Why are people so hard to understand, anons? It seems like no matter how hard I try, peeps are always pushed away from me for one reason or the other but I can't figure out why.
>>82684701If you have the tism it should be pretty obvious by now
>>82684735i don't understand this, what should be obvious?
>>82684701I've spent my whole life simping for the approval of neurotypicals, it gives me tolerance at best and disgust and avoidance at worst so I basically don't try anymore. I have my internet friend simulators and my rotted out little ghouls on 4chan. I'm gud.
People aren't hard to understand, I'm just not interested in them enough to bother. I realized a long time ago that I had no interest in the people around me, and so I gave up ever fitting in with them. I have two friends, well more like 1 now. One actually got married. I never thought I'd see the day. The other is also on the spectrum, but doesn't seem to share my total disinterest in intimacy. He's just very slow to get his life in order. Perhaps when he's 40 he'll seriously start trying to find a woman (he's 36 now). Other than them, the only people in my life are close family members, and largely by their own doing and not mine. I haven't seen any cousins or uncles in over 15 years. I saw my brother last month, first time I spoke to him in 5 months at the time. I expect to see him again this month because it's my birthday (turning 36) and he makes a point of seeing me on my birthday. He's a good man, my brother, even if we don't get along all the time and have little in common. He likes to maintain family bonds, and honestly without it I would just forget to ever contact people because I don't see the point.I honestly don't want to get closer to people because they just waste my time. And I don't want to offend them because that's also a huge hassle for me. I want to go on being polite and aloof and having as little to do with them as I can without making inconvenience for myself.
>>82684701Anyone here also go along by playing an 'aloof genious' type persona?People always think I'm smart, but I just talk fast and have memorized a bunch of surface-level info on different topics.
>>82685318lol, that was my shtick in high school. I realized by college that I was mediocre, and that being emotionally unavailable and solitary doesn't also make you super intelligent. Life got a lot better when I stopped trying to lie to myself. I'm not an aloof genius, I'm an antisocial sperg with hobbies that verge on intellectual without any rigor or discipline.
>>82685318This totally works actually, even as you get older. You don't even have to shut up, people will just choose to read depth and erudition into what you say once they've clocked you as a genius even if you're saying the stupidest, most vapid shit imaginable. But it is not satisfying to be this person.>>82685243I dunno. While I'm around people they seem easy enough to read and to see through, and I also stay away out of disinterest, but when I look back at it, I'm not sure I've ever truly understood another person. Maybe normies don't either, but I'd like to think they do. The idea that nobody can really understand anyone else is very cold and alienating.
