hi robotshow are you doing? do you have anything cool to tell me? are you taking care of yourself? still at work. still not dead. it's wednesday, you know what that means. nothing much, actually. but it's just two days left before friday, so good job on surviving this long.remember to take care of yourself, because if not you, no one will.
>>82879428hi anondoing fine i suppose. something cool to tell... uhhh, i got some new shoes and they look pretty nice on me. trying to push through the weekhow about you anon? did anything worth mentioning happen recently?
>>82880134hi taonon. nice to see you again.>uhhh, i got some new shoes and they look pretty nice on me.that's really cool. i hope you like your new shoes. my sneakers are getting whiter and whiter each day, and they used to be black. working without any normal flooring is tough.>trying to push through the weekwish you luck. i know things can be really difficult sometimes, but i believe in you. go get 'em.>how about you anon? did anything worth mentioning happen recently?i'm alright, a few hours ago i had a delivery of a bunch of bags filled to the brim with parcels. so much marketplace slop, ugh. thankfully i'm done with them now, but the shelves are full to the brim with boxes, and that's gonna be a pain to look for a specific order.unfortunately nothing interesting happened today, or during two days i wasn't at work. same old, really. thankfully i'm not complaining, sorting out parcels is cathartic in it's own weird way, when no customers are bothering me.also, thank you for bumping my thread, if it wasn't for you, it would end up in archives.
Hi, OP. Depressed NEET escortcel here.Was temping to repeat what I said the last two times, but you remembered me.Given the troubles I have getting unpaid cunny, I got blocked another couple of matches this week, I'm pretty close to using fags to orally service me.On a positive note, later today I am meeting up with my quasi-uncle for drinks before his 60th birthday.I may see him again with his elderly mother in two months time for a pre-Christmas drinks and dinner. I cook my own dinner alone on Christmas.
>>82879428>hi robotsServus. Moin. Guten Tag. >do you have anything cool to tell me?I sorta want to continue my niche and spastic hobby again after forgetting about it and how i wanted to help others get into it. That and after seeing someone that went through worse things than me i don't feel that bad about myself anymore. Although part of me wishes i never read that. Oh and i think i might get back into analogue photography again. These things are sorta cool, right?>are you taking care of yourself? I mean i am taking vitamin supplements after my previously perfect bloodwork took a turn for the worse. I guess yeah im taking care of that.>still at work. still not dead. Good to hear. Im sending you my excess energy i have from NEETing so its a bit easier on you.>remember to take care of yourself, because if not you, no one will.I sorta don't know why i should even bother to be honest. The outlook is bleak regardless of what i do. Im still doing something however to make my time here a little bit more bearable. >>82880134Oh nice to see you here.Good on you on finding some nice shoes you like. I rarely find anything that feels comfortable and since i don't care about looks i have been rocking the same pair for over five years. Sending you energy for the rest of the week too!
>>82879428negatorybye
>>82880264>are getting whiter and whiter each dayhmm because of all the dust? you could always give em a nice scrub or if you got any spray paint you can spray paint them black again! (not too sure how that will look)>go get 'emthank you. i got 2 tests this week so i just hope i can get a passing grade on them. one of them is math sadly...>the shelves are full to the brim with boxeshow tall are these shelves? do you need a ladder to get to the top? but yeah nothing happening sometimes is better than something happening. and you're welcome for the bump, we gotta help each other out when it's needed!>>82880431hello anone. what kind of shoes are you using? also five years... that's a lot. well i guess i have a pair that is almost 3 years old now myself. though i think you should try and care a bit more about looks, it can feel nice to wear something you like, and not something you wear just for convenience.and thank you for the energy! i will put it to good use
>>82879428i have an exam today im not looking forward to because my mind is so blank i cant remember or process anything. even writing this is hard
>>82880409hey, depressed anon. good to see you here.>I'm pretty close to using fags to orally service me.don't fall down that rabbit hole, it's a long way down from here... if you think you hit the rock bottom, think again, there's always room to fall even lower.>On a positive note, later today I am meeting up with my quasi-uncle for drinks before his 60th birthday.that sounds nice! enjoy yourself, anon. tell me how it went next time, will you?>I may see him again with his elderly mother in two months time for a pre-Christmas drinks and dinner.hey, any kind of socialization is a good thing. remember to spend as much time as possible talking to your loved ones....or as an alternative, your relatives.>>82880431aye, hello, anon. good to see you here.>I sorta want to continue my niche and spastic hobby again after forgetting about it and how i wanted to help others get into it.that's great! what hobby is it, again? i apologize if you told me before, my memory is kinda shit lately.>That and after seeing someone that went through worse things than me i don't feel that bad about myself anymore.remember that just because someone has it objectively worse, it doesn't mean your misery doesn't mean anything and you should just suck it up. i'm here if you need an ear. >Oh and i think i might get back into analogue photography again. These things are sorta cool, right?yeah, actually, it sounds really fucking awesome. analog photos have a different feel to them, something long forgotten. like finding an old camera with film still intact and seeing something in it you shouldn't have. even if it's just an ordinary photo... >I mean i am taking vitamin supplements after my previously perfect bloodwork took a turn for the worse. I guess yeah im taking care of that.good job, nonny, i'm proud of you. taking care of yourself is important, even just some vitamins will go a long way.part one.
part two.>>82880807>>82880431>Im sending you my excess energy i have from NEETing so its a bit easier on you.much obliged, i need all the energy i can get, sometimes its hell. but usually it's just really boring. >I sorta don't know why i should even bother to be honest. The outlook is bleak regardless of what i do. Im still doing something however to make my time here a little bit more bearable.i'm more of a pessimist myself, although i hold belief that even likes of us can witness good things in life if we endure the painful ones first. eventually we won't have to use this site anymore, and finally find something worth living for. either way, even when at your lowest, anon's gonna be here to help. or at least try to. >>82880521>negatory>byeoh... buhbye...>>82880602>hmm because of all the dust? you could always give em a nice scrub or if you got any spray paint you can spray paint them black again! (not too sure how that will look)not a regular dust, a construction dust. that thing eats into the fabric and never leaves unless you scrub it away. i'll eventually have to clean them anyway, but it's gonna be a pain in the ass.>thank you. i got 2 tests this week so i just hope i can get a passing grade on them. one of them is math sadly...guh. i've never been a math person. or really any person, i'm kind of retarded. i'm only good at languages, really.regardless, i wish you luck, taonon. i'm certain you'll get a passing grade at least.>how tall are these shelves? do you need a ladder to get to the top?eh, not really... they aren't very tall, i'm more than capable of reaching even the highest stocked boxes, but it's a bit of a pain in the ass. it's just inconvenient because i have to burrow through the shelves, put boxes on the ground, find the box i actually need, and then put the rest in their respective places. cont...
>>82880865>>82880615>i have an exam today im not looking forward to because my mind is so blank i cant remember or process anything. even writing this is hardwhat's the matter, anon? are you okay? did something happen for you to be in this state? i hope your exam will go... uh. swimmingly. i guess, considering your state.
>>82880807>hey, depressed anon. good to see you here.Thanks, dude. I ran out of beers at the weekend, but got a few four packs in.I have six of those left, which I can't drink today because of the meeting. I'll get a case or two on the way home.>don't fall down that rabbit hole, it's a long way down from here... if you think you hit the rock bottom, think again, there's always room to fall even lower.IKR. I keep thinking if I stick to them giving me oral only, it won't be as bad. They are literally the only ones who want my dick (sadly, not many are feminine, which is what I would prefer). Obviously no foids do, unless I pay them. And I can't perform when I pay. It's a headfuck.It's sickening to me that I somehow get decent looking foids matching with me occasionally, but they never want talk to me, or make it easy to fuck. I always give them the ick. Even on apps where people are supposed to be more forward. When mentioning my performance anxiety and delayed ejac problems, they just nope out. I should just lie and disappoint them? There's no way to win. I needed a practice girl over 20 years ago.>that sounds nice! enjoy yourself, anon. tell me how it went next time, will you?Thanks, anon. I hope to do so. When I met him for my 38th birthday last year, I am still haunted by the cute redhead who made eyes at me all night, but never spoke to me, and had her own cockblocker there too. I never saw her again. The few foids who have stared at me never fucking speak to me, bro.>hey, any kind of socialization is a good thing. remember to spend as much time as possible talking to your loved ones.>...or as an alternative, your relatives.My family are dead already, so they are all I have. I just see them a few times a year. I have two friends left that I also barely see. It's just a shame that I can never get a foid, even an old one as a fuck-buddy. I'd be so happy. Like I had for some moments with that big-titted escort I had last week.
>>82880602Well its two pairs actually and i wear them on and off depending on the weather. Sorta forgot about that because its now time to only wear one. Dunno what exactly they are called but i have a even older pair of sneakers and some sort of hiking shoes.>and not something you wear just for convenience.I like how they look too so its not just laziness. i just can't find any new that both feel and look nice.>>82880807>i apologize if you told me before, my memory is kinda shit lately.You don't know because i didn't tell you. I wanted it to be a surprise and have everything finished but seeing how slow its going and how little time we have in this world idk about that.I am trying to revive budget satellite reception that use SDRs. After the satellites that everybody used to make images of earth with died there is not a lot going on for people that don't want to invest triple of what they already did to use the new sats. There are still lots of non-weather satellites out there that can be received for cheap but those need a more specialized setup which i am trying to make and share once its done.>it doesn't mean your misery doesn't mean anything and you should just suck it upI know but comparing how much of an dramaqueen i am sometimes to them sorta made me embarrassed. My situation is still shit and i hate it but I'll just to make my venting less cringey.>i'm here if you need an ear. Thanks and i would make use of that offer but right now i am trying to distract myself in other ways. Its not like a lot changes so there is no need for constant updates.>analog photos have a different feel to themWell they actually *are* different from digital. There are only a handful of sensors that try to imitate films function. Its more about the process. Developing film and printing that stuff onto photopaper is sort of a pain in the ass. That gives you cancer too. So the product is naturally worth more than selfie No.995241cont.
>sometimes its hell. but usually it's just really boring. Not a lot different at my place. Im not NEETing because i want to end up as a 30 yo manchild in a basement but because its just not that easy for me to 'make it'. Doesn't help that the little bit of support i get is always two-faced and half hearted. Ups, here i go complaining again.>although i hold belief that even likes of us can witness good things in life if we endure the painful ones firstI wish i saw things that way too. Everything i can imagine is just reducing bad things but i cannot see how i would ever get into a positive territory that is actually 'nice' and not 'not bad'.>either way, even when at your lowest, anon's gonna be here to help. or at least try to. Yeah thanks. I like you guys doing this. I don't even know how to phrase a sentence to reflect my feelings right but then there all these long threads, thanks for the work.
>>82881103>>82881111forgot to klick and link stuff
>>82881103>Its more about the process*for me
>>82880939>Thanks, dude. I ran out of beers at the weekend, but got a few four packs in.I have six of those left, which I can't drink today because of the meeting. I'll get a case or two on the way home.please don't drink too much if you can afford to. i'm not your mother, so obviously i can't tell you what to do, but still. just a friendly suggestion.>I keep thinking if I stick to them giving me oral only, it won't be as bad. They are literally the only ones who want my dick (sadly, not many are feminine, which is what I would prefer). Obviously no foids do, unless I pay them. And I can't perform when I pay. It's a headfuck.if you're questioning whether it's gay if you just have them suck you off, it probably is. doing anything sexual with a dude is pretty gay. and well... guys are less picky, of course, but still, it's a rabbithole i suggest you never go down. most foids might be evil, but unless you're okay with fucking men, you probably shouldn't do that.>It's sickening to me that I somehow get decent looking foids matching with me occasionally, but they never want talk to me, or make it easy to fuck. I always give them the ick. you know the drill, anon... most foids get the ick whenever you breathe incorrectly. it is actually a code for you not being chad. most women are chadsexual, and won't go lower than 8/10.>I should just lie and disappoint them?YES. lying is the only right option. never be honest about yourself. they hate it. especially when you show a weakness. i'm sorry, that's just how foids operate.>and had her own cockblocker there too. I never saw her again. The few foids who have stared at me never fucking speak to me, bro.i'm sorry, anon. i hope you'll see her again someday, or maybe some other girl who'll be interested in you. it seems you're somewhat decent at catching signals foids send, yes? i wouldn't catch it unless someone came up to me and told me someone likes me. even then i'd probably take it as an attempt to humiliate me.
>>82881472>>82880939>so they are all I have. I just see them a few times a year. I have two friends left that I also barely see. It's just a shame that I can never get a foid, even an old one as a fuck-buddy. I'd be so happy. Like I had for some moments with that big-titted escort I had last week.you should try to spend more time with the friends you have, it might make you feel slightly more alive, or at least make bad thoughts go away for some time.sex might feel good, but does it bring fulfillment? fuck if i know, it might. however, friends are forever, and sex is merely a temporary recreation.>>82881103>I am trying to revive budget satellite reception that use SDRs. After the satellites that everybody used to make images of earth with died there is not a lot going on for people that don't want to invest triple of what they already did to use the new sats. There are still lots of non-weather satellites out there that can be received for cheap but those need a more specialized setup which i am trying to make and share once its done.honestly, it's very impressive, anon. if you're capable enough to do that, i'd be delighted to see the results of your hobby. it sounds interesting, if not for the difficulty of reviving something that's no longer being used. then again, maybe it's not as difficult as i imagine, it's merely not my specialty. regardless, i'm very happy that you found a cool new hobby. i hope it's gonna turn out well for you.>I know but comparing how much of an dramaqueen i am sometimes to them sorta made me embarrassed.trust me, i've seen a lot worse. some people act like fucking martyrs, even though their problems could be solved in like a few days at worst, but they just refuse to listen. it's totally okay to not feel okay. >Its not like a lot changes so there is no need for constant updates.noted. regardless, even minor life updates are always welcome here.cont.
>>82881472>please don't drink too much if you can afford to. i'm not your mother, so obviously i can't tell you what to do, but still. just a friendly suggestion.I'm too NEET to be a real alcoholic and drink myself to a merciful death. I'll (unfortunately) survive, anon.>if you're questioning whether it's gay if you just have them suck you off, it probably is. doing anything sexual with a dude is pretty gay. and well... guys are less picky, of course, but still, it's a rabbithole i suggest you never go down. most foids might be evil, but unless you're okay with fucking men, you probably shouldn't do that.More than two decades of inceldom tend to turn guys 'prison gay'. Though at least I'd be a top.>you know the drill, anon... most foids get the ick whenever you breathe incorrectly. it is actually a code for you not being chad. most women are chadsexual, and won't go lower than 8/10.True. Still, it is strange why they would match with me at all and not want to bang, other than my just adding to their high score of matches. I at least establish if there's interest before blocking them, or being blocked. Cunts. I mostly swipe on old foids too, in the hope they want to cut to the chase and fuck. I keep hearing they are easier to deal with, but no.>YES. lying is the only right option. never be honest about yourself. they hate it. especially when you show a weakness. i'm sorry, that's just how foids operate.Also true. Sadly, I am so fucking anxious that even having an unpaid foid would give me performance anxiety that would guarantee I'd perform badly and never get a second chance. I wish escorts were free so I could practice on them a fuckload of times, kek.
>>82881472>i'm sorry, anon. i hope you'll see her again someday, or maybe some other girl who'll be interested in you. it seems you're somewhat decent at catching signals foids send, yes? i wouldn't catch it unless someone came up to me and told me someone likes me. even then i'd probably take it as an attempt to humiliate me.I doubt I'll ever see her again. I was at a bar ten miles from my home and I didn't spend my last birthday meet there, as I had hoped.Every several years there's an accompanied foid who would always stare at me, and say nothing. Though I knew this one liked me that night. She moved tables. lots of smiling and eye contact. I flashed my eyebrows at her. She said nothing. Nothing. And we both had cockblockers there. Though perhaps I gave her the ick once I stood up and revealed my manletism.I would much prefer that a foid told me straight that she liked me, or wanted to bang. Though likewise, I'd find it tough to believe that it wasn't a lie or a set-up.Apparently a foid told my father and his GF that she wanted to fuck me. Even my mother was told this, but not who it was. I suspect it was the GF's niece who gave me fuck me eyes. TFW could have avoided 20+ years of inceldom in my teens and not needed to have fucked escorts badly.>you should try to spend more time with the friends you have, it might make you feel slightly more alive, or at least make bad thoughts go away for some time.sex might feel good, but does it bring fulfillment? fuck if i know, it might. however, friends are forever, and sex is merely a temporary recreation.They are busy and I hate reminding myself what a failure I am compared to them.Sex is everything to me. Always wanted it, never had the unpaid version.Fuck, these multiquotes are impossible.
>>82881565>>82881103>Well they actually *are* different from digital. There are only a handful of sensors that try to imitate films function.yes, i figured, they just feel foreign at times, completely different from something people on the photo probably saw. >Developing film and printing that stuff onto photopaper is sort of a pain in the ass. That gives you cancer too. So the product is naturally worth more than selfie No.995241oh shit, i didn't realize it poses threats too... please be careful, alright? there are probably ways to shield yourself from ionizing radiation, but you know...>Not a lot different at my place. Im not NEETing because i want to end up as a 30 yo manchild in a basement but because its just not that easy for me to 'make it'.i understand, anon. i hope one day you'll be able to make it. i sincerely wish you the best. job is not supposed to bring you misery(even though it does most of the time), so it's okay to take your time with picking one. and i know how much of a pain in the neck job application process in general is. i barely managed to get employed here, and mostly because it has literally zero requirements. >Doesn't help that the little bit of support i get is always two-faced and half hearted.i'm really sorry, anon. normalfags are like this, they almost never mean what they say. what cruel, cruel beings. it's okay to speak your mind.>Everything i can imagine is just reducing bad things but i cannot see how i would ever get into a positive territory that is actually 'nice' and not 'not bad'.i know. it takes some practice. besides, your brain is heavily nerfed by depression, so it's even harder to think this way. not to say mine isn't, if im left alone for too long i'll dream of ending it. still, it takes some practice to see light at the end of the tunnel, and not the one you supposedly see when you die.>I like you guys doing this. of course, anon, no worries. we are here to offer some help. you are never alone.
>>82881677>I'll (unfortunately) survive, anon.sigh... alright, well, i guess that's something at least. >More than two decades of inceldom tend to turn guys 'prison gay'.i can't argue with that. just prepare a bunch of rubber, won't you? even oral can spread stds, let alone anal. >other than my just adding to their high score of matches.that's the whole point, anon. they just want validation. they wanna feel desired, it's in their dna. sickening, but what can you do, really...>I mostly swipe on old foids too, in the hope they want to cut to the chase and fuck.beware of the single mothers. and yes, not all of them are interested in just hookups. you oughta keep looking. maybe you'll find someone who will be down to fuck. then again, i've heard that tinder and apps alike are quite literally designed to not let you find a partner, because in that case they'll lose a customer. >Sadly, I am so fucking anxious that even having an unpaid foid would give me performance anxietyquite common, actually. despite it being very common and pretty much the norm, foids are evil and decide to never contact you again because of that. because they expect you to be a sex expert or something.>Though perhaps I gave her the ick once I stood up and revealed my manletism.they don't need a reason to find an ick. you just got unlucky, i'm assuming. >Apparently a foid told my father and his GF that she wanted to fuck me.holy shit... i really hate the mixed signals. one of the worst things ever conceived by humanity. i wonder how it could have turned out instead...>I hate reminding myself what a failure I am compared to them.don't say that, they don't think you are a failure. every person follows their own path, and they are still your friends, and they love hanging out with you.
>>82881565>i'd be delighted to see the results of your hobbyWeather satellites are the most popular ones for a reason. The most i can show now are some squiggly lines on a spectrum. The decline in people doing this is perfectly understandable.>reviving something that's no longer being usedthat is actually its own niche and is what i am interested in the most. There are plenty of zombie satellites still broadcasting with some doing so since the cold war even. Like with most others there are no pretty pictures (most satellites are pretty boring) and simply decoding them is a achievement.>maybe it's not as difficult as i imagineIt boils down to clicking a couple of buttons on your laptop and maybe bending and cutting some copper wire to tap into the aether (https://www.rtl-sdr.com/rtl-sdr-tutorial-receiving-noaa-weather-satellite-images/) , it just takes me so long for me because i have no motivation for anything. Most guides are on a few select satellites so a lot (if at all) is only documented by autist-in-denial boomers and they are just terrible at it.>i hope it's gonna turn out well for you.thanks. Lets hope winter won't bee too wet for me to do stuff. If i even get to it>regardless, even minor life updates are always welcome here.I will share the news once something actually changes. Things move so slow there just isn't a lot to say besides repeating how i don't like this. Although the 29th might change some things.>oh shit, i didn't realize it poses threats too... please be careful, alright?Its one of the reasons i took a break. I planned on getting some air filters but that has been postponed indefinitely so i dunno. I wanna do this stuff again but there are so many things that are 'postponed indefinitely' that i don't know if i really should. This goes for a lot.cont.
>>82882050>i'm really sorry, anon. normalfags are like thiswell lets hope the clinic can help somehow. Even if so far almost nothing changed. Although there are some signs it might in the future, in some months.>besides, your brain is heavily nerfed by depressionhow much of this is me and how much is it that? The line is so blurry now i don't know myself what actually needs to be fixed to make things happen. The first immediate issue is completely out of my control too but its so easy to fix. Nobody even cares. I question so many things i and others did. Why even pretend you know? How much of this thinking is depression and how much is it my character?
>>82882061the last part is vague and stupid. Just ignore it. I don't even know 100% what i meant myself.
>>82882050>The decline in people doing this is perfectly understandable.you know, the less people do it, the more interesting things you can recover. there are still so many things probably hidden behind the veil. all you need to do is take it off.>There are plenty of zombie satellites still broadcasting with some doing so since the cold war even.that's actually pretty cool. i didn't know that. are they doing it on purpose for all those years or are they just retranslating the signal they caught?>and simply decoding them is a achievement.eh, even if you don't get anything out of it, it's a test of skills, and proof that you can do it. and even then, who knows what you can find there? maybe you'll find some stuff feds don't want you to see, hehe. >It boils down to clicking a couple of buttons on your laptop and maybe bending and cutting some copper wirei'm sure there's more to it than just that, right? and even then, not any fool can do the same. i wouldn't be able to, at least.>so a lot (if at all) is only documented by autist-in-denial boomers and they are just terrible at it.hey, that just means more stuff for you a niche hobby like that is nice because there's more to discover, and generally just more things to do the downside is that you can't really talk to anyone about it>If i even get to iti hope you will! it sounds interesting and i think i'd really like to see what those things can show.>Although the 29th might change some things.how intriguing. 29th satellite? >that i don't know if i really should.i think you should. you should pursue anything that makes you even a bit happier. it'd be cool if you tried again.>Even if so far almost nothing changed.let me tell you, anon, healing takes a really long time. mental scars don't heal as quickly as physical ones.>How much of this thinking is depression and how much is it my character?depression affects most of your thoughts. some are generally moody, but depression takes it to the next level.
>>82882464>>82882061regardless, depressed you is still you. your thoughts aren't "controlled" by depression, it just has a degree of influence over what you're thinking or talking about. depression or not, it's still you, anon.
>>82882464>all you need to do is take it off.for what purpose however. There is a historical significance to them that gives you some bragging rights among a small group but nothing more. The cool things are popular just because there is actually something you have at the end.>are they doing it on purpose for all those years or are they just retranslating the signal they caught?they are either broken and cannot be turned off because of it or just never had an off switch in the first place. The popular weather satellites actually still work for the most part but they were disabled because the are obsolete now.>i'm sure there's more to it than just that, right?No, this is really all there is to it for the most part. Smart people made programs so easy and convenient that you just have to start it, select your target, and press 'start'. And you don't need to DIY or buy new antennae all the time either as the one that comes with most kits covers 98% of all usecases. >i wouldn't be able to, at least.you can. There are plenty of step by step guides and youtube tutorials out there. You install the drivers and maybe one or two programs and just start the radio. >the downside is that you can't really talk to anyone about itIts fun on its own. Just seeing these things appear on your screen and slide across the spectrum because of the doppler effect caused by their insane speeds is sorta cool. Its even better when its actually transmitting something cool.>i think i'd really like to see what those things can show.I have not explored this space that much but the zombie satellites at least don't send anything of worth, or anything at all. Whatever is responsible for actually making the data that is to be sent is just broken most of the time with the old ones. But the transmitter still tries to send *something*. At most it looks cool on the waterfall/spectrum or sounds funny.
>>82882759>how intriguing. 29th satellite? Ah, i meant the date. I have a appointment at the end of the month. The clinic is actually moving forward with stuff.>you should pursue anything that makes you even a bit happiereh i just start stuff, loose the energy to continue and stop. And besides, i actually need money for this analogue photography stuff. But the energy stuff happens with everything regardless of cost or effort.>let me tell you, anon, healing takes a really long time. mental scars don't heal as quickly as physical ones.I meant that they, on their end, have not done much. There were no attempts to fix stuff but there is actual movement now. even if its so far away>it just has a degree of influence over what you're thinking or talking about. depression or not, it's still you, anon.We'll see how much changes once/if things actually start to improve. I sorta wanna know what will stick and what goes away. I have been this way for so long that i don't remember not being this way.
>>82882767>for what purpose howeverwell, at the very least, it's mildly interestinglearning things most people don't know about is pretty cool, don't you think? besides, it's not really "why" or "for what purpose", but just doing something for the sake of it >they are either broken and cannot be turned off because of it or just never had an off switch in the first place.that's pretty interesting actually i never thought that some old satellites work not because someone built them to work, but because someone kinda forgot about them and never touched them againand they just keep working cuz they can>Smart people made programs so easy and convenient that you just have to start it, select your target, and press 'start'.woa, friendly interface... i wonder how it was like before all that surely you couldn't just tell an antenna to focus on that specific satellite signal or at least not without some smartass computer commands >Just seeing these things appear on your screen and slide across the spectrum because of the doppler effect caused by their insane speeds is sorta cool. Its even better when its actually transmitting something cool.by the way you're talking about it, it sounds really fun as someone with no idea how any of it works i'd probably try to find a pattern in this mess i wonder if there is a pattern >But the transmitter still tries to send *something*.hey, i mean, not all sources of data are broken, correct? some might be still operational. you could catch someone's very old message to the world or somethingmaybe im misinterpreting how this whole things works, and if i do i'm sorry>The clinic is actually moving forward with stuff.ah! good, good. i wish you luck in your healing process, anon. part one.
>>82882767>eh i just start stuff, loose the energy to continue and stop.i know how it is. me too. i used to try and draw stuff. i had stickman figure level of drawing, and never got anywhere with that desire.>And besides, i actually need money for this analogue photography stuff.i get it... well, if you're able to, please pursue your hobby, because it seems interesting to me as well. i'd love to see what nice photos you'll take.>I meant that they, on their end, have not done much. There were no attempts to fix stuff but there is actual movement now.i see, are you content with your therapist? maybe you need to find another one? remember that like most of them are incompetent morons, so if you feel like you are going nowhere, it might be time to switch.>I have been this way for so long that i don't remember not being this way.me too. but still, behind that shell, there's you buried deep inside. it hasn't gone anywhere, with enough treatment and motivation, depression will nothing more than a bad dream. cough. apologies for slow replies. i actually had to work. crazy concept, huh... there was this guy who i saw only twice and i already want to bash his head into a concrete wall. he looks and acts like a fucking asshole. i don't know what's that about him, it's just the air of superiority i guess. and he also never closes his mouth, it's always half open so he looks retarded.
>>82880865>not a regular dustuh huh, super strong dust i see... i remember always having to clean sawdust off my clothes and hair everyday when I used to work in a wood factory. not fun>or really any personsame i think. guess the only things i might be slightly more knowledgeable about is history and food stuff.in any case I hope the shelves have been kind to you
forgot to answer in my previous reply >>82881103>Well its two pairs actuallyhmm you gotta upgrade your shoes locker anon. it's fun to pair different ones with different clothes. i even got a pair of military boots that im wearing right now.>just can't find anydo you ever go window shopping? it's a good way to find things you like. though a bit depressing i guess...
>>82883106>besides, it's not really "why" or "for what purpose", but just doing something for the sake of itWell yeah. That does explain me soifacing over my first image of the earth, and the second, and the third, and the fourth...>but because someone kinda forgot about them and never touched them againIm sure some are forgotten but back in those days sending commands to one weren't as easy as not and in a age with so few satellites why would they bother with disposing of them or even just turning them off.>surely you couldn't just tell an antenna to focus on that specific satellite signal yeah you can. Although for many things you don't even need to aim the antennae at anything particular. These old chaps are pretty easy to receive. And even newer ones still broadcast at these 'legacy' frequencies too sometimes.>i wonder if there is a pattern there is plenty of terrestrial stuff to shizo out over too. Turning a SDR on for the first time is sorta wild. Nobody thinks that there is so much information flying through every cell of your body. Its sorta scary to be honest. oh and you can find out for yourself with 30$ and a laptop. The best software is always free. Use it responsibly if you get one.>hey, i mean, not all sources of data are broken, correct? sometimes but even assuming that you are receiving and decoding correctly you have no idea what you are actually looking at. Unless a protocol has been publicly disclosed, all information lies with the manufacturer.>good, good. i wish you luck in your healing process, anon. Thanks. I hope i can finally learn how to function in this world.>i used to try and draw stuff. i had stickman figure level of drawing, and never got anywhere with that desire.Haha same. The main issue with me is just that i don't have a creative mind anymore so even when i had the motivation to learn stuff there never was a point as i didn't know what i should draw and you go nowhere fast that way.
>i'd love to see what nice photos you'll take.I already have printed out some stuff. I'll scan and post it here if i find something interesting.>i see, are you content with your therapist?I didn't visit a therapist so far. The lead times are crazy high and i thought that a psychiatrist could do more at first. Nobody takes you seriously at first when you're undiagnosed but now that i have some papers doors are opening up for me. A proper and specialized therapist shouldn't be too far away with these. But i am still salty about useless some of these people have been so far. I don't wanna know how it is in countries with actually bad reputations.>depression will nothing more than a bad dream. There is more it than just that i think. The underlying causes are permanent im afraid.>cough. apologies for slow replies. i actually had to work. crazy concept, huh... No its fine. Its a lot of text and writing so much with a limit like on here takes some extra thinking.>there was this guy who i saw only twice and i already want to bash his head into a concrete wallLets hope you can somehow keep contact to a minimum. There is just no helping some people.>>82883273>hmm you gotta upgrade your shoes locker anonSame would go for the rest of my closet. Im just not into fashion. Function over form i guess. But military boots would be useful in these condition yes.>do you ever go window shopping?I rarely go shopping in general. Most of the stuff i want is online and when i actually used to try out stuff in these clothing stores i was rarely satisfied. Some things look nice but just don't are not comfortable.Oh. just discovered 4chan XT's post splitting feature. Very nice. You wire a long ass post and it cuts it into pieces that fit under the limit!
also 'reviving' is the wrong word. makes it sound like im doing something but im not. I was just interested in exploring my possibilities a bit and sharing my experiences after the good ones stopped working but im dropping that idea.
