I am cheating on a hot girl who's virginity I took and who loves me dearly. I'm not cheating on her with other dudes, but I am like 90% gay and the only reason I'm with her is for validation. I've only truly been infatuated with other guys. I'm 20 and she's 19. She once started singing, gently and to herself, Lady Gaga's Paparazzi and it made me realize how innocent she was - and I felt horrible for a day, but then the remorse in my heart evaporated on its own and I'm back to playing her without a care in the world.Before her, I had been dumped by a BPD girl that I was semi-infatuated with and I wanted to revenge myself on another girl for how she treated me like. Now, I've almost stopped caring about my ex and I'm realizing that I'm playing this girl for no good reason.
>>82895373stop being gay and realize that love comes from the act of giving and not taking. having this vampiric mentality will send your immortal soul to eternal torment, trapped in a collapse of its own evil
