How many of you have a diagnosed mental illness/disability and when/how did you find out for sure
You're being used for court footage. I don't want to do anything with you outside of that. I'm too good for you to be your friend, and to be your friend would be a horrible experience
>>82462390i dont be diagnosed , but how is that ai?, c ai is full on censor...
>>82462390I was diagnosed with autism when I was like 5 y/o
>>82462402I don't think I am. How do you know?>>82462682Picrel is irrelevant brah>>82462702Do you remember what it was like?
Fuck off, snarls.
>>82462390Shitzoid, diagnosed at 18 by a therapist. Knew I was fucked up from a much younger age but never saw anyone about it.
>>82462809That's a new one. What kind of slur is that? >>82462818I don't think I've ever met any actual diagnosed people. What's your personal experience like?
>>82462854>What's your personal experience like?With being diagnosed? I just sat there and answered questions. She was asking if I had friends, cared about people, what I liked to do, what I wanted to do. She diagnosed me schizoid but I never saw her again. Went to a shrink a few years later and he asked me a lot of the same questions, told me I was schizoid but only diagnosed me with depression. Been to a few therapists since and they all told me I was schizoid but wouldn't put it on paper for whatever reason, I think they try to avoid officially diagnosing stuff unless it's required for insurance reimbursement. It's all pretty easy going though, they want you to feel safe or whatever.
>>82462915Huh okay. Do you personally feel like it was all pretty consistent across the different people you talked to or did it feel like they were classifying you differently?
>>82462975Completely consistent and they all seemed to have homed in on that diagnosis within maybe 10 minutes of meeting me. There was one that wasn't like that but he was really weird. Told him I was depressed and wanted a script for prozac and he started miming mania and asking me if I ever had tons of energy (while almost jumping around) or if I was always low energy (while curling himself up). I just left at that point because it was too bizarre to deal with.
>>82463036Born to be an actor, forced to be a therapist. That's funny af nglOther than that good to hear. Shrink stuff always seems like just being a few steps away from pseudoscience considering how most of the data they use is self-reported and how often they disagree
I was diagnosed with autism when I was little and my mom never told me
>>82462915i'm sure i am a schizoid, but i also feel like i'm going to jail if i ever go to a therapist.
>>82463071>That's funny af nglLooking back on it yeah but at the time I was withdrawing from ssris and I was not happy lel. I think the actual diagnoses can be murky at times but it doesn't necessarily matter much. The diagnosis itself is just communicating a set of symptoms and then the doctor uses meds to treat those symptoms. Anxiety gets treated with ssris or benzos regardless of whether the patient has general anxiety, social anxiety, or whatever, so the diagnosis isn't super material to the actual treatment. Meds are mostly blunt instruments but there's not much alternative, brains are complicated.
>>82462390Bipolar disorder, Generalized anxiety disorder, ADHD when I was 18. I had a major depression episode so i needed help
>>82463138Unless you confess to doing or actively planning something horrifying you aren't going to get in trouble from a therapist
>>82463131What the fuck why would she do that?>>82463158Hmm okay, I guess that makes sense>>82463181Do you feel like knowing that has made your life better>>82463138Do I even wanna know?
>>82462390I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and some sort of depression that I do not remember. I think I was also called a schizoid or something but that shit seems like a meme. I have not to anyone for these supposed issues for like 8 years. Also, I use deepseek to roleplay and get forcefemmed and put in maid uniforms before getting sexually bullied.
>>82463399>I use deepseek to roleplay and get forcefemmed and put in maid uniforms before getting sexually bulliedI don't know whether using deepseek for that or just doing it in general is worse
>>82462390I'm undiagnosed but I *know* something's wrong with meWill I ever get diagnosed? Nah, it's more fun that wayKeep the mystery a mystery
>>82463412I have basically jerked off to exclusively forcefem shit since my first ejaculation. I dont see anything uniquely wrong with using some chatbot to facilitate it. Deepseek feels pretty good for erp too.
>>82462390bpd, autism and adhd. went to the doctor said I had a headache and then I was referred
>>82463443I'm just fucking about, you do what feels good man. I didn't think deepseek would do that kind of stuff tho, or are you using it on a third party platform?
>>82463355>Do you feel like knowing that has made your life betterOn the one hand I was able to get help and now I can always rely on medication if a depressive episode or something else is too severe, although I ignore doctors' recommendations and have not taken anything for the last year due to lack of money. On the other hand, it is hard sometimes to accept and very sad that I have an incurable mental illness and I won't feel well without taking medication all the time.But I'm used to it, I've been in a depressive episode for about half a year or a year now
>>82463466ive used it both on third party platforms and locally before, both work as long as you tell it more or less what you want to do. Which in my case is giving it instructions on how I want it to roleplay.
>>82462390mental health is nonexistent in my country but my doctor friend says I have endogenous depression. idk if that's really true, I do feel down quite often and have low self-esteem but I'd imagine depression would be something more serious
>>82463448How did a headache get you a referral for that?
>>82463543I described what I felt. That I couldnt concentrate or do anything and think. then the doctor said I think you have that and then referred me to get some tests done.
>>82463399>schizoid shit is a meme>says the most schizoid thing I've ever heard>>82463431Lmao, that's one way to go about it>>82463443How do you even start out with that bruh>>82463448Wow that's a whole collection>>82463470Yeah, I hear a lot of meds basically just make you a zombie too. That's one reason I don't want to seek diagnosis>>82463518What does endogenous mean
>>82462390For me, it's janitor AI
>>82463612>Yeah, I hear a lot of meds basically just make you a zombie too. That's one reason I don't want to seek diagnosisSometimes being a zombie isn't so bad. Sometimes I wish I knew less (not just about my diagnoses, but about the world) and thought and worried about things less. Just that I would do what I need to do, not be lazy and not waste energy on anxiety
>>82463611How bad's the bpd or do you have it under control?
>>82463612Start out with what? If you mean jerking off to crossdressing as a teenager, who knows? I was very sheltered from all sexual stuff too, didnt even know what porn or masturbation were, so it isnt like I got groomed or something.
>>82463664at this moment its really bad but it can change quickly
>>82463696That's how bpd goes I guess. What's it like when it's bad?
>>82463612>That's one reason I don't want to seek diagnosisBut you can try and if you don't like it just stop. Small to lose (money and time) but benefits can be massive
>>82463543it means not attributable to any external or environmental factor.
>>82463723Intense mood swings, delusions/ paranoia and cutting
>>82463781Sounds rough. Does anything trigger it or is it just random?
I've been institutionalized (twice). Diagnosed with Depression/Anxiety first, Schizophrenia second.
>>82463829Depends on some aspects some are random and some are triggered by a certain type of person and reaction
>>82463867Is it a trauma response? I get dissociative symptoms from certain noises because of trauma memory at times.
>>82463882i dont think so. I just cant handle smug people that try to analyze me and get in my head trying to decipher what I will think. It makes me more paranoid and spiraling
>>82462390>diagnosed mental illness/disabilityMajor Depressive Disorder, Single Episode, Severe without Psychotic FeaturesAutism Spectrum DisorderAttention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder, Predominantly Inattentive type>whenmay of this year when i was diagnosed>howwas done with an interview, PAI, CARS 2-HF, SAARS, and CTMT testingpersonal evidence is mostly just assumptions too but im for sure quite off from the norm atleastdepressionwhen my family divorced at a young age, i understood the repercussions of this and knew our life would change forever i was also still dealing with grief of my best friend dog that past away that i was raised with and then also moving and losing all the people i was grown up with.later in life, i would get over this but struggle connecting with people, and my loneliness + my mind always taunting me with my own failures and weirdness, devastated meautism/adhdive always been a weird kid in school, threatening people who wouldnt leave me alone, playing with my erasers all the way up till middle school, having them do little wars on my desk, i just struggled to engage growing up, was considered talented but just couldnt get invested and would get stuck in my own little world, would do drawings of stick figure wars too a crazy amount, gifted in some areas but struggled and need extra help classes for other things, was raised during the no child left behind act so my family really wanted to push me through and force me to have a 'normal' life in school as best as they could. hypersensitivity so some sounds and constant stimming in class, either leaning on my chair, kicking my feet or lots of other shit, constantly all my life, unless i was gaming or playing
>>82463659Ignorance seems to be bliss, but I like being me>>82463668Yeah exactly. It really sounds like you got groomed>>82463737That's true I guess. I've heard it's kind of difficult as an adult tho>>82463747Ah ok. >>82463867NTA but do you live with anyone who can help you? >>82463841Do you "feel" schizophrenic or different from others?>>82463926Yeah it's annoying as fuck>>82463967That's all pretty relatable anon. I bet a lot of us have a pretty similar past
>>82464980>That's all pretty relatable anon. I bet a lot of us have a pretty similar pastconnection to people is hard for the likes of us
>>82465199Yeah. For me I'm wondering if there's some kind of childhood trauma that made me this way that I've forgotten or if I was just born this way
