>35 years old>live with a parent who trashes the house due to hoarding>feel disgusting living here>can afford to move out but I'd lose access to car (not a serious issue in England but would make life slightly duller) and the quality of all apartments to rent is shit>recently stopped playing video games due to them being a timesink but have nothing to replace them>work a fucking boring remote paperwork job>recently started in a new division and started learning about new team>team has done nothing but shuffle paper for over a year and its functions are almost being done by at least two other teams>sense of pointlessness about my job and team has intensified>starting to realise I can never ever succeed in large organisations because I'm too much of an autist to become in sync with the normie groupthink that's necessary to bullshit and build consensus for pointless bullshitAnd I'm an indecisive person. I can't decide whether to give up video games or not. I feel cucked either way. I can't decide whether to move out or not. I feel cucked either way.I feel cucked about everything I do, don't do, and how I do it.
>>82684231Everybodys life is pointless, cut off your internet connection and contemplate for a few hours, you'll get real fucking decisive.
