Why do people make my life hell for being a neet a bit? I followed every-bodies advice, got no help and still tried my best, and now everybody is surprised that im not immediately off my feet when it was that time. I am getting help but the system is slow but they don't care. I still get bombarded with insults and ridiculed.Its been only a couple of months but i already feel like there is no light at the end. Why should i even try at this point? There are no great aspirations or plans for me.My mother actually told me in my face that she knew something were off and consciously decided not to help.
>>82683404Fuck all of them. You do it for yourself and no one else. Because you deserve a better life. You deserve to feel pride.
Anon... Life is unfair but abdominal human spirit got me through life. I was a neet. Join military,got out with skills and disability money, have good job. I believe in you anon to keep on pushing. Turn off brain, and force you self to get into a trade. Fuck anyone and everyone who let you down and given up hope for you.
>>82683404>My mother actually told me in my face that she knew something were off and consciously decided not to help.When i was little i mean. My siblings just got raised basically and were pushed into stuff like applying but with help always. I was on my own basically. She told me that that was her goal. That properly raising me is not something she wanted. >>82683414>You deserve to feel pride.What pride is there in being a sperg that at best doesn't make things worse if left alone. Im such a net drain (even if you exclude the NEETing) there is nothing worth to be saved to be honest. I owe everybody so much more than i could ever repay i don't know how to start fixing it. But then most of those people are also such assholes i don't even want to.What do i deserve for being this anon? What can i be proud off?>>82683430Im not even fit for the military anon. Both body and mind are as good as beyond repair.I just want a little bit of structure and independence but i just can't get there on my own. I tried to for so long but i just can't. There is work that would be fine but i just can't get there.I asked my mother if she could stop letting me be left so alone but she literately doesn't get what i ask her for. Powering through, that left me staring down a bridge and now seeing a useless clinic every now and then.
>>82683544>Im such a net drain (even if you exclude the NEETing) there is nothing worth to be saved to be honest.I get it. Your self-esteem is in the gutter. But you have value. You have a valuable perspective, you have good qualities. Things that many people would appreciate. And yeah, there's been a bad start where you've been made to feel that you can't contribute, can't exist without being ashamed or a burden. But that's false. You just had a poor start. You can still learn and grow for yourself. Fuck whatever anyone expects. What would fulfill you? What can you get enjoyment out of? Life is about learning and growing. I hate to see you talking so bad about yourself. To my mind all you need is a shift in perspective and maybe some support. You can be proud of the progress you make, if nothing else. Proud of the perseverance and strength that it took to survive under poor conditions, whatever makes you feel this way. Proud of your honesty and ideals in making this post and sharing your perspective. I see you, anon, you exist. And I'm proud of you because I know you've gone through experiences that weren't easy, but you still are living and curious and reaching out to people. That gives me hope. You're hopefuel.
>>82683404First, take a couple of deep breaths in and out.Now, what is the most pressing problem in your life? You say you see no light at the end, does this mean that you feel hopeless? What within you caused this? Or is it your behavior? Or is being targeted by others the only reason you are feeling really bad?I neeted for 8 years, and while I enjoyed the great freedom I also had a troubled mind most of the time. But with my new insight after getting out of neetdom, I can still see the pleasure of being a neet again, though I think moving on with my life after fixing my mental and attitudinal problems was the right choice because my self esteem was very low and I, like you, could not see a way out of the hole I dug for myself.
>>82683596>You can be proud of the progress you make, if nothing elseI don't get to do that. Didn't do so for most of my life. I tried to distract myself by learning some skills and do some hobbies but not even that works. Tried to give any 'hidden qualities' do show themselves. Nothing. And i can't continue either.>and maybe some supportwhere where where where where where where where where do i get it dammit. My family trades support and ridicule one for one. Clinic did not do anything in the years i have been there. And on my own, you see how that's going.>Proud of your honesty and ideals in making this post and sharing your perspectiveWhat good does that do? Everybody says that but i still have to lick boots to get food on my plate.>You're hopefuel.I don't know what you mean by this.Still thanks anon.>>82683746>Now, what is the most pressing problem in your life? You say you see no light at the end, does this mean that you feel hopeless?I just want some peace. But after i get that peace there is nothing there to enjoy. I don't want to start a family but there is nothing i want to achieve either. The few actions i do take now are motivated by wanting to escape this unpeaceful position but after that is done that's it. There is no light at the end.>What within you caused this? Or is it your behavior? Or is being targeted by others the only reason you are feeling really bad?I don't know where what starts and where it ends.Earlier it was just the last thing combined with being a sperg. But now i don't know if its the only thing. Does wanting to spit at the hand that both feeds and beat you mean that the result of that is entirely your fault? >I neeted for 8 years, and while I enjoyed the great freedomThere is no freedom in this place. Its a roof over my head and that's all. No guarantees or safety no nothing. Sometimes i get promised that things will change but a couple of days later its back to this>fixing my mental and attitudinal problemshow
>>82683871You say that you want peace and that there is no freedom in being a neet where you are. Is lack of freedom what makes you feel unpeaceful? Or is it the lack of guarantees and safety? What kind of guarantees are you talking about?You have all the time in the world and expansive opportunities. Maybe you can consider other activities or interests that you havdn't tried yet. Or you can make a commitment to go back to the activities you have tried and gave up on. If it's something on the computer, you could try listening to music while doing the task.
damn so much yappin in this thread. chill out unc
>>82684011>Is lack of freedom what makes you feel unpeaceful?Its the other way around. With the situation being the way it is there is no freedom. I just can't in this environment. Its the similar to prison.>What kind of guarantees are you talking about?Sorta everything but boiled down family being family. One day i get told that I'll get help or worked through some issue and the next day its as if nothing happened the day prior. Nothing here works by any rules or principles so in the end 'guarantees' and 'promises' hold no worth.>You have all the time in the world and expansive opportunities.But it is not like that. I don't feel well here i don't think right here. If i need anything from the others that gets taken back tenfold down the line. Or just the peace and quiet you need to do something that uses your brain or creativity is impossible here. Its always yelling or slamming something and there is nothing i can do. I have all this time but i can't *do* anything for myself if there's this torrent of noise. Just the noise alone is enough to make me go crazy so what activities can i do while malding and fuming?Everything i learned 5 years ago i still can but there is nothing new that has stuck in my head after that time. I don't remember what i did yesterday or a week before and im also starting to forget everything before those five years. That's what i mean with i just can't. No matter what, literally nothing happens.
>>82683404People see people that are "off" and want them to die. Simple as. It's just a human monkey brain instinct. They'd rather blame you for all your troubles than admit that bullying, discrimination, etc. work to make undesirables poor, and eventually dead. From an autist that got bullied out of 3 jobs for making small mistakes, and dropped out of uni because of people constantly messing with my ability to study. Even if your parents are rich or you look good, being "Weird" will ruin your life. Better to just find online study and work, that's my last chance. Don't try to fit into a society that hates you.
