Anyone else feel perfectly fine with being alone?It seems unusually uncommon despite every married man I know being miserableI'll be 30 soon, and my parents keep trying to pressure me into marriage
In my dreams I am reminded of all I have lost. Perfectly fine is not how I would describe it.
>>82978558im better alone than surrounded with people, but it still sucks>marriagei'd rather kill myself
>>82978558I'm not only fine with being alone, I MUST be alone. I can't have people nearby without getting mad in just a few minutes.
>>82978558Yeah I can basically entertain myself all the time alone and it's when I feel the best or at peace. My fear of people kinda overrides any longing I have for human contact most of the time.
>>82978576Is that your dog, he looks like a good boy
>>82978811That's a just a suitably melancholic borzoi I found in my folder.
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>>82978558I find peace in being by myselfNo one to shit test meNo one to project on meNo one to make me feel badWhen the majority of your interactions with people are negative or neutral, being alone is preferable
>>82978558>every married man I know being miserableI thought this was a thing only in my family but when I got my 1st job and started spending time among 25-40yr old normies, I've noticed how common this is. Seems like the happiest married men are those who just shut up about their marriage and never complain. But those are rare. Almost all of them complain on a daily basis, even the non-married ones who simply have gfs.>I'll be 30 soon, and my parents keep trying to pressure me into marriageI'm 31 and my parents figured out it's not happening pretty early, because I manifested my opposition to marriage and kids quite early. I mean, my dad kept telling me I destroyed his life and my parents constantly argued over all sorts of problems. I dunno why they ever expected me to see marriage in a positive light. Being exposed to my coworkers finally showed me how common miserable marriages are.Also, I just never had a gf and never put any effort into finding one. The few women who've shown interest in me, I just ignored either out of shyness or lack of interest on my part. I am like you and I suspect I'm schizoid, because I actually feel good in solitude. I have a few friends but I don't feel like I'd be lost without them. I have my hobbies and passions that bring me joy and I get my validation from within. Relationships look like too much work, time and spending. I'd much rather masturbate. Marriage and kids look like self-inflicted prisons I'm scared paranoid of ever ending up in.
>>82978558I used to be. Then at some point I developed feelings for a girl in my mid 20s after years of being "happy" alone and it broke me. Now I go full depression any time I don't have a girl I feel like I could be in a relationship with.But I'm a socially broken fuck that missed out on important social milestones and have no idea how to actually get into a relationship so life is now a constant cycle of a few weeks of feeling hope when I meet a girl I get along with followed by a perod of total blanketing despair when I get rejected or she ends up in a relationship with somebody else and that despair continues until I meet a new one. The hopelessness from knowing this is going to continue forever as I gradually get older and less likely to find somebody to be with genuinely makes me want to kms.
>>82978558No I absolutely love women and hate being alone. Can not sleep at all without female company, also last night met this girl when I went out with friends ABSOLOUTE bombshell she started coming onto me and we made out for ages and it felt amazing, not only that but she is smart and studying an actual real degree in uni, I messaged her today and she seems like she is still into me gonna try plan a date hope she says yes :)))))
>>82979170>I used to be.Were you actually? Or were you more the "hedgehog dilemma" type wanting to be close but afraid?I'm just curious
>>82979728Probably the latter, but I was numb enough that it didn't matter much to me. I was alright with just spending my time obsessing over fishing, hunting, and videogames and had accepted loneliness as just a fact of life. Then I actually got to experience those kinds of feelings for the first time since I was a teen and it felt like a switch was flipped in my head and now it's all that matters.
