randomly remembering i had plans to run off with a 32 year old man at 16
>>82956549Lol dumb bitch. Glad you still have that cringe memory haunting you. Women are so stupid.
>>82956549Well why didn't you? It would have been sick.
>>82956549You just barely dodged being kidnapped, raped and murderedWhat a fucking moron
>>82956549average bpdemon behavior
>>82956549You and every other 16 year old woman.
Didnt that Miyoko girl actually do this?
i'm a 32 year old man and my 16 year old fembot is going to move in with me when she turns 18 because she's getting abused by her single mom.
he was the only man who could ever love you
>>82956688no miyoko just went to hotels to bang 30 yo dudes but didn't move in with any not sure if she has now that she is an adultbee did kind run off and move in with her 30 yo bf but her mother knew or didn't care so it wasn't really a run off
>>82956709It truly did feel like that. I just miss the feeling of security and love I felt with him
>>82956549>randomly remembering i had plans to run off with a 32 year old man at 16foids do this shit then when they're 32 seethe about some guy doing the same shit
>>82956698mine BPD sabotaged our relationship and ever since she's just been slipping deeper and deeper into BPD chaos, skipping college classes and becoming increasingly more drug addled and less stable... it's really hard to watch but she made it clear she doesn't want my help so there's nothing I can do
>>82956742mine is kinda self destructive but when it makes sense when her home life sucks so much and she's getting bullied in school. The day she turns 18 I'm taking a road trip and bringing her and all her shit up here to live with me. It's gonna be better for her up here because I'm gonna give her more respect than her family ever did.
>>82956765>>82956765anon please be careful, don't underestimate how badly she can hurt you
>>82956658because hes mobmoneyoverbitches
>>82956732why did you throw it away nonny
>>82956765anon you are such a dumb fuck
>>82956732>It truly did feel like that. I just miss the feeling of security and love I felt with himdont you have a world of your own to live in
>>82956808Because he never truly cared about me, no matter what he said. He was a grown ass man and I was a lonely, dumb kid that didnt realize he was preying on my innocence until he blocked me
>>82956886holy hell you sound so retarded
>>82956886>until he blocked mewhat'd you do nonnyyou're leaving out important details
>>82957008He just stopped texting me one day and eventually blocked me
>>82956886>I was a lonely, dumb kid that didnt realize he was preying on my innocenceTake accountability you dumb whore
>>82956549When i was 16 i was playing minecraft, why are women like this?
>>82956549girls would rather fall in love with 32 y.o. pedos luring them online and trying to rape them than date me
>>82956886>>82957072Why do guys who do that always have no problem finding girls but I keep getting ghosted over and over again :(
>>82957091Brought me really depressing memories, being a 14 year old teen not realizing the female friend you have a slight crush on is whoring herself out and the guy made her block you, just for him to get bored and leave her and she comes back to you crying like it wasn't all her faultAnd all you feel is pity and disgust
>>82957112predators are really good at spotting prey
>>82957117Yeah I guess that is how it is women don't want honest caring men :/
>>82957115i didn't have any friends so i'm immune to that kind of pain, i guess that's a positive? my childhood sweetheart married some older guy for stability, that was pretty brutal, almost killed myself over that
>>82957140just marry an younger woman now and be like the old man she married
>>82957146I'm fucking 19, i'm not gonna marry elementary schoolers anon
>>82957091>>82957115i hate womenworst thing in existence
>>82957083Yeah, it was pretty much my fault too, I chose to talk to him knowing who he was. I broke down and had a whole episode when he blocked me. I guess I just really wanted validation from someone, I didnt really care who it was. It sounds really stupid now that I think back to it
>>82957187How do you find women like that to marry?
>>82957187how old are you nowadays?
>>82957149>i'm not gonna marry elementary schoolers anonand why the fuck not!?
>>82957216Im 19 now anon
>>82957282What do you even do about life nowadays? we never get to hear about how people who make bad decisions live after>>82957231because that's gross and i'm into women with thick, full beautiful bushes and body hair and those who fit that profile are usually 5-10 years older than me
>>82957282have you tried making alts to talk to him again?
>>82957292My life is somewhat okay, I think. I have a part time job and Im doing well in school. My head is a little fucked up though, I feel so old, like im rotting and it genuinely feels like im mentally stunted
>>82957361Glad to know you're somewhat better, and that is stress, i feel that daily and i assume any robots who still bother to try do too, wish there was a pause button irl, try to not get groomed anymore
>>82956698good luck on that, nonny
>>82956549This is unironically a canon event for many women online.
>>82957187Then don't try to victimize yourself
>>82957443It's a canon event for pretty much all foids that aren't a stacy posting bikini pics on Instagram
>>82957361Want another old dude's attention who's less shit but still horrifically stunted and you'll look back on in a few years and make a similar thread about?
>>82956549Come on over!B P DG E N E R A L>>82957505
>>82957091Yeah it's a huge blackpill to think about, that when you were playing video games and basically just starting to have sexual thoughts, the girls were all fucking guys way older than them for drugs, like in my middle school the girls were fucking some 20 year old high school dropout guy for weed, this is legally pedophilia, and nobody really cared, and you would have been called jealous if you rightfully thought it was fucking disgusting. Now those same girls will judge you if you ascend out of inceldom later in life and start dating/fucking girls in the 18-22 demographic, because you "can't get a girl your own age"
>>82957509No.>>82957591I dont have bpd. Does it seem like I do?
>>82957606how about the attention of another 19 year old?
>>82957606>No.Ok but if any other fembots are interested I'm not picky just be older than 20
>>82957619Im not ready for a relationship. I have lots of issues and I dont want to be anyones burden. But I hope you find the right girl for you, anon (or whatever youre looking for)
>>82957663Fair enough, have a good one fembot
>>82957663I'm the old guy I don't want a relationship I want you to traumadump while I give you emotional support
>>82956549When I was 16 I was writing malware and had a silent crush on this sickly-pale quiet pale girl in my Spanish class.Now I'm 22 with an ever so slight drug addiction, living a pseudo-neet lifestyle but making decent money.
>nah bro women hate age gaps! They want somebody their age! I swear!Truth is, if he didn't block you, you'd be jumping on his cock happily now. Stop coping.No idea why he did. Maybe he's one of those guys who jumps from girl to girl. There's some old men who don't do that and genuinely just talk to 1 young girl and stay with her.ie. mewe met on discord when I was 29 and she was 15. (legal here btw).We were online until she hit 18, then met up and now she's living with me.
>>82956765Waiting for someone to turn 18 is literally grooming. You better hope FBI don't find this.
>>82958115>(legal here btw).Legal in what sense? Age of consent is 15 where both of you live?
>>82956549i know at least 3 girls from here with the same fucking story. they are all american edating some 30 year old fucker from yurope and are considering moving in with them
>>82956549order a hot pizza with pepperoni and jalapeno and forget all your troubles
>>82958476It's literally not grooming, you should learn the meaning of words before you use them. WAITING for someone is almost the complete opposite of grooming, where you are DOING.
>>82958519I'm a 30 year old fucker from yurope. How do I find such a girl?
I had a 15 yo chill on my couch cause her dad kept beating the fuck out of herWonder what happened to her
>>82957697Elliot? Is that you?
>>82959082I'm pretty sure there's nothing against the law about talking to a 16 year old and not soliciting lewd images. I also think there's nothing even morally wrong with planning to get together when she's 18 if you're intention is a long term monogamous relationship.
>>82956549Why do women do this? Or are you just a middle aged man larping?
>>82956549It's never too late for this. I could run off with me and become my wife. I'm early 30s as well and building or buying home within couple years.
>>82956742Have you tried spankings?
>>82957072Oh so his wife found out
>>82957115Yeah I was talking to a girl who was regularly looking for hotties she said when she was 11-14. 20-30 yr old guys. They would pay for everything for her, even flights out to hotels. Never told anyone else, had a normal job at McDonalds later and went to Uni.
>>82960004My 16 year old is high functioning autistic. She's bullied at home and at school and wants to move somewhere else desperately, and my state is a lot better than hers for certain reasons. As for us, she posted draw threads here for a while, and lied about her age a few years ago. I found out a few hours after I added her on discord that she was underage, 14 at the time, and I backed off and treated her platonically, just giving her advice and encouraging her art. I didn't talk to her that often, and then earlier this summer I was looking through old chats and was wondering how she was doing since I last talked to her, and then she started talking to me every day after that. She asked me if I would have her as a roommate because she wanted to get away, and it came out later that she was in love with me. I like her a lot too, and I want her to be happy and to keep going with her art. I like art girls. So when there isn't a criminal code waiting to punish me for it, I'm gonna go get her and give her a loving home.
>>82957292>i'm into women with thick, full beautiful bushes and body hair and those who fit that profile are usually 5-10 years older than meOkay so what you do is find a hot milf you really like and date her daughter, who will look like her eventually. Let's call this 'investment' instead of 'grooming'.Apparently there are enough people that do this that single mothers worry about people dating them to get to their kids.Will this get you lynched? Oyakodon't worry about it.
>>82960129Here on r9k or here on 4chan?
>>82960359Here on r9k. Maybe you can guess who but I don't want to post anymore identifying details for the sake of our privacy.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MmljreTAgYIRemembering Albert from Almont that wouldn't date me because 16 was too young and all his friends and family said it would be fucked up. I cried over him for weeks lol this was "our" song
>>82956549well you can dm on dis if boredanon3564683546854685893444258679
>>82957674this sounds like actual hell
>>82961804For me or for them? I love it.
>>82957282Im 19 too, nona. If you wanna talk about it we can. Wishing you the best
>>82962410nta but why would you love something like that.
>>82956549he would have treated you right unironically (provided he had a decent job)
>>82962462I don't have a good answer for you but basically I don't want friends or a gf, I just want a pseudo relationship that blurs the lines and doesn't mean anything to either party.
>>82962494If you put it like that I can understand. Telling people that dont mean shit all these heavy things can help :)
>>82962552Yeah and I'm numb to all the trauma stuff so it doesn't bother me when they tell me about whatever shit happened to them. I find that people who have been through a lot seem to like disposable relationships that they can exit at will without consequence, so it seems mutually beneficial.
>>82957509>>82961804>>82962410ahaha you two should make a shoegaze spotify playlist together and share earbuds while feeling each other's pulses
>>82957697What does your family think of you?
>>82962581I do like telling trauma stuff but I just cant see how its nice to listen to all of it. Or maybe I just dont like whiny people.
>>82962601It fakes closeness. You wouldn't tell a stranger about those things, a close friend, a confidant, a lover maybe.
>>82962621Fake closeness is only nice if both know it fake otherwise it just feels mean :/
>>82962630I always say what I'm looking for either here or when we start talking. I let them decide when to leave too. I don't think I've ever hurt anyone with this.
>>82962649Thats good I just try to imply it without directly saying it
>>82962665Do you prefer fake closeness to real?
>>82962731no I like both but online fake closeness and you?
>>82962760I prefer fake because it's easier for me. I don't think I'd be capable of real and attempting it would just cause pain so I avoid it. Is real closeness easy for you offline?
Probably would've had a fulfilling life with lots of children.
>>82962785Yes it is but its also more stressful because you have to maintain it. Why would it cause pain?
>>82962828Do you have a lot of people in your life?It causes pain because the person I'm trying to connect with is expecting me to be able to connect properly to them. At some point my failures become obvious and as much effort as I may make it still hurts them that I'm not able to love them as they love me. It's not fair to pretend to reciprocate those feelings and even if I'm like this I'm not a psychopath and I try to avoid causing harm as much as I can. I've been in long relationships before where my counterpart put up with my oddness more than they should have, but I could tell it always hurt them that I meant much more to them than they did to me. Playing pretend just isn't enough.
>>82962897No just a few and even that is to much but I know self isolation is not good for me.Its good that you recognize that its a issue but dont you want to connect? Or is it something you are incapable of
>>82962940I'm the same, I self isolate but it's very bad for me. Having people in my life gets overwhelming, it's a real catch-22. Are you hikki or do you get out of the house often?I want to connect but my ability to do so is very limited. If someone was actually fine with how I am that would work great, but I don't see how anyone could really want that. People sometimes say that they're fine with it, but after being with me a while they get annoyed or depressed, start trying to get more out of me than I'm able to give.
>>82962973I have to go outside but outside of that not very often it gets a bit too much for me and drains the life out of me. Are you hikki?Then those people where never fine with it in the first place. Thats just something people say to have you longer because the idea of losing you hurts more.
>>82963033I'm mostly hikki. It's very draining to go out and interact with people. Speaking of which, I have to do so now so my next reply will take a bit. Has life gotten easier for you over time? Yeah, or they thought they'd be ok with it until they experienced it. People do tend to get attached to me and then want me to change instead of finding someone more suitable. That's part of why I like temporary from the start relationships, no one is ever under the illusion that anyone is going to stay or change for them.
>>82963072my life hasnt been that long but some parts have gotten easier. Other things like speaking have gotten harder. Do you know why people tend to get attached to you?
>>82963138Things seem to get easier with age. How old are you?I don't really know. I think because I'm nice to them and don't judge them for how they are or the things that happened to them. I end up being something safe and reliable in their life. That and I don't ask for anything in return or pressure them into doing things.
>>82963612I used to hear the opposite about how life becomes more stressful and such. Im 19 wby?Its important for others to have such a person in their lifes but it can be a burden sometimes
>>82962649>>82962731>>82962760>>82962785THIS right here is why i like actual friendships over 'therapists'you both should read 'I sold my life off for 10000 yen a year' since it deals with this stuff
>>82963722I'm 33. From what I've seen people find it easier to deal with their problems as they age. The younger you are the more intense everything feels but as you age you get numb to a lot of it. Or that's what I've observed anyway. What about people drains you so much?It comes naturally for me so I don't feel it as a burden. It's when they start wanting more or try to violate boundaries that I get distressed from it. That doesn't happen so often when everyone knows the deal up front, thankfully.
It's a big risk. For every guy who'd kidnap and rape a fembot with good intentions (ie for a long term noncon relationship) there is another who is dangerous or even some murdering sicko. Maybe I am overly negative and most guys are in the first camp but how is anyone supposed to know which is which?
>>82956549So you're saying that there's stilla a chance for me?t. 30 year old man.
>>82963800It just all feels like a big performance outside. Thats why I even like talking to people I know online it makes it less air sucking and physical. But what are you supposed to do if someone is really depressed and negative but you cant change anything? And they wont even think for me that part just feels like a burden.
>>82956549I am a 24 year old man hoping to convince a 19 year old femanon to run off with me (at some point)
>>82963761Dont you think you are being a little hypocritical?Telling you like actual friends over therapist and then recommending a *deep book like some kind of therapist.
>>82959499No u don't do it anymore. You'd be surprised how many adderall abusing threat actors there are in the wild though. >>82962587They have no idea I actually committed any crimes. They just think I'm really good with computers. My mom keeps asking me when I'm going to find a gf/wife.
>>82963872Outside is just a performance for me too. It doesn't feel like there's much point to it. I only talk to people online because of that. Have you always been like this?That's difficult but as long as they're willing to interact it doesn't really matter to me even if all they do is complain. Usually people that depressed can't hold a conversation so we end up not talking at all though. Stuff like that really doesn't bother me, I've talked to people who were constantly suicidal and most of our interactions were me talking them out of dying. There's just something missing in my head and I don't get affected by that.
>>82963937I don't do it anymore*
>>82963947Yes I have always been like this but the older you get the more you are expected to perform at least it feels like that. Cant really imagine this going on for much longer. Do you think you want that thing that is missing? Or do you think that the missing part is what makes you you?
>>82963888nah not at all i'm tryna recommend a SHORT MANGA not a deep book and it's something you could read TOGETHER alternating linesand this isn't what a therapist would say at all; i've actually tried to serve as a mediator for people to help them form and maintain relationships; that's what i call being a good friend
>>82963989For me the older I got the easier it was to get into the performance. I just developed scripts and personalities. It's still draining but it's more automatic. What do you mean by not being able to imagine that?I would like it to some extent. I feel empty often and I'm a very non-functional and distant person. At the same time, lacking that piece insulates me from a lot of pain. I think mostly there are just moments where I'm lonely and that's when I wish I was more normal and capable of connection.
>>82964056Yeah I have the same some parts are automatic now but what makes it harder is that the performance that I have to make gets harder and complexer. I can not imagine a further where I have to do this all. If life now feels intense how will it feel for me when I have to have a 40+ hour job and do it all. At some point it isnt seen as acceptable to fake it all sadly. I relate to that but I dont mind something missing if we would have it all we would all be the same but I do dislike it when I dont feel certain things.
>>82964151Working is simpler in a lot of ways. No one really cares about you as a person, you're just a cog in the machine. They make small talk and pretend to care but even the normies are acting at work. Unless you're in a very social job you don't even have to have a personal conversation very often. What do you think you'd do instead?It is nice that not everyone is the same, but it makes life difficult to be too different. I don't mind most of how I am and I'm happy most of the time at least.
>>82964217In my idealistic scenario I wouldnt have to work but otherwise I would do some kind of health government job. Housewife could also be a option but I dont think that is a smart way of living quite dumb actually. What will you do with your remaining time?
>>82964282Not working is my preference as well. Housewife seems like a vulnerable position to be in, men can be very destructive and housewives have to sacrifice some amount of independence for their financial security. Have you considered going to school to make getting that kind of job easier?Remaining time makes it sound like I'm dying soon, I'm not that old anon. I don't have any plans, just continue on how I have until I can't any longer. Life is enjoyable as it is.
