from age 10 to 30 I have cried at least 3 or 4 times PER WEEK because I'm not and will never be a girl/woman. I officially don't think I will grow out of this any more. I wish I could be beautiful and feminine so badly, but I never will, and if I tried to be those things, strangers would go from not knowing I exist to outright hating me and wanting me to die. There is no fucking escape, and in fact I fully expect anyone who didn't already ignore this thread after the first sentence to be angry that I posted it and want me to kill myself. What did I fucking do to deserve this
>>82686223Why can't you go on HRT without training out? The effects could help your dysphoria without having to go through the social struggle of trooning out
>>82686239I did go on hrt. Now I have tits big enough that I have to wear a binder to work to hide them. I still look like a man and I still wish I was a woman.
>>82686223If you spend your entire life being tormented by 'what-if's...then you won't ever be able to find peace. The road not taken is shiner, try to accept the cards you've been dealt and move forward and become the most authentic presentation of yourself possible. Try not to get caught in the 4chan transphobic self-hatred mental prison, but you also have you accept that you were born with a Y chromosome and it is what it is. I think in spite of that, you could become a very pretty person.If you spend an eternity wondering what could have been, you will miss the beauty that IS. Don't die standing still.
>>82686223>because I'm not and will never be a girl/womanthe one thing you have going for you is that you're under no delusion that you can actually "transition" into a woman. every cell in your body has the chromosomes of a man and anyone that tries to convince you you're not one by playing semantic games is pushing an ideological lie. the best thing you can do is zonk yourself out on anti-psychotics to numb the mental pain. best of luck anon.
