My life was ruined because of my nightmarish father. Who was an schizophrenic, alcoholic, extremely volatile and violent piece of shit. He beat me almost to death when I was 9 years old. JUST 9 YEARS OLD! He cheated on ym mother, made her life miserable, beat her too and was a literal demon. I was so afraid of him, when he came home, not even drunk or anything, that bny simpyl hearing his voice I peed my pants. Thats how terrified I was of him. After that point I was in a catatonic state for over 20+ years. Nothing achieved, no experiences made, nothing learned. I was in limbo. Literal limbo, because I couldnt figure out what happened to me until I was in my early 30s. An explosive cathartic release, of all the pain and suffering I endured, occured. I almost killed him and my family (and extended family) accued me of being a psychopath and violent one. It was so traumatic and painful, that it burned my soul and ego. Now its too late. Im just drifting away and no matter what I tried, what I did, it made everything worse. I stopped trying and I stopped caring years ago. I accepted that. It was my fate.
Lots of people are in hell too, we'll call them hell people, there is no hope.
>>82888423I still live with my mother and my father. Im getting disability benefits, because even the government and their therapists were horrfied when they heard about my story and life. They didnt even try to push me back into working. What they usually do, especially at my age. Imagine that, even the government gave me a lifelong disabiliy benefit. I never have to work again.My father is terrified of me now and cant do anything. Even too afraid to throw me out or call the police, because I would go violent again. He just hides away from me.I only surf the internet, play videogames and do things with my mother. Like cooking and going to the supermarket. I lost my friends over a decade ago and never saw them. I dont see anybody, since I never leave the house or meet anyone.
>>82888456Thats true. I never belived that up until I realized what happened to me. That movie and anime bullshit about "getting my life back" is just horseshit. Some people are born into Hell and there is no escape. You cant escape Hell, no matter how hard you try. It only lets you suffer even more, if you resist.
Well that's not good. I'm not going to stand for it. It's time for a walk, and to think about this dad and the other dads of the universe.
>>82888486I hope you are not suffering the same fate as I do. I do not wish that upon anybody. I would have rather lived only for 25 years and had a life worth living. I would trade whatever is left of my miserable life to live even a single decade like a real human being. But thats just a fantasy.
>>82888423>Waaah my dad beat me!>Waaah I'm suffering so much I don't care!>Waaah! Pay attention to me! Waaah!>Why is no one paying attention?>Better go on Reddit... shit, I got banned.>Better go on 4chin r9k (9k means 9,000)>Let's see... "None of you know my pain!">fucking brutal awesome. Let's see the replies.>Someone responded! Let me tell them how brutal my life is.>Surely, no other life is as brutal as mine. I win.>I feel good now. FUCKING FATHER! No one gives a shit about you. No one cares about your little sad life story.Your father didn't shackle you to a post, kept you in a cage all your life.You did that. You are the slaver who electively put a chain around your neck.You can blame your father for everything, but that lie is short lived. Want to seewho the real culprit of your misery is? Look in the mirror.YOU are the faggot in the story. The least you can do is own up to your faggotry.
>>82888423Shit man maybe you should fly far away from them
>>82888423No one cares dude.WHAM
>>82889738>>82889448>>82889358Why are all zoomers such low iq sociopaths
>>82888423yeah im 35 wizard and while i was never loved by my parents, i think my problem is just autism and shyness. if i wasnt autistic and a shy retard then id be different, even with unloving neglectful parentsbut i am that way, and so i suffer
>>82889754I mean this guy >>82889358 put a lot of effort into his post and he's right. As long as you're dwelling on something that happened 31 years ago, you will be a slave to the memory of your father. All the sympathy you get from anonymous strangers won't change anything, it'll make you feel a tiny tinge of validation for five minutes and that's it.Fuck the distant past. You're 40 so things from 30 years ago should start to be blurring away. You can't quite remember what you looked like then, can you? Can't quite remember what shows you used to watch in 1994, huh? Our brains are very fallible when it comes to long-term details so after ruminating on what happened for so long it probably evolved into something even worse than it was.Let it go. Let your shit ass evil father go too. Fuck it all and move forward or get ready to make this post again next week and the week after... ad nauseam
