is a lethal benadryl overdose possible? im thinking of killing myself for my 20th birthday, downing a bottle of vodka and 4 bottles of benadryl (liquid is the only thing we can buy here)
>>82682015How about you just dont kill yourself for your 20 th birthday. Wait till youre like 35, when you can actually, conclusively say whether youre fucked or not.
>>82682030i already know my fate, theres nothing for me here. its easier to go now than continue to flail and suffer
>>82682015>is a lethal benadryl overdose possible?not really you would just pass out and vomitthe vodka would probably make you go blind though
>>82682045actually blind? damn, that sucks
>>82682039Your 20s are literally where most of life happens. Those 10 years decide whether things get better or worse. Dont rob yourself of the opportunity for things to get better. Again, once youre thirty, by all means, reconsider if shit still sucks. But at least stick around to see whether it actually does suck. Youre not even out of your teens yet. Slow down on the worst-case prohesizing
>>82682065its not even that things are particularly bad, i have a decently comfy life all things considered. but because of something deeply wrong in my brain, i hate others and fear them and can only see the worst in the worldi also failed myself too many times, i have it easy but i gave up on every dream i had. i only had one last desire but im too naive and innocent to ever achieve it. so i no longer care about living
>>82682086i also want to mention ive wanted to die ever since i could think, i dont remember a single time in my life ive ever felt good about living
>>82682086Okay, well Im a random internet stranger and I cant tell you what to do. If you really want to kill yourself, okay. Nobody can force you to stay alive. Thats your decision. But things change. Even brain chemistry does. So the possibility of things getting better is there, just keep that in mind when you make your decision. Nothing is set in stone for you yet. I do believe that there is a point in time where everyone seriously has to ask themselves whether suicide is the best option for them. I also think that for some people, it is. But I dont think you know enough about yourself at 20 to be conclusively sure.Sorry for the yap. Have a happy birthday when its time. Consider this, or dont. Up to you.
>>82682146i think if my brain chemistry was going to change, it wouldve. like i said, ive always wanted this. theres not a single time in my life where i didnt think about suicide. age will only continue to make me numb and docile, like it already started toim a disabled neet with several spinal conditions, a migraine condition, and im a highschool dropout, i hate and am afraid of people, i dont have any desire to talk or have friends. i wanted a lover and kids but its not possible for someone such as myself. theres no point
>>82682182>im a disabled neet with several spinal conditions, a migraine condition, and im a highschool dropout, i hate and am afraid of people, i dont have any desire to talk or have friends. i wanted a lover and kids but its not possible for someone such as myself. theres no pointYou sound like me, I want to kill myself aswell.
>>82682015You're just going to go into a waking sleep paralysis, vomit, and see actual nightmares for hours, then wake up with liver damage. Just tough it out like we all are man, we've all wanted to kill ourselves here, but we're still here
>>82682182Dude, it genuinely does change once you hit 25. It's not a switch flip, but overall you feel way better than you did in your early 20s.Your brain is still developing, and you still have time to fix things or fuck things up more. I will say, doing psychedelics for the first time really did help me permanently stop thinking about actually considering suicide, but growing up also helped.
>>82682203yeah im not gonna let myself sit in misery and rot. im fucked after my mother dies and cant live on my own so ill need to kill myself eventually. shes not got another decade leftanyways i realised that and im switching to the doorhandle method again >>82682214ive done psychedelics many times and it irreparably damaged my brain and made me scared of people. i cant let myself grow docile and "ok" with my suffering
>>82681922 Read this OP.
Don't listen to the retard in the thread saying your brain will change, it will not. Especially in your situation where you're not even going outside or actually having different experiences, what will happen instead is that you will rot away forgotten by everyone until it gets unmanageableThe website sanctioned-suicide.net has some good material
>>82682240That's a crazy ass website bruh
>>82682234saw this thread earlier >>82682240weird to believe a website like this exists, tho i think ive chosen my original method ill take a look through other methods, thanks
>>82682228I would say this to you if you knew my name and where I lived.I want you to live not because of some hopeful bullshit that things will get better, but because you're alive for a reason. It's actually extremely hard to be just born. You're alive, you have food, you have shelter, and you have luxuries (the Internet).We catastrophize the fuck out of our lives when we're young, it's the human experience, but things get better when you change your perspective.I love you, as another human being trying to make sense of this life, and celebrate the really good things in your life. Think about them and list them out
>>82682285unless im counting meaningless bullshit like "i take care of birds and bugs and the birds rely on me", i only have the fact i live off neetbuxx and will never need to work. but thats not what i fucking wanted for myself, but i cant handle anything anymore. if i die right now, only my mother and nan would be there to mourn. and i dont like either of them. there has never once been a moment where i didnt wish for death. i dont think thatll change, because at 25 ill still be in the same position and ill be nearing the walli wish i was never born. the people who raised me are disgusting. my mother apologises for my existence weekly and wishes i was never born either
>>82682321Taking care of another life is meaningless? Does our human consciousness have more spiritual importance than say the consciousness of an avian species (which are highly intelligent) and a bug (which are more drone like in their consciousness, but still animated regardless).It's not meaningless, anything done to better the lives of someone or something other than your own is exactly what you're supposed to be doing. I understand the embarrassment of living off assistance, but that's what it's for. You are someone that from what you've described, needs the assistance, and people for you your life to be better. We don't get to choose the circumstances of our lives, all we can do is make the best of what we have and be appreciative of it. I wish daily that I had a loving family, that I wasn't a shut in schizoid, I wish I had more support, more money, more love in my life. I wish I lived somewhere better, somewhere nicer, I wish for many things, as does everyone, but at the same time. I learned to love what I do have, I really thought about it and pushed through the cloud. Unironically, go outside for awhile and just breathe the air outdoors if you can, being inside all the time is draining
>>82682015>over the counter medsAnon you're asking for a really bad night and the shame and humiliation of surviving an attempt.
>>82682321I'm also like this, but I apparently don't qualify for neetbux because no evidence. Anyway, as hypocritical as it might be, I think you deserve to live, and have the chance to live somewhat contently way more than I do.
>>82682351look dude, the difference between you and me is, you actually want to live despite it all. you can find happiness in small things. i, no matter what, cannot be happy. ive never once wanted to live. after attempting, having minor brushes with death like drowning as a kid or being suffocated by other kids, ending up in a psychward, ive wanted to do it and feel it again. with every ounce of my being, i cannot feel happiness, and i only wish for death. ive had friends, i e-dated for 2.5 years, ive meditated, tried god, took after other lifeforms, did drugs, and yet not once did i ever think i wanted to continue living. its not enough to make me happy, it will never bewhy is it so fucking difficult to understand that just because you think and feel a certain way that someone else does, and that my issues and depression will magically be erased at 25, that ill suddenly feel the happiness ive always seeked just because i turned a new age>>82682371realised that, just gonna try hanging myself again>>82682393everyone deserves and has the right to live, but that shouldnt mean they cant give up if they so wish
>>82682424I hope you remember me when you come back
If you botch using benadryl you are going to wish it killed you because you will be in for a front row seat to the weird side of hell for a few hours. It's a really REALLY bad time from what I have heard. Also, what the fuck do you have to kill yourself over?You got incurable cancer or something?Or are you just a faggot?
>>82682589Benadryl is a legal deliriant.It's main effect is it literally makes you delirious which makes you sleepy. In high doses, it works exactly like the "illegal" deliriants do, like Datura.It's the complete opposite of psychedelics, deliriants make you unable to tell reality from your delusions and high doses cause you be paralyzed.Psychedelic hallucinations have a air of "this isn't real" but deliriant delusions feel absolutely real. You could imagine you're fighting off demons and it was just your little sister.
>>82682665Should I deliriantmaxx? My delusions mainly consist of me being handsomer than I actually am and if I can't distinguish reality from that delusion I might get laid.