I can't socialize with people in the real world, because I end up acting like an autistic spurg.I can't socialize with people on the internet, because I end up getting annoyed by whoever I talked too.I can't be in a friend group, because they all end up seeing me as a lolcowso I stopped talking to people and I tried to keep socialization a minimum. I haven't had a normal conversation in about 5 months, the closest thing to socialization I get is the most Bare Bones exchange of pleasantries. this lifestyle has completely drained all energy from me and all joy in my life. now that I've gone back to college I've been putting all the energy that i have left into not killing myself. this has been gone on for so long that I completely forgot how to socialize and talk to people. I'm living in my own weird little hell that I created for myself and I don't see a way out. I can't go back to therapy, all my therapist did for me was put me on drugs emotionally neutered me causing me to spiral into the wreck that I am today.I don't have anyone to talk to, my family doesn't love me. I've always gotten the feeling that they resented me for being white.i just don't know what to do.
>my family resented me for being whitelol
>>82471406How'd the internet people annoy you
>>82471406I'll socialize with you for practice If you're a cute girl that is
>>82471450there either complete moralfags that care about mean worlds on the internet or completely retarded Nick Fuentes types>>82471464I'm a guy
>>82471406Hello OP, how are you?Sounds like you need to do something off-the-wall to reset your brain
>>82471406maybe study a little what "good friends" are?maybe there's also a literal IRL autist meeting where you live?
>>82471406>I can't socialize with people in the real world, because I end up acting like an autistic spurg.Have you tried doing it drunk?
