I've been escortcelling since 18 and after 2 or 3 times the novelty wore off, however I had unpaid sex for the first time this summer and it was as awkward as you'd expect - didn't know how to do foreplay, tried to stick my dick in when she was still dry because I was used to escorts just lubing themselves up etc but it was still the most magical experience of my adult life.She said afterwards that we should do it again but it just fizzled out and never happened because I was autistic. Now since June i've been in the worst depression ever, I quit my job and university and i'm a full-time NEET. I just can't take this loneliness anymore. One woman loving and caring about me is all it would take to cure me from this misery. I hate the gaslighters who said it's not that big of a deal, it's literally everything if you don't have it.
>>82892283forgot to mention I had unpaid sex for the first time at 24.
How do you even get a woman to have sex with you in the first place? It sounds like a fairy tale to me.
>>82892292in my case it was my friend's roommate. She was getting flirty with me, called me handsome and stuff so I asked her out for drinks. Afterwards we went back to the house, stayed up late watching netflix and eventually she asked me to go up to the bedroom. I've had close calls before, even ended up in bed with a girl from a hotel room but the sex never happened. I never know what to do when girls approach me.https://archive.4plebs.org/pol/thread/469212751/
>>82892306So if you don't know any women that you are simply fucked okay I get it.
>>82892365well now that i'm done with uni I just go solo clubbing and I get approached by women pretty frequently but it never goes beyond a bit of making out.
>>82892283women are willing to date violent murderous criminals for sex and men are willing to sacrifice all their hard earned money for sex. don't let anyone fool you that it isn't a big deal. it's only "not a big deal" if you have constant access to it.
It sounds as though you have few sources of validation in your life and now using the validation of sex with a willing woman as a cure all for your woes. I would instead suggest learning self validation, or at least going out and being useful in the real world somehow. Not only will it help you feel better, but it will dramatically increase your likelihood of meeting someone worthy of forming a relationship with.
>>82892381Does that work if you are a sub 8 man who is shy?
>>82892416being shy is the main cause of inceldom so no. I'm shy too which is why i'm no where near as successful as I should be. >>82892414thanks but sounds like meaningless buzzwords to me. What is "self validation"? sounds like delusion to me.
>>82892535Well then I am fucked since I am shy.
>>82892283Humblebragging faggots like this should be forced to post their faces on catbox
Where do you even meet escorts nowadays?
>>82892629I'm in the UK so I just use a website and go to their apartments.
>>82892535>being shy is the main cause of inceldom so no. I'm shy too which is why i'm no where near as successful as I should be. Nope. Shyness is just a symptom of your ugliness which is the real and only cause of inceldom. It makes sense for an ugly man to be shy because the world will treat you like shit and no one will want to interact with you, thus, shyness.
>>82893289No, retard, I regularly have girls and fags approaching me to tell me i'm good looking, buy me drinks, go on dates with me etc. I just never manage to get past making out except for this summer when she herself invited me to go up to have sex. Foids don't give a shit about a man's looks for the most part, it's just you projecting your homo tendencies.
>>82893518>No, retard, I regularly have girls and fags approaching me to tell me i'm good looking, buy me drinks, go on dates with me etc. I just never manage to get past making out except for this summer when she herself invited me to go up to have sex. Sorry that means you are ugly. If women think you're hot, they will stop at nothing to fuck you. I had an actually good looking male friend years ago and the amount of outright sexual assault, in public, with witnesses, that women commit towards really hot dudes would blow your mind. Generally at least one or two women approached him every day when we were walking between classes and outright asked for sex immediately.>Foids don't give a shit about a man's looks for the most part, it's just you projecting your homo tendencies.t. ugly man. Cope.
>>82893627>Sorry that means you are ugly. If women think you're hot, they will stop at nothing to fuck you. I had an actually good looking male friend years ago and the amount of outright sexual assault, in public, with witnesses, that women commit towards really hot dudes would blow your mind. Generally at least one or two women approached him every day when we were walking between classes and outright asked for sex immediately.Wrong, you're not speaking from experiences. Like every other shitskin blackpiller you don't know what you're talking about. I've had women that paid for a taxi back to the hotel after talking about sex the entire night. You're projecting your subhumanity onto others.>>82893627>t. ugly man. Cope.What do I have to cope about, retard? I'd love it if the world was fair and it was the actual good looking men that got the most pussy. That would mean the world is fair. Instead good pussy is wasted on subhuman boneless manlets and even shitskins. I'd love it if only your imaginary boyfriend Chad got pussy.
>>82893705Did they sexually assault you? If not, then you are actually ugly. Women can't control themselves around Chad.>What do I have to cope about, retardBelieving that "Foids don't give a shit about a man's looks for the most part". All you need to do in order to see how dumb that idea is is to go and hang out with an actually attractive man for a few hours. Women actually care FAR more about looks than men do because, to a woman, your appearance is your personality and your morality.
>>82893743>Did they sexually assault you? If not, then you are actually ugly. Women can't control themselves around Chad.more like you can't control your bussy juices around Chad. And yes, they have. It doesn't take a Chadderino to get that, just an above average guy. >>82893743>Believing that "Foids don't give a shit about a man's looks for the most part". All you need to do in order to see how dumb that idea is is to go and hang out with an actually attractive man for a few hours. Women actually care FAR more about looks than men do because, to a woman, your appearance is your personality and your morality.Wrong again, I literally see them with shitskin subhuman manlet turks. It's absolutely bewildering what kinds of subhuman creatures modern women fuck. It's mind-boggling and I fucking hate it because I couldn't imagine raising and paying for a daughter for 20 years only for her holes to get used by these -10/10 genetic wastes. If looks actually mattered as much as blackpill homosexuals said they did, i'd be fucking happy lmao.
>>82893769>Wrong again, I literally see them with shitskin subhuman manlet turks.Sure, and they are called customers. But you can be assured that the woman doesn't want to be around the man. Just because women are selling access to their sexuality to these men doesn't mean they actually desire the man.
I can't afford to escortcel. Abdl, gfd, and mommy-dommes all want insane rates to the point that it is no contest, it makes more sense to keep trying to get a gf and coax her into fulfilling some of the fantasies. They all live far away too and I don't have the benefit of pornrot and typical interests or connections with the pervert community. Maybe they are just trying to demonstrate broad versatility but 99% of the stuff dommes offer I'm not interested in. So that means before we could even begin there's the back and forth getting to know each other, what we're looking for, and the absolute don'ts. I probably can't even articulate half of this so it would take many sessions until everything is fine tuned. I'd want it once or twice a week, if we figure it is going to be $1,000 minimum each time on top of the inconvenience of scheduling and the fact it's just a service provider/client relationship, this isn't feasible without tapping into investments. I will continue to seek my unicorn.She gets to be a stay at home wife and be spoiled. All she has to do is be nice to me, let me suck on tiddies, put me in a diaper or give me a handjob now and then. Taking turns reading fairy tales or together bath time.Probably will have to turdworldmaxx. If anything the language barrier will be an advantage for mommyplay. If she's poor and I'm paying all costs and allowing a higher quality of life she might find the idea of being nice to me, cooking, and cleaning to at least be tolerable instead of loathsome. That's probably the hardest part of the whole thing, after that it's a matter of gradually adding a new thing one at a time until I have a mommy.
>>82893957>Sure, and they are called customers. But you can be assured that the woman doesn't want to be around the man. Just because women are selling access to their sexuality to these men doesn't mean they actually desire the man.holy fuck you absolute dumbass, what are young teenage blondes selling? What are these shitskin FOB turks who are part time employees at a kebab stand buying? with what?Blackpill shitskin subhumans will find any way to cope with the fact that they're simply just weird autistic faggots that no one normal wants around them.
>>82894157>holy fuck you absolute dumbass, what are young teenage blondes selling?It's called the oldest profession for a reason. 99% of relationships between men and women are the woman selling sexual access to a man she finds repulsive because women find almost all men inherently repulsive because of their appearance. It's not that complicated. That's why human women evolved things like concealed ovulation, so they could have the man that disgusts them provide resources while Chad secretly provides the genes for her child.
>>82894188Honestly I can't tell if you're trolling or you're just a regular blackpill retard.These are rich white hs and college girls from upper class families with shitskin teenage turks on welfare. What kind of banana republic are you from where teenage girls are prostituting themselves to shitskins? US?
>>82892283No it would not cure you. I would know, I thought it would do it for me. NEVER let your happiness depend on another person, especially not a woman.
>>82894595drinking on weekends is not abuse
>>82894223>hitskin teenage turks on welfare.Do they wear gold?
>>82894815Not the ones i've seen. Not the teenage ones anyway.
>>82892283How tall are you OP? Just curiousorigami
>>82894867Height without geography is meaningless.
>>82894895He said he's in the UK. He just keeps saying he keeps being approached at clubs and being told he's handsome. I'm just curious if this is another scenario I can add to my heightpill mental list or if I can take it as a whitepill that it doesn't matter.t. 5'8 manlet currently suicidal over height
>>82894867184cm in the British Isles, women and guys who approach me usually compliment my face, my height is just a little above average, nothing special.
>>82894926>6 feetHeightpill will never be disproven
>>82894942Picrel disporves it.
>>82894942I'm telling you I get cucked by guys uglier and shorter than me all the time because they're NT normies while i'm the kind of guy you'd find posting here.The bitch I fucked told me she dated an ugly guy from work for 2 years because "he's a scumbag and i'm into that", meanwhile she had me saved as "*my name* hot" on her phone. I fucked her exactly once because she thought I was hot and he got her for 2 years because he has the typical badboy personality that foids want.
>>82894969>>82894953>>82894942btw I found the guy i'm 96% sure she was talking about on an old vsco of hers, I saw what he looked like next to her compared to how I look. He couldn't have been taller than 5'9 on top of being an ugly subhuman. And this foid i'm talking about is actually attractive.
>>82894969>>82894982Thanks anon, this does help me. I don't know why but past two weeks I'm borderline suicidal thinking about my height. This really is nice to read.
>>82894982>VscoAre you homosexual anon?
>>82894982come on. Dont leave us hanging. Might as well show us the photo and add some filters or paint so we cant reverse search to not doxx them
>>82895181It's her vsco, ESL jeet.>>82895223Did it before when I posted on lookism, they still found the account.
More proof of your 6 feet tall you can't be and incel, thread hidden
>>82892283Had the good stuff once in my life but got separated by the jew flu and it all went to shit. Nearing 6 years of constant unending withdrawal and the worst part is that im being mocked by life with everyone around me getting lucky. Virgin incels beware, either have regular access to sex or die without experiencing it.
>>82895233then post just the guy and put some sepia filter over the pic or something
>>82895234nothing to do with my 2 inch at best above average height
>>82895254>Virgin incels beware, either have regular access to sex or die without experiencing it.exactly, getting it and then having it taken away is the worst feeling ever.
>>82894926So you are that motherfucker who was always higher than me in all social gatherings and stole all my girls.And i was even more pathetic. I had such guy in high school class, he was 3 inches highter and hit puberty like 2 years before me. I was looking up at him as male role model imitating his mannerism (we we semi close he had similar thoughts but i didn't have his mens' body), only practical male role model i had.Its was so cringe looking back at me. And i never stood i chance trying to be like him i was just a punching bag for him and his likes to mogging me in front of girls.
>>82892283>Now since June i've been in the worst depression ever, I quit my job and university and i'm a full-time NEETThe cure for this is finding another woman to treat you the same way. You're probably still pining over her, just know that those feelings wash away once you've got someone new to focus on. Oh, by the way. The suicidal ideation hits hard if you can't pull it off within a decade. I'd get moving if I were you.
>>82894982I'm not sure whether to be depressed or...have hope because of this? I'm 5'10" and pretty decent looking for a brownie, almost white-passing. Think Kit Harrington. I've had experiences where women call me extremely attractive, but nothing happened. Idk what to do lmao
>>82892283autistic people don't experience loneliness.
>>82895432>It has nothing to do with me being tallKek you really are a normalfag now grats
I'm a good looking autistic dude, and I have a pretty good eye for taking good photos of myself. Really good success on getting matches on dating apps, but when it comes to talking / the first date, I fumble. I have probably over a hundred matches on tinder alone in the past 3 months but I've only kissed two women and no further. Being shy/awkward is the WORST thing you can be as a man. High inhib men just don't get women.
>>82895522>The cure for this is finding another woman to treat you the same way. You're probably still pining over her, just know that those feelings wash away once you've got someone new to focus on.Nah, the way I met her was perfect, it won't happen again since i'm done with uni now and have nowhere to meet women anymore. >>82895697I'm not tall, retard, i'm 2 inches above average. It's not even noticeably above average.>>82895709>Being shy/awkward is the WORST thing you can be as a man. High inhib men just don't get women.Exactly. It'll fuck you much harder than not being le 6'2 or having a diamond jaw. Nothing dries up a foid like a man who doesn't give off the aura of a man who gets pussy.
>>82895794It's never going to get better you should kill yourself and your parents for birthing you
>I get approached by women pretty frequentlyGet the fuck out.
>>82895898if you read the thread you'd see I only had unpaid sex once.
>>82895794Privilege BTFO
>>82892283it's not that big of a deal thougheverbeit
>>82895794>it won't happen again since i'm done with uni now and have nowhere to meet women anymore.I felt the same way, but the feelings did wash away when I was able to replace them. Your biology will laser focus on whichever woman will potentially be carrying your offspring.I'm not kidding about the suicidal ideation, by the way. It will creep up on you and you will be miserable without a replacement. You will feel like you are dying, because genetically speaking you are.
>>82892414self validation doesn't work, unless you're able to completely isolate yourself from the world and stay sustained. if you live and participate in modern basedciety, you have no choice but to receive your validation from others. it doesn't matter how well off you are in life, if you don't have a gf or wife you'll be treated as some type of weirdo and you'll eventually start feeling depressed about it.
>>82892283Bro if you liked "real" sex this much even with all the fumbling, just imagine how much you will like it when you actually get to learn how to do shit and get bitches moaning with each thrust, whispering your name. Learn about the clot and the g and a spots in the vagina and how to use your penis angle in bed. Highly worth it. Get outta of bed and go to parties nigga.
>>82892535>What is "self validation"?Doing things that make you proud of yourself. Stuff like accomplishing your personal goals and doing good things according to your values. It isn't meaningless buzzwords or delusion. It's the fundamental building block to healthy and grounded positive self esteem and stable mental health. >>82896698That is a absurd take that doesn't even make any sense. You don't seem to understand much of anything about anything.
