anyone else had their kindness and joy and whimsy beaten out by the world? aka late blooming autism. i used to just be myself and do the things i liked, wanted to just be nice to other, but got utterly rejected by others, mocked relentlessly in school and by my family. and of course got constantly taken advantage of. nowadays i try to keep it as normal and attract as little attention, and don't really go out of my way for others, prioritizing myself and people i care about
>>82949115>anyone else had their kindness and joy and whimsy beaten out by the world?They got beaten out of me (in the literal sense) by a relative, actually. Then school finished the job.
>>82949115100% how it was for me. Bullied relentlessly in high school, and then after high school there was a phase of relief thinking the "real world" was so much better, only to slowly learn how awful people can still be even after high school and it got worse and worse.
>>82949115i feel like it has happened, but now im fighting for it and it's slowly coming back. though i do feel completely apatetic still a lot of the time.
>>82949115you think its autism?
