Tell me, why do I see literal creatures, things that barely look like humans live in a couple, but I am continuously denied my birthright.It's how they look, actual freakshows, deformed heads mishappen body, dwarves even, overweight difrom mass of flesh. I've seen how they dress clad in the cheapest, plainest mismatched clothes and yet those creatures are allowed to partake in love. But nooo, I am denied what's mine because what? I've got a stern look?You can't make me believe these things actually love each other, what would they even talk about? Does exchanging eternally about the same mundane and boring topic eternally is what passes as love nowadays? Or is it because they're that vapid it actually works because they don't notice anything is amiss? I want passion, I want love, I want another warm body to hold.Sometimes I feel like as a non native english speaker I have more success with foreign women because I'm just more talkative in english? Like yes they are still retarded and painfully boring but at least there is the intrigue of me speaking a language I actually enjoy speaking and not my godforsaken native language, so I have an interest in speaking to you because I'm using you, and I'm not talking to you merely because it is a chore I need to go through in order to fulfill my biological imperative my body yearns to finally achieve.
Still this is obviously none of the things I'd say in a normal conversation. In fact I pretend to be quite agreable, decent, proper, jovial. Meanwhile in all honesty I'm just thinking how badly I want to rape you, or torture you, I'm analysing your facial features trying to understand what makes you attractive me the shape, the ratio, I see your imperfections. Killing is honestly not that interesting like have you seen dead people? They all look the bloody same even when beheaded/stoned to death/ legs blown up, just the same closed relaxed face like they're at peace or something, honestly it offends me. Feels like only someone who's like burning alive, will have a face that retains some expression of pain because the fire might have charred the face fast enough for it to be stuck in a screaming pose but sadly it also means there won't be that much of a face to look at. Like see that's something interesting to talk and ponder about. But if I'm being honest every second spent living is joy because I know someone else died, someone else is now rotting under the dirt, and I live for this it's a reminder that in spite of the chore y'all make me go through you are dying slowly but surely, all born with an expiration date, and all I've gotta do is just keep living.But this whole act I put on is it because people can see through it like some skinwalker type shit, is it what scares away the hoes?Some of my countrymen can think me weird (I was told explicitely, because of my english accent they've never questioned the act. ) and english speakers just fall for the act so ehh?
The obvious answer to all this is of course: just hire a whore but unfortunately I am in one of those damn "civilised" countries where the client risks more than the whore, and frankly I can hardly be bothered to learn the different circuits or proper channels in order to get one that's legit. Like if it was as easy as: oh just go there senpai best whorehouse in the city. There it's settled my body is satisfied and I no longer have to pretend I even remotely care about women as in I no longer have to entertain them as "thinking", "alive" or "humans", I just get to be myself, and honestly, I'm not that bad just the real me is just a bit of a cunt really.Sometimes when you're stuck it's always good to stop and ask, what do I want?
>>82897442>>82897462>schizo rambling about how you "deserve" x and "deserve" yNo wonder women don't like you. You don't deserve anything, chud. Women don't owe you sex. If you go outside and see "creatures" with girlfriends, maybe it's time you realize you're just an asshole and a loser and that's why you get no pussy.
>>82897462>>82897442hory shit how boring thanks for putting me to sleep
>>82897479Nonsense, we can't run away from our biological purpose forever. We are made to reproduce. A gun is made to shoot. Such is our purpose, it will happen regardless.
