Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportfox hooni edition again because it's too cute Hello>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
>>82921910Stupid femboy be mine.
hiiHere's a bunch of helpful links> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7> first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/> wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic>a bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
>>82921910hiya>>How are you doing today?struggling, but carrying on>>Any plans for today?lay in bed, read manga, watch anime, pace deliriously for hours>>When was the last time you hurt yourself?im the guy from before who hit 1 year clean recently>>Why did you hurt yourself?i was so depressed that i wanted to die daily>>Is there anything bothering you right now?im getting so unbelievably depressed again, its driving me crazy. ive been trying to distract myself but it keeps failing mroe and more. i can feel myself becoming a couch potato and losing enjoyment in doing things. im really struggling to hold on.
I went to a mall arcade that I didn't know existed. Played some Hatsune Miky rhythm game and one of those dance games for like an hour, before playing a claw machine for a Pochita plushie. I'm feeling really drowsy, but still will try to do leg day.>>82921910hey cat! How's it going?>>82914656Didn't reply to this yesterday in fact because I was trying to defuse a situation with her, but it's calmed now.I hear you on the you don't owe someone just because they helped you, but I'm trying to figure out a way to at least calm things down so I'm not constantly getting put down and pushed around. Hard time with someone who's nice enough of the time, but horrible the rest.
>>82921956hi anonymous Toga posterI have mixed feelings about MHA. It's all right, but just never got into much. But liked her character a bit, anything particularly bothering you? I don't think I replied last time you posted, so sorry if you already talked about it.>ive been trying to distract myself but it keeps failing mroe and more.Sort of the hard part. Is there anything you're doing that you feel always helps? Or is it everything in general just feels less and less?
>>82922079Is spoiler not working am I just stupid and can't 4chan today?
>>82922079mha really isnt that good. i just have an affinity for the toga, since her thing is cutting people and liking blood lol. i guess whats bothering me is that im gonna be 25 in a couple months but i still just get so depressed like this, and have these months long episodes of "nobody understands me" "everyone is so fake" "im so alone" ect and go on and off cutting myself and thinking of suicide. like when i was a teenager it was easy to romanticise at least but its just embarrassing at this point in my life where im supposed to have my shit together. i get like this every so often and have done so for the greater part of 10 years now. sometimes it lasts months sometimes years
hello everyone!>>82921910hello cat! hru??how was your day?>How are you doing today?not really badbut something stupid happened in the morningso, i was in the class, and decided to say smthn "funny" to the teacher, i thought it'd be a good idea, i saw other people doing it and everything was okaywell that didn't age well, she got mad and started saying bad things to me overall, in front of everyone, i suppose she got it wrong, i suppose she thought i was criticizing her way of teachingit was kinda embarrassing and GOD she pissed me off, especially how i had to explain thingsand that's it, i'm never saying anything unnecessary to her again, that's what i got when i decided not to isolate myself this week xd>>82921956welcome anon!>struggling, but carrying onthat's the soul!>im the guy from before who hit 1 year clean recentlyoh i remember you! good job mate, good job!>im really struggling to hold on.that's really tiring matei have a question, put things that distract you aside for a bit, instead, what are the things that make you feel depressed? maybe you could find somewhat of a solution knowing this>>82922016officeanon! how are you?>but still will try to do leg dayleg day after dance games? this gotta be tiring, good luck!>but it's calmed nowdon't worry about not replying, i hope defusing it wasn't that hard>to figure out a way to at least calm things down so I'm not constantly getting put down and pushed aroundi think that's what you gotta do to atleast make things better yet without cutting the relationship, got any ideas for that right now? wanna talk about it?>Hard time with someone who's nice enough of the time, but horrible the rest.i feel you, can't just get away from this kind of person easily, i wish you good luck with this problem
>>82921956Hello anon >struggling, but carrying onkeep it up soldier o7you're doing well!>read manga, watch anime, pace deliriously for hourssounds greatwell that pacing part doesn't, does it bother you or eo you do it to calm yourself down?also what anime r ya watching?>1 year clean recentlygood job woo :D>unbelievably depressed againwhat's depressing you?>been trying to distract myselfsounds like you're getting bored of your usual copes>>82922016Heya>Hatsune Miky rhythmwoa! that sounds cool ^^>really drowsy, but still will try to do leg day.r u sure about it?maybe miku trained your legs enough ?>How's it going?just chilling :3
>>82922188>mha really isnt that goodfull agreement there. I literally dropped the anime at the whole traitor part near the end, just couldn't do it anymore>"nobody understands me" "everyone is so fake" "im so alone"i think a lot of these to a degree. I know I do at times even if it's not that accurate. Thing is, no one gets any other person completely, but people can get bits and pieces of people. It seems nice, but most relationships are fairly superficial in a lot of ways and you notice it more the harder you focus on people interacting. >embarrassing at this point in my life where im supposed to have my shit together. I'm older than you even by a bit and I have moments I feel like I don't have it together still at times too. I've come to question what having it together really means, I don't think most people do, they just don't think of it and drown out the thoughts that cause trouble. You have anything you're proud of about your life right now?
>>82922294>good job mate, good job!thank you, i really appreciate that!>what are the things that make you feel depressed?by far the things i feel the worst about are the passage of time and the longing for the past and knowing things wont be the same. my life was very rough growing up and i finally broke out of it a few years ago. but ever since then its just kinda felt like "for what?" i have no friends, im socially awkward, and there was no grand celebratory ending for my suffering. i still just awkwardly laze around thinking about old stuff and missing people who hate me or died a while ago. i have no friends or family in my daily life and my interaction since about 18 almost exclusively consists of r9k on and off lol>>82922303>sounds like you're getting bored of your usual copesyeah haha, idk what else to do tho. also hi cat o/>>82922344>You have anything you're proud of about your life right now?mostly just the thing from above. my environment was rough growing up, and i was homeless for a while between age 19-22. also that thing you said about not many people "having it together" did help me calm down a bit, so thank you lol.
>>82922378>mostly just the thing from aboveoops, i meant *escaping fro the situation i was in
>>82922294hey rm! I'm doing all right thanks! Just taking it slow now>it was kinda embarrassingit happens. Don't beat yourself up too hard. I've experience most teachers/educators are fairly uptight and unpleasant to deal with. Not to bad mouth too many people at once, but I don't think most people who's lives are going great teach.>decided not to isolate myself this week maybe just don't isolate self from people who aren't teachers>leg day after dance games? ah wasn't that strenuous. Though just a little wobbly. I only do leg day once a week, so I have to do it>got any ideas for that right now? wanna talk about it?I don't have anything, but I also have time. For now, think I'll just relax and try my best not to worry about it.>i wish you good luck with this problemthanks, i need it for sure, but will be all right>>82922303>that sounds cool It was fun lol I like these kinds of games, but don't play them much. Feel like the staff were amused by me playing it lol>r u sure about it?ah like i said above, i'm fine. My leg day isn't that intense. I just look for excuses to skip. I need to keep it up since I'm always going to look comically lopsided if I don't.>just chillingwhat I'm up to now. Might play a game in a little bit though.
>>82922378>passage of time and the longing for the past and knowing things wont be the sametell me about it. I'm 31. Few years ago, felt like I missed out on too much stuff and just can't make up and do what I want out of life. But am still finding ways to. Even circumstances for you or different, you're not even really old yet. Under 30 is still not a bad place to be, so don't worry.>i have no friends or familytough spot to be in. For what it's worth, always welcome to come chat here. Know it's not a good substitute for real world friends, but I consider people here real friends even if it's just online>homeless for a while between age 19-22.That sounds painfully hard, especially that young and sorry to hear that. Can't imagine, but another thing to be proud that you made it through that, despite how awful it must be. I say sometimes I went through stuff that probably should have been the death of me or caused me to break and off myself, but never did so that's something>did help me calm down a bitAnd glad to hear! Honestly, we compare ourselves against what's ideal, most people fail.
>>82922294helloo helo >hru??I just chilled and worked on the uni project a little bit >mad and started saying bad things:< sorry to hear that but that's how it is sometimes, try to not let it bother you fren, it just happens and did anything nice happened?>>82922378>yeah haha, idk what else to do tho. alsohmmm maybe you could play some games you haven't played before or watch movies from a different genre than what you're used to?but maybe that depressive period is unavoidable and you have to feel a bit worse to get better again >hi cat o/eyo>>82922503>like these kinds of gamesI've never seen ofe of those here :/>staff were amused by me playing it lolI'm sure they're used to it>always going to look comically lopsided if I don't.hm okayy thenbut don't overdo it>Might play a game in a little bit though.good what game?
Every time I see fresh cuts on her I get really worried. How worried should I be?
>>82922730>but I consider people here real friends even if it's just onlineill be sure to start chatting here every so often, this is the 2nd or 3rd time ive jumped in. even when i was cutting every day i wasnt on here much. i appreciate the kindness... maybe i will make a trip just for this thread idk yet.
>>82922378>thank you, i really appreciate that!o7>i still just awkwardly laze around thinking about old stuffi see that's been so rough on you pal, i'm so sorry you faced all of thatbut isn't it a bit easier now that the old suffering is over? what are the possibilities of you to get out of your house and have any social connection with anyone? college? work?having a friend at your case can obviously make things different, so, can you try to overcome your social awkwardness for a few time at least so you can have some kind of actual social connection. loneliness can affect so hard on all of that, even if you break out of everything sad; loneliness could keep things hard on youi hope you overcome everything bad anon, good luck!>>82922503>I'm doing all right thanks! Just taking it slow nowglad to hear that!>unpleasant to deal with.yup, really, a lot of them>but I don't think most people who's lives are going great teach.this, too. sadly it doesn't seem like any controlling part in the system cares to fix this.given that this generation is full of social anxious kids and their -almost- only interaction is with teachers that don't seem to show enough sympathy; i believe big figures should be aware of this but i don't know if anyone cares there>maybe just don't isolate self from people who aren't teachersyeah maybe, but at the end a lot of people can cause strange feelings to me not only teachers but i'll see what i can/will do>ah wasn't that strenuous.... so I have to do itoh well that's nice, enjoy your workout!>For now, think I'll just relax and try my best not to worry about it.sure mate, take all the rest you need. you can talk about it whenever you want :)>but will be all righthopefully
>>82922759>I just chilled and worked on the uni project a little bitproductivity!! cool that you don't even need the virtual motivation now, i guess you're the smart one now :>>try to not let it bother you fren, it just happensthanks, yeah it happens>and did anything nice happened?hmmm, i talked with a classmate and had some fun, that was everything for todaypretty boring
dont even really understand the point of life anymore, same day everyday nothing gets better
>>82922772helloit depends on why she hurts herself have you talked about it with her?>>82922819>productivity!!\o/>guess you're the smart one now :>aww thank you :]but I don't think so considering I'll probably drop out because I can't pass a class>talked with a classmate and had some fun,that's something and do you have any fun plans for today?>>82923290yeah I agree with you it gets old how does your life look like?
>>82923828>I'll probably drop out because I can't pass a classthat doesn't decide whether you're smart or not, you can do it next year :]>and do you have any fun plans for today?not really, i'm heading to sleep soonguess i'll study a little bit then sleepwhat about you?
>>82922759>I've never seen ofe of those herei was surprised to find it here. Especially with all the anime and nerd stuff to be found in the claw machines. I'm think the demographics of where I live have shifted drastically and I don't really mind at all if it means I get stuff I like.>I'm sure they're used to itprobably some people, but you have to remember I stand out a lot from my size and also don't dress like vast majority of people who live here. Seeing a giant ass guy who looked like he wondered in from an office doing it's a bit funnier than a normal looking weeb xD>what game?persona 5. Just finished up. I got okay into it years ago, then dropped. Honestly, only game I ever finished was 3, but it's easier playing on pc for me>>82922789don't need to even cut to post here since most would discourage doing it. But always happy to chat, just let us know it's you since always hard to tell anons apart sometimes which I suppose why most started name posting.>>82922812>controlling part in the system cares to fix this.it's sad because in theory I like the idea of doing it, but it pays so poorly I couldn't justify pursuing a path doing that if I want to live an okay life and have a family one day, so I had to go after what pays better. Most people with options will sacrifice even doing something they enjoy for those options. Maybe some people who teach really do love it, just not sure I ever met one.> believe big figures should be awaresocially anxious kids can be lucrative if you try to sell them solutions later. People in charge love people being sick enough to exploit. Only need to be healthy enough to milk them dry.> i'll see what i can/will dotake it a day at time. Best you can do>enjoy your workout!thanks! Wasn't bad! But I swear, I can never tell if leg day is doing anything. I increase weight, but can't really notice much difference unlike upper body which is obvious
>>82923828>because I can't pass a classis this your first time on this? D: a lot of people struggle with one or two classes their time at school. I had to retake one and came back later and did better. Not sure that's an option or not
>>82923909>you can do it next year :]nopethis is the last semester if I don't pass, which is likely, I am not graduating ao there's no next yearI'm not sad about it, I really don't like this field desu but ya know other people will probably be mqd at my which will suckk>heading to sleep soon>guess i'll study a little bit then sleephope you sleep well!! and have nice dreams!!>study a little bit then sleepwoa so much studying >what about you?just gonna watch stuff on utube
hey everyone, i started cybepunk finally. wasted a lot of time in the character creator tho
>>82924235heyoo wassup?how does ur character look like??
>>82923981I forget that your education system is different there. Ignore my question before about retaking.. sorry>>82924235It doesn't matter a lot, but what life path did you choose? I like the corpo opening the best. Have fun though! really quite a lot fun, especially when you're just starting off and everything is new
>>82923981>no next year:<if you don't like the field then it might be better not giving it all the mental focus, but is there any other option after?>other people will probably be mad at me yeah people's opinions are annoying sometimes>sleep well and have nice dreamsthanks!! you 2i am a bit worried cuz i didn't study well but like in the back of my mind i know that i don't need to study more like everything is easy i can deal with it but i can't help with this overthinking :/dude it sucks, it's eating my brain up, im scared over nothing. i'd like to stay up and finish studying but i barely have 5 hours to sleep, and since i won't be able now to sleep quickly I'll have fewer hours.>gonna watch stuff on utubeenjoy! >>82923960>an okay life and have a family one day>not sure I ever met oneteaching is so beautiful and teachers should be known differently in socities BUT the way some countries suffer of some problems like the incorrect evaluation for some people is probably what makes teaching job a plan Z :/which yeah might lead into seeing mentally unstable teachers that produce mentally unstable kidsI heard that teaching in south korea is pretty much better, i heard that teachers there are like famous public figures and their salary is pretty high>not sure I ever met oneto be honest i think i did meet some, and yeah when you find someone that is actually enjoying teaching you might easily love his class>people being sick enough to exploitwhich is truly disgusting>can't really notice much differencehow long have you been doing leg exercises? maybe you didn't give it enough time?>>82924235yo chev, been a whilehow you doing?>cyberpunk finallyhow's the beginning going?
>>82924311no need to apologize >>82924369dw fren u are smart and you studied a lot I'm very sure you will do well and don't need to study any more and also all that studying can't help you when you're unable to say awake during class Just get under ur blanket, hug a pillow, think of comfy stuff and sleep well
>>82923960>don't really mind at all if it means I get stuff I like.why did it shift?>bit funnier than a normal looking weeb xDsounds like you need a disguise :o>persona 5.oo that one is good have fun !!
>>82924436thank you so much :)i really appreciate everything you saidgoodnight everyone
>>82924264wassup?nothing much, i think something is wrong with my graphics card tho. my fps is being tanked.>how does ur character look like??i tried to turn red flags into a person, picrel>>82924311>what life path did you choosestreetkid i think. the whole gangsta aspect seems pretty dope. i hope i don't fuck everything over tho.>>82924369hey rem>how you doing?eh alright ig. i stripped the paint of my minatures.>how's the beginning going?laggy and i have no idea why. i think my pc is using my internal graphics card instead of the 4090 and idfk why
I'm gonna go sllepgood nyaght frens
>>82924369> incorrect evaluationunfortunately everything in education today is geared towards making everyone good workers. Education is shit, teachers aren't respected, and we don't care about things that matter as much as how good of worker bee you are.>I heard that teaching in south korea is pretty much bettereast asia in general considers education to be very respectable to a degree deeply ingrained in the culture(Confucianism and all that). Not sure how well this holds up in the traditional sense since know it's very corporate friendly there this day and age. Would be interesting ask one of the koreans I know their thought, a lot of Chinese and Vietnamese I know are still very traditionally minded, just think Korea is a bit less so. >how long have you been doing leg exercises?good question.. Not sure now that I think of it. I've been lifting seriously for over 3 years now. But legs weren't focus as much as upper body till I thought I should give more focus. Still only one day a week, as opposed to me working out other parts of my body at least once a day, so really still not as focused with that.>>82924436>no need just feel sorry since know you've been working hard if you don't feel like it sometimes
>>82924457>why did it shift?Sort of an awkward question to answer, but a lot of things.. immigration, people moving out of the big city parts, and quite frankly white people moving away. I go out now I'd say minority of people around are white. I feel like white people in America who are more traditional American valued don't really care for Asian stuff so milk tea, anime stuff, etc isn't very popularly in demand and harder to find stores for, but now there's more Asians than I remember in the past and other groups that are more open to it. Can see this very clearly when traveling across the US to more further inland states.>sounds like you need a disguiseI think it's funnier this way if I just keep showing up to the arcade looking more and more formal. >that one is goodi think I played it first time when I got my first job which was very bad timing lol>>82924564goodnight rm, talk later>>82924588>turn red flags into a personlooks like one of the girls from the one gang in the game that runs the club you always go to. My character was a normal looking dude with a samurai hat and katana as I roleplayed a weeb swordsman>gangsta aspect seems pretty dopethe gangs are pretty cool designs, but just wish they did more with them. Really no faction system like I wished>don't fuck everything over tho.pretty forgiving game, so don't worry.>>82924882gn cat!
