Older NEETs, like around 30, have you ever tried returning to college after 5+ years of NEET isolation and felt like everyone was looking at you like a freak? I feel like some kind of cave troll or hermit or reclusive warlock with crazy eyes and disheveled hair being around so many young adult college students. When I was in my mid-twenties I had a job so I was more socially confident and more optimistic about going to college but now, at my current age, I feel like an embarrassment, a failure. Back then I thought of myself as young and figuring it all out, but I still haven't figured out anything and I'm just as oblivious now as I was then. But I'm old and oblivious, and ashamed.I'm pretty autistic so I've always had difficulty talking to and feeling comfortable around others but this feels /different/. It's so much worse now. In the past I thought I could make friends and pull a girl but that didn't work out last time and I've had several negative experiences with online acquaintances to add to my troubles since then and I just feel so hopeless. Can't even bring myself to say hello, can't make smalltalk. Afraid of saying something I might regret and mentally beating myself up for it, never forgetting. I feel like the game has ended and I'm an NPC left there to ponder my existence for eternity, waiting for something to happen which never well and never /can/. I would have game over'd myself long before now if I didn't have family keeping me on proverbial life support.Why even go to college at this point? I'll never be able to come out of my shell and meet a nice girl, I have no ambition for a life of endless inceldom and stressful deadlines. It's too humiliating to keep going out and feeling judged by normal people for my aloofness.Anyway, I'm interested in hearing your guys' experience, because I'm guessing you're more like me than anyone else on the 'net.
I would REALLY appreciate a reply, even if it's only a few words or a throwaway insight.
>>82675029well anon did read ur post, tho im 26 and not tried college yet, thinking about trying eventho itll prob be hell like it is for you, either way, you should try forcing yourself to talk with people eventho it will be hell, dont think ull get much more of a chance to socialize after, might be ur last chance
>>82675126Did you struggle with assignments and homework as I did when you were a high school student? In college the workload can be a lot denser. And as for talking to people, I don't think I can bring myself to do it. I've been hurt too many times and it makes me nauseous to think about becoming vulnerable again.
I'm 32. Been a NEET since I was 21 and never thought of returning to college. Given how mentally ill and disfunctional I am, and taking into account the absolute state of our current society/world, I have given up long ago.
>>82675139yes massive slacker and struggled focusing like crazy, u should still try eventho it hurts, just think about how painful it might be to be full lonely during ur neet days, being hurt sucks but imo being alone is just worse
>>82675267Believe me, if I wasn't being pressured to go, I never would have gone back. People hate me no matter what I do.>>82675295You sound just like me. You're young so you still got that fire in your belly but don't be too astonished if it gets doused when you approach your thirties. Time has a way of eroding away at the strength and resolve. I wish you luck in enduring it and hopefully you can reach the place you're aiming for.
>>82675029I struggled but not because of age but because of weed. In my teens and early 20s I never touched weed. I tried going back after spending 5 years smoking weed and I fucking sucked at college.
>>82675505I've never touched the stuff but hours of video games and boredom seems to have dulled my edge just as badly.
