How terrible was your mother at being your mom?>How much did she screw you up?>Do you have trauma?>Will you ever forgive her?Well?
>>82463184It would take several long effort posts to explain how my mom harmed me.......
>>82463254Turkic women. Kazakhs are the original turkics.
>>82463184She was horrible, but knowing the folks I know and hearing stories about their moms, apparently my mom's actually better than everyone else'sAt the very least, she tried to be a good mother>How much did she screw you up?She beat me as a kid, she + dad took my college fund to settle debts, she stole my adolescence and early adulthood by getting sick and having me take care of her>Do you have trauma?I've talked to folks, professionals and apparently I exhibit PTSD symptoms>Will you ever forgive her?Already have, way backIt's her first time being alive too
>>82463184>She was highly promiscuous>Acted like a teenage girl well into her 30s>Made me feel weird about my Asian heritage>Despite her and my dad both being Asians>Divorce raped my dad and drained his soul>She didn't allow me to learn mandarin the language of my father>Told me that my physical inadequacies didn't matter and told me blue pilled lies>While she acted as a cocksleeve for white chads>Used to walk around naked in front of me>Made me develop unhealthy attitudes towards girls that got me in trouble>She would gloat about being Kazakh and how she had some caucasian features>My dad is Chinese so I came out looking full asian and she indirectly made me insecure>Allowed me to waste most of my youth playing vidya and kept stuffing my face with slop>Then when I ended up as a fat loser she started constantly nagging>When I turned my life around and got educated she didn't show up at my graduation>Allowed me to watch her undress and fap and just laughed (i was a young teen at the time)>Allowed me dry hump her when she was drunk and I came on her backside>Didn't correct that behavior and I replicated that behavior with a russian cousin and almost got in big trouble>She made me indirectly feel bad about my shortnessI don't know how I feel anymore.
>>82463184I was a shitty person and she set me straight. I didn't like and thought she was in the wrong for years and years, but now I know better
>>82463421How old is your mom now? Stil hot?
>>82463184>How much did she screw you up?A lot. I internalized her constant criticism. Now I'm basically paralyzed because I can't do anything without telling myself I'm a failure and my idea of a thing to do is stupid and I'll never manage anything. She used to slap me around and let my sister slap me. If I grabbed their wrists to stop them and defend myself, it was called 'manhandling' and she would threaten to report me to the police for assault, then she would lie to my father, pretend I'd hit her, and have him choke me. She'd strip me naked in crowded shopping centers when I was as old as 13, ignoring me telling her to stop, saying I was embarrassed and I didn't want to be naked in front of strangers. Everything I did was wrong and was turned into an example of why I'd never be able to make it in life. No matter how much I did, she was never happy. I did everything she wanted me to and she didn't congratulate me, didn't thank me, didn't praise me, she always just wanted more, more, endlessly, like running on a fucking treadmill, never getting anywhere. She is an actual narcissist, a CEO, and a psychopath. It took me a long time to realize this. When I tried to leave she would lie about having a terminal illness or the like, using my empathy and desire to be a good person to manipulate me for as long as possible.>Do you have trauma.I am trauma. There's nothing else left. I've spent years trying to rebuild and feel like I've gotten nowhere.>Will you ever forgive her?Once I put a knife to her throat and told her I'd slit it if she ever touched me again. I wish I'd done it anyway. I fantasize about murdering her. If I wasn't such a useless, paralyzed piece of shit I'd fucking do it. I'd burn her cunt house down with her inside, but that would deny me the pleasure of beating her face into a bloody pulp. Some day, when I lose the handful of things I still have left to live for, I will kill her. I will kill that cunt. I will make her suffer and pay.
>>82463456>How old is your mom now? In her mid 40s>Stil hot?People tell me she's hot to this very day so i guess.
>>82463497Ever thought about taking it to the next level? Like, actually fuck her?
>>82463517She's a chadsexual that only fucks local Canadian Hick chads and lanky quebec boys. I'm an autistic 5'8 ricecel. I hate being an asian in rural Canada. I live on impossible mode. I'm not even a smart ricecel. Life is an RPG and I have shit traits.
>>82463277Turkic just means mongol rapebaby
>>82463579Rape it is then :D
>>82463579>Smol asian boy.You sound like you'd be cute in a dress.
>>82463579>>82463517Imagine like Wayne from Letterkenny or a chad lumberjack or those lanky french canadian skater boys. That's her type. She gave birth to a ricecel like me but she's white chad only now. Evil bitch.
>>82463634I have big hands and feet and a recessed hairline. I have beady eyes even for asian standards and a fucked up underbite with a big pumpkin head. Also im not a fag.>>82463615Then jail for me it would be.
>>82463661>Then jail for me it would beIs the life you live not a prison itself?Do you guys still live together? If so, does she still walk naked around you?
>>82463682>Is the life you live not a prison itself?But at least I won't be raped by nigs, red indians or violent hicks in some crummy cell.>Do you guys still live together?Sometimes I go over to her house at the weekends.>so, does she still walk naked around you?If it's just me and my half brother in the house, then yeah.
>>82463592The turks on average look the least mongoloid.
>>82463813Sure, 15% on average, still mongol rapebabies. Turks are arab, mongol and euro mutts.
I wrote a lot of words, then I accidentally scrolled too far up and refreshed the page, deleting the post. Oh well. She was a party girl. That is, a junkie slut. My only memory of my parents together, and maybe my first memory ever, is of them telling me of their divorce. She was extremely distant, cold and awkward towards me. I can't remember a single positive comment or "I love you" through my whole life. Although I can't remember ever feeling that she was a mother figure to me (I don't even remember calling her mom), I must have felt like that at some point, since I know I was desperate for approval. Never got it, but many small, bitter complaints and sardonic comments, instead. Caused my anorexia and made me internalize her (actual) misandry. I was suicidal at ten, probably in great part because of the self-hatred and loss of confidence she instilled in me. Although I am technically completely neurotypical (which she made sure to investigate (and then lie to me about) when she wanted an excuse for why I'm fucked up), I am severely stunted socially and emotionally, and I think that's due to her. I don't know what trauma truly means, but my complexes, hangups and anecdotes that have done lasting damage to me are in the triple digits. She still has trouble seeing me as an actual human being and not just a mechanistic character to categorize into this or that box of types. I can't forgive her because I truly do not care about her. She's some hollow stranger I was forced to share an apartment with and who had undue legal power over me. I will never be able give her a genuine smile and I won't feel sad at her funeral, but I also will never feel angry or care to try to hurt her.
>>82463277lost my virginity to a she/they kazakh. pussy damn near ruined my life.
>>82463469That's pretty extreme anon. I'd say I'm sorry and it'd be true but I figure that pity sounds grating. How did it end up? No contact?
>>82463184>B BC cuckold artist.Dayum, whiteboi.
>>82463184My mother has Fetal alcohol syndrome and Narcissistic personality disorder. Imagine growing up with a 12 year old that is supposed to be the responsible adult that shows you how to live. Thank god she and my father will be dead someday. My entire life has been an awful experience.
My dad was way worseMy mom shouldve protected me from him but otherwise she was fine
>>82463184Is it because I had a good mom that I'm not a misogynist? I have a suspicion that all the hateful incels on this website had bad moms.
>>82464750I am so sorry you went through that
>>82465039My mom warped my sexuality and strengthen my inferiority complex
>>82464270Kazakh women are super slutty>t. Chinese anon with a kazakh mom
>>82465340My mom was basically a nympho hoe.
>>82463184What the fuck is that comic OPAbsolutely fucking disgusting.
>>82463184>Chinese mom gave me the tism and social retardation, also have adhd too>she's the one who expects the most of me and where all my misery growing up stems from
>>82463184She went to prison for sexually abusing me, so
>>824631840-11 she was a fantastic mom, literally couldn't have asked for anything better 12-16 she started going downhill. she would never intervene when my father would scream at me and my brother and be extremely unfair for no reason, just twiddle her fucking thumbs and look at the ground like a god damn child 17- Now Holy fuck I hate her. Because I was getting D's in highschool (which was still passing) my dad forcibly pulled me out and stuck me in hair school even though I had zero interest in it, when I eventually flunked out he destroyed my room while dear ol mom just twiddled her thumbs and let it happen. They tried to stick ME with the bill as well but because I was a minor they couldn't, lmao. Oh yeah, and when I turned 18 instead of helping me get situated my mom convinced me to be a stripper instead of growing a spine and standing up to the monster that I called dad. This fucking shrew sent her innocent, freshly 18 year old daughter who knew nothing of the world to be a whore thousands of miles away from anyone who could help with $400 and a car that breaks down a lot. I had no friends or anyone I could turn to so I felt I had to do it. God I still hate you, you spineless fucking retard.
>>82463184I feel like she wasn't great but she was definitely better than a lot of moms hereAt the very least the only "trauma" she gave me was showing me that women view men as resources, not people, but I would have learned that later down the line anyway so no big differenceWill I forgive her? Probably not, it still is actually soul crushing to feel like someone who is supposed to love you doesn't really care about or understand you at all but oh well>>82463278This anon, if real, has the patience of a saint
>>82465039Just wait until you get a girlfriend anon
>Relationship with mom is perfecly normal>Still somehow into mom NTRHow the fuck did this happen? What is my brain trying to compensate for?
>>82467137Is your mom hot? What race are you btw??
>>82463184My mom thought I was smart enough to get through college easily and get a good job and that I was handsome and kind enough for women to like me. I'm honestly glad she died before she could see I didn't end up being the person she hoped it'd be.
>>82463184She was unspeakably bad and engaged in every form of abuse we have a name for.I look forward to burying her.
>>82463184>How terrible was your mother at being your mom?She was pretty good, considering her hellish upbringing with child abuse, etc. She was fucked up for years after leaving my alcholic dad.She was over-protective; I was an only child, and latent autist. I was doomed to be a misfit, no matter what. She was something of a hermit herself.>How much did she screw you up?Other than the 'tism, not much.>Do you have trauma?Only in the sense that I found her dead in our kitchen a decade ago. She was only 53. I've waited for my own death ever since.>Will you ever forgive her?I love and miss her. The thought of disappointing my dead folks keeps me from sui; as much as I hate my perma-NEET/incel 'life', with no family left.
>>82463184overprotective, depressed like me. i was a church boy (one of those niche sects, not the popular ones) until i got the strength to get out at 13. i still have the tapes of me being forced by my mother to speak in front of everyone in the church. i also had to do bible lessons every week twice, memorize passages, sing songs. when i eventually left she left too and became depressed. my father also betrayed her twice while i was 12 and now at 21 i still live with them since we don't have money for rent for me to study near my uni.my issues now are: lack of identity, extreme superstition, martyr fantasies, probably will found a sect myself with my own religion, i'm often in love with a fictional childhood game character which i try to compare myself to everytime, extremely paranoid, extreme empathy, i have zero (0) friends, no relationships, and i lost two years of my life once i dropped out of uni (thankfully i'm now back) if you look at me IRL i look like a well behaved twink, since the church and the separation thing made me scarily good at masking my issues. i might go to the free therapist at my uni this month, because that fictional childhood crush thing is destroying me. doesn't help that if i want a somewhat normal life i will have to get out of the country once i graduate.
>>82463184Basically this >>82463421minus some details
>>82463184My mother is currently screwing up my life: after being away for seven years, I have spent these last few walking a tight rope trying to make it work. Offering to help, she bid me move back in, saying that she had a job for me. Turns out, she's a slob and a retard, and I actually despise her. Any anons have good work opportunities?
>>82468861>basically thisIs your mom Asian? What race are you?
>>82463184She cucked me with my fiancee a week before the wedding, and they're married now with kids
>>82468190>Is your mom hotI'd say so, yes. She's in her 50s, but still somehow looks pretty youthful.On the skinnier side too. >What race are you btw?White.
>>82463184She's not malicious, but she, like most women, is Machiavellian in nature>be 16, get first real job and open my first bank account >bank gives me a credit card too (2k limit)>mom gets high with her friend, and asks to borrow my card for a small purchase, she'll pay me back when she gets paid>she's my mom so I instantly say okay>she gives me $50 a few days later, "paying me back">next month I receive letters about overdraft fees and late fees and interest>statement says I owe 2500 dollars>ask my mom what she did>"i don't know">doesn't even try to resolve this, I'm now saddled with cc debt at 16I'm 39 now and I never forgave her for this, even though I paid it back within a yearOnline banking was very crude back then, I couldn't check the purchases or dispute them>Will you ever forgive her?No. It's not about the paltry amount she stole, it's that she didn't really care that she stole from her own son.>Do you have trauma?massive trust issues
>>82463184Basically "Cold Mother Syndrome.">didn't teach me shit about actually being an adult because she figured the military would do that>dismissive; wouldn't listen to ANYTHING I had to say about how things actually are/were on the charge that I'm "being too negative" and "talking crazy">compared myself and everything I did to my biological dad, who was a liar, manipulator, abuser, etc (but his family still loved and protected him while alienating me, the son he never bothered raising)>ignored what I actually wanted to be in life because she just 'knew' the military would be better and did everything to get me into it, even manually enrolling me in the AFJROTC the nanosecond I entered high school>didn't bother with my academics; only as long as I passed with a C-average and was able to enlist right after high school>sent me to psych wards and psychiatrists any time she couldn't be bothered to talk to/with me like an actually concerned parent>cared more about her own fulfillment than making sure I was equipped for 'real life'>constantly spoke over and through me>always sent me to my bio-dad's family each summer, where I'd be verbally abused by Bible-thumping faux-nationalists/patriotsAnd yet...I try no to hate her today. Even with her and my step-father waiting until I'm in my MID-FUCKING-THIRTIES to start talking to me about "you should be thinking about your future" and asking me about healthcare/insurance and such...which neither of them ever bothered to mention growing up.
>>82463184My mother is very based, unfortunately she allowed the internet to raise me so now I'm insane
>>82470204Im sorry you went through that.
>>82463184>mom goes to college>marries a guy she gets along with>has my older half brother with him>gets divorced five years later>doesn't like orthodox christianity and the guy's parents>goes to a retarded evangelical church>marries my retarded dad>i get born shortly after>get circumcised too>pretty sure older half brother didn't get snipped>dad is neurotic and immature>divorce happens after a few years And she stills clings to the evangelical faithnigger shit that got her in the mess of a marriage with my dad in the first place. The first guy she married isn't even that bad a guy and she couldn't set her constipated pride aside to see it through.
>>82463184>How much did she screw you up?She gave me a tablet when I was 6, resulting in me getting an internet addiction. Always belittled my interests or thoughts. Some moments she would be loving, even borderlne emotionally incestuous towards me, and in others she would act as though she despised me and even threatened sending me to an orphanage.>>Do you have trauma?Yes. From all the times she would scream at me and the few ones she beat me.>>Will you ever forgive her?Mostly have. She has since changed and asked me to forgive her for all she did. Also, I believe I inherited my autism from her and I'm pretty sure she has bpd so it's not entirely her fault.
