The empty feeling in my stomach is backThe formless dread for the future is back The reminders that I'm completely alone and always will be are backEvery time I get close to ending it all I somehow come out of it, feel amazing and hyped, and then within a few days I'm back to business as usualFuuuuck. Why am I like this bros
the curse of being alive op, the curse of being alive.
>>82466308Is it really never going to change?
>>82466425idk, i'm just 21 so i can't really say. i've been trapped in the same cycle for years now and i don't think it will change any time soon.i hope you can find something that makes it worthy.
>>82466522Maybe I'm in the exact same spot as you, I'm 21 and I've been suicidal on and off for at least 4 years. I don't really remember a time when I wasn't like this desu
>>82466608i do remember better times, i had a nice childhood, i have loving parents, i have friends, i'm a decent looking guy but for some reason i keep feeling like this. Why? it just doesn't make sense, it's my mind that weak? how the fuck did i end up here man.
>>82466651The truth is all of that external stuff doesn't actually fix your brainNot sure why, you'd think it would since just food and sex seem to be enough for other animals
