is it unironically, genuinely, wholeheartedly over for me bros>in my early 20s>neglected as a child and so i harbor no life skills at all >hikkineet since age 16>barely take care of myself and cant do adult things myself and i avoid all of those things anyway>a leech towards my family>under 5'5>weird dick >obese>untreated medical issues that will burden me later in life>barely shower>hair is thinning>into weird porn>have never had a job>dropped out of school>severely uneducated>have spent the past 11 years in a dissociative blur>cant walk around my neighborhood without shaking at the sight of another person>chronic avoidance of the outside world>phone calls make me panic>khhv>cant look people in the eye and look like im on meth when in public>severe obsessive compulsive ideations that have kept me locked in a state of inertia for years>aforementioned issue has made me consider suicide at the most trivial things>extremely lazy and unwilling to do anything>no coherent or stable identity, ungodly insecure and self-doubting to the point of delusion>scared of everything all the time and am easily influenced>deeply selfish and egocentric>go outside maybe once a week for 15 minutes at most>have only interacted with another person my age in real life maybe 5 times in the past 6 years>very few passions or hobbies>spineless and no defined opinions or feelings on anything>chronically numb since i was like 15>self-destructive and have ruined everything for myself>have lost lifelong friends over how awful my social skills are and how deeply boring i am>vulnerable narcissist>latent homosexual>gay furryits looking bleak bros
the pleasure levels from top to bottom
>>82887208Eh it could be worse. You could be Donald Trump, constantly shitting yourself and forgetting what decade it is from one day to the next.
>>82887270donald trump is based though
>>82887281Cancer and cringe in one reply
>>under 5'5>>weird dick >>obese>>untreated medical issues that will burden me later in life>>hair is thinning>>cant walk around my neighborhood without shaking at the sight of another person>>latent homosexual>>gay furryyea its probably over
>>82887208You are like a worse version of me somehow. I dare to ask for more context about your life, what kind of and just how weird porn are we talking? what are your compulsive ideations and your delusions?
>>82887432>what kind of weird porni want really old men to take advantage of me and beat me and treat me like a dog>what are your compulsive ideations and your delusions?ive had obsessive thoughts based around my own identity for many years, to the point i used to have borderline breakdowns at the prospect of any sort of trivial changes. like for example, one time i cut my hair, and immediately started panicking because i thought itd somehow change me forever, and id never be the same again, and itd prove to me that im an imposter with no inherent value. id have a lot of compulsive avoidance due to this, it just started getting better this year. imposter syndrome and self-loathing was basically the root of this issue more or lessmore recently ive started developing hypochondria and that has made me compulsive as well, and ive become more generally afraid of things such as developing schizophrenia, and more paranoid in general. its a bad time for meotherwise i dont have true delusions but i have such intense thought loops that pile on top of each other to the point my perception of reality becomes distorted
>>82887208>early 20sthere is yet time. In five years time you could pass for a normie. Don't get me wrong, you'll probably never get a girlfriend, but if you really dedicate yourself to it, you could go outside and have friends without wanting to die.You need to follow the 1% better principle. Every single day, be 1% better than you were yesterday, and tackle each problem individually.If you can't even make eye contact with someone right now, much less talk to them, step one is to practice eye contact with videos on youtube that are designed for that. Might be harder than it sounds. Once you are comfortable with that, you will need to be able to be comfortable with eye contact with a real person, so start with something like omegle, specifically the video section. Maybe if you have a vr headset you could meet people on vrchat and practice talking to them there. Step after that is making eye contact with strangers irl and making small talk. If you apply the 1% principle in all of the problems that you have mentioned, even if it's in a way i didn't describe here, you might be able to ascend to normie-tier. It might be over for you, but it doesn't HAVE to be over for you. It definitely WILL be if you don't try your best, but it might NOT be if you DO.Don't give up just yet, you have a few more decades to go so you might as well keep getting up.
>>82887498seriously what's the psychology behind fags and their obsession with being treated like dogs? the pup mask shit, the intense sadomasochist dynamics, no other group of people, not even trannies with their puppygirl retardation are as obsessed with it as gay dudes are.
Furry porn makes being gay look so rad. If I were an anthropomorphic animal I'd become bi.
>>82887590its hot lol awruff ruff
>>82887498I hope you realize that hypochondria may cause you to act out and mimic the very ailments you are worried about. the most effective way to combat your problem is to do research on the symptoms and make a step by step to combat the fear, such as your identity issues. You may need a change of your normal routine to allow yourself to grow past your rut. are you afraid of changing for the worst and that keeps you in a state of inertia?
>>82887208>>in my early 20sno
>>82887668a lot of things have kept me stuck in inertia, but a big one is actually the opposite of what you said: i instead am afraid of becoming a better and healthier person, because ive learned to accept dysfunction as integral to who i am, and if i was to accept normalcy i feel like my entire sense of familiarity and security is destroyed. my own dysfunction ironically keeps me safe for the most part, at least in my eyes, not in an objective way. hypochondria sucks though id do anything to be rid of that specifically without any care
>>82887710well since you have a serious problem with your sense of self maybe you could use it to your advantage. Try depersonalizing yourself from your worries and reply to them like the average 4chan poster but in your own mind. "lol are you really worried about that?, what a fag" this will either do nothing, something positive or awaken a new fetish. result may vary
