you cannot use "them" to refer to him or her."Them" is used as a single person neutral pronoun when the gender of the person in question is unknown.>SIR THE SUSPECT RAN THIS WAY>Did you get an ID on them? Do we know if it's a man or a woman?>No idea, but we'll catch them soon.
>>82386739What do you mean losing money? except if you're dumb enough to have money in your market wallet (I did it once), then you have no reason to lose money when the market gets seized.
>>82386955No it is not. It's a modern American marxist academic invention. You cannot find a normal movie or a book before the year 2000 that used a singular they, because it's a grammatical error and still is marked as such in most countries.Watch an old Columbo or something, they'll never say "we'll catch them soon" when talking about a single person.They is plural. Always has been.
>>82375727>one time I gave a female coworker complaining about a headache or something some aspirin and later thought "Oh shit, why did I do that, she should suffer."Fix'd that for you.For real though, your responsibility ends once you hand her the aspirin. If she takes it, the fault is either on her for not knowing it's a blood thinner, or she knows anyway and is willing to deal with it / she doesn't get heavy flows.>BUT ANON IAlternate scenario:>woman complains because that's just what they fucking do, they never stop>you do nothing>she takes an aspirin out of her purse and takes one anyway
>>82386955Also speaking of Marxist inventions to harm your language, "gender" was invented in the 60's by a sexologist pedophile that lied on his papers that he successfully socialized a boy into being a girl, and the feminist academics adopted the word but didn't stop after the publication was proven to be a lie.Something like saying "their gender" when talking about a single person would've been senseless words a few decades ago.You went to public school I assume.
>>82386965I have money in the market wallet, like left over change from various orders that I usually build up and put towards another order, it's not a lot, but I hate having to start that process over and and over and over. I had 3 BTC on Silk Road when it went down. That's like half a million now.
>>82386577Stimfapping is gross and those doing it are made gross from it.It really harms you.
>>82387008Why would you have leftover and build up or whatever? You can send the Monero directly to the seller, the exact amount, no need to send more than necessary to your wallet. You shouldn't use the wallet market in the first place.The only time I lost money was because I got reimbursed from an order because the seller went on vacation and didn't send the package so I had like $35 in it and the market got LEO'd a few days after lol.
>>82387008Don't torture yourself over some old bitcoins lol it's not like you would've kept them and sold them at 100k each.You would've used them to buy a gram of drugs or sold them at $200 each while being happy to have made some money.That's what we all did. I lost several bitcoins on MtGox myself but I would've sold a long time ago anyway.
>>82386983>The Oxford English Dictionary traces singular they back to 1375, where it appears in the medieval romance William and the Werewolf. Except for the old-style language of that poem, its use of singular they to refer to an unnamed person seems very modern. Here's the Middle English version: [omitted due to non-ascii text]In modern English, that's: 'Each man hurried . . . till they drew near . . . where William and his darling were lying together.'https://www.oed.com/discover/a-brief-history-of-singular-they/?tl=true
Should tramadol get me through all the day?, i didn't sleep, and i have to go to college, fuck.
>>82387007I said gender because that's the usage of the word proper before it was hijacked by the rainbow crowd.For instance, you would rightfully say spanish, german, norwegian are gendered languages, not sexed languages.Furthermore John Money may have popularized the term in relation to the John Ramsey case but he was not the originator for that usage either. Want to try again? I have no idea why you're being so combative.
>>82387081*David Reimer, not John Ramsey. It's late.
>>82387081You don't understand. Gender as a word existed long before that pedo used it, but it's a linguistic term. Like how a chair can be masculine or feminine in Latin languages, but it was never used for humans. Humans always had a sex, gender is a modern invention based on a faked sexology paper and perpetuated by marxists.
>>82387064Wow a single case from long ago, that changes everything.No it doesn't. I can find exceptions for everything this doesn't mean I can throw away the rule.
>>82387131Said link gives other historical usages.You can argue it's improper, as there's a current active debate on that apparently, but there are many, many usages of it long before the 1960s.>>82387118On this point I will actually concede though, this was my bad. I have long ago made gender and sex a synonym and use them interchangeably. I will also reject trannies their preferred gender due to this view of gender = sex.But, in this usage of pure words, I can accept making this concession.
>>82387046Yeah right? I'm just saying, I'm tired of losing what I even lost, I'm so broke it's like a big deal for me, I'd buy from the DW like 2 times a year and sometimes, it'd be timed so bad I was buying when the site got seized or shut down. I just miss the good time like with cannahome, that place was amazing.>>82387035 Well I'd always put more money on there to make sure I had the cost and the shipping and the FEES... I've had situations before where after I bought the coin and transfered it was like $5 less than I needed because of the fees to transfer, so I always spend a little more.
>>82387065Yes, tramadol is the best drug.
>>82387131>You cannot find a normal movie or a book before the year 2000 >>Finds what was asked for>Wow a single case from long ago, that changes everythingNice cope :)
>>82387492When I said a "normal book" I wasn't talking about obscure poems from the middle ages, Anon.Don't act dumber than you are, it's unbecoming.
>>82387016i did it again. im coverde in sweat
>>82388118>i did it again. im coverde in sweatYou're grossWhat drug are you even on? Meth?
>>82388152ritalin lol. i dont watch porn. ive managed to clean most of my apartment though
>>82388180Man if only this country wasn't so hard on uppers.Anything stronger than coffee gets you straight into jail. Living in Asia has bad sides too.
gud shit my stuff finally arrived.and on a day where I genuinely hated being conscious too.
Super ultra mega newfag here. Saw these in a youtubers sponsored segment, will they be effective for someone like me who's new to this stuff?
>>82388995It'll be effective alright.https://m.psychonautwiki.org/wiki/CannabisAlso you shouldn't do drugs, including cannabis and alcohol, before you're 25 because they impede brain development, and the brain develops until you're 25.
Ketamine sucks. Makes me nauseous and the high isn't worth it. 4/10
If i take 30 milligrams of xanax then drink 500 grams of sodium cyanide right when it kicks in will the death be painless? Asking for a friend
>>82389457>painlessNot quite, but you might become too sedated to notice what is happening. In other words, you'll be too inebriated to react to the pain, but you will likely still feel it.
>>82389257Thank you! Will keep that warning in mind
>>82389572whats the quickest way to induce unconsciousness
>>82389589bullet to the brain
>>82389257>>82389575>Also you shouldn't do drugs, including cannabis and alcohol, before you're 25 because they impede brain development, and the brain develops until you're 25.i would like to add that you also shouldn't do drugs after 25.
>>82389656If the autistic sonic youtuber said it's ok how bad can it be
>>82386983>it's a grammatical error and still is marked as such in most countriesNTA but they is a gender nutral ponoun in my language too, and would imagain in other languages (mostly gender centered languages like french; for example, a bubble is a she) as well. I learned English from both school and tv in the mid 00s and as far as I can recall, people have always used they as a nutral pronoun on both mediums.And what if it's a relatively new addition to the English language? All languages evolve and change with accordance to society's needs and preasent form; the national center for language in my country is still making up new words in a monthly rate. What is a gender nutral pronoun would you suggest to use when not knowing the gender of the person in question, not using "he or she"? Cause afaik, they is a valid option and is not an error.
>>82386983>>82389917Looked it up (French gender neutral pronouns) and they also use plural forms to describe gender neutral persons. As well as a confirmation that a singular they exists in (todays) English and thus is not an error.
>>82388118>i did it again. im coverde in sweatNTA. I get like this too. All gross and sweaty and overheat so I go soft and never cum. Stimfapping is a meme to me at this point. The only time I stimfapped correctly was on MDMA and it was torture not being able to cum no matter how long I fapped and ending up bruising my dick; at the end I was able to work up an orgasm but it wasn't as good as you might imagain, even on MDMA.
>>82388995>will they be effective for someone like me who's new to this stuff?10mg is a nice starting dose afaik. If it's too much just cut the gummie in half next time. But 10mg on no tolerance should be juuust right before turning uncomfortable or paranoid or anything if I still know my stuff, that is. Never had edibles before desu (weed is illegal here) so I'm drawing from internet sources, common sense and second-hand testimonies from friends who did edibles abroad (I question them about their doseage regularly since I'm pretty anal when it comes to messuring doses and am very curious) so take it as it is.
does anyone know if weed helps with ocd or anxiety in general
>>82389398>Ketamine sucksI've only hears good things about it, huh.>Makes me nauseousCould it be the drip from snorting it that caused the nausea? I dread snorting anything cause of the adverse effects that it has (ruining your nostrils and dripping down your throat and so on).>the high isn't worth itWhat was your dosage? How far did you go? Did you experience all that drug had to offer? How did the high feel? Just asking because I've been toying with the idea of doing ket relatively soon so I'd like to know more specifics from your experience if it was that disappointing.
>>82390171Some people get relief, others have it get worse from THC+CBD. Specifically, THC can be harsh for some people and you may enjoy just CBD by itself. If you're going to do them for that purpose (or just in general) it'd be worth it to try out both together and by themselves.
>>82389457>If i take 30 milligrams of xanax then drink 500 grams of sodium cyanide right when it kicks in will the death be painless?Idk myself but there is a forum called sanctioned suicide that has a megathread about suicide by chems and guides on how to do it as effectivly and painlessly as possible. Wikipedia entrie:https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sanctioned_Suicide hope it's ok to post this on this board...
>>82390247I think I'll start with cbd oil only at first. That's what the internet recommends at least
>>82389457Don't do it (original)
>>82390274Thank you my fren
>>82367225anyone have any experience with HHC?I cant find any trip reports or experiences with it, how does it differ from normal weed?
>>82384781Your whole philosophy is based on the idea that life is suffering, that there should be "a way out" because life can be too hard for people, this is retarded, life is beautiful and all the social constructions that make it awful are human inventions based on shame and greed, you are of the view that life is not worth protecting no matter how deranged the person trying to end it isthe philosophers have only interpreted the world in various ways, the point, however, is to change it
>>82385392One of my favorites ever
>>82389589Idk what the others said, but enough benzos can knock you out straight to blackout land. But chem suicide methods are complicated and can be painful/messy if done incorrectly. You should consider other methods (like CO2 poisoning, by lighting charcoal in a closed tent and let it fill up with CO2 and then get in, under the influence of a ton of benzos, and take your last nap. I've heard that it is mostly painless and peaceful)
>>82389398>>82390216>Ketamine sucks. Makes me nauseous unironically have more of ithaving it on your own will make you nauseous and drunk and is kind of annoyingbut cuddling with your partner into a khole is nice i would have it more but i dont want to fuck my tolerance and it's bad for my bladder but i think it's fine for everyone else im just sensitive to it
Is stimulant tolerance permanent? I was taking vyvanse everyday in 2022 throughout the day on doses of 40mg + 20mg + 5mg +5mg throughout the day. My tolerance is still high and now I can't treat my adhd.
>>82390744You definitely altered your brain a bit. I assume it would go down over a a few years though. You'll have to look to alternatives (actions, diet/exercise, etc) and use stims only sparingly. However, I'm not sure on what the best specific actions are to take because I haven't used stims to a similar extent. Best of luck anon.
>>82390732>cuddling with your partner into a khole is niceCuddling on most drugs is nice desu.How would you describe a khole feels like? Is it easy to achieve by mistake?
Never tried H before, only other opioids. Copped 2g today, going to snort some in about an hour or two. Very excited.
>>82390792>Is it easy to achieve by mistake?not really, you'd have to go out of your way or be reaaaaly sensitive to khole by accidenti'd had a little bit of ket on my own just getting wavy before i had enough to get kholed>How would you describe a khole feels like? um you cuddle into someone and touch on your skin feels really good, you close your eyes and get lost in whatever visuals you get, lots of fractals and repeating patterns, it's quite pleasantif you have music playing you "experience" it more and feel all the components of itit's nice, but definitely work your way up to it or it might be unpleasant if it hits you and you're not expecting itif you take ket a little bit a time, you'll be too fucked to sort yourself another line before you khole yourself
>>82390171>does anyone know if weed helps with ocd or anxiety in generalIdk much about OCD, but have knowen a lot of people who treated their anxiety with weed. So yes, weed (I think mostly indica) can help with anxiety. If you're in a country where weed is legal it shouldn't be a problem to experiment with different cannabinoids, strains and doses and see what fits/help you the most.
>>82390784Thanks I appreciate it. Is it possible o can respond to a single daily dose of vyvanse that's just larger, or did my dosing pattern just screw things up?
>>82390371>Thank you my frenSure thing. Hope you'll find what you're looking for, anon.
>>82390819Careful snorting it, still very possible to OD, try smoking it or if you're going to snort it start with very low doses, also consider boofing the shit it's probably the best way to dose next to IV
>>82390871I'm going to start low and slow, don't worry. I don't really mind the relatively low bioavailability because I don't intend on doing any opioid long term, so I'm happy to pay a little premium for convenience.
>>82390860Im sure you could achieve pleasurable effects from high doses still, but you'd be frying your receptors even more than they already are. Be careful anon. I recommend checking out the supplement list on rollsafe.org (which despite being about entactogens is actually applicable to all dopaminergic stimulants) if you are gunna do it anyway.
>>82390647>Your whole philosophy is based on the idea that life is sufferingNot at all! Life is a wonderful gift and I like it very much, despite me being in a bad situation (I count my blessings).>that there should be "a way out" because life can be too hard for peopleI also mentioned suicide cause you're getting to an old age (like Hunte S. Thompson did) or on a whim, maybe life is too boring for you. My point is that it is the person's *Freedom* to die whenever they want to, as long as they are of age and a sound mind; they are indipendent agents who are responsible and accountable for their own decisions, and society should cater to that notion insted of insisting life is a non-negotiable condition that has to be preserved no matter what; now, THAT is retarded and narrow sighted. Therefor there must always be a way out (some european countries have assisted euthanasia services already, though they only take the terminally ill and such. It must be available to anyone)>this is retardedHow so? How is freedom retarded?>all the social constructions that make it awful are human inventions based on shame and greedNot the only reason to kys.>you are of the view that life is not worth protecting no matter how deranged the person trying to end it isAgain, Hunter S. Thompson was of sound mind (as sound as Thompson can be hehe) when he took his own life by a gunshot to the head and left a lovely suicide-note explining his actions; he was getting too old for personal taste and comfort. Which is valid and not deranged. If the person is really deranged or in a state of momentary lack of control, maybe you should wait a while for them to calm down and maybe offer that person some resources like a social safty-net and a listening ear.>the philosophers have only interpreted the world in various ways, the point, however, is to change itSome people just wanna be left alone and die, not to change the world for better or worse. And (that's the important bit) it's fine.
>>82391026I really want off this train.... I think I need to get off stimulants. I'll try taking 70mg of vyvanse in the morning(max dose) and if I can focus for 3 hours I'll consider that a success. Otherwise I'm dropping it
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>>82390837>touch on your skin feels really goodSounds like MDMA. As a disso, don't you feel detached from your skin, though?>you close your eyes and get lost in whatever visuals you get, lots of fractals and repeating patternsInteresting. I didn't know ket had a psychedelic side to it.>it's quite pleasant if you have music playing you "experience" it more and feel all the components of itAlso sounds psychedelic in nature. I expected dissos to oparate in a different manner on the mind and preception of reality.>definitely work your way up to it or it might be unpleasant if it hits you and you're not expecting it Thanks for the advice!>if you take ket a little bit a time, you'll be too fucked to sort yourself another line before you khole yourselfInteresting. Does it hurt motorics that badly? I mean, it is an anesthetic, but still. I only experienced motoric dysfunction on alcohol and acid (and I don't drink anymore). I don't like when drugs cripple me. Like LSD is a really crippling drug where you can't move/communicate properly (on normal-mid doses), which sucks cause it's one of my favorite drugs.So I learned ket has a psychedelic side to it and doing little by little is a bad idea cause you won't be able to oparate properly and potentially take the k-hole last bump. I thought ket was more introspective leaving you a detached wandering mind with no body, dissociated from the rest of reality. Thanks for the information!
>>82391126>Some people just wanna be left alone and die, not to change the world for better or worse. And (that's the important bit) it's fine.Not fine, life is fiery with its beauty, continue to fight forever and don't expect me to turn the other way if you decide to give up
>>82390819>going to snort some in about an hour or two. Very excitedHave fun, anon! Sounds very exciting doing a new drug for the first time. Just be careful with it and be safe, please; both on the dosage front and on the addiction front.
Apparently Gunma prefecture is good with drugs. Gunma has often been associated with Hojo, Takeda, and Usugi.These clans must become stronger.
Gunma is kinda in the middle of these.Toyotomi have been strange about drug laws when Toyotomi love drugs.
Toyotomi secretly do insane amounts of drugs while maintaining drug laws as a jab at other clans.
>>82391460Like how drug laws in Yankee land are a jab at Wixi and communityism.
>>82391328>Not fine, life is fiery with its beauty, continue to fight foreverNot applicable for some people and you really need to accept that. For some people, life has overstayed its welcome and needs to go away. It's not a fight against depression or anything, really, it's just their decision and it's ok. People like you are the reason so many people shame themselves for even considering suicide (and scared to be put in a psychward against their wills), even if it really is the best option, and let them continue suffering in their hellish situations that won't get any better and might get even worse. There is no pride in taking punishment without relief and prolonging the insufferable. You also need to accept the concept of FREEDOM, my fren. Again, it's peoples god-given right to decide to die whenever they want. All of that doesn't nullify all of the great work suicide prevention services like hotlines are doing, giving deperately needed resources for the preventable cases and those who's judgment got compromized.>don't expect me to turn the other way if you decide to give upAgain, a seemingly noble (and I believe you are acting on good faith), yet naive, selfish, self-righteous and narrow sighted/minded notion.It's because of people with your point of view that a lot of preventable suffering continues, the old wither away in nursing homes dealing with a slowly dying body insted of going their own way, at, or a bit after their primes and having a group of people who would be better off dead stick around for no reason apart from "life is good bro. Your mom will be sad, bro". You need to accept that there are people with different points of view about life and death and it's their right to be that way (no matter how tragic some cases seem to be or how well off they might be or how beautiful their lives are or how young they are).
A drug addiction can make you the most motivated person ever, in no way do they make you lazy.Would a sober person walk over 20 miles by foot for drugs, get nothing out of it, and be willing do it all again the same day?
>>82386106Best shit to take? Don't take anything. That's it. Do it after the test nibba, be a man.
>>82392439Normies walk up mountains for no reason at all
what are your guys' experience with 7-OH? i took 30mg for the first time about 1.5 hrs ago and i'm feeling a bit let down desu
>>82392439>walk over 20 miles by foot for drugsWho does that anymore? My dealer nowdays has couriers that deliver my drugs straight to my doorstep (but there was a time in the past I would walk half the city to my weed guy's house to pick up weed. Golden era of weed degeneracy)
>>82393067People who live in such rural shitholes that the farthest post office is 10 miles away I guessand inb4, I don't have a driver's license or a car I could "borrow"
Are things you remember on mushrooms reliable or not? Like if you remember that your dad sexually abused you, and it felt like something you hadn't really forgotten but had just been out of sight of conscious recollection, is that trustworthy if you've had issues that come from experiencing that sort of thing? Like when normally tripping, it's pretty easy to tell what's a hallucination and what's reality, but that remembering experience felt like a genuine experience and not hallucinatory or delusional, but I couldn't say what age other than young or where specificallyIt wasn't on my mind at all going into the trip, but it felt like it immediately came to mind as a thing I needed to feel and remember. It just is confusing because I don't want to think it's true, and it also felt true and as though I had found some peace in feeling it. Since then I've had a couple of nightmares that also felt like memories and idk if those are real but they had the same feeling of like "oh that's right...", but it just seems weird that it would've been forgotten only to resurface decades later due to drugs, rather than being a product solely of those drugsI don't have a history of psychosis or delusional beliefs aside from anorexia and some borderline pd stuff, but never anything like fabricating things wholesale. I'm just not sure how to make sense of things, and was wondering if other ppl have had similar experiences, though I hope not bc it's rather distressing
>>82393210never really had that happen personally, at most it tried pointing out some issues but I just ignored the thoughts until they went away ^^and it's my main strat for anything psych-related, ignore the bad until it goes away, otherwise the bad will be going in circles.
>>82367225Is it a good idea to try any drug if I have psychosis and mental illness in my family? I just want to try it once
>>82393245I've tried that but it still comes outidk some days I just accept that I feel the way I feel, and try to give the inner child part of myself comfort and compassion that I didn't get as a boy and say it's ok and that his pain is real and it helps me feel better, but then other days I beat myself up for even thinking my father might have done something like thatlike everything else, there's good days and bad daysgood advice though, thanks
>>82393026I'd be weary of current/modern vendors in the scene due to imminent (though not yet active) legal pressure on mitragynine (and related chemicals) causing them to skimp out on product quality. Or I'm just being a schizo/spaz and really you just had an unlucky batch from a specific vendor.>>82393261Mostly not at all. I've read from schizophrenics that some can still use a few substances, but that's combined with the fact that they are on heavy anti-psychotics and have given up on controlling their symptoms. If you wanted to play it (semi-)safe, then 100% avoid stimulants and hallucinogens. You could try opioids and GABAergics. Obligatory: start low and go slow.
>>82393133>People who live in such rural shitholesSome of the dealers in my telegram group have nation-wide delivery service and send to the remotest rural areas of the country. These days it's expected to have a delivery service that reaches everywhere and short wait times when it comes to telegram dealers. But if you're doing it the old-school way, I can see you walking some kms just to score; at least it keeps you physically fit and is good exrecize. Your milage may vary depends on your country's telegram scene, but I'd try telegram markets if I were you, anon.>I don't have a driver's license or a car I could "borrow"My neither. My lags are still my best vehicle and carried me through most of the city's length over and over in my stoner days. Now my body's atrophied from excessive NEETing and I'm spoiled from the quality of life additions that happened to the local market as a whole and won't go more than a flight of stairs to score drugs.
>>82393528You could probably do what I did if you were addicted enough to opiates.I'm a NEET and the most physical exercise I got in the last few weeks was walking to the fridge or bathroom.
>>82393210>Are things you remember on mushrooms reliable or not?Could have been a repressed memory unlocked by the shrooms' ability to connect parts of the brain that are not usually connected; or a complete fabrication of the mind where the shrooms are giving you the "oh, that's right" feeling, like a false deja-vu or experienceing some kind of "revelation" thoughts that, when looked upon outside a trip, are pretty lame and far-fetched.>Since then I've had a couple of nightmares that also felt like memories and idk if those are realThe nightmares can be a byproduct of the impression the trip left on you; or subconscious memories trying to resurface. Idk, man, it's either or; the mind works in strange ways especially while on psychs. Sorry it has been distressing for you. Imo just let it go as just a waky psych thing or if you're really curious, try to validate the memories with some questions and detective work. Goodluck!
>>82393680thanks anon! I will say, the reason I struggle with it is that it doesn't seem far fetched. my dad's been inappropriate or weird at other times, or just laughed when I got angry about child abusers and told me I'd never been molested while smiling which seemed like a totally weird response. plus he's a liar and narcissistic, and while none of that indicates that he did do that, it certainly doesn't make it seem far fetched to meanyway that's enough blogging, ty again for your input
>>82393714nta but I truly hope you sort that out.
>>82389917>>82389984French here. Iel as a pronoun is a feminist invention from like 2020 and almost no one uses it. Most of the population doesn't even know it was invented.Also it's not plural either, it's just a mix of him (il) and her (elle), making it "hier", "iel".They try to make it a thing but it doesn't work because no one believes non binary is a thing here.We do not have singular plural in our language, also gender is never used to refer to someone, it's a grammatical word used in language study. People have a sex.
>>82391434Gunma is a prefecture that's under Japanese law like all prefectures. What's illegal under Japanese law is illegal in Gunma. It's the same everywhere.Don't spread your bullshit everywhere you Canadian tranny.
>>82393261>Is it a good idea to try any drug if I have psychosis and mental illness in my family?To be the safest, do what >>82393474 said. But imo, there will be no harm with a small dose of LSD or something as long as you're not showing symptoms of psychosis or mental illness and are generally well-adjusted and calm of mind.I am a scizo (not caused by drugs and don't have a family history) and use stims and LSD freely and it doesn't aggravates my symptoms (though I am on AP meds) while still experienceing the drug's effects wholly. For good mental health in general, avoid using any substance for too long a period; especially weed if you fear psychosis (cause weed's heavier effects can creep up on you, as you take larger and larger doses, and can trigger unwanted reactions. The only psych that makes my symptoms worse is weed, from experience).
>>82393210No they're not reliable. On shrooms I remembered things that never happened. Hell I remembered previous and future lives.Your dad never raped you, you're just a weirdo.Father-daughter rape is very very rare if they're linked by blood. It's a biological thing, you are not attracted by your own children.
>>82393261No it's not a good idea, it's risky and dumb.Why would you take that risk? It could change and ruin your life forever.
>>82393743thanks anon>>82393785a lot of child sexual abuse (and sexual abuse generally) is more about control rather than genuine sexual attraction, plus it's father son not father daughter>remembered other lives idk I've never dosed that high, this was a lower dose that just felt like an emotional lubricant
>>82393806So you think your father could be a homosexual, a pedophile, and an incestuous rapist?You must not think very highly of him.No one raped you, you're fine. You might not be mentally stable enough to do psychedelics though.
>>82393796Why? Will it change me forever
>>82393828If you trigger or worsen your psychotic illness it could make you lose touch with reality a lot more.Hence the stories of people who try LSD or psilocybin and "never come back", they stay half crazy psychotics for the rest of their lives.You don't want to be on Abilify or Pimozide for the rest of your life.
>>82393823You are really determined to believe that this anon's father is totally innocent with no real supporting details for or against. Methinks the lady doth protest too much; you got ulterior desires to rape the innocent
>>82393560>You could probably do what I did if you were addicted enough to opiatesAt the time, weed could well have been opiates. I would undertake most work and walk any distance (my legs became super buff for a while) or invoke any of my connections to get my hands on some flower. It was like gold to me and my stoner friends. Golden era of weed; but everything ends. That was when I was 17-18 and lived with stoner roomies, so a long while ago.>I'm a NEET and the most physical exercise I got in the last few weeks was walking to the fridge or bathroomSame lol
>>82393845Trying to "unlock rape memories" or one's father is a new trendy reddit and tiktok thing to give them an excuse to hate their father and a reason for being so depressed.It's a stupid and very damaging thing. They often manage to create false memories and convince themselves to ruin their family by making false accusations of something that cannot be disproven.Very very rarely does a father rape his own offspring.
>>82393842Ya I'm pretty high functioning despite the lack of drive anhedonia and flat affect but I guess any psychedelics will destroy my life though
>>82393714>I will say, the reason I struggle with it is that it doesn't seem far fetchedIf you can't let it go then you must confront him and ask him about this (maybe in a round-about way) and gauge his reaction when you bring out more and more specific details about the incident.Or commit to letting this go for good.Either way, you can't keep living in this limbo forever, thinking about what-ifs.
>>82393760I see. I stand corrected. Though, as I said, language is an evolving medium and words change meaning and new words are added every day; the fact it's new doesn't make it less valid especially when accepted by enough people.Also it doesn't invalidates my comments on the English language.I am not keen on the Franch language, but sew an example in it that was misled by google's AI and my own ignorance, it would seem.>also gender is never used to refer to someoneSo you don't use trans people's pronouns, at all? Is that what I should understand from that? Or am I wrapping my mind around it wrong? Cause that seems unlikly in todays reality if you want to be polite to someone.>it's a grammatical word used in language studyRelegating a word to be purely for study is odd I guess. Especially when it has a lot of relevance in todays world. Are you sure no-one is using gender insted of sex to identify people? Not even members of the lgbt community? Or younger academic students?>People have a sexMaybe it's a lingual thing I can't understand from my prespective, but what do you call a person, which you don't know the sex of, in casual conversation? Just "that person"? (and what is the closest approximation of it in English, that you know of?)Thanks for the correction, though.
>>82394148No what I meant is that the word gender (genre, in French) is never used to talk about someone's sex.When talking about trannies we still say transsexuals, except for some journalists that spend too much time on twitter. You know how the feminists pushed for the change of transsexual to transgender 15 years ago in English? Maybe you're too young to remember but everyone said transsexual before that.All our ID cards and such say "sex" on it.And yes if we talk about someone whose sex is unknown, like a suspect of a crime, it's "the suspect" or "the person" or "him or her" if we have to.The exact same way everyone did in English until two decades ago. You cannot find a singular they in the LotR books or something. It didn't exist back then.Nor can you hear it in Columbo, in every episode there is a suspect of unknown sex and they never used a singular they, ever.And I'm sure in some circles, like the tranny circles or in those weirdos that believe in nonbinary or something they use the gender word to refer to people's sex, but it's only to the extent that American and Twitter culture is leaking into European culture, it's not prevalent.Maybe it'll be in a generation or two if things continue that way, but anyone over 40 will think as the "gender" word as something you hear in French classes about the proper spelling of a word if the noun is feminine or masculine.Example:La fourchette est cassee (the fork is broken)Le couteau est casse (the knife is broken)Since fork is a feminine word, you have to reflect the gender of the noun in the adjective and the pronoun, hence "cassee" instead of "casse", since a knife is masculine.(There is an accent on the "e" but I can't post non ASCII.)
>pay day comes too slow https://youtu.be/NjEcBm_B3DY?si=bW8YITI6xqbEhn_I
>>82393871I don't use twitter or Reddit and I already have enough other reasons to dislike my father or be depressedIt wasn't creating false memories either, just remembering that he had done that stuff. I've always had issues with my body and sexuality since I was a little kid, and felt like I knew I was abused like that without specific instances I could remember on the spot. I could never touch my genitalia without feeling absolutely torrential feelings of revulsion and violation, to the degree that I still can't touch down there despite being an adult. I stopped being comfortable sharing a bed with my dad after one incident that may have just been a nightmare but idk, I would sleep on the floor rather than next to him and I would worry about sleeping near other people during sleepovers bc I thought they would think I would sexually abuse them. he'd also have me give him massages when I was a teen, and I'm not saying that any of that is proof positive he abused me but what I am saying is that this wasn't out of left field where I'd never thought anything bad had happened everI also have a similar example where I don't remember my dad hitting me other than a little head smacking, but he's admitted to actually hitting me to get me to stop crying even after severely hurting myself, and I don't remember that bc I was young. Even before I knew that, I still would cringe when he's raise his voice as if he were going to hit me, and so if those responses existed because of the physical abuse and in spite of me not being able to consciously recall the worst incidents thereof, wouldn't it be possible for the same to happen with sexual abuse? I do acknowledge it's all guesswork and speculation, but it's not because it's trendy or an excuse for anything. I'm just trying to make sense of my experiences>>82393922he's not the type to be honest even when directly confronted ultimately it doesn't matter much, so I should just accept that I can't know and just move on
>>82394317Your last thought is the wise one. Don't dwell on it, it would only make everything worse.
>>82393893>I guess any psychedelics will destroy my life thoughNTA But I don't see harm in trying psychedelics on small doses. Most of people who "didn't come back" from trips did high doses which caused a psychotic response (and, sure, were predesposed to mental illness/psychosis). Unless you want to be absolutely safe, in which case abstinance is always the answer, you can allow yourself to experiment with small doses of psychedelics and see where they leave you mentally and make your choices from there; you don't really know if you're actually susceptible to psychosis or mental illness even though family history is a factor. I'm just not convinced that one trip will unlock a box full of demons inside your mind forever and ever. In my experience, schizophrenia (which is just chronic psychosis with some extra steps) is gradual and develops over time in a mentally harmful environment rather than hit you full force in one go and ruin your life for good. There can be episodes, for sure, but it's unlikely (not impossible, if you're really susceptible) to happen from one trip and most of the time are temporary and will not develop into chronic psychosis; and then you'll really know to stay away. My point is that it'll be a shame missing the wonderful world of psychs cause of fear, but whatever you choose. Goodluck!P.S: abilify is a hellish drug from satan himself that dosen't treat shit and actually makes you feel like you're really crazy; the side-effects are worse than any psycho attack I've ever had by far. Don't try it hehe.
>>82394317>so I should just accept that I can't know and just move onThat is certainly a way to deal with that.Would have been a lot cooler if you went for the full detective pedo-hunter route, but whatever.
Sounds like a better route though, whether his dad raped him or not, it doesn't change the present.
Oh one extra thing that might be relevant to that discussion.I remember when I thought I was trans on shrooms and shaved my facial hair, but once sober I just laughed over it.I see psychedelic thoughts as just high thoughts, unless it's beneficial, I don't entertain them past the high.
>>82394250>the word gender is never used to talk about someone's sexOh, of course not. They are two different things.>everyone said transsexual before thatWell, that's how real social change comes to be and new words are absorbed by society and enter everyday conversation. That's natrual.>All our ID cards and such say "sex" on itIt feels more accurate in a sense. Shame though, that trans people do all this work and pass but still be bound by paperwork to their past lives.>if we talk about someone whose sex is unknown, like a suspect of a crime, it's "the suspect" or "the person" or "him or her" if we have toOoh, interesting. A bit of a round-about way to talk tho.>The exact same way everyone did in English until two decades agoAs I said, new doesn't mean invalid and afaik, nowdays it is accepted by the majority of English speakers that they is used as a gender neutral pronoun.>You cannot find a singular they in the LotR booksTimes and societies change, as I said. Language is a breathing, living, ever-changing thing that fits itself into the needs of the society.>they use the gender word to refer to people's sexThat's not accurate.>Since fork is a feminine word, you have to reflect the gender of the noun in the adjective and the pronoun, hence "cassee" instead of "casse", since a knife is masculineThat's how it is in my language, too (tho a fork is masc).And afaik we used the word they as gender neutral pronoun since before I was born (I'm 28, and never remember a time where it wasn't like that; it just felt natrual to say since ever).Thanks for the information!
>>82394715>whether his dad raped him or not, it doesn't change the presentI think if he did rape him it'll effect the present and will put a bit of a damper on their relationship, don't you think?
>>82394897It's up to that anon really what he thinks, all I can do is have an opinion.
>>82370012started smoking weed at 14 and was a degenerate for two weeks until covid hit and ended up not doing anything until i was like almost 18. i now occasionally do drugs, but honestly if it weren't for covid i probably would have ruined my life cause i was so retarded.
>>82394780They're horny thoughts, really.
Recently there have been more and more trannies in druggie circles. I know drugs attract mentally ill people like jews to a penny, but it's making things needlessly sexual and gross.
>>82395582>needlessly sexual and grossOh yeah every chick who does drugs fucking her dealer for a free hit is the necessary part of sexual.
>>82395607Of all the girls I know that do drugs, none of them had sex for it. Drugs aren't expensive, they just pay for it.You'd really have to be some kind of subhuman crack whore to not have enough money for some drugs.
God I wish I had a warm croissant right now.I need one, please allow one to materialize In front of me.
just picked up street adderall, i tested them for fent and it came back negative. is there anything else i should be worried about?
>>82395582Sex and drugs go hand and hand and their entire lives revolve around fetishes, so of course they'd fuel them with drugs.
>>82395855Damn I feel this post, some nice beef and noodles too..
what's a good dnm for buying from and to canada? i miss abacus so much rn ;-;
God I miss my Ritalin so much
>>82396307We can't source. See the one that's the most popular on Dread, that's the one you want.
>>82396074>street adderall What a dumb way to name it. What's in it? Amphetamines? Which ones? What quantity?Fentanyl isn't the only opiate that's dangerous to have your drugs laced with, I'd recommend a reagent test kit, or simply to not buy off the street like a nigger and to order online like all functional drug users.That being said, you most likely simply have bought meth. Fent is the biggest danger so you're *probably* safe to assume it's simply meth.
>>82396431Why don't you buy some more? Phenylalanine isn't hard to find on a market.
>>82396497Methylphenidate*, not phenylalanine.
>>82396480fair yeah im just kinda pissed because i need to reup my stash but at least i still have my old great vendors saved
>>82396490my bad, its a 30mg orange pill. Imprintb 974. Dealer is a friend of my girlfriends, i just asked her for adderall
I wanted to wake up and start my day. Took some ritalin and slept even better. Fuck.
>>82390819 (me)Definitely a very interesting experiece; it feels much warmer than any other opioid I've done, you really do get the 'warm blanket' feel people talk about. It's also much more debilitating, I couldn't text properly while on it (unlike other opioids). I was a little disappointed on the euphoria front, it felt no different to oxycodone there. There's also much more of a 'hangover', I still feel tired almost 12hrs after my redose and after 8hrs of sleep. Will definitely be trying more over the next month.
peepeepoopooI like uppers more than downers but downers is all I have so here we go
How powerful is Xanax compared to klonopin? I've tried some conversion calculators and they're all telling me different things, if I want to get the equivalent high of 2mg klonopin out of Xanax how much should I take?
To anyone that's into the EU research chemicals scene, how long do you guys think it will take for dutch vendors to find new legal uppers? Been 2 months since the ban now and they still don't have any new shit. I feel like the RC scene is gonna be finished now for good
>>82398893Lizard Labs closed down bro, RC scene is over.
>Dad let me borrow his heat gun so I could fill distillate cartridgesAnyone else have based parents?
>go to liquor store>some guy gestures for me to go ahead of him >say okey dokey and put my beers up there with some fireball>he goes "never saw THOSE before" and starts giggling at me>cashier was taking forever with the next customer>just walk out Got a better deal on alcohol and some groceries instead at a different store
6mg of clonazepam. It's fun, but it also makes me sleepy (which is both good and bad). When I'm sleepy, I want to sleep, and so I can't enjoy the effects of clonazepam anymore.
Took tramadol for the first time today. I really like this feeling, its nice. I feel sedated. But I am going to run out soon. Does anyone have any experience with O-DSMT?
>>82399655>6mg of clonazepam. It's fun, but it also makes me sleepyDamn, I took 4mg and was literally blacked-out for 4 hours straight, before I wokeup. How can you even function on 6mg even?
>>82367225>be me two nights ago>had a few drinks, tipsy>guy in our group offers us benzos>never had them but I'm a fucking retard and he assures me I'll be fine>have one, stop drinking from that point on>go to the club>I'm a lot more "impaired" than he is but being a retard I feel I can handle more and ask him for some more which he happily obliges and keeps assuring me I'm gonna be fine>also do some balloons while we're there>at this point my memory blacks out>my friends pick me up from the club, find me borderline unconscious outside with the dude next to me seemingly laughing/unbothered>friends take me away>black out intermittently for the next 24 hours>wake up today, feeling okay, go for a 10k run, make a good time (45 minutes)>apologise profusely for my friends for my retardation and putting them into that situation>currently feeling intense dread and anxiety about the whole situation>I feel cognitively fine, but the thing is; on the one hand, It was very much my "decision", I chose to do the benzos, but I was also drunk and not really in a state to make that kind of decision whilst the guy kept downplaying them and giving me more whilst assuring me I would be fine knowing how drunk I was.I take full responsibility for my actions (and I'm quitting a bunch of shit and starting a healthier lifestyle starting this morning), and I'm mortified for putting my friends through that, but part of me also feels like the guy who gave me them was partially responsible, he knew better, was far more sober, and should have known to cut me off, keeping in mind he was giving them for free too.basically, am I a bad person, is he, are we both? When I say I'm turning things around that's not bullshit, but my god the anxiety and dread just thinking about the whole situation makes me so uncomfortable, it feels selfish to say but I almost feel like a victim? especially given the blackouts and not knowing what happened when I was unconscious
