i am gross and filled with envy
>>82665534Me too, I hate everything and everyone. I saw some dude bringing an alt chick while I was sitting alone in my car in an alt center and that pissed me off. God, I hate normies, evil and despicable people
>>82665534I am fat and filled with hungerFeed me, woman
>>82665534>i am grosstake a shower>filled with envygo to therapy
I'm envious of some nerd because he could get herBad sign
>>82665534Based. Avon Hertz is the best character in any movie, TV-show, or video game of all time because he almost nuked the entire planet for being stupid little faggots that deserve it
>>82665560This is fine, but if you look like the meme kill yourself
>>82665723>if you look like an orangutan kill yourselfRude
>>82665560you shouldn't hate other people. that's not fair on them. you can hate the world, and you can hate yourself. those two are fair to hate.>>82665583theres some leftover curry in the fridge if u want some..>>82665662i have showered recently and therapy cant fix me>>82665685im sorry to hear about this one. i wish i could give you some cheery advice but i am all out right now. i envy people who can connect with otehrs and live happy lives. not anyone, just everyone. im surrounded by happier ppl..n it makes me miserable>>82665703kefka did it first
>>82665749>therapy cant fix mepsychotherapy and a psychiatrist literally can, the brain is literally a blob of fat that you can fix with medication treatment plan and CBT/DBT whatever
>>82665749No worries, mate, you're good, thanks for listening at leasttch, she doesn't even seem to be interested in a relationship, he was just at the right place at the right time and she happened to not mind him...
>>82665534Oh hey again envy anon.I got a good looking gf, my job pays well, I'm a solid 7/10 on a good day and my future looks bright, I hate tasty food to look forward to since I cook well and I'm good at playing videogames.Are you crying? Gonna shit? Maybe cum a lil' bit? Change yourself. Now.N O W.
>>82665790>I hate tasty food to look forward toHave*Fatal spelling mistake, it's over
>>82665775i have a therapist who has literally admitted i am beyond his capability to fix>>82665784how do you know if she doesnt want relationship or something? how did your circumstances come to be?>>82665790again? maybe you confuse me for someone else. anyway change what? do what? retarded normie advice. "um er change". why dont u change ur posting habits and get off this board.
>>82665809Nope, pretty sure it's you though it's been a few days.You know what you need to change, retard. Deep down you know, but you'd rather keep looking away and simply wallowing in that disgusting self pity of yours.I spit on you, actual scum of humanity.
>>82665723No nigger, I'm 23 BMI.
>>82665818"actual scum of humanity" from someone who comes online to brag about his situation to others unprompted. wonderful person you are.>You know what you need to change, retard. Deep down you know, but you'd rather keep looking away and simply wallowing in that disgusting self pity of yours.there is nothing to change as if i haven't changed myself a lot already. you know nothing normgroid.
>>82665809She said he was just a one night (well, two) thing, that she's not trying to turn it into a relationship, that she doesn't even want to be his fuckfriend. She made it sound like she wants a status quo, a normal friendship but with maybe some sex.Lucky guy.
>>82665749>you shouldn't hate other people. that's not fair on them. you can hate the world, and you can hate yourself. those two are fair to hateI am envious and I do not blame myself. I'm a good man, so I do not hate myself. I am simply in the wrong world, tricked into the wrong path. I do not hate the world because that would make me a Gnostic and that's gay, but I hate others who love themselves more than others. I recognize how hypocritical that sounds, but most people are naturally evil. I'm a stubborn retard, but I'm not a bad man, nor am I trying to convince you of it. Normies are simply retards who are full of themselves, believing in the just world fallacy and taking out on whoever contradicts it. I am a man who wasn't born evil, but rather shaped through the will of others. Whether that be free will or God himself, I'm not sure. If it is God, I'm either expected to be his strongest soldier or he loves tormenting me
>>82665853>unpromptedYour thread's only purpose is to keep stroking that little microdick of an ego you keep feeding to try and justify your misery, get over yourself. I came here to provoke you because you deserve it, since you've heard this whole bang and shebang time and time again, yet you still choose to keep doing the same thing.But you don't gotta listen to me right? Just keep bathing in that shared misery with the other scum in this board, it's not like you won't regret this 10 years down the line.Good luck, dum dum.
>>82665885this is a board for social outcasts to talk about social outcast things, not a zoo for normies like yourself to come by and look at loners and pariahs like specimens. >I came here to provoke you because you deserve it, since you've heard this whole bang and shebang time and time again, yet you still choose to keep doing the same thing.what on earth are you even talking about?>it's not like you won't regret this 10 years down the line.umm wawie ya you know nothing at all but that is to be expected of a peanutbrain normie
>>82665809>i have a therapist who has literally admitted i am beyond his capability to fixthen get a referral to one who can
>>82665809What's your problem orignano
this board is literal shit right now
>>82665809>i have a therapist who has literally admitted i am beyond his capability to fixSo you're too stupid for therapy? Lol.
What games are you guys playing?I just finished Silksong myself.
>>82665860some people are just in the right place at the right time i guess.. i guess she is happy with the status quo as you said and doesnt want to upset what she has right now. a lot of human relationships really seem to be timing.. luck and timing. i hope you have some better luck with your time nonny..>>82665872i think leaning too deep into philosophy or spiritualism to explain things away sets yourself into rigid paths. there isnt really a greater reason or rhyme, the world is just unfiltered chaos. people arent evil, they are just selfish.. as all animals are. we all want to feel nice dont we? just need to not hurt others while getting that...>>82665933my shrink is my neuropsych hes the one best equipped. therapy cant magic loving, nurturing, fulfilling personal relationships into existence.>>82665960sure is>>82665940lots of things unfortunately but social isolation is making things a lot worse>>82665986or maybe talk no jutsu doesnt work in real life?
>>82665749>leftover currywhat kind though? Japanese, chicken, mutton?
>>82666019I don't know how to attract herSeems like a waste of time
Are you a tranny? That could be your issue
>>82666031japanese! its my favourite thing to make. i like to think i'm quite good at it.. people always want seconds or thirds when they try it..>>82666033if i knew how human attraction works mayb i wouldnt be like this in the first place hahhhh.. if interacting with them doesnt make u happy if you cant have them to yourself then maybe you wrap up and mov eon nonny..>>82666049last i looked i am not! last updated 39 seconds ago
>>82666061>Japanese curryMy favourite...I'm gonna heat it up and eat it all muahhhahaAny specific recipes you followed for your curry?
>>82665534>i am gross and filled with envydude sameyou're a w*man though that's pretty extra gross
>>82666357i actually have green eyes though so i win. i can say i have green eyed jealousy just like parsee.>>82666284i don't follow any particular recipe, though it's kind of an autopilot dish to make. i just refined it from making it probably 100 times. its more about good ingredients and preparing them with care, then adding in little bits at the end to tailor. i use mirin and shaoxing wine a lot.
>>82665534same too bad a stop existing button doesn't exist that would be really useful
>>82665534I have more envy than water in my body
>>82666796demonic saladfingers entity
>>82666796how does that work? is it like salt where you have a salt concentration? the envy is concentrated? what do you envy?>>82666858can you imagine how good feeling his fingers on your nape would feel>>82666774i don't think stop existing fixes it either..
>>82665534I find that being offline and completely isolated helps cure this, but that's really hard to do all the time. It's been helping me, though I just went out for the first time in months and saw couples everywhere and it was painful. Don't recommend it.
>>82667282unfortunately i go stir crazy in isolation and need some degree of social interaction otherwise i gnaw my arms off
>>82667251>I don't think stop existing fixes it either..To stop existing frees you from it all! Everything! it's beautiful, you can finally no longer be human
>>82668406it shackles you, to nothingness. to mu.its not beautiful at all, because it means you can no longer write any more of your own story. no more chapters, nothing good, no grace at all. there's still so much i want to experience, why else would i have such envy? i lament rather that i will not have them, nor can i see a future in which i do. but that does not mean i wish to stop it all right there.and well, i've never really felt like a human after all.
>>82668457perhaps it's good then, that you remain unconsumed by your own end!but, you must be human to be typing this. it is human to be consumed by envy too. don't deny your humanity just cuz you're not a normie!
>>82668490ah, but so it feels like my end has approached and passed. the stage curtain has fallen and now i'm sitting in the stands where the crowds once were.i'm scarce human anymore, nor do i desire to be. all of my weaknesses, all of my flaws, they're all my human side. i'm enjoyed the most by others when i'm just automata that dances to a tune. if i try to want or to need, that's repulsive. when i open up, it's like opening a nuclear reactor's core: i'm radioactive, i irradiate. i must remain closed off to everyone and the world at all times. plus, that way i don't meltdown.aha..
>>82668562to convince you there's always another chance, that seems a little uselessI just wish you a good night's rest! from someone who is similarly a nuclear bomb in many ways
>>82668636there are no more chances, correct. you'd be wasting your breath, as i waste my own in each passing day. there's no good night's rest to be had for me, i have had nothing but nightmares for close to half a year now, unrelenting.what makes you a nuclear bomb?
>>82668668I believe there are more chances for everyone! As for me, I hold everything within me until I pop! The shrapnel shreds the flesh of those around me, however some seem to find the pain worth it. Or maybe they enjoy it, who knows
>>82668796there are no chances left for me, my circumstances are unique in this regard. it would be silly to pretend otherwise, deep-dweller.i doubt even the most ardent masochist enjoys picking shrapnel out from themselves. it's one thing to enjoy your own suffering, but that does not mean it's enjoyed from those around them. everyone loses.someone once really close to me told me that it's important to speak your feelings and not bottle things up.
>>82669080some things though... are better left unsaid!
>>82669583such as? what do you think is best unsaid?
>>82668562You sound young, like 18-25 so let me impart some wisdom onto you, as somebody who was and still is prone to having meltdowns (but far better now)First off, stop trying to conform, stop glorifying the "human" form, you're human as much as anybody else so stop trying to be something you're not. Do you, start singing in public, create your own aslyum and people will happily join, if somebody wants you to change, even a loved one, tell them to shut the fuck up and man/woman up.Stop letting people walk all over you and stop trying to get other people to love yourself when the only one that can give you what you need is yourself.And no, this isn't a "if you find love in yourself you will find others," because thats not how it works. Find love in yourself period. The world is in shambles why the fuck would you want anything this world has to offer you?
>>82670364>You sound young, like 18-25nyope..>First off, stop trying to conformi want to be wanted by people i want. you have to conform to some standard for that.>if somebody wants you to change, even a loved one, tell them to shut the fuck up and man/woman up.also wrong, a lot of good human communication and companionship is in understanding, compromising, and changing for better. we improve with every person who imparts on us.. if we told everyone rude things we'd stagnate.>Stop letting people walk all over you and stop trying to get other people to love yourself when the only one that can give you what you need is yourself.wrooooooooong! i cannot give myself the validation and approval i so desperately want and need, i cannot give myself intimacy.>Find love in yourself period.can't say there's much to love in myself. otherwise, surely i'd be loved, nyo?>The world is in shambles why the fuck would you want anything this world has to offer you?the world has wonderful people in them. other people make me happy.
