My mind keeps flipping back and forth. One day I'll be scared of people and avoidant, and another day I'll be outgoing and wanting to talk to everyone. I wish my mind was more consistent. It would make it easier to manage everything in my life.At least I know I'm not permanently jaded. There's still that part of me that wants to talk to people and make friends. All I can do is roll with the punches.
>>82466152>easier>>82466152>permanently
>>82466152I'm in the exact same mindset and I can't make up my mind. It's agony.
>>82466331It's made me lose friends or squander opportunities for friendship. One day, I'm outgoing, walking around with and talking to people, and the next day I'm sitting by myself in the corner, quiet. I don't think the normies would want to interact with such an inconsistent person.Do you have trouble keeping friends, anon?
who the fuck are you and why should i care?please don't bother trying to find hershes not there
>>82466605What are you talking about anonWho are you even referring to?
>>82466579I have 0 friends. I'm being examined for bipolar disorder I really think it stems from the inconsistencies in the world where people will be nice and sometimes they're pretending and sometimes they're actually being and you can never truly know which I think. It also depends on how much normies isolate me. If I feel like I actually have a chance to be acknowledged I'm more outgoing but the more I slowly realize that I'm just being politely responded to when they absolutely have to and are really just shoving me in a corner I become less outgoing, more pessimistic. It basically boils down to if I'm delusional I have to think I'll actually be accepted in this world and then the reality hits
>>82466642>delusional I haveDelusional *enough
>>82466642>I really think it stems from the inconsistencies in the world where people will be nice and sometimes they're pretending and sometimes they're actually being and you can never truly know which I think.Not gonna lie, I can relate. These social games are hard to play. People do things based on vibes rather than what is seen on the surface. It's really hard to figure out the right answer to every situation when it feels like everyone is lying to you.>It also depends on how much normies isolate me. If I feel like I actually have a chance to be acknowledged I'm more outgoing but the more I slowly realize that I'm just being politely responded to when they absolutely have to and are really just shoving me in a corner I become less outgoing, more pessimistic. It basically boils down to if I'm delusional I have to think I'll actually be accepted in this world and then the reality hitsSometimes I feel like I have to be the one to start conversations with people. Most people ignore me and don't really care about me at all. As peaceful as that might be, it also makes me feel outcast and unwanted. Some days I care about the silence that surrounds me and other days I ignore that and just talk to whoever I want to. I think both have their benefits.
