im embarrassed of my own existence in this world. i hate that im my parents daughter, a sister, and a cousin to the people in my life. i just wish i could disappear like i never existed but im trying so hard to accept myself keep my head above water but im too self aware it hurts. its just so unfair
You can always get love unlike men you don't have real problems.
>>82869872im unable to love and receive love, also love is not the only thing to life, you have to not hate yourself so much that you would rather be gone forever than alive, can you possibly picture someone like that being able to accept love and truly feel it??
>>82869897I can love can heal a lot of things including self hate. Another person caring about you and loving you despite your flaws is very powerful. I don't understand how someone can wallow in self pitty like that when men often feel the same and have zero chances to receive some care from anyone. Women are simply too privileged.
>>82869959i just wish you would understand its not so easy to fall in love and be healed like that. you think its some fairytale like thing it is not. i can be loved unconditionally and i am right now but i still feel not deserving dont you understand its somethings that cant really be fixed when i grew up this way? you are ignorant
>>82870017>its not so easy to fall in love5 bucks you would "fall in love" with pic related in 5 seconds even if you knew he's a murderer rapist
>>82870080that man is no where near my type and women dont fall in love with looks like men do with women. retard
>>82869861maybe you shouldnt be on 4chan nona. doubtful this place makes you feel any better, even if you think its the only place you fit in or whatever.why are you embarrassed, what's got you down anyway. anyone can whine they dont feel good, and they do, but actually talking about it might help, even if its with anons. you never know if one of us is going to have something to say that will change your perspective, or even just lighten the load a little.
>>82869861>i just wish i could disappearBe selfish anon. Your inherent value isn't on how useful you are to other people. Play video games. Listen to music. Do shit what you like. And pls don't say shit like this and love yourself more.
>>82870108its just my life is actually just pathetic and i pretend it is not most of the time.> even if you think its the only place you fit in or whatever.i dont fit in here im a woman and you all undermine my feelings and im not funny or likeable im just really have no friends and that is my fault i find no interest in anyone or anything
>>82870115value in this world is based on status and connections, its stupid to pretend it isnt and playing video games all day will not change that in any real way
>>82870155then why are you here, why engage in self flagellation? do you enjoy hurting yourself?instead of spending your time in a place where you are openly reviled, do something constructive. it doesnt have to be something that makes you money or even betters you, just something you enjoy. there must be something youve thought you would want to do. it sounds like youre bored and its getting to you.do you remember a time you were ever happy?
>>82869861Kill yourself immediately. That would solve your issues. I hate attention whore femcels like you.
No one cares anon. No one. People have problems too, so stop being so sad all the time.
where is my misaki-chan
>>82870175My dad's dead, I get paid a measly 60k annually, never had a gf, live with my mom at 27 and I'm still not that unhappy. I stopped comparing myself to others and accepted what I have. I think going to my job helped a lot even with a shitty pay.>playing video games all day will not change that in any real wayIt's meant to make you happy anon. Do you have any pleasures in your life?
>>82869861why are you so embarrassed by it? what do you do you think is so awful about you.
>>82870017Never said it was but still a way out unlike most of us here who don't have any way out. Nobody cares how I feel and I just wish I had a gf. You can stay like that for years or you could try and find help from someone. Nobody will ever help me and try to understand me.
>>82870204i actually have been working after being unemployed for a year, the feeling is still there, i have someone i talk to everyday online and game with and i like them a lot, i still feel this way, im objectively in the best situation ive been in my whole life and i still feel the same as i always have. i dont come here often i try to stay away from negative outlets but like i said it i can only pretend for so long that my life is fine when i have no friends, im overly friendly with my own parents and siblings because thats my only way i can express myself, i cant make friends irl simply cus im boring and not likeable and quiet, i send stuff to guys online for attention frequently, my rooms filthy and i wear a lot makeup and completely alter my appearance just to feel somewhat normal at work and when i go out in public, just so i can not feel like im subhuman, dont you understand how this makes me feel inside when all i do is overthink and try to numb it every second of the day
>>82869861>i hate that im my parents daughterAnd we don't give a fuck, women aren't allowed to feel any sort of sadness like this
>>82870317have you been honest with this person about how you feel? im guessing youre venting here because you haven't. maybe you should try that.what do you think would change if you had friends? do you think they would save you or something?i feel like the whole makeup thing and altering your appearance is pretty normal for women, its almost expected. i rarely see women without makeup.you sound like you need someone to vent to, i like listening to peoples problems and giving whatever advice i can. if youre interested you can add my discord and vent to me or anything you like, i understand if youre not interested, but its an option you can take if you ever feel like there are things you cant talk to others about. duchatcat
>>82870317The Robot Experience(tm)
>>82870393yea sure what is your discord
>>82870393>>82870605never mind im kinda stupid i will add it
>>82869861Why don't you pick up a guitar and rip a sick ass shred solo?
>>82870605>>82870616thought about what we spoke about a bit more. youre a funny person.
>>82869861blah blah blah, id rather be in ur shoes 100%, you can so easily have people throw themselves at you and want to be ur 'prince charming', ill never get the same treatment, ill need to do 100 things and change everything about myself to be considered worthy of someone elses love
