>Parents taught me to play the long game, think long term, undertand the bigger picture>They set up a college fund, inheritance allocations, all kinds of stuff for my future>Naturally, I grew up as a guy who had big plans and who's careful about every step since I don't wanna fuck it up>Alas, the world changed too fast>Dad lost his job when I was in college, he took the money and arranged a loan for my tuition>Dad dies some time later>Mom got sick after dad died and needed money for surgery, and since I got my part of the inheritance way early, being over 18 when dad passed, I gave away almost all of it to herIt's kinda hard for me to think ahead now when so many things can just go wrong at the same time and it'll just take away everything you've worked for your whole lifeFeels like I'm starting from zero now, no support no nothingI don't know where I'm going with this, just wanted to vent a littleThey really put it in me to really focus on the future, think long and hard on my decisions, and this applies to me getting a gf/wife tooI *want* a woman to call my own, but knowing it can all fall apart just like that? It's heartbreaking
>>82539416My life's story is completely different but I feel the same way. I was raised to live modestly and responsibly, so I've always worked my ass off, saving as much as I can, building connections, all for it to repeatedly be torn away from me by random unforeseeable tragedies. I'm in the same position of trying to find a reason to get my shit together again after I lost my job, apartment, and my only friend committed suicide. Getting into lifting and fitness in general has helped me a little. I can't control the world around me but I can have agency over my own vessel, and thats somewhat comforting after you've experienced such catastrophically bad luck.
>>82539501Ain't life grand? No matter how many times you fall, you get back up eventuallyYou just have to, this indomitable human spirit beckons you so
>>82539517Absolutely. Its slow, but I just try to remember to be better than I was yesterday in some way, instead of worse. The only thing anyone can sustainably rely on is themselves.
