>realize myself and everyone around me is getting old>realize I completely wasted my youth and now all I have left is the decline>start feeling depressed>immediately get slapped with a bunch of health shit that makes me feel worse and reminds me how bad I treated my body>days are getting shorter which means more darkness>nothing's fun anymore>basically nothing to look forward to or keep me happy at this pointI think I'm actually going to have a breakdown this time. I'm finally running out of copes.
>>82875720Thats how life is, sorry
>>82875720funny thing is, breaking down won't change the situation, it'll just make it worse. and you'll break down again and again. welcome to the slow death. it was never supposed to be comfortable.
>>82875720And yet you remain a frogposter.
We lay in the bed we made for oursleves.If you have some ambition, some creative or any concrete idea on how to improve your situation, do it immediately.
>>82875758>>82875763I don't think it's how life is supposed to be, only if you managed to fuck everything up.>>82875782It's just automatic at this point.>>82875850I don't. I feel like it's too late to turn anything around. I'm here because I lacked that ambition and I'm aware it's all my fault.
>>82875956It's not your fault that you didn't find ambition in you. Most people don't.It's the system's fault for not facilitating a fulfilling life for everyone.
Not one minute before this thread I was dreading not going to work for 2 days because that means I'm stuck in the self-made hell of a wasteland that is my real life with no contact with anyone or nothing to look forward to. I never understood why people went to parades or to go see fireworks now I see it's to get out of the fucking house and stop rotting. I wanna be social but that shit is so cringe to me.
>>82875993Even if I didn't have ambition I still had things I wanted to do. I just had no drive and let my brain hold me back out of failure and confrontation anxiety. Someone who had my life but didn't live in their head like me wouldn't have had any problem at least getting a normie-tier life. Hell my brother did.>>82876021I feel the same way. I can't stand being alone but I can't bear being social either so I can't be happy anywhere. All because I can't turn my brain off.