I get immense stress, frustration and anxiety if I have to do the 9-5 shuffle. The only way of life where I've been - well not happy - but stable, has been unemployment.I started a new college 2 weeks ago and collapsed hard. And I don't mean I just didn't like waking up in the morning, I mean I nearly got psychosis. Just from 2 weeks of going to school. That's because my mind has been weakened to a point where I have no resilience whatsoever. I simply can't do it anon. I simply can't wake up early every day so I can sit for 8 hours listening to my teacher telling me obvious things I could learn from a Youtube video in 5 minutes. Every day looking at the normies around me forming bonds, mating, fucking, enjoying life while I don't make a single friend. And repeat this shit for 4 years.What I can't understand is why people won't let me live my life. Productivity has skyrocketed, shouldn't be a big deal to support one broken autist. It's your failure that you can't acommodate my needs.
You could have bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder and or ADHD. I read once over 65%+ of bipolar people or unemployed or underemployed Anyway if I were you (similar situation but a decade older) I would just become a CDL OTR driver, it is like being a NEET in terms of solitude and you can make great money. That is if it is the frequent interactions with people that bother you like they do me
>>82471770>trucksI actually wanted to do that once but I didn't get accepted in the truck driving school.There was one question that I blew. They asked me if I wanted to drive at night. I said I like to sleep at night and that was it then.
