Happened when I was 5-8. I fantasize about mutilating my own genitalia daily and/or transitioning. But I know I should get over it. How? I live as a functional adult, but I want to finally be happy. Finally be over it. I'm willing to do whatever it takes. All I need to know is how.>inb4 therapyPiss off with your kyke scammage.
>>82395208Therapy is unironically the answer. You need to detach yourself from the memories. You have PTSD. If you want meds maybe beta blockers will help.
>>82395208Every day you're not happy you're letting him win.
>>823952156 years.Did nothing.The only promising therapy I've heard of is the specialized MDMA offshoot with numbers to back it up. Have plans to go around 2 years from now.>>82395216I tell this to myself too. It works on a surface level, most of the time. And is how I get by. This genital obsession issue is a problem though. I need to get rid of it, and do not know how.
>>82395208>>82395252DJ Peach Cobbler has a video about being raped as a 7 year old (by a girl at church) on his Patreon that's free to view, you could start there. It's a bit flowery but very much about his struggle with it.
>>82395252Could always look into the side effects and terrible consequences that come with transition. Those details are coming out more and more these days
>>82395208you have to go to therapy
>>82395208Knew a girl got raped around the same age as you. She was messed up real bad but she seemed to hold it together because she had a guy she was latched on to. Centered herself around him, seemed to help. Guessing you're a guy which makes that hard but it's a thought.
>>82395257Sure, I'll check it out. I'm an artist too, so its always refreshing for me to see a creative mind's take on things.>>82395268I am already likening transition to mutilation. Ala, it is bad. That was not my question. My question is how to remove this basal urge from myself from the first place. Since it isn't normal, nor healthy.>>82395329You don't solve problems with codependency. You can't. Lose your vice which you depend upon, and now you have ten more problems. You can have a loving romantic relationship as a team. But not a codependency.I am a female. If that's relevant somehow. A lesbian one thoughbeit.
>>82395208>gets diddled>>82395391>becomes gayLMAO every time
>>82395391>You don't solve problems with codependencyIt worked for her and I'm sure it works for other people. I'm not saying it's safe or the preferred route, but what else do you have? Ultimately it's a problem of integration isn't it? Something awful happened to you and you can't accept it and you can't accept that it isn't happening any longer. Codependency can offload the acceptance to your partner, though if you're resistant to it then obviously it doesn't work. I'll also say that I don't believe romantic love, or love at all, is even necessary for a successful relationship but I'm very much not normal.>femaleIt's not really relevant except that I think it's easier for a codependent woman to get a man than a codependent man to get a woman, gender roles or whatever. I don't know how lesbians work so I can't comment there.
>>82395208If therapy didnt work I would try meds from a shrink. Zoloft for the PTSD and prazosin if you have nightmares. Did you do EMDR therapy or trauma focused CBT? EMDR has better results but CBT is okay too
>>82395208you don't. traumas that happen between ages 4-10 are stuck with you forever no matter how small or big they are, the only thing you can do is try to turn over a new leaf and learn ways to cope with your trauma and for that you need therapy and possibly medication.
>>82395401kek>>82395415I'll never tell my future wife what happened as much as I can help it. Or anyone for that matter. People take advantage if you are weak. So I refuse to ever trust anyone that much.>>82395452I'm not getting them from a shrink, but I'll look into them. Thanks.Yeah, I went through the cock and ball torture therapy. Some dick blueball torture therapy too. Both equally as ineffective.Heard of emdr. The eye movement thing sounds retarded and gimmicky to me, but perhaps I'm yet to be proven wrong.>>82395463Yeah I do my best. I'm a lot happier than I was, 1000%. So I know its possible to get better. If this is as far as it gets, I can get by just fine with it. If its only up from here though, I wanna live to see it. And seek which way is up too.
>>82395415>I don't know how lesbians work
>>82395208You can't get over it retard, it's PTSD, I have PTSD too, fucking dumbass idiot motherfucker.
>>82395208>>82395391is there anything that makes you feel strong? i know it sounds a little cheesy these days but i think that's why people try to "reclaim" things, like a symbol or their bodies or whatever.any thing or thought that gives you the slightest feeling you can fight back or protect yourself helps a little, even if you know deep down that it's you coping with yourself. that's how i get over or heal from things; i'd rather have a gun that doesn't work than have nothing at all
>>82395208You should just stop being a dyke and let me torture your clit
>>82395502EMDR is literally the best most proven therapy for PTSD, you should definitely research it and consider doing it. Also, where the hell are you going to get zoloft or prazosin from if not a shrink? I dont think the local plug is selling those
>>82395208>How to get over rape?You don't.
>>82395516Yeah, you're probably right bro. I know. I try to belive in myself or whatever shit just cause, if it ends up that I can heal it, that'd be so fucking awesome. Best day of my life. So on the offchance I can, I'm going for it.>>82395528Yeah, you're onto something dude. Boxing, kickboxing is the best shit I've ever tried. Weightlifting too, but fighting is so much cooler and raw.I usually have this crud in my body. Like all the shit from the past crawling inside me like nasty leeches. And then I spar, and all that crud rushes like crashing wind out my body cause of all the euohoric adrenaline kick. Killing the leeches. With my FISTS! Its the best dude. I want to be like that all the time so bad. Makes me see how much I'm missing out.>>82395565I've seen countertop and medical industry drugs on certain onion sites before.
>>82395614>I've seen countertop and medical industry drugs on certain onion sites before.Good luck finding that shit at a good price and you would never really know if it is even the real stuff.Cut the shit anon. Go get EMDR therapy (the best one for PTSD) and go to a shrink for proper PTSD meds that you pick up from a pharmacy you dunce. If you tell them you want zoloft for PTSD and prazosin for PTSD nightmares they WILL prescribe it to you. What are you afraid of?
I'm sorry that happened anon. You just have to live with it and get past it somehow. It takes time, sorry I don't know how to help you. God bless you anon
>>82395208Post contact so I can rape you to overwrite the trauma from your childhood rape
>>82395208>How to get over rape?You never really do, you just find ways to cope and live happily in spite of the traumatic experience>Piss off with your kyke scammage.You're looking at the solution in the eyes and you refuse it because you think it's a jewish psyop? Are you fucking stupid?
CBT yourself faggot, the other kind not the ball torture. You probably did the take a deep breath and count to ten therapy kek
>>82395208Not to sound rude or downplay what happened to you, but the best case scenario in your situation is just to accept that it happened and realize you didn't deserve that. Maybe be a jerk, never people please, speak your own mind and be true to yourself. I wish you luck in this life anon, I hope you make it eventually.
