what do you do when you realize you're deeply unlikable and have not only fucked up your own life but other peoples lives too? ive fucked over anyone who I ever respected and liked to return to a guy who lowkey raped me. basically I stuck to his side ever since, had a unbelievable chance that I always daydreamed of to leave and be part of something great and fun and have community for the first time ever, but I fucked it up and then out of guilt ruined it for myself beyond compare and returned. even worse, he isn't evil he's sweet. im just incapable of doing what I want, probably because my mom always told me I was being prideful or spoiled or a brat whenever I wanted to go outside or have human interaction. what I want = completely unimportant. all that matters is serving someone else and sacrificing my needs to try and make them happy. im simply put a coward. I also always make choices based on trad ideology, to the point im scared and anxious to go outside because it'll make me impure and less lovable (the only way I know how to be lovable is to have next to no experience). I got this from browsing 4chan since 15 and not being around normies ever. only to realize, those ideologies aren't from people who actually are cool and live life, they're from scared suburban coddled wet blankets like me. I don't know where to go from here at all. I have no friends, not even online, and I feel so far gone to the point there's no hope for me. I obliterated my one chance at the one thing I ever cared about, a unique community with people who understood me, just so I could return to unhealthy comfort and what im used to. I may have left my parents' but I stayed mentally entrapped. the whole world looks grim to me now because I can't imagine anyone ever understanding me or not hating me. id tell them my life and they'd be like "why didn't u just do so and so??????? are you retarded???" yes I am clearly
Dont worry op i can eat yiur pussy in fact i have 3 studiecredits in female sexuality
>>82872687you sound under the age of 21. You have endless time to course correct.
>>82872687As opposed to highkey raping you?
