>dream kinda of travling>tfw it gets cut short cause one of our cats wakes me up>tfw in my own bed again>take care of them>smoke a ciggy>go back to bed>can't fall asleep again>thinking of drinking some wine>perhaps another ciggy will do
>>82466014>ciggy>>82466014>drinking
>>82466017>I was s0 close grabbing a wine bottle>had the one from 1991 in mind>dad is in the living room with another cat>the wine shelf is in the living roomPainI will just try to sleep Reeeee
>check news>a 13y old collapsed in a bus in Hamburg >cause of ketamin >some 30y old was arrested for selling it to him>top comment:>everything would have been fine if he sold estrogen and hormone blockers to the child>????>I guess out of place trans hate is universal
>>82466078yes everyone hates the trans fuck you
>back in bed>>82466100Im n0t transCalm down
>dream of traveling with tomoko>wake upNOOOOOSend me back t0 my waifuuu ;_;
>tfw not dreaming of being in Japan3 months until I go to Japan
>wake up>go for a coffee n a few cigs>breakfast with parents>0h I have to go out for work tomorrow morning>gonna hammer moar nails on my wall>so I can hang up moar omamori's n lucky charms from my Japan travel >>82466929D0nt count downThat made the time take slowerFor me at leastBut I did try to enjoy the last week cause I knew time over there will fly in n0 timeSo better enjoy the excitement of going there too
>>82466014quit smoking and drinkingGet up and go for a walk insteadHave a hot (non alcoholic) drink on return and play some chill music.Cheers to me
>>82466014>take a stimulant>yeah that will help me fall asleep
If you have xx chromosomes I can take you traveling.
>like 24 nails are left to hammer on>oof>yea its scuffed cause I did it myself>>82467988Ur expecting too much with the non smoking >:T>>82468152Alcohol makes me sleepy?Cigs too, if u smoke a lot it will make u sleepy>>82468165Sexist
>>82468344>too muchMy grandad quit smoking cold turkey. Just said it cost too much one day and never touched another one.
>>82468387My grandpa kept smoking after getting cancer from mustard gasThe latter is what got himRip
>>82468344>SexistIt's called being straight.
>help mom around the house>do my laundry>why did I buy so many clothes you have to wash per hand in Japan>oof its exhausting>welp what now>n0t in the mood for anything>in Japan I could visit shrines or just wander around pretty streets>I wanna drink some wine>mom would get very mad>can't think of any legal money making scheme >ig I can just continue the family biz n my cousins company>and hope I can make plenty of cash through that before I come up with my own plan>but it takes timeee>everything is just so fucking boring around here>video games are also n0 option>I dont enjoy them alone since years now>okies the mgs3 remake interests me a lot>but my pc can't run the mgs 3 remake>or my steam deck alias dust collector >gosh n0 wonder I do drugs over here all the time>gib me some wine REEEEEEE>>82468823Sexist >:(
>>82468967>>in Japan I could visit shrines or just wander around pretty streetsWhy don't you leave your house to enjoy the graffiti and the trash lying around everywhere?
>>82469071Expensive + horrible public transportation So I rather enjoy the nothingness >every year my favourite strawberry brand has this giveaway>cap that makes a sound =50k yuros>PLEASE>*open it*>nothing burger ((((again))))
>>82469096You could always get a job if you are bored.
>>82469249ok give me a job
>>82469249I have a jobManager / office guy / labour for our family bizTomorrow I have to do labour againI also assist my cousin with his Inc. Company
>talking of the devil>dad is like look at this letter>do we have to pay this?>Yes.>all my efforts to get our underground construction keep going strong again>was for nothing>cause dad put his attention to the business area he is good with cause of his old connections >told him to close our underground construction work>finding employees for that is also impossible >dad scared off anyone good away>not end if the world but im passed at him>gosh why did my kitty had to die when amazon wanted to give me a fat check for a promotion & transfer>now im stuck with him>im gonna drink tonight
>basically he did not follow through with the new clients I set up for him>but the insurance for construction work keeps coming in>its just not worth it if he does it half assed>having that factory as client for cleaning & other handyman stuff is enough>specially cause we are aiming to expand the work with them>they pay well>but having underground construction too would have been soo good>im pissed n annoyed and fucking bored
>alone at home>thinking of opening this wine from 2008>or the one from 1991>bleh not in the mood for the drama once parents find out>I better just try to sleep after this next cig>being born was a mistake>moving to germoney was a mistake>I hate this country & its people so much its unreal
>>82469284I see. Working on securing your inheritance. That is one of the most profitable jobs.
>eat some snickers & kitkat cornflakes>more cigs>time to zzzz>>82469535A real challange with my dad
>>82469459>>moving to germoney was a mistake>>I hate this country & its people so much its unrealAre you Nipponese?
>>82466014woah WHAT youre so cool and floating through life like a cloud
>just laying in bed & go out for cigs>still annoyed n so fucking bored>>82469784n0 im a Persian stuck in this clowns country>>82469791I dont get this but gonna assume ur trying to be ironic
>>82470125A clown country still sounds more comfy than a bombed country.You are muslim and your parents are okay with you drinking regularly?
>>82470223Iran wasn't bombed til recently and that war stopped cause they could defend themselfStill the regime is a pain in the ass, western sanctions make businesses be a nightmareAlso I dont hab my own stash of alcohol, my parents doIranians love to drink, most despise Islam and are westerboos Basically a violent religious minority took over in 1979 and dictates the country since thenUnfortunately their long term power was manifested through the Iraq invasionMost also love Germany but once they spent time here they are like>what happened ???>german teacher asked me once>why are most iranian migrants right winged conservatives?>I was one at school >her best iranian fren was the same>(german kind of right winged conservative)Anyhoo I used to have a bad drinking trouble so parents are allergic to me drinking alone xd
>>82470321You can drink together with us. We are all your friends here.
>hang up moar stuff>around 11 - 12 left to hang up>meh enough for now>>82470419Mom is back homeD0nt wanna get her madSt0p instigating
>>82470615I hope that is not a rental property where you just put 30 nails into the wall.
>>82470764oh lule fortunately we own some property desuincluding dis place
>>82467977>D0nt count downI don't know what else to do to pass the time. Tired of work and need this vacation already
>smoke a cig>help out cousin with paperwork for his company>smoke another cig>go wash n clean the cat litter box>our old cat doesnt use it and just does it outside>its for the new kitty I dont care about>but ig helping out mom>I want my favourite kitty back>smoke even moar cigs>ick labour work tomorrow>just to come back home to be annoyed n bored>wish I had the strenght n bravery to neck or slit up my wrist>I dont want to anymore>need another cig>bleh>>82470870same
>>82471043Don't do it, anon. Think about all the New Halfs you could have fun with during your next Japan vacation.
>going out witg parents>just for the food to be desu>not feeling it at all>wear my SpyXFamily hoodie thingy from the Universal Studio in Osaka>>82471484>new halfsWhat
>>82471556>Whathttps://lang.diamond-nh.com
>can all these cigs let my lungs fail while im asleep please>>82471607I didn't bought all these omamori's n goodluck charms for love/relationship to go for that
>>82471556>SpyXFamily hoodieYour parents are okay with you wearing that in their presence?>>82471637NHs need some love too.
are you the r9k tomoko poster from years ago? I can't remember the name right now, but you had the same fig that you took to Japan too
>mom is like just move to Japan>agrees on Germany being a depressive shit hole>welp im a dropout>idk how to make it over there>I dont speak their language >im fucked>>82471661>Your parents are okay with you wearing that in their presence?YeaIts also very low key>NHs need some love toothat's l*wds and n0t love>>82471739Yesh
>>82471739now I remember, are you ceb??
>>82471790Confirmative desu
>>82471789>mom is like just move to Japan>agrees on Germany being a depressive shit hole>welp im a dropout>idk how to make it over there>I dont speak their language >im fuckedrip, I am thinking of moving there too. I have a good degree so might be able to find a job there>>82471802knew it! Should have recognized that tomoko figure earlier. Missed you Cebby
>oh yeah I still have some jewelry under my bed>bought it for a irl grill that I decided to delete a few weeks ago>I was told to let her go a while ago>I better burn that love letter I wrote once im back home>>82471822>ripI wish it was rip me>I am thinking of moving there too. I have a good degree so might be able to find a job thereYea goodlucks>Missed you there is n0thing to miss, im back to a hopeless depressive season
>oh I forgot n didn't notice>there is a huge spy x family image on its back>not so low key after all
>>82471895>there is n0thing to miss, im back to a hopeless depressive seasonbut that like normal. Hopefully you find something to make it a bit less depressive
>>82471895Don't you have any other dreams or life goals?
>eat persian lamb ribs with rice >im not melty anymore but still rather depress0>I forgot to eat all day long again>>82472050BlehThanks>>82472209a wife but that seems even with all the omamori's hopelessGonna burn that love letter and end another hopeless cycleI guess I hab a ribbon made of diamond-labs as a dust collector now
>st0p by McDonald's to get food for lil bro on our way back home>get a mcflurry for myself>oof its getting late>I need my sleep>labour work day tomorrow>bleh I will just aim for my bed as soon as im back home>after a ciggy
>arrive back home>smoke two cigs>get ready2sleep>gonna go2bed with the same tracksuit pants that I went skydiving with in Dubai>it doesn't look well anymore so mom wont let me go outside with it if I go out with her>why did I survive that jump>just to suffer?>basically Yes.>cause my only thought up there was>please let me make it cause I wanna pet n cuddle my favourite kitty again>make it just to find out he died around the same time I went for skydiving>epic ruse by the universe>they only told me on the first morning after my arrival>cause I wouldn't stop looking n calling for him>and they knew it would destroy me>dad better hopes I wake up before him>dont feel like he will manage to wake me up >WITHOUT me being like "idc about anything leave me alone">I already told him I wont go out for work on the weekend>cause the task isnt something I wanna do atm>2much rambling>let me die in my sleep PLEASE>Goodnight>im so fucking done with everything