I wish I was young and from a city that mattered. I wish I had a friend group, people I hung out with most nights getting drunk and laughing together. I wish we went to concerts. I wish I was attractive in a softer way and that cute alternative girls liked me. I wish I got to kiss and fuck a lot of them and got to feel their bodies. I wish I was cool. I wish I dressed cool. I wish I was a part of the action. But Im 27, and im balding, and Im just average looking. Im too old to even have a vague theoretical cope that my life could turn around and I could live this proper idealic youthful lifestyle. There is no future for me that i could look forward too. Even if I "made it" at this age that would look like finding a woman who wants to settle down with me and live some quiet suburban domestic life. I have no interest in that. In fact I resent it because it just makes me more bitter at the fun and excitement I never had. I cant stand it anymore.
>>82866051Wish in one hand, piss in the other. See which one fills up faster
I wish I was young and from some quiet little countryside village that time forgot. I wish I had a friend group people I saw every afternoon after school, running barefoot down dirt roads, skipping stones at the river, climbing trees until the sun started melting into gold. I wish we caught bugs in jars and pretended they were treasure. I wish the air smelled like rain and woodsmoke and that I had a bicycle with a loose chain that still somehow worked.I wish I was carefree in that soft, sunburned way, where the biggest worry was whether the store still had ice pops left. I wish I got to feel summer stretching forever, and fall meant bonfires instead of bills. I wish I was part of that part of a tiny, perfect nowhere where everyone knows each others dogs by name.But Im 27, and I live where the sky glows orange all night, and nobody waves when you walk by. Im too old to believe life could ever feel endless again, and too young to be content with nostalgia. Theres no going back to that small, bright world. Even if I made it, what would that mean? A stable job, an apartment, a weekend hobby? I dont want that. I want to lie in tall grass, staring at clouds that actually look like things, and feel like life hasnt even started yet. I cant stand it anymore
>>82866136I actually do relate to this but is precisely why I lean in the opposite direction. Im too old, jaded, cynical to live in that idealic childlike state. So I need a raw youthful sexual exciting lifestyle. Stimulation is the antidote
>>82866085I know. Its just hard not to crave and wish and hope. Its hard to stomach potentially 60 more years of being old and barred from the good stuff in life
In my early to mid 20s I lived in decent sized cities. I had a cool group of friends, we spent most nights drinking. I went to concerts, have a pretty interesting social media because of those concerts. Never helped me get a GF but that really is my own fault. Honestly, the memory and friendships of those days are what stops me from offing myself at this point.
>>82867273>Honestly, the memory and friendships of those days are what stops me from offing myself at this pointGutting to read. This is how I imagined it. It only takes a good 5 year run to feel content and secure in yourself.
>>82867363Not necessarily. Personally I'm not a content or secure person. Those years certainly helped. Some of my friends during those years really fell off hard. Everyone comes out the way they come out. My closest current friendships are from those years though.
>>82867406Why dont you just live like you used to
>>82867656We all grew up. We couldn't live like 21 year old college kids forever.
>>82866051IKTF. ageing is so brutal
Let not a person revive the pastOr on the future build his hopes;For the past has been left behindAnd the future has not been reached.
>>82867716I seriously dont know where to go from here. Its like my brain cannot let go of this vision of life I so desperately want, but one that is basically impossible at this point in life. I dont want to commit suicide but sometimes that seems better than decades of endless yearning
>>82866051>wish I dressed coolyou can dress coolI'm about the same age as you anon and I'm trying to make up for lost time, you can use skin cream and shave well and wear a hat to cover your balding and still look like you're in your early 20s for a while
>>82866051>wish i was young>but im 27you can still go do shit for another 20 years you idiot.gogo nowgo do shit
>>82868120Only anon with sense here. Zoomers are so ridiculous
>>82868120Let me translate for anon because I can decode failed loser speak: "Im pushing 30 and want to fuck the youngest legal age girls I can". Its that simple. He wants young 19 year old pretty pussy and that is NEVER going to happen as an older balding man
>>82868120>27 >younganon..
>>82868997We're old men.
>>82868997>t. is under 27That delusion of yours will follow you for the rest of your life, if you let it. Mark my words, when you're 37 you'll wish you could be 27 again,I was so young! you'll thinkYou think your age is the problem, and less-than your age the solution, but you don't see that you only think like that because you are, right now and every single moment, the oldest you've ever been. You ARE the oldest version of you, you always will be, and so of course you look back because then you had so much time to go forward; but now, "now", now there is Only forward
>>82866051I am also 27. I have lived that life you describe, though through most of it I had a girlfriend rather than fucked different girls. There's nothing stopping you from doing it now. Just wear a hat and no one will care. Just go to the events solo, start with understanding the music, then talking with other people there and making friends, and then last start looking for women. If you go in purely with the intention of finding women, everyone will be able to tell and you will have little success. Find something you like, focus on genuinely enjoying it, and then look at everything else as a bonus. Way better outlook to have in life.
