hey there anon!how r u?r u taking it easy?
>>82465513>I think the only time I get sick is when I fly on airplanes/go on vacation in general... Getting rare far-away germs in my body that it's not used to. I feel like that's probably pretty normal, right?yeah it's normal, but i usually don't get sick on vacations myself>So are you! I try to be nice to those who are nice to encourage more of their behavior.well i hope u will also continue 2 b nise!>>82466139one hour of sleep is crazy. Mayhap u should sleep a little moar...>>82466168>Yeah, but they probably wouldn't stick around for long.... But I'd be willing to try it at least.what makes u say that?>Schizoid-adjacent. Official diagnostic is Schizo-affective, still. Although I have not had any psychotic episodes in about 3 years or so.wut happens during one of ur episodes?>From somewhere special and important.i wonder what it is>Basically, training yourself or someone else to be like a pony (horse), it includes gait adjustment, gags, the usual stuff. The gait adjustment stuff is the most interesting to me, as behavior modification in general is.y do u wanna become a horse?>>82466272wut happened anon? I hope u can take it ez later>>82466360what happened anon?>>82468204>Sometimes it's best to be unaware of spontaneous behavior only others might noticebut i don't wanna ppl 2 get the wrong idea...>Did you know Claude can generate diagrams? You should try it and realize how much time you're wastingwell it's not like i can skip parts of my course just bc an ai can do it...>I tried it too for a while, it was alright, didn't dislike it, but I wasn't feeling compelled to keep playing it, mostly because it felt like a waste of time I could be spending on more memorable games. Guess I'm just tired of the grind, played enough games like that...it's not 4 everynyan i geddit. It's something i don't play constantly either. I just return 2 it from time 2 time>>82468747it sure did. Thank u 4 the music rec! What r u gonna do 2day?
>>82474237>>82474241Hang anyone who uses text shorthand like u and r
>>82474299>Hang anyone who uses text shorthand like u and rY tho?
>>82474237taking it easy after workordered some japanese food today as well, and i also got to pet a cat on my way outtoday was a good day, i can feel my soul mending itself alreadyhad a surprisingly deep talk with coworkers today and they made me realize i'm not mature yet for a serious relationship, lolbut i'll get there, i hopehere's hoping you guys are doing great todayclap your hands and pray to someone you care about, and if no one comes to mind, pray for yourselvesnot to any specific deity or entity out there, just send good vibes/wishes to whoever you're thinking about>>82474299u r a fgtu shud kill urself n fk off :^)
>>82474343>>82474369I'm in the right here though. It's gross and makes people look dumb.
>>82474428is it any of your business if people look dumb?>imagine letting others' choice of words bug youlol, lmao even
>>82474428i think its nises>>82474369what sort of talk did u have? Also what food did u buy? Sushi?
>>82475379>what sort of talk did u have?something about relationships, what to look for in a partner and what does it mean when someone's garbage, that kind of shitbasically was told by the two girls there that womanizers and drunks are trash, and yet they couldn't refuse the dudes when they said>and yet women chase them anywaywas really funny, lol>what food did u buy? Sushi?yes, the usualordered a spring roll and a coke zero can too, been a while since i last drank coke
I am taking it somewhat easy, getting sobered up for a bit... The feelings are kind of uneasy...I wish I were with you. I felt you with me when I closed my eyes, you felt soft and warm, I could feel your warmth and the silk of your dress...I love you...
>>82474241Oh, I forgot to reply to your latest replies..>what makes u say that?My experiences...>wut happens during one of ur episodes?I would usually either go into a spastic crying fit or get enraged and irrational, I would hallucinate, sometimes, rarely, I would get extremely afraid and clam up into a ball and start raging and crying.>i wonder what it isI don't know, but it's genuine.>y do u wanna become a horse?I don't think I want to be a horse, but it would be a cute little dynamic to play around in with someone, if they were also into it. Umumusume is relevant I guess, for what it's worth I really like Gold Ship and Tosen. Behavior modification is also really cute, and I'm quite into it. The neurological stuff is interesting from an academic point of view... https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_reflexesHorses are cute. Doing cute things automatically by reflex without ever thinking about it and having no conscious control over it is really cute.
>>82475667>was really funny, lolwhat made u think u were not mature 4 a relationship yet?>ordered a spring roll and a coke zero can too, been a while since i last drank cokecola is nisei need 2 get used 2 drinking coke 0i consume way 2 much sugarwhat is spring roll like?>>82476330>I am taking it somewhat easy, getting sobered up for a bit... The feelings are kind of uneasy...did smth happen?>I wish I were with you. I felt you with me when I closed my eyes, you felt soft and warm, I could feel your warmth and the silk of your dress...but i'm not wearing dresses...>>82476398>My experiences...wanan talkn about them?>I would usually either go into a spastic crying fit or get enraged and irrational, I would hallucinate, sometimes, rarely, I would get extremely afraid and clam up into a ball and start raging and crying.i see. That must've been hard 2 go through>Behavior modification is also really cute, and I'm quite into it.would u like 2 b blindfodled and gagged?>Doing cute things automatically by reflex without ever thinking about it and having no conscious control over it is really cute.what sort of cute things would u like 2 do?
>>82477098>did smth happen?Nothing in particular...>but i'm not wearing dresses...Oh, mby it was a kimono then, mby something else?>wanan talkn about them?Just a lot of failed attempts at relationships, I guess. Not a lot 2 talk about there...>i see. That must've been hard 2 go throughYeah. It was for the best, at least the crying and curling up into a ball parts. It builds character...>would u like 2 b blindfodled and gagged?yes, it builds trust and understanding, I think.>what sort of cute things would u like 2 do?Curtsying, walking like an elegant princess... those kinds of things.
u know, i heard coke zero was worse for you than regular coke...
>>82477165>>82476398>>82476330Coomer begone
>>82477279What? I'm not a coomer. I don't masturbate anymore or do stuff like that.
>>82477165>Nothing in particular...now i rly wanna know!>Oh, mby it was a kimono then, mby something else?i uhhdon't wear such things...>Just a lot of failed attempts at relationships, I guess. Not a lot 2 talk about there...i seewell it's okay if u don't wanna talk about it>Yeah. It was for the best, at least the crying and curling up into a ball parts. It builds character...did u see anything spooky? The worst i had was an episode of pure unexplained fearthat only happened like once though>Curtsying, walking like an elegant princess... those kinds of things.that doesn't sound very horse like...>>82477249is it? I didn't know that...
>>82474237Fantasizing me and OP getting married and taking it easy
>>82477825>now i rly wanna know!I had a dream about me and you...>i uhh>don't wear such things...Are you sure? Kimonos are cute, swimsuits are too. The skin tight ones are the best.>did u see anything spooky? The worst i had was an episode of pure unexplained fear>that only happened like once thoughShadow people, hallucinations of living/dead people talking to me. Generic schizo things.>that doesn't sound very horse like...Well, there are lots of other horse-like things to be imitated. Basically the standard training that horses goes through can be replicated.>Is it? I didn't know thathttps://usrtk.org/sweeteners/aspartame_health_risks/>>82477844That's my fantasy.... I want to marry OP you nerd....
>>82477885Please help I haven't slept for a day and a half and don't feel tired at all and I cannot stop moving
>>82477885>I had a dream about me and you...oh...what was it like?>Are you sure? Kimonos are cute, swimsuits are too. The skin tight ones are the best.I'm not sure these would fit me...>Shadow people, hallucinations of living/dead people talking to me. Generic schizo things.what did the dead ppl say 2 u?>Well, there are lots of other horse-like things to be imitated. Basically the standard training that horses goes through can be replicated.what sort of training is it?>>82477885>That's my fantasy.... I want to marry OP you nerd....>>82477844>Fantasizing me and OP getting married and taking it easybut y?
>>82477966Because I wanna make out with you and have a big family with y plus I'm into older guys
OP is getting groomed...A certain someone is going to get jealous...
>>82477983No he's like 26 and types like this. It's seriously embarrassing
>>82477980>>82477987i'm 24...it's not that old...
>>82477966>oh...>what was it like?you were doing cute things involving bondage...>I'm not sure these would fit me...you could probably find a size that fits well...>what did the dead ppl say 2 u?mainly just lamenting me...>what sort of training is it?https://horsereality.wiki/en/Horses/Basics/Training>but y?because I really like you, and I want to be with you. I'm absolutely enthralled by you, and I find you funny, delightful, and comforting. you make me feel safe, and happy. I like being near you.>No he's like 26 and types like this. It's seriously embarrassingwho are you to judge someone's typing style?>>82477983>OP is getting groomed...i'm not a groomer. i do love op though>>82477980i am immensely jealous
more on equines...https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Horse_behavior
I had a good rest over the last couple of days. Time to crack on with work again.>>82477249Depends how worried about artificial sweeteners you are. Last time I read up on that, studies on their safety were all over the place so maybe it's best to err on the side of caution. Although the same could be said for basically anything you put in your body. Calorie-wise it's "better".
>>82477983We got too cocky Koiguya bros.....
>>82478204Can I get an updated list of thread ships? A lot has happened since the last one.
Waking up to whatsapp messages and taking it easy.Also, 18 days until new Ranfren chapter *insert that countdown screen from Majora's Mask*
>>82478002>you were doing cute things involving bondage...i'm not sure i find that very cute...>you could probably find a size that fits well...i meant like, it wouldn't fit me as a person...>mainly just lamenting me...y would they do that?>because I really like you, and I want to be with you. I'm absolutely enthralled by you, and I find you funny, delightful, and comforting. you make me feel safe, and happy. I like being near you.what have i done 2 deserve such affection?>>82478101what work r u gonna do?>>82478484what sort of messages were they? How r u over all randal? feeling better i hope?
>>82478641>i'm not sure i find that very cute...I'll have to adjust my subconscious then, so that I have only more accurate dreams...>i meant like, it wouldn't fit me as a person...hmm, alright then.>y would they do that?i used to be a mean person.>what have i done 2 deserve such affection?you make me smile....
you know, i still want to join that harem btw.....
What a disgusting, blatantly obvious grooming attempt if I've ever seen one, even more nauseating when you realize they're both menWhy do these threads attract so many unironic faggots? Not trying to sound homophobic, just wonderingActually, I may have already answered my own question...
>>82478855You scared all the girl groomers by being so aggressive and fruity. Now we're left with men.
>>82478855I'm not a groomer. But I would absolutely beat the fuck out of you if you accused me of being one to my face.
>unironic groomer discussionsGo back to tiktok and watch your brainrot.>>82478641>what sort of messages were they?Just my university advisor asking if I found a job or not. Gonna have to come up with something cause I didn't.>How r u over all randal? feeling better i hope?Better overall, still dieting and exercising.
I'm really sleepy for some reason. I feel like I'm going to nod off any second. Maybe it's all the white noise.>>82478641>what work r u gonna do?The reading for my next class and for the essays I need to do to pass it.>>82478967>Gonna have to come up with something cause I didn't.Maybe he'll find a job for you if you haven't got one.
>>82478871>aggressive and fruityUm, excuse me?>>82478924So not only you're manipulative, you're also violent...But anyway, what am I supposed to do with this information? It's doing nothing to help your situation, y'know?
>>82479029>So not only you're manipulative, you're also violent...Only to people who accuse me of being predatory.
>>82478713>you make me smile....but y?>i used to be a mean person.wut made u change?>>82478728never realized i had one>>82478855hi anonhow have u been?>>82478967>Just my university advisor asking if I found a job or not. Gonna have to come up with something cause I didn't.maybe they can help u find one?>Better overall, still dieting and exercising.thatn's niseu never told me about or workout plan>>82478988how many essays do u need 2 write?
taking it easy at work againslow day kinda, gotta solve a bunch of conflicts and figure out a way of porting only a set of changes, but it's taking a while...yesterday i also became convinced my brain produces chronos in my sleep, had a future sight very clearly that day which i dreamed about less than a week agoi was looking at some code, thinking about some weird change that i had to resolve, and then a guy would walk near my desk, then i'd tell my coworker about that future sight, then another coworker would say goodbye since he was going homeand when it hapoened yesterday i instantly recalled it, and everything happened just as i sawbut i resisted telling my coworker aboit the future sight, thought "what if the future doesn't go as planned?", and so that didn't happen but everything else didit made me realize the future is only immutable if we're unaware of it, otherwise we can change itabsolutely wild>>82477098>what made u think u were not mature 4 a relationship yet?it's... complicateda lot of people aren't sure what the fuck they want out of a partner, they think they know but they don't reallyi know for sure i want someone affectionate who'll give me at least one hug a day and will be happy just being with me, but then again... i'm not too sure about what i don't want.>i need 2 get used 2 drinking coke 0it's not that great either, i just like it for the taste>way 2 much sugarcareful of diabetes then, anon>what is spring roll like?very crunchy with some ground beef filling, i like itdough roll but it peels off too much, makes a mess of flakes when i bite into italso looks like you got yourself in quite the situation here, eh?from hate to love, and by two anons no lessquite popular, aren't we? :^)
new flatmate just moved in and he's a fucking subhuman retardwish i lived alone
>>82479687how is he retarded?also i live alone and it has its pros and consi miss being able to talk to someone once i get home but i sure don't miss the stupidity people used to pull on me
i have trouble staying asleep on weekdays... i drank a coffee and a pink monster zero a bit after to stay awake for just a couple of hours rip.i know it's something mental related, but it's not related to stress since i don't have to work much these days. i just hope it stops soon and i can sleep well. i don't like not being able to do much on my free time other than going to the gym and watching stuff since my brain is sleep deprived.>>82447465glad you liked it!although i wish my brain would let me sleep more so i could practice and get to a level like >>82478101 instead...>>82477098>i need 2 get used 2 drinking coke 0>i consume way 2 much sugari pretty much agree with >>82478101 on this, although it feels weird to say that after having drunk a monster zero today lmao.
>>82479730why is your typing style so similar to mine? and why do you also have sleep issues?are you secretly me?and what else would you do with your free time then?
No I'm not taking it easySame day same problems I can't solveSame boring neet life
>>82479842>why is your typing style so similar to mine? and why do you also have sleep issues?dunno, i guess sleep depravation causes a particular kind of typing style>are you secretly me?perhaps>and what else would you do with your free time then?i draw sometimes, i have the unrealistic dream of becoming so good i could become internet famous and live off that instead of my office job.i also really like reading books.and you?
>>82480524>sleep depravation causes a particular kind of typing styleunheard of for me, i'm like this all the time, but i only use dots when i want to say something more seriously>perhapsoh no, not another variant...the multiverse is fracturing, fuck>i draw sometimesvery nice, care to post one drawing?>unrealistic dream of becoming so good i could become internet famous and live off thatdifficult, but not unrealisticand frankly anon, you're better off like thisif you were to draw for a living, you'd suffer deeply throughout creativity droughts and you might also come to hate something you enjoy>reading booksnice, i gotta pick up the habit of reading toogot this self help book from the library the other day, a finances book my friend gave me, youjo senki light nove vol. 3 and wuthering heights on my backlog already>and you?oh the usual, i like reading manga, playing games, developing software (which is now my job too), and talking to peoplesometimes cooking but i haven't had much chance as of pate, or cycling but my bike is yet to arrive...
>>82480566 (me)the fucking typos...i really, really hate phoneposting, ugh
>>82479431>how many essays do u need 2 write?Just two and they're both very short. so nothing too burdensome.>>82479730>i wish my brain would let me sleep more so i could practice and get to a level like >82478101 instead...I wish I could draw too, but I'm too bone idle. Hopefully I can get the Christmas cards drawn a little faster this year, I might even start planning them now. I only did 4 last time but it almost killed me. I'm envious of people who can draw well, quickly.
>>82474237The day flew by quickly. I thought it was just beginning, but it's already evening and I didn't manage to get anything done. It's sad to think that my family is leaving tomorrow for two weeks and I'll be alone during that time, and then in a month I'm leaving alone to another country, which is also quite sad. In general, there are plenty of reasons for feeling down.I'm probably gonna get drunk this weekend.
>>82479062>only to people who expose me for what I really amI can see why>>82479431>how have u been?Just partially erased another day on le coding, gonna try to unfry my brain now, wbu?
>>82478855It's comfortable and a place to talk about how I'm doing with other people. It's good to be here when I'm lonely and sad again and have no one to talk to
