It doesn't matter what you've done in the past. You deserve to be happy and it's ok to allow yourself to feel happy. Stop punishing yourself
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>>82968746"Deserving" is an evil concept.
>>82968770The only evil is ignorance. There is no logical reason why you don't deserve something that costs nothing and only affects you
>>82968770>people who work hard don't deserve more money then me THATS EVILnice try loser, but you're never going to make it.
>>82968785Everything costs something, reality is a zero sum game.
>>82968793Happiness is the opposite of cost. It's letting go of things, not gaining something
>>82968746I don't derive joy in much at all. Even if I live, there's nothing to live for; if I were to die, there's nothing to die for. No purpose nor god can touch me for better or worse.In the end I am too different and too alien to achieve happiness.
>>82968793>Everything costs something, reality is a zero sum game.Wrong, but nice cope loser.
>>82968807>I am too differentYou're basing your own happiness on the ideals of other people. What's normal doesn't really exist, it's just an idea that happens to be accepted for a time and ultimately it's not entirely based in logic or reason. This entire existence is very weird, and all things considered, you are probably more "normal" than you think you are
>>82968824No, I deliberately sacrificed my humanity when I was a kid when, I was getting closer and closer to committing a shooting. This late into that, decades later, I've already embraced being a flesh golem piloted by nerve-wiring. The closest to happiness I feel is a productive mania where I feel closer to a machine than a human.I do not have human experiences or belonging. I am not "normal" by any means. I don't even find people sexually appealing because of the hate that had scarred my development. Because love doesn't exist to me, because people are ugly things, and why would I ever trust someone enough to ever love them?There is no bitterness in it anymore, just void.
>>82968873>There is no bitterness in it anymore, just void.NTA, that's better then endless hatred (which ulitimatly makes you more miserable then others), but why not limit your emotion range to positive emotions? Why did you choose to do litmit them to nuetral emotions?
>>82968901I cannot limit what I do not experience.
