I'm 39 years old. I didn't get a gf until I was 35, I delivered food to my 33yo neighbour then asked her out. I broke up with my her after 2yrs after yelling at her teenage daughter about sneaking guys in (it was a rule we discussed not to be broken). She left, and then went into hard drugs. Recently after a year, we talked again and she came over, stayed the night sleeping with me. But she was lying to me to provoke reactions, telling me she was getting raped and sold because we broke up. I started getting angry at her because of this, because it became ridiculous - she said she was raped the night I dropped her off after she came over, then asked me to drive her to the hospital to get rape testing done at 11am for a 2pm appointment... and I was like "ok, 2pm? got it" and messaged her next at 1:30pm "are you ready?" and she backed out with excuses.When she stayed the night, in 1 year it was apparent she lost almost all her weight, she is bones now. I was almost crying while I was holding her at night at what she was now.Recently I've been creeping her trying to find out if she's still alive. She updated her FB with a ton of public pictures, with like 3-4 different guys kissing her and everything. It just kind of hit me that she's gone.I never took pictures with her. I never got to take her anywhere, but sometimes at home we would just hug for an entire hour on the patio, just lots of silent pleasant time together. It was the only time I got to experience women. There's a million things i want to say to this girl, but basically she loves drugs and white niggers more than me.If you ever get a woman in your arms you like, maybe hold on a bit more.
>>82890390>Dating a woman who has kidsHard pass.>If you ever get a woman in your arms you like, maybe hold on a bit more.Naw. Quit holding onto trash.
>>82890390Nice copypasta bro maybe you can make up some more shit next time though it's getting kind of stale
>>82890390>anon's first love is a fat white trash 33 year old single mom who probably has BPDthat is grim
>>82890400You are trying to make me feel better.But I've had weird class issues my whole life. I'm an honorable proper reliable man with morals and I've tried to do the right things. Middle class doesn't accept me and I don't accept the lower class. So I don't meet women that hold a job or act like housewives or anything. You guys know this just as well as I do that it's nearly impossible to find a woman that's good. >>82890416Yes. She did have BPD. They all do.I couldn't save her. You know that meme? I couldn't fix her.
>>82890416most loser's first and probably only love is a bpd girl cause they're very easy to get into a relationship with when they're in their manic phase. then the depression hits and they wanna destroy everything. the only thing you can do is support them through the truly shitty shit and forgive shit that is really unforgivable to be able to "keep" them but they'll always betray you in ways that will follow you the rest of your life especially if you stay with them.it's up to the person to figure out if it's worth it to have a physical connection.
>>82890438>I couldn't save her. You know that meme? I couldn't fix her.I understand all too well. But you cannot fix those who do not wish to be fixed. BPD women tend to have thousands of reasons and justifications for being the way they are. They don't think there is a problem to fix, in fact, YOU'RE their problem for making them feel emotions!I really hate that shit where they make you responsible for their internal state
>>82890492Yeah, the whole time this has been going on, the scales have been heavily skewed in her favor.When she was staying the night she was basically telling me we would have been happy if I didn't make her leave. I stood adamantly that I was right in everything I did (yell at and escort a window jumper out the door, don't let druggies teenagers flop in our home) because of her body's condition and also her daughter got pregnant months after they left. Everything is destroyed by her decisions and she's basically saying everything happened because of me.
>>82890390>33yowowi just dont understand how anyone can seriously look at some ran through busted 33 year old roastie can think "i want to be in a relationship with you"id rather die alone, as a wizard myselfsorry but i just cant degrade myself to emotionally be with chad's used up cumdump
>>82890578First gf. Prior to her I've slept with 30+ women. I just slept with sluts and prostitutes, Craigslist and all. I lost my virginity to a 4channer when I was 25, but we lived in other countries. I never just got to live with a woman and make her breakfast at the same time. Until then. It's just little coexisting things, hugging her by the fridge. I genuinely worked for this girl on a day to day basis and it suddenly disappeared.She was from my generation. It's harder and harder the younger you go to get a proper connection. She was through some shit so she was strong. Basically I just lost her cuz her daughter is a bitch. I feel so ripped off.
>>82890558It's truly tragicNo matter how well intentioned you are, you're always the bad guy in their minds. They demonize you for making sound decisions. You're evil if you try to reign in their self destructive behaviors.If you care, you're tortured emotionally. I try to see the BPD people for what they really are. Deeply traumatized people with horrible childhoods. They're not demons, they're not evil. They're just really, really fucked up mentally.People can heal from BPD, but they have to recognize that there's a problem in the first place and seek therapy for it. But most aren't that self aware to seek help themselves. They just think they're normal and everyone else is the problem.
>>82890400>Dating a woman who has kids>Dating a woman older than 25>Dating a woman with a badly raised kid>Dating a woman who does drugs>Dating a woman who has facebookthere's a lot more red flags that op missed
>>82890662Anon there is so many silly battles I fought for this girl.We fought and I owned everything and she was refusing to uphold basic rules (druggy came in and stole things). I took the bed and put it in the living room and told her to sleep on the floor until she was ready to have a proper home. Then she proceeded to buy a $700 mattress, I gave her $500. I ended up sleeping in the living room for 6 months, we never made up from that argument and she still wouldn't let me sleep in a proper room even though I was paying half rent on a 2 bedroom. The bedroom argument came up every week because I was losing sleep and the relationship was getting worse. Then she started threatening me with "me and my daughter are going to couch surf to save for a car" cuz the daughter just got her license and I wouldn't let her drive my vehicle (it's a work truck I need for work not crashed by a druggy).Everything was so fucked the entire time and that was my only relationship. And I actually still love her. Gay as fuck.
>>82890390>If you ever get a woman in your arms you like, maybe hold on a bit more.Too late for that, I already fucked up two
Sorry for your loss, OP, but it sounds like this girl was going down the path of self-destruction with or without your influence in her life. You can't save people like that, friends or lovers. If you try, they'll just drag you down into hell with them. I get being alone sucks. Trust me I get it. But this was never going to last.
