im so hopelessly boring, stupid and retarded that i won't ever have friends. never really had any real friendships to begin with. i just wish i had someone to talk to so much, but im terrible at conversation and have nothing to offer.
>>82877017the cunny hunter returns
>>82877017Everyone has something to offer. That said, you're probably not as stupid or boring as you think. Do you have any interests?
>>82877030well, considering i do nothing all day long besides watch anime of roam about like a husk, not really. i guess im interested in new technology and AI (not a robosexual) which is one thing
>>82877017SHE WAS SEVENTEEN YEARS OLD YOU SICK FUCK
>>82877037Could talk about anime with people, as well as technology. What new technology aside from AI stuff have you been interested in?
>>82877017we can talk about guts x griffith yaoi
>>82877041lol everyone thinks im some sort of pedo all of a sudden cause im griffith avatarfaggingim an 18 years old anon from france>>82877048im also interested in reading about advances in biology, robotics and computing i suppose. im not perfectly well versed in them all though, and it's AI that is my main interest
>>82877058That is extremely homosexual of you, anon.>>82877085Biology is actually my main interest. You sound like you could definitely have plenty of nice conversations with people. Why do you think you can't? How do your interactions with people normally go?
>>82877085Shit I thought you were my boy James kek, my bad you french RAT
>>82877108why do i think i can't? not because i think, but i can't. im sort of airheaded in all honesty and im simply not good at back and forth conversation. im not quick witted enough for it. im not very good at driving conversations along and they simply end up drying out. and when you're taking about friendships where people need to talk to you everyday, well ts kind fo impossible for me
>>82877131Well for most people they just talk in groups. You're not expected to be so quick witted all of the time either. Most of what normal people talk about is really mundane and doesn't really need much to be said to drive the conversation forward -- regardless, you'd learn how to be better at conversing if you can find a group to socialize in. I'm fairly certain on that, if what you said in the OP is true and you haven't had friends or friendships. It's a lot easier to just talk in a group than it is to try and keep one person interested each and every day.
>>82877161well, most of my interactions come from discord servers these days. but ive never had an actual serious friendship flourish out of it, nor have i ever had a discord friend group or anything of the likes. everything always seems to be at an arm's reach. i have familars with which i talk to everyday, but i couldnt really tell you anything about them, nor do they actually care for me or would want to reach out to me. i just sort of fly under the radar everyday.and if you say it's discord and i should try real life, take this context, apply it to school, and tis my entire school life.im just not cut out for people, i guess. ive tried many a times before, never with any success.
>>82877108>that is extremely homo of youits homo of them, im just a filthy fujo
>>82877201Have you been interested in forming actual friendships with any of the people you've talked to on Discord? If so, how did you act around them? You say that you don't really know anything about them, so I assume you haven't really asked them any questions about themselves, right? If you never ask anything about anyone or tell them much about yourself then people will perceive you as aloof, in my experience.>>82877213Ah. Wait, were you that anon last night I sent some songs to?
>>82877231oh, yeah lmao, if you're talking about the berserk fan song and the other jp song, that was me
>>82877238Yup. I also got the impression that you were an anon I sent a geology video some days before that. That wasn't you also, was it?
>>82877231i tried many things. at first, i tried to act like a good listener. then i tried to act knowledgeable. then, i tried to act fiesty. but the truth is that im none of those at all, aka the usual reasons that someone would want to befriend you. and autistic as it is, but i don't really actually care for others at all, and i can only pretend so much that im invested in them, until i can't anymore.
>>82877245oh shit, that was also me lmao. small board man. im an ame avatarfag and i also like to post griffith so if you see that, thats likely me again
>>82877253Well if you act like a good listener then it tends to just get you into situations where people want to use you like an emotional tampon. Most people don't care if you're knowledgeable, as far as if you're their friend. Being fiesty sounds more like what you'd see someone wanting in a partner and not a friend though. For friendships it's about just forming a bond, not trying to be a resource for them. If you're not so interested in them though, you shouldn't try to be their friend. It's not good for you or them.What would make you more interested in someone?>>82877276Yup, I thought it was. Did you enjoy the video? Also another song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h4HkXR3NSI4Since you're a fujo, the singer is the producer of that song and also a guy. Pretty sure he's into men too.
>>82877289sometimes there are certain sorts of people who interest me. sadly it's not reciprocated, usually. i remember one time i had a friend, we spoke very little but we talked on a discord server very often, but their mind was so interesting, i just wanted to dissect them and learn everything about them so i can be like them. but eventually they got busy with life, or tired of my pestering, especially as i wasn't really as interesting to learn about as he was, so we sort of just fell out and he stopped replying. i felt sort fo ashamed that i was so foolish that i really thought would care for me. i really am nothing to really write home about. especially when i am purely myself
>>82877289i havent actually watched the geology video yet (im very sorry)good song, the art in the video kinda reminds me of this popular jp twitter artist that makes those super depressing images, i forgot his name, they get posted here sometimes tho
>>82877332Can you describe them? Also you should try to be yourself, not like others. People get distressed when the mask you put up eventually slips and they catch glimpses of who you really are -- that or you'll be the one distressed at their reaction. It's better to be friends with people who are friends with -you- than friends with the act you put up.That said, why would you want to be more like someone else? Is it that you find yourself to be too boring or uninteresting? As an odd question: Did you like their spontaneity?
>>82877367I see, I see. Also, have no clue on the aritst. Odyk is apparently who did the movie part of the video though. Kanaria is pretty good, he used to do just vocaloid songs and then progressed to working with singers and then he began to sing himself. It's an interesting bit of growth on his part. Issey is also another favorite of mine. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AtckPWbmmgU
>>82877371they seemed somewhat detached. mature. zen. their presence in the chat was always unique, it was always lighthearted and relaxed around him. he never got worked up or took offense, he was only here to talk about things he enjoyed and laugh with others. unlike him, i do not have the privilege of having so much composure or being simply able to take a step back and enjoy the view. i guess that's what i most admired about him. he's basically who i wish i was.
>>82877415I see. All of that sounds like he was a pretty content person. I would've figured that you were quite relaxed yourself though, given how you seem uninterested in most people. You'll probably find yourself becoming more and more like him as you get older. Out of curiosity, what do you want out of a friendship? Just someone to talk to, right? Or is it more about having someone to do fun things with?
>>82877442quite to the contrary, i can get quite worked up myself sometimes. not in the way most people do, i just act in a somewhat erratic manner and start rambling on, to the dismay of others. somewhat Iike what i currently am doing.and to be honest.. i don't really know. probably both, but either way, when all my days are filled with emptiness and the solitude of my own company only, and i start to feel the loneliness and desire for human companionship start to gnaw at me, i just know i need a friend. someone to talk to at least.
>>82877479I see. Could always use this place as your outlet for rambling. In most circumstances people get uncomfortable by people ranting/rambling unprompted. The behavior will alienate you to them. You could probably also use this place to help ease that loneliness and need for companionship. This would be the place to find people who're in a similar situation to you, after all. Have you tried socializing with people from here before? I'd recommend mostly sticking to just threads for a while, over trying to add them on discord. Get to know someone over the course of a few threads first. It tends to filter out people who'll just ghost you right away.
>>82877500i don't think 4chan threads hit the same craving for socialization than talking to friend who knows you does. it's sort of a junk kind of socialization, with the added bonus of people insulting you every other reply. which frankly, hasn't been quite good for my self esteem.and to be honest, i don't really know that it'll come with further socialization. ive been in the beginning stage of socialization for years, and have had speeches from the likes of you saying it's a thing that'll eventually come to me. wel despite all my attempts, it's yet to come, and i don't expect it to come anytime soon.
>>82877540See, you're going to the wrong threads. There are threads, usually hosted by someone avatarfagging, where people just meet up to talk to each other as friends. Usually with some very mundane topic or a question or two. I would know, I'm a regular in one of those kinds of threads. I'm also very certain that if you actually socialize with someone who ends up being your friend then you will get better with it. I'm speaking from experience. It won't come quickly, but it will come. Your best bet is someone who is already more capable socially who has an understanding or a tolerance for people who aren't as socialized. That's how it went with me.
Are you willing to share your discord? I'm in a similar boat but I think you might be pretty chill to hang out with. Would you be willing to stream any shows you like?
>>82877569i actually make threads, i tend to seek out and reply to threads less. simply whenever there's anything i feel i wanna say, i make a post. up to 10 per day.you say this is how it's worked out for you.have you ever known friendlessness for years on end like me?>>82877576see, here's the thing. people love to bond over the media, ive never been the biggest consumer of it.that said if you are willing to put up with that, and also my inability to stream due to my laptop being broken, then maybe, sure.
>>82877609I see. I'd just recommend trying it out sometime though, you might like it. Also, yes. Although I'm like 9 years older than you and it was a lot easier before the age of the smartphone for unsocialized kids to become socialized back then. I spent a good portion of my years in school just picked on, mocked, etc.. Eventually I got a good friend and became more and more socialized. After like 4-5 years I could fit in without much of an issue and make friends, although I honestly didn't really want to with most people. They're usually just alien to me and I've lost the desire to fit in or socialize as much.Also for that other anon, you should take them up on just watching and enjoying things sometimes. Not just movies and what not. It's a good way to start conversations a lot of the time. Same with playing video games together.
>>82877609Yeah I'm fine with that, I will warn you I am naive to most things due to living as a NEET, if you're okay with that
>>82877674from one naive NEET to another, wouldn't have it any other way>>82877659I see. i mean that sounds ort of like my school life, but sadly i never really had a friend to rescue from friendlessness. i ended up spending all my school days, from elementary to high, completely friendless. not even smartphones helped me.curious, what was your friend like?
>>82877708Don't worry, even with that friend the mocking and such didn't stop B^). I didn't get to high school, I dropped out in middle school even. My friend was protective and tolerant, but otherwise just wanted to have fun. He was also eccentric, but was way better at socializing. The shared eccentricities is what helped us bond pretty well.
>>82877731damn, not even high school. where are you now then?
>>82877708maestromaestro180Add me whenever, Choom
>>82877796Living with my elderly, sick mother. It is what it is.
>>82877811ah, he's a cyberpunkish one>>82877818that sounds sad. are you at least getting anywhere in life?
>>82877830Hah, no. Dropping out of middle school is also throwing your future away. The sick mother doesn't help either, but I gave up on life quite a while back.
>>82877877oh well, hope it all works out for you manor at least you get to enjoy the company of your mother for a while longer.
>>82877882Yeah. Also, best of luck with making a new friend. Have a good night, anon.
>>82877894thanks, gn man, lovely talking to you. may the gods be in your favor.
