>plushfucking weirdo>too hopped up on tranny meds to want to do it myself and too neurotic about getting them dirty>want to watch boyfriend fuck them instead but he is weirded out by the prospect and wont even touch them>afraid to have boyfriend actually fuck me because my insides are fucked and im probably going to bleed regardless of how much i prep.its a damn cycle of being cucked by my pansy ass body and mind man and it sucks