sometimes I miss the past really badbut I spent my life onlineI have so many memories of 4chan events and memes so obscure, they've been lost to timeand they never actually matteredI wasted my life on the internet and sometimes I'm really angry at myself for it now, but sometimes it feels like I wish I could go back and do it againit wasn't better, it was never betterI was betterand I'll never be that good againsometimes I go on soc so I can chat up 20 year olds who still think 4chan is cool and ~waow~ them with creepypastas saved when x was still good and answer questions about where memes originated and what certain internet-entities used to be like when they started and stuff like thatcuz I'm a loser.cuz I grew up to be a loser.cuz I was always gonna grow up to be a loser.I have so much love in my heart.It was all useless.you're all my friends stillor I'm leftover still hanging out at kids hangouts when I was supposed to leaveand I'm still hereI hope you guys get out, I hope no one else ever gets stuck here ever againI hope I never accidentally made anyone want to stay herenostalgia isn't for objects or places or even experiences; it's your body remembering chemicals it felt in reaction to stimuliand that sounds ugly and sciency and unromantic, but it's actually beautifulany happiness you ever felt, no matter how small, it came from within."you control your feelings" doesn't mean what it sounds like.you should please leave while you still can; you still can right now.
>>82466194the first time I remember using the internet specifically to interact with other humans, I was 3 years old, I had an easy ball for a mouse, and I distinctly remember being able to read already
>>82466194It is funny that people feel nostalgic over things on 4chan that are long gone when, like you say, they absolutely did not matter in the long run. Temporary amusments and comforts are not bad things, sure - but for many of us there was an excess to it, at the expense of other opportunities in life. However, it's time to move on from mourning our failed potential. Regret looks ugly on everyone. You have a warmth about you. You deserve to be happy in the present and in the future, damn your despondence over the past. There is still life to be lived if you can grasp it.
>>82466322thank youand you're right, I know; I just don't know where to start nowI have a set of tiny folding camping furniture. I feel like I think I would like to get on a train with sleep cabins for awhile.I don't want to travel, but I do want to move around finally.I should go outside more
