There's a version of the life you wish for in your head. It's more explicit than you think. Then why don't you translate that vision and actually start building towards that life?
>>82873070Cause im young in this life
Because it requires the willing participation of other humans, and at the end of the day they're pieces of shit whose sole purpose in life is to make me miserable.
>>82873070omg is that picture a Paramore reference? I love them. What's your favorite song? Mine is Let the Flames Begin
>>82873070Because in that life I didn't fuck anything up
>>82873070too difficult sorry
>>82873070Because what I wish for is delusional, stupid and wrong
Some of that wish is a fantasysome of that wish i am moving towards, but progress can be so excruciatingly slow, sometimes...and when it feels like i'll never get there... sometimes i give up and give in to distraction and vices.And sometimes i get back to building again but only for a little while. Sometimes I wonder if I'm kinda bipolar because i have such highs and lows, although it's never really the same level of mania and depression you think of with tru bipolar disorder.Sometimes it feels too late to start rebuilding that vision again. Maybe it's easier to work towards the acceptance of the circumstances I face rather than resist and fight and feel the cognitive dissonance from not being where I want? It's a bit of mental gymnastics but I do ponder this a lot philosophically.
